Chapter 23 Section 16

The next day was Saturday, and I went to the street with Ah Hui after a long absence.I didn't tell her about the factory, lest she worry in vain.I don't want to think too deeply myself. Ah Hui arranged today's itinerary in this way: shopping first, eating something simple, then shopping, watching a movie afterward, and then having a formal meal while chatting about the movie.I said, it's really compact. "You have to fill in the blanks." A Hui, who was wearing a sleeveless fir, shrugged and smiled. It is said that two people are shopping together, and 90% of the time is spent on her choosing clothes.She dived in front of countless hangers, picking one by one from the dizzying pile of clothes.

When she disappeared into the fitting room of the second store, I let out a long sigh, thinking that this is a waste of time, what's the point of living like this?Might as well study at home. I never felt pain about it before. It used to be a great pleasure for me to watch Ah Hui change clothes like a fashion model and pick out the most suitable clothes.Why are you unhappy today? "How about this one?" Pulling back the curtain, Ah Hui appeared in front of me wearing a spring and autumn dress. "Appropriate," I tried to squeeze out a smile, "really appropriate."

"Really? That's the first choice." The curtain was drawn again. I tried to hold back my disdain for her, and instead thought about what was wrong with me today. I had never felt unhappy on a date with her before. Just walking around the store, I ran into a young man next door, Usui, on the way.He was with a forty-year-old, friendly woman whom he introduced as his mother. We went into the coffee shop next door and re-introduced ourselves.His mother bowed her head to express her gratitude: "Yukio is usually taken care of by you." She seemed to be in Tokyo on business to meet an old classmate, so she stopped by to see her son. "I want to see how he is doing before I go back, but the kid won't take me where he lives." She said what a mother should have said.

"It's rare to come here, so I don't want to stay in that small room every day. Why don't you find me a spacious room?" "Your father said that it is better to study hard when you are young." "It's too outdated, this kind of thinking." Usui finished his iced tea, and blew the ice cubes at the bottom of the glass with a straw like a schoolboy. What hard study!I almost laughed out loud.I struggled just to pay the rent for that cottage.He spends his parents' money, doesn't go well in college, hangs out with a bunch of cronies every day, is this also called studying hard?What a joke.

"Yo, I'm shopping." Ah Hui saw the paper bag they put aside. Usui's mother nodded: "It's so easy to come here, I bought a bag and a suit for him." "I'm so envious, my parents haven't bought me anything for a long time." "If you want me to say, it's better to give money." Yukio Usui said, "Can't you buy a suit by yourself if you give it? But my mother just doesn't listen and insists on buying it." "Isn't there enough pocket money for you, can't I let my mother buy it?" "Taste is different, let me choose what I like."

"Oh, I bought it for you very well." The conversation between their mother and son also bored me, so I said "we should go" and stood up.Usui's mother wanted to pay the bill, but I stopped her and paid our share. "It's all fate." After saying goodbye to them, I said as I walked out, "It's not my choice to be born in a family like his or in a family like mine." "You envy him?" "I did not think." The movie I watched today is a popular entertainment blockbuster, and it tells the story of a young hero taking an adventure in a time machine.We both looked forward to this movie before, and we made an appointment to watch it.In the end, I was very disappointed, the storyline was dull, and the characters were lacklustre.Thirty minutes into the movie, I felt bored and yawned again and again, and Ah Hui would probably be disappointed. I wanted to propose to exit, but I took a tentative look at her side face, but was a little surprised.She was engrossed in the picture with her eyes shining brightly, she clasped her hands to cover her face when she saw the thrilling scene—it was nothing special, and she couldn’t stop laughing when she saw the clumsy antics.Not only her, but most of the audience around her reacted like this, as if they were enjoying the movie from the bottom of their hearts.I gave up the idea of ​​exiting and tried to make myself have fun watching boring movies.Ah Hui next to me smiled, and I followed suit, but in the next moment, I immediately felt that I was very good at it—why should I be so stupid?

