Chapter 31 first quarter

Kanda is a place I often come to, but I have never been to a second-hand bookstore.It's uncomfortable to think about touching books that you don't know whose ownership you didn't wear without gloves.And the most important thing is that I seldom read books recently, and occasionally glance at printed words, and they are all job-hunting information magazines and the like.In the past two years, I even stayed away from the new book counters in bookstores. But that day, out of nowhere, I wandered into that used bookstore.It is located next to the ramen shop, with a small front, and dirty old books piled all the way to the door. I didn't pay attention, and the skirt I just bought a few days ago was dirty.

The customers in the store were all men, and everyone looked at the books on the shelf with great interest, and took out a book from time to time to read, feeling as if they were closed in their own world and turned a blind eye to other people.I think they must all be nerds, the kind who are obsessed with books. I was too lazy to pull out one by one to read. I just looked at the rows of books and thought, what kind of tricks is it to stay in this kind of place?Even if I came in, there was no book I was looking for at all.This is one of the places in the world that I'm most disconnected from.

But for some reason, I couldn't lift my legs and leave.When I passed this store just now, I had a hunch that there was something calling me. I wandered around the store, looking at the mountain of books absently.What is it about this that attracts me so much? After turning around for a while, I couldn't help laughing at myself in my heart.How stupid!How can there be a panacea that can save me in a place like this?It's just that I have no way out, and there is really no way out, so I have this strange fantasy. Go ahead, it's better to have a cup of bitter coffee. With that in mind, I walked towards the door.That's when I discovered that book.

It was a white book, placed on the side of the bookshelf closest to the exit, about one centimeter thick, without a cover - "Instructions for Killing Intent". This is the title of the book. The writing is so worn that you have to look closely to make it out.Why I noticed it, I don't know myself. When I came back to my senses, I had already bought the book and went out.When the cashier took out the book to pay the bill, the shopkeeper seemed to give me a meaningful look, but in the end he just said indifferently: "Twenty-six hundred yuan." Two thousand six hundred yuan.If it is used to relieve boredom, the price is still moderate.

Back in the narrow bachelor apartment, after a simple meal, I put the books I bought on the table. "Killing Intent Instruction Manual", what a weird name.I just remembered that I bought it without even knowing whether it was a novel or an essay.Could it be a practical book? However, the following text was printed on the first page of the book: [Anyone can easily generate killing intent, but in fact, the correct method of using it has never been widely known.Relying on half-knowledge to use it is likely to lead to very sad results.This book aims to provide guidance for readers who use killing intent for the first time, to ensure that you execute killing safely and correctly.In addition, after reading this book, please cherish it until you achieve your goal. 】

I turn another page, this page is the table of contents. 【Table of contents prepare five Summary and Basic Operations of Killing Intent 10 The initialization of killing intent fourteen Adjust two is two  …] "Tch, what is this?" I couldn't help throwing the book aside. It seems that this is neither a novel nor an essay, it is indeed an instruction manual.How did I buy such a boring book? The reason why I am so angry is because I hate this kind of manual the most.When buying electrical appliances such as VCRs and stereos, there is always a manual that comes with it, but I have never read it carefully.I have my own way to deal with electrical appliances, which is to fiddle with switches, at least master the basic operation.So my friends often say that although I bought a bunch of machines with advanced performance, I didn't even use one-tenth of the performance.

I don't read the manual for two reasons.One is that even if you read it, you will definitely be at a loss, either when you come across words you don’t know, or if you don’t know what to say, it makes me feel anxious.I bought a laptop two years ago and threw it in the closet without using it because I couldn't read the manual. Another reason is that everything in the instruction manual is deceptive.Several times I couldn't get the machine to work, so I looked at the manual, but never got a satisfactory result.Let’s take scheduled recording as an example. I’ve made the settings according to the instructions in the instruction manual, but it doesn’t work from time to time, which makes me very worried. Had to sit in front of the VCR and stare at it to see if it was actually working.In this way, isn't the meaning of making an appointment completely lost?After being angry, I came to the conclusion that the instruction manuals are all foolish.

I put aside the books I bought, and turned on the remote control to watch TV, but the channels were switched, except for boring TV dramas and news programs, which were programs that traveled all over the country to taste food, and they were turned off without even looking at them.I looked again at the book on the table. It's weird to think about this book.Killing intent is something that everyone hides in their hearts. Once it is triggered, it will become a crime. It stands to reason.It should not be the same thing as electrical appliances that can be turned on and off when you want to, and the degree can be adjusted.

I picked up the book again and turned to the "Preparation" page, where it read: [determined object Please lock the object you want to kill.If there is more than one person, please refer to Mode 2.After the lock, please clean up the love and hate between you. 】 I looked up and thought of Yaguchi Yumi's heavily made-up face. Yumei was a friend I met when I was in a women's college. Now that I think about it, I'm so confused that I even regarded her as a good friend for a while.It's a pity that this is just my wishful thinking, she is just using me.I am now fully aware of this.

