Chapter 47 Section 34

In the evening, she arrived as scheduled.I took out the cushion and brought out the black tea I bought on the way home from get off work. "It's delicious." After boasting the taste of the black tea, Naoko immediately cut to the chase, "Why do you do this, can you tell me?" "There's no reason, I just did what I wanted to do." "You want to kill the dog and cut off its head?" She frowned. "In fact, it is." I described the situation last night in detail.She seems to understand that dogs barking are annoying, but when I talk about killing dogs and beheading her, she frowns.

I said, "I want to draw, but I can't write. I don't have any inspiration in my mind. I just stare blankly in front of the drawing board with white paper. When I came back to my senses, I found that I was touching this piano." She looked at the toy piano I pointed out to her like she was looking at something nasty. "You mean the symptoms are getting worse?" "That's right, and it's accelerating. Kyogoku doesn't want me to draw, but wants me to play the piano. I feel that this power is getting stronger every day." "Not so pessimistic. Are you still keeping a diary?"

"Ok." "Did you remember today?" "just wrote." She nodded and moved her eyes to the bookshelf.This action makes me very vigilant, why does she care so much about the diary?From her eyes, I can feel that besides caring for me, it also contains other meanings. "You have no contact with those guys... Tang Yuan and the others?" "No, so I don't know what they are doing." "yes?" "Hey, I have an idea," she crossed her hands and let go of her fingers for a while. Maybe this kind of thing will happen again last night. I am very worried and want to visit you often. Stop it when you do something stupid. "

"Go ahead." "Give me a spare key, I may not always be able to greet you in advance." "spare key?" "Yes, there are, right?" Looking at her coquettish eyes, I began to feel disgusted again.Why does she want a key?Do you really want to save me?The situation of the past few days came to my mind. When I went to the hospital, what was this woman doing? I said: "There is no spare key, Ah Hui took it." This is true. Disappointment was evident on her face, which reinforced my suspicions. "Oh, what a pity, I still want to help you."

I didn't miss that moment—her eyes stopped on the bookshelf. "Thirsty," I stood up, "I'm going to buy a beer." "Didn't you quit drinking?" "Today is an exception. You wait a moment." When I went outside, I didn't expect the wind to be chilly.Maybe it's because of the heat of the head. I deliberately raised my footsteps and walked out of the corridor, then quietly returned to the door.I don't want to doubt her, but there are too many suspicious places.If she wanted to betray me, she would do something while I was away.I intend to open the door suddenly.

but…… I was standing in front of the door and was about to open it when I heard voices inside.I gripped the doorknob, my whole body stiffened.She can't talk to herself, that is to say who she's calling. I pricked up my ears but couldn't hear.After a while, the sound disappeared.She seemed to hang up the phone. I didn't have the courage to open the door.I don't want to think that she betrayed me.I would like to believe that her feelings for me are true, even if my feelings for her come from Kyogoku's wishes. I don't know how many minutes I was there, maybe not that long actually.I licked my dry lips, took a deep breath, and opened the door.

She was fumbling with her bag, and seemed to be in a hurry to put something away. "Yeah, I was taken aback. How fast." She turned blue. "Where's the beer?" "The vending machines are down, no alcohol in this area at night." "Ah?" She looked flustered, "I can't help it." "What were you doing just now?" I asked. "Why not...just in a daze." I look at the bookshelves.There was obvious movement around the diary, I didn't tell the truth, I reached out and hugged her. "What's the matter with you?" She looked worried.

"You'll help find it, won't you?" "Well, of course." I put my lips to her and laid her flat. I reached under her skirt and roughly tore off her stockings and panties.She was suddenly touched between her legs, and her body trembled involuntarily. I don't care about her protesting "don't mess around" in a low voice, and let my temper vent on her.She has been enduring it, and thinking about it carefully, there must be some reason for being able to endure such pain. After I finished, I said: "Go and take a shower, I'm sweating and uncomfortable. I'll take a shower later."

She hesitated for a while, but she didn't seem to find a reason to refuse, so she stood up and walked into the bathroom silently. Hearing the sound of the shower coming from the bathroom, I straightened up and hung up her bag to open it. The first thing I saw was a black camera-sized machine.I held it in my hand and looked at it, and immediately realized that it was a portable copier.Looking in the bag again, I found a few pieces of copy paper, which were printed on nothing but my diary. I started to ring in my ears, and the suppressed stuff was coming up.The brain is refusing to think deeply, and it is Kyogoku who is refusing.

Dizziness.An electronic sound came from the depths of his head, buzzing. I put the bag back where it was, lay down and hugged my head.Just then she came out of the bathroom, wrapped in a towel.Maybe because she found that the atmosphere was not right, her expression was a little stiff: "What's wrong?" "It's okay." I lay down and stretched out my right hand towards her.She sat down next to her, held my hand, was pulled over by me, lost her balance, and fell into my arms.The bath towel was opened, revealing the wet skin.I kissed her ear, which smelled like bath lotion.She who seemed uneasy about the change in the atmosphere just now seemed relieved by my reaction. "Again?" Her eyes were a little embarrassed, but her expression softened.

"I have something to discuss with you." "what?" "Fly away with me, go to a quiet place, don't have to communicate with others." A hint of confusion flickered in her eyes—a reaction I'd expected.She turned around and turned her back to me: "That's not good, you should try treatment, don't give up." I kissed her fair back and reached out to her chest: "You don't want to?" "No, I want to find a way to make you recover." "There is no way." "There will be." She turned around, "Don't give up on yourself." "Come with me. To-morrow, tomorrow morning." "Don't talk nonsense, this is obviously impossible." "Maybe." I mounted her, and she hugged my back very cooperatively.I sat her still, immobilized her, and said, "That's the only luggage you have, and that's the bag, right?" "Huh?!" She blinked with a blank face. "That bag," I said, "must be the only thing necessary is the copier?" "...Did you see it?" Her face was full of fear and confusion. "Why?" I looked down at her. "What did I do wrong? I didn't do anything but fall in love with you, and it's because of the surgery you performed on me. Why are you treating me so hard?" Her eyes were shaking and her lips were trembling: "No... Listen to me, there is a reason for this." I pressed her body and moved my hands to her neck: "Tell me, was Oedipus also deceived by his mother in the end?" "Please, listen to me. I love you" she began to cry. Sparks were flying in my head.Love—she shouldn't have used that word.It just tramples on my spirit. I pinched her neck, digging my fingers into the skin, soft yet hard.Her face was distorted with panic, and she struggled with her hands and feet.After a while, her eyeballs became more white and more black, with countless blood vessels appearing, the skin on her face turned blue, and saliva flowed down from her bloodless face. She didn't move and I didn't leave her body.The skin still has body temperature.She stared at the sky in a daze, the empty expression had a different beauty compared to when she was alive. I stood up and raised her legs for a closer look.She was incontinent, and the stench was pungent, but I found it almost sweet. I left her, stood up naked, took out a bottle of brandy from under the counter and opened it, the unique fragrance wafted out. I didn't look for a glass, so I drank from the bottle.The long-lost alcohol was absorbed by the whole body without any resistance, like sprinkling water into a dry desert. I look at her.A beautiful woman, but, but that's all, I have no feelings, no sadness or anger, and of course, no regrets. I stand by the bed and draw the curtains.It's really quiet tonight. Fortunately, I killed that dog. Looking at the dark night, my heart calmed down. I took a sip of the brandy and looked out the window again.I didn't look through the glass to see my own face reflected in the window.The face was lifeless, devoid of emotion.I've seen this face before. It was the man with the eyes of a dead fish.