Chapter 55 Section 5

Nakao stood in front of her in an outing outfit with a coat and scarf.He seemed thinner than when we last saw him, with sunken cheeks and a triangular jaw.He turned to Zhe Lang with that thin face. There is a small shrine behind him.Meiyue fell to the ground, with her upper body leaning against the ancestral hall.She was tucked into her sleeping bag with her eyes closed. "Hipura, she..." "Don't worry, she's just asleep. But then again, thanks for finding it here." "It was Hayata who told me." Zhe Lang told him about Hayata's call. Nakao let out a breath. "So it was Hayata. But from what Mizuki said, you seem to have no way to get that guy's assistance."

"Because that guy doesn't want you to die either." Zhe Lang finished speaking and looked at his friend. "You're planning to kill yourself, aren't you?" Nakao scratched his head and smiled wryly. "Mizuki told me your reasoning, it's amazing. You did a great job finding out about the household registration exchange." "If only my reasoning was wrong." "No," Nakao leaned his body against the oak tree beside him. "Almost all correct. Nothing to correct." Zhelang's mood became gloomy, and he hoped that Nakao could overthrow his reasoning.

"Nakao, how about turning yourself in?" He said tentatively, "Hipura told me the details about the Togura murder case. You are not wrong. You have ample room for discretionary reduction of sentence. As for the exchange of household registration , as long as you don't say no, will it be fine?" However, Nakao still only showed a subtle smile on his lips.He glanced at Mizuki with that expression. "Look, Nishiwaki. Her expression was so innocent when she fell asleep, she couldn't tell she was in her thirties at all, right? Don't you think this face is a woman's face no matter how you look at it?"

"what do you want to say?" When Zhe Lang asked, Nakao took a deep breath, then shook his head two or three times. "Maybe you already know that my mother is a man. Although she looks like a woman, she is a man inside." "I heard what Mr. Saga said." Hearing Tetsura's words, Nakao nodded. "As a kid, when my mother told me the truth, it was unbelievable. I thought she was kidding me at first." It's no wonder that Zhe Lang agrees with him. "But when I saw her tearfully tell it, I realized that she was not joking, and I was shocked. But what shocked me even more was that my father knew about it."

"Is your father still married Lingci knowing this?" "My mother said she didn't tell my father until after I was born. But she guessed that my father might have noticed. It is said that when my mother told him, he didn't look too surprised." "Because your father is a person who has experienced great storms." "I don't know, I don't know." Nakao tilted his head slightly, "I used to think that he might just be indifferent. Hey, anyway, ever since I heard my mother's confession, my gender concept has changed a lot. Change. You will take it for granted, after all, the woman I am closest to in this world actually told me that she is actually a man. "

"Mr. Saga said that you have the ability to see through gender." "It's not that remarkable. However, I'm different from ordinary people. It's a fact that I'm used to separate the appearance from the inside of others. Probably in the process of doing so constantly, I have a little understanding of the nature of people." "Then what do you think of Hiura? Didn't you see that she is a man at heart?" Nakao showed a complex expression that he could not answer to Tetsura's question.Feeling both nerve-wracking or shy, or distressed. "I know Mizuki is not an ordinary woman. That's why I fell in love with her."

"That's why?" "Yes," Nakao nodded. "If I want to use a cheesy way of saying it, I'm probably looking for the shadow of my mother. Because she has the same temperament." "Do you still associate with her knowing that she is a man at heart?" "No." Nakao shook his head. "Have I said it before? Mizuki is a woman to me. It was then, and it is now." Zhe Lang didn't quite understand what Nakao wanted to say.He didn't agree, just stared at Nakao's face. "You think it's strange? Why did Mizuki have the same temperament as my mother, but I didn't see through her essence? However, this is where her greatest charm lies. I think I was probably attracted by her. At the same time, the biggest problem related to gender lies in her uniqueness. This can be said to be a contradiction, or a mystery."

"Contradiction? Mystery?" Nakao frowned and rubbed the back of his neck.He seemed to be struggling with what to say in order to convey his thoughts correctly. Before long, he took a deep breath and looked at Zhe Lang as if looking away. "Mizuki is a man and a woman at the same time." "I know that." As soon as Zhelang said, Nakao shook his head. "It's not just that the body is a woman, but the heart is a man. That guy's heart is both a man and a woman. Conversely, it can also be said that her heart is neither." "You mean, she has two sides in her heart?"

Hearing Tetsuran's question, Nakao still said no after thinking about it for a while. "This kind of statement is probably not enough to express her complicated inner world. If I want to make it easier to understand, suppose that men are black stones; women are white stones, and Mizuki is gray stones. She has the elements of both, and she is different Fifty percent, but it cannot belong to one of them. Originally, everyone is not completely black or white, but lives in a gradient from black to white. As for her, she is in the middle of the gradient." "Gradient..."

Zhe Lang had heard something very similar to this before.He remembered what Aikawa, the boss of "BLOO", said.She used the term Mebius ring, thinking that all men and women are on this Mebius ring... "I think the human brain should be unstable." Nakao said, "I think everyone's position on the gradient will move left and right due to the physical condition of that day or the surrounding environment. Even me or you will Because of the difference of the day, sometimes it is slightly closer to the woman's end. However, even if 95% black becomes 90% black, it will not have a decisive effect. If 50% black becomes Forty-five percent black is not far off. In this way, the white part is ten percent more."

"You mean Hiura's heart is coming and going in that subtle way?" "Exactly." Nakao nodded emphatically. "I don't know what factors she is swinging from side to side, but I think it may have something to do with her menstrual period. The reason why I didn't see through her essence is because of this reason." "When Hiura was with you," Zhe Lang looked down at the sleeping Mizuki. "Maybe the female part of my heart is better than the male part. That's why you think she's a woman." "Maybe." Nakao said. Zhe Lang murmured in his heart, the same is true when Mei Yue and I are together, her heart will be biased toward the woman's side.And when she is with Risako, she will probably be on the man's side. He thought of the coming-of-age ceremony photos he saw at Meiyue's hometown, maybe she smiled like a woman and she was not just acting. "Probably Mizuki didn't realize her own nature either," Nakao continued, "He suffered because he didn't realize it. Didn't know what he really was. She felt wrong about being a woman and concluded that she was actually a man The answer, but actually tried to live as a man, and found that the problem is still not resolved. Although she didn’t say it, she also hesitated to become a man.” "But in front of us, she insisted that she is a man." "She was trying to convince herself that it was the result of an attempt to deceive herself." Zhe Lang nodded, feeling that he could understand her mood. "Mr. Saga said that you suddenly stopped Hiura's household registration exchange. Is this because you were aware of it?" "Because even if Mitsuki's man's household registration is given at present, her problem will not be solved. The same wrong feeling as when she was a woman will only torture her in the opposite way." "The opposite way..." Saga said, "