I will turn to another page, which is "Summary and Basic Operations of Killing Intent". Just jumped over. Next is the "initialization of killing intent", the content is as follows: [Initialize killing intent Sometimes I have been immersed in troubles for too long, and my heart is completely occupied by hatred without knowing it, and even the reason for the murderous intention is blurred.Here, please think back to the reason why you had the killing intent in the first place, and sort out your mood. 】 This is true, every time I think of Yumei's every move recently, my hatred will rise accordingly, but why I can't forgive her the most, I don't understand myself.

Well, let's initialize the killing intent.I began to recall the past. The fuse between us was Yoichi Ogata. Yoichi and I work in the same company and used to be in the same department.After getting along day and night, we gradually came together and finally confirmed our relationship.We haven't talked about the future explicitly, but I hope to marry him, and he probably intends to do the same.Colleagues in the department know about our affairs, and people often ask me: "When will the wedding be held?" And my biggest mistake was introducing him to someone like Yumi. That night, when Yumei and I had a drink, she suddenly asked me to introduce my boyfriend to her, and said to call him now.I didn't want to trouble Yoichi, but Yumi's next sentence made me change my mind. "If he's really infatuated with you, he'll come running here anytime." If he refuses to respond to emergency calls, it means he doesn't care about you - she almost didn't say so.I was angry for a while, and immediately replied: "Then I will call and see." After making the call, Yang Yi was not unhappy, but readily agreed.When he appeared about 30 minutes later, I was full of self-satisfaction for having a good face in front of Yumei. But I was wrong.Ever since she was a student, Yumei has been obsessed with grabbing the man she likes.I should have thought of this in time.When Yoichi left the meeting and Yumi whispered in my ear, "He is so good, I envy you", I should also be alert.But I just talked triumphantly about Yoichi's various benefits, and even told the whole story about his family's wealth. Yoichi has a gentle and considerate personality, which is his strength, but it is also his weakness.I should have been careful about that too.Even if it is seen as suspicious and jealous, when Yumei asked him "ask me to play golf next time", I should rush to say "I can't do it without me".But not only did I not do this, but I felt "let me lend you my handsome boyfriend", immersed in a sense of superiority, unaware of Yumei's coveted heart.What a fool I am. Changes appeared after about a month.Yoichi's attitude began to become very unnatural, and he always seemed to be in a bad mood when he was with me.In the third month after he was introduced to Yumei, he proposed to break up with some trepidation.The so-called thunderbolt from the blue is probably talking about such things. Under my questioning, he confessed his relationship with Yumi.He said that Yumei invited him to play golf many times, and when the two played together, they fell in love with him without knowing it.But I don't believe it.It wasn't that he was obsessed with Yumei, it must be that Yumei took the initiative to seduce him. I protested to Yumi with tears in my eyes, and she said with a troubled face: "I also feel very sorry for you, but since he chose me, I can't help it. His heart is no longer on you. Even if you are forced to be with him, you will not be happy." I couldn't help feeling angry, and she suddenly changed her face, and said viciously: "What right do you have to monopolize him? It's not his wife!" I tried everything possible to win back Yoichi's heart, but maybe Yumi was playing tricks behind the scenes, and he still refused to turn back. The story that my relationship with him was on the rocks also spread in the company.Everyone stayed away from me, casting pity and curiosity at me, and the old girl among the seniors said to me sympathetically: "Let's find a good man together." comfort. Then there were the personnel changes a few days ago. I wasn't prepared to be transferred.The new department is very inconspicuous and has no business, and almost all of them are male employees who are approaching retirement age. It's easy to see why I was transferred here.According to our company's practice, when a colleague gets married, the woman must be transferred to another department, and the same is true when the couple breaks up. I like the previous department very much. At work, I just assist male colleagues. I don’t need to make plans or negotiate deals by myself. The atmosphere is usually very lively. I have the opportunity to go to places where celebrities gather. From time to time, I will be ordered to receive customers. Everyone praises me as a department a flower. But now I'm wearing a rustic uniform and doing photocopying and transcribing fraternity calendars and stuff.That kind of sorority, just thinking about it, is depressing to death. Not to mention the only woman who participated, what is there to be happy about going to the hot spring with a bunch of depressed old men? It's better to resign, I made up my mind.Recently, I often look at job-seeking consulting magazines, but the social downturn makes it difficult to find companies with good conditions.I also thought about being a hotel hostess, but working in that kind of place, if my friends bumped into me, what would they think?I definitely don't want to be a laughing stock. Oh, why do I have to worry about these things all day?Anyway, it's all Yumi's fault, ever since she snatched my Yoichi, bad things have happened one after another.It's all that woman's fault, it's good that she died! The hatred in my heart gradually dissipated and turned into a new feeling and revived.I wish I could kill her now!I can't stand it anymore. After closing the book, I stood up and paced back and forth in the small room.How can I kill Yumi?I was absorbed in thinking about this question.