Chapter 32 Section 32

That day, she was also pouring water like this——Ayane recalled the scene about a year ago, when Yoshitaka announced the cruel truth to her on that day.As she listened to him, she looked at the pansies in plastic pots.This was her friend Junko Tsukui's favorite flower during her lifetime, so Junko gave herself the pseudonym "Porphyllum", which is another name for pansy. She and Junzi met in a bookstore in London.At that time, Ayane was looking for books on patchwork design, and just as she was about to reach out to take a picture book from the bookshelf, a woman beside her just happened to reach out to the picture book.She is also Japanese, and she seems to be a few years older than Ayane.

She and Junzi got acquainted immediately, and made an appointment to meet again after returning to China, and the two of them did keep the appointment.Soon after Ayane arrived in Tokyo, Junko also came to Tokyo. Although they both have jobs and cannot meet frequently, Junzi is a close friend to Ayane, and she believes that she is also a bosom friend to Junzi, because Junzi is even more intimate than Junzi. Ayane didn't even know how to get along with others. One day, Junko suddenly said that she wanted to introduce someone to her. It was said that the other party was the president of the company that made the character image designed by Junzi into an online animation.

"When I was discussing with him about the peripheral products of that character image, I told him that I knew a professional quilt designer, and he said that I must introduce it. I also know that it is troublesome, but I still have to Please come back once, okay?" Junzi asked apologetically on the phone, and Ayane immediately agreed, and she had no reason to refuse. In this way, Ayane and Mashiba Yoshitaka met.Yixiao is a man full of masculine charm. He expresses his thoughts with a particularly rich expression. But his eyes were filled with incomparable confidence.He's so good at making people talk, even if you talk to him for just a few minutes, you will have the illusion that you have become eloquent too.

After saying goodbye to him, Ayane couldn't help but praise, "What a nice person".Hearing her words, Junzi smiled happily and asked her "I'm not wrong".The moment she saw Junko's expression, Ayane understood her feelings for Yoshitaka. Ayane still regrets to this day, regretting why she didn't ask her to confirm.It would have been fine if I had asked her "Are you dating?"Just because she didn't ask, she didn't say anything. The idea of ​​incorporating patchwork elements into the peripheral products of the character image was not approved in the end.Therefore, Yixiao called her directly and apologized to her for wasting her time for nothing.

She originally only used it as a social expression, but not long after, he actually called to ask her out.And from Yoshitaka's tone, he didn't seem to have greeted Junko, so Ayane mistakenly thought that the two of them were not dating. She excitedly had dinner with Yixiao, and the time they spent alone made her feel happier than ever before. Ayane's longing for Yoshitaka rapidly swelled, and at the same time, the relationship between her and Junko became increasingly estranged.Because she knew that Junzi was also fascinated by him, which made her always find it difficult to contact Junzi proactively.

Ayane was taken aback when she saw Junko again a few months later.Junzi became very thin and her skin became rough.At that time, she was worried that she was not feeling well, but Junzi just replied "It's okay". When the two were talking to each other about their recent situation, Run Le also seemed to cheer up a little.Ayane then wanted to take the opportunity to tell her about her relationship with Yoshitaka, but Junko's expression suddenly changed. She asked her "what's the matter", but Junzi immediately stood up after replying "nothing", saying that she suddenly remembered something urgent and had to go home first.

Without knowing it, Ayane watched Junzi get into the taxi, but unexpectedly, it turned out to be Yongjue. Five days later, Ayane received a courier.There was a bag of white powder in a small box, and the words "arsenic (poisonous)" were marked on the plastic bag.The sender wrote Junzi. She felt strange, so she tried to make a call, but Junzi didn't answer the phone, so she felt a little worried, so she went to Junzi's apartment.There, she saw that the police were busy investigating Junzi's room, and a bystander told her that the resident of this room committed suicide by taking poison.