"It's so interesting!" Ah Hui said several times after watching the movie, and also during the meal.I agreed, moving the knife and fork while forcing a smile on my face.She seems to be very satisfied with the film, from the beginning to the end, it is an adventure in a time machine.It hurts me to hear it.It saddens me to watch the same stuff and not be as happy as her. "Hey, isn't it inappropriate to ask you out today?" On the way home, she said as she walked, "You probably want to study at home all day?" "Nothing." As I said so, I secretly smacked my tongue at her keen feeling.I feel that I have been quite careful, but her poor acting skills are still seen through by her at a glance.But I still haven't learned the lesson, and lie on lie. "I'm the happiest today, really."

"Really?" Ah Hui smiled, but her eyes looked like a timid kitten. After we broke up with her, I went to a nearby video store to borrow three videotapes, all of which I had seen before and never got tired of watching, so I could use them for testing. When I got home and was about to watch the video, there was a lot of noise next door, and I was wondering what I was doing and someone knocked on the door.When he opened the door, Yukio Usui smiled embarrassedly: "Thank you just now." "Your mother looks very gentle." "She's very verbose, really troublesome." He frowned, "It's really helpful that you didn't mention my usual situation, I really sweated because of you. Mom thought I was still buried like I was in high school. To study, let her know that I basically don't go to school, and the living expenses in the future may become a problem."

I see. "Here, take a moment to think about it." He handed over the brandy in his hand. I felt my face tighten: "You don't have to." "Don't refuse. Accept it. My parents may come back one day, and I have to ask you to help me fool me." He put the wine at the door, "Besides, it's not my wine. I used it when I went back to my hometown last time. " "Oh?" I suppressed my unhappiness, and looked down at the wine bottle, "It's very lively in your place, what are you doing?" "Ah, I'm sorry, my buddy is here, and it's auctioning."

"auction?" "Today, the suit my mother bought didn't suit my taste and I didn't want to wear it, so I asked my buddies to come over and ask them to pay a higher price for it. In fact, it probably sold for 10,000 yuan at most." "Ten thousand... How much did you buy it for?" He tilted his head and said nonchalantly, "I don't know the card my mother swiped. It's about 100,000. It's okay. It's a kind of satisfaction for parents to spend money for their children. I'm leaving." A strong hatred welled up in my heart.Almost at the same time as he went out, I took out a fruit knife from the side cabinet drawer and held it in my hand, and twisted the doorknob with the other hand.

At this time, the phone rang. When I came back to my senses, I threw the fruit knife on the kitchen counter, as if I had thrown something ominous.I can't explain what's going on in my heart just now - what do I want to do? The phone is still ringing.I adjusted my breathing and picked up the receiver: "Hi, I'm Naruse." "It's me." Ah Hui's voice. I am exhausted. "What's up?" "Well, nothing." After a moment of silence, "I just want to hear your voice." "Are you satisfied hearing my voice?" "Well, I'm satisfied. Hang up, I'm very happy today." "me too." "Good night." "Ah, wait……" "What's wrong?" "thanks." "Thank you for what?" "Thank you for calling." She seemed confused: "You are so strange." "Nothing. Good night." "Good night." Putting down the phone, I was in a daze for a while.I lost all confidence, so I had to experiment. I stood up slowly, took the box containing the videotapes, and put the one I liked the most into the VCR.It's a detective film with great scenes and great characterization.But after watching for about twenty minutes, I found that I was not excited all the time.This is not because the plot of the story is already known, and it is a classic movie that is interesting if you know it.I changed to a sci-fi blockbuster, and I still didn’t feel much when I saw the special effects shots I liked before.I put the last disc into the VCR. It is an old film, and it is recognized as a masterpiece of youth stories.The result is still the same, probably any good movie is now a boring movie full of fiction to me-I used to tear up when I watched it. Turning off the video, I stared at the blank screen in a daze.There is no doubt that something is going on inside of me, and I am clearly not the same person I used to be. Who am I now?