Chapter 34 Megumi Haemura Diary 4

July 14, Saturday (overcast) How cowardly and mean I am!Finally, he escaped from Ah Chun. Is it because I feel that he no longer loves me?wrong.The change in him is not what the world calls a change of heart. I know this most clearly, and I also know how much he is troubled by it. I ran away anyway.Why?Saying it was better for him was just a far-fetched reason. Fear is my real mood.I can't stand what's going to happen next, I can't bear it at all. Whenever the train stopped, I wondered if I should go back, thinking that I should go back to him to support him anyway, but I couldn't because I didn't have the courage.I'm just that cowardly.

When I got home, everyone greeted me very happily. There were banquets and drinks, but I was not happy at all. O God!At least let me pray for him, no matter what, please save my Chun!