Chapter 18 Section five

A strange gulf has created between me and my family, and those who have been declared dead and those who have been declared alive seem to see the world differently. The three of them seemed to feel a strong connection to each other, to look at something and think the same way.The three of them chat happily together and seem to comfort each other. The three of them seemed like a tight-knit family, and there was actually no room for me to join. For some reason, my parents became stricter with me day by day. Whether it was my father, Hannan, or my mother, Misa, they tried their best to make me get rid of my lazy attitude towards life.

"The weather is nice today. You can open the window and do some cleaning." "I know, you don't need to say this kind of thing, do you need to say it one by one?" "If I don't say it, will you do it?" I can no longer act like a baby to Misa E, as long as there is a little bit of slack for her to see, she will start to criticize me non-stop. The same goes for the father, Fan Nan.He took me around to visit relatives, and wanted to entrust me to them while he was still able to move, and let them take care of his daughter who was about to live alone in the world.

After hearing his father's explanation, the relatives looked at him sympathetically.It's really meaningless at all, I think I deserve more sympathy.I don't remember the faces and names of these relatives, and being with them just annoys me.And because I'm cold and don't even have a smiling face, my relatives' evaluation must be surprisingly bad. My father, Fannan, was chatting with relatives and aunts, and I was yawning boredly. At this time, my father pressed my head angrily and said to the aunt: "I'm really sorry, although this guy is very bad, please take care of him."

My head was held down by him, and I was forced to bow my head.Even if I wasn't angry, I felt my face was blushing for being so embarrassing in front of my relatives. "For both parents, the only worry is your playful character." Kaoru said this to me. "They are so stupid, how can a girl with good living habits like me make them worry?" I manipulated the remote control with my foot and said to Kaoru. One evening, I quarreled with my father because of some trivial matters. At this time, I was already on summer vacation, and I was living a life of turning day and night upside down.When I woke up in the evening, the three of them were eating dinner, so I sat next to them and had a snack.

I accidentally dropped the plastic bag of pancakes in the combustible garbage, and my father Shinan seemed very displeased with this, and began to lecture me as usual.In our place, residents are obliged to separate plastic waste. "Is it necessary? Isn't it just to separate the garbage into categories?" I retorted.So my father had an unreasonable expression, as if saying "I can't stand you", and then continued: "Why are you unwilling to do such a simple thing? If the garbage is not sorted, the cleaning bureau will not come to pick it up. Do you think you can live alone like this? Kaoru has always been sorted and thrown away. "

My father used my brother's first name, which made me feel inexplicably angry.Or it can be said to be sad, I can't seem to tell which one it is. "Why are you bringing up Kaoru now?" At that time, Kaoru showed a complicated expression when his name was suddenly mentioned by others. "You're always like this! You compare me with my brother in everything! Anyway, I'm not as smart as him!" My voice was surprisingly loud, startling even myself, I took a few steps back, and my arm knocked the glass off the table.The glass broke, and the milk in it splashed everywhere, so I couldn't control my emotions even more.Parents were surprised by this.

"Even if I die, all you need is Kaoru alone, isn't it?" "What are you talking about?" Mei Shahui asked. "How can we think that?" "Then why did you leave me alone? Aren't parents obligated to raise me? You left me alone, it's too much! If only I had cancer, I wouldn't have to live alone in this world Already!" There was a crisp sound in the room, and my father, Fan Nan, slapped me loudly. At some point, I had already sat in a Chinese restaurant in front of the station, with a bowl of dried bamboo shoot noodles in front of me.At this time, I seemed to have just woken up from a dream, which was a strange feeling.

When did I run out of the house?Where have I been?Why order dried bamboo shoot noodles?I have absolutely no memory of these.I looked at my feet and found that I was wearing shoes, so I felt relieved.I went to the bathroom to look in the mirror, and found that my face was red and swollen, and there were traces of crying on my face. Suddenly a feeling of wanting to vomit hit, and I threw up.I couldn't help sobbing from the miserable mood and the regret that surged up. When I ran out, I didn’t have any money or my mobile phone, so I borrowed ten yuan coins from the shop owner and called Yamada from the public phone in the shop.

While waiting for Yamada, I sat in my seat and got angry with myself. The dog on the upper left arm barked, possibly smelling the scent of noodles.Pochi completely ignored my emotions, and continued screaming with an innocent expression.Stop barking!It will cause trouble for the people in the store!I reminded Pochi in a low voice, but it continued to bark.I covered my left arm with all my strength, trying not to let the people around me hear it, but the barking of the dog still resounded throughout the store. Stop barking!I beg you!Why can't you listen to me?I hunched over and pleaded with the dog in the tattoo, but it was no use.Clear snot flowed down my nose, which to me was a precursor to tears.

Worry and confusion came to me together. I found that I can't take care of a dog at all, I'm afraid of living alone, and I have to pay attention to raising a dog, I can't do it at all! Feed it, make it happy when it is making trouble, make sure it does not bark, and play with it when it is bored. I turned to the blue Pochi and told it: "I'm sorry, Boqi, I can't support you anymore. I don't have the confidence. I will find you a new owner right away." Pochi seemed to understand what I said, and let out a mournful cry. Yamada who rushed over was very surprised to see me. It turned out that I was still wearing pajamas.

"I've decided not to have the dog." I cried and said to Yamada, and looked at my left arm.Pochi is no longer here. It may have understood my words and was afraid of being thrown away by me, so it fled to other places on the surface of the body.