Ayane was so shocked that she couldn't even remember where she had been and how she got here.But when she came back to her senses, she realized that she had already returned to her home, and her eyes once again rested on the bag of things that Runzi sent. Just as she was thinking about the information hidden in it, she suddenly remembered something.When she and Junzi met for the last time, she felt that Junzi seemed to be staring at her phone all the time.Ayane immediately took out her cell phone.On her cell phone is a cell phone cord that can be made into a pair with Yi Xiao's. Did Junko commit suicide because she realized the relationship between herself and Yoshitaka? An ominous imaginary picture spread out in Ayane's mind.If Junzi only had unrequited love for Yixiao, then she wouldn't want to commit suicide.In other words, the relationship between her and Yixiao is also extraordinary.

Ayane neither went to the police station nor attended Junko's funeral.When she thought that she might be the one who forced her to commit suicide, she was very scared, afraid that the truth would be revealed. For some reason, she didn't have the courage to ask Yoshitaka about the relationship between him and Junzi.Of course, she was still afraid of ruining her current relationship with him because of this move of hers. Not long after, Yixiao made a strange proposal to her. He said that the two of them went to the same blind date party separately and acted out a scene where they met for the first time at the party.As for the purpose, he said it was "to avoid trouble".He also said, "I don't want those boring people in the world who see a couple and ask where they fell in love at first sight. If you meet at a blind date party, it's easy. too much."

Although she thought at the time that if someone asked, she could just tell them as he said, and there was no need to go to any party seriously, but she didn't expect that he would even prepare such a witness as Pig Feed.Although this thorough style is also like his usual style, Ayane suspects that he actually wants to erase Junko's figure from his own past.But she was just suspicious in her heart, and didn't ask the words out. She attended the party as she said, and then performed a "dramatic encounter" according to the established routine. In the days that followed, the relationship between the two went smoothly.Six months after that blind date party, Yoshitaka proposed to Ayane.

Although her whole body was shrouded in happiness, there was a doubt in her heart that was growing day by day.This is Junzi.Why did she commit suicide?What is the relationship between her and Yixiao? The thoughts of wanting to know the truth but afraid of knowing alternately hit Ayane's heart.But at the same time, the wedding day agreed with Yixiao is also approaching her step by step. Suddenly one day, Yixiao told her something that shocked her.No, maybe he himself didn't think that what he said was so flippant.At that time, he said to her in a very light tone: "After getting married, if you can't conceive a child within a year, then let's break up." She doubted her ears.Not yet married, who would have thought that the groom-to-be would talk about divorce?At the time she thought he was just joking, but that didn't seem to be the case. "That's what I've always thought. The time limit is one year. As long as no contraceptive measures are used, normal couples should be able to conceive a child. If you can't conceive, it is probably because one of them has a problem. But I I went to the doctor before, and the doctor said that there is no problem here." Hearing his words, Ayane felt the hairs all over her body stand on end.She looked at him and asked, "Did you say the same thing to Junzi?" "Huh?" Yixiao's eyes wandered in the air, revealing his rare embarrassment. "Please, just answer me honestly. Did you really date Junzi before?" Yixiao frowned unhappily, but he didn't make excuses. Although the expression on his face was a bit displeased, he still replied, "It's pretty much it." "I thought things would come to light sooner. Because I guess one of you and Junko might bring up the relationship with me." "Have you ever stepped on two boats?" "You're not right. When I started dating you, I thought I had broken up with Junzi completely. I didn't lie to you." "What did you say when you broke up with her?" Ayane asked, staring at her future husband. "You don't want to marry a woman who can't have children—did you say that?" Yixiao shrugged: "The words are different, but the meaning is the same. I said, the time limit has come." "time limit……" "She was thirty-four years old. She hadn't taken any contraceptive measures, but she showed no signs of pregnancy. It's time to say goodbye to her." "So you chose me?" "Isn't it? What's the point of being in a relationship with someone who's impossible? I never do such futile stupid things." "Then why have you kept it a secret until now?" "Because I didn't think it was necessary to tell you personally before. Didn't I just say it? I have already made the mental preparation that this matter will be revealed sooner or later, and I will explain it to you after it is revealed. I have neither I betrayed you, and I didn't lie to you, I can guarantee that." Ayane turned her back to Yoshitaka, and looked down at the flowers on the balcony.What caught her eyes were those pansies, those Junko's favorite pansies when she was alive.Looking at these flowers, she thought of Junzi.Thinking of the regret in her heart at that time, tears welled up in her eyes. After Yoshitaka broke up with her, Junzi must still have difficulty letting go of this feeling in her heart.It was at this time that she met Ayane and sensed the relationship between Ayane and Yoshitaka from the phone strap.Although she failed to withstand the blow and chose to commit suicide, before she died, she still thought of sending a message to Ayane, and the message was those arsenic.But she didn't do it because she hated Ayane for taking away her boyfriend. That's a warning.Sooner or later, you will meet the same fate as mine - she actually wanted to tell Ayane this. For Ayane, Junko is the only person she can confide out all the troubles in her heart.And she only told Junzi that she had a congenital defect and had no hope of pregnancy.That's why Junko could foresee at that time that Ayane would also be abandoned by Yoshitaka in the near future. "Did you hear what I said?" Yixiao said. She turned her head: "I heard it, I must have heard it." "Since you heard it, why didn't you respond at all?" "I was just in a daze." "In a daze? Isn't this like you?" "Because I was taken aback." "Really? But then again, you should be very clear about my life plan, right?" Yixiao had told her about his views on marriage before, saying that if he could not have children, marriage would be meaningless. "I said Ayane, what are you still dissatisfied with? Didn't you get everything you wanted? Of course, if you have any other requests, then you don't have to be polite, just tell me. I can You will do your best. Stop complaining all day long, and think about a new life. Or, do you think there are other options besides this?" He had no idea how much this would hurt his girlfriend.Indeed, thanks to his assistance, Ayane has realized her various dreams.But when the separation after one year is a foregone conclusion, how can she imagine her future married life? "I said, can I ask you something? Maybe this matter is insignificant to you." Ayane asked Yoshitaka, "Where is your love for me? Is it still there?" In fact, what she wanted to ask was whether it was because Ayane might be able to bear him a child when he abandoned Junzi and chose herself, rather than because he had any love for her. He listened with a look of doubts on his face, but he asked her and said: "Of course I still do." Then he said, "I can assure you of this, my love for you has never changed in the slightest. " It was after hearing his words that Ayane made up her mind to marry him.However, this determination is not as simple as just wanting to live with him, but to compromise the two contradictory feelings of love and hate in my heart. Staying by his side as a wife, but the one who controls his destiny is me—she wants to take this married life into her hands.It was a life of observing and considering whether to punish him. She was nervous when she stashed the arsenic in the water purifier, thinking that it would never let anyone get near the kitchen again.But at the same time, there was a kind of joy in her heart that she had grasped Yixiao's fate.When he was at home, she often sat on the sofa motionless.Even to go to the bathroom and shower, she would carefully choose when he would never be in the kitchen. After marriage, he still treats her very well.As a husband, he has nothing to fault.As long as his love for her remains the same, Ayane intends never to let anyone near the water purifier.Although the way he treated Junzi was unforgivable, as long as he didn't treat her in the same way, she would rather live like this for the rest of her life.For Ayane, the so-called married life is the day and night of guarding her husband standing on the gallows. Of course, she never expected that Yixiao would give up the child.When she noticed the relationship between him and Wakayama Hiromi, she thought to herself, the time has finally come. Yoshitaka officially broke up with her the night she hosted the Inokai couple to a house party.The tone he used at the time was purely businesslike. "You should also be very clear that the time limit is coming soon. Please pack up and get ready to leave here." Ayane smiled slightly at the time, and answered his words like this: "Before that, I have one more request." He asked her what she was asking for, and she looked into her husband's eyes and said, "From tomorrow, I want to leave home for two or three days, but I'm a little worried about leaving you alone at home." He smiled and said, "I thought it was something important. It's okay, I'll be fine if I'm alone at home." Ayane nodded and said "Really".From that moment on, her relief to her husband ended forever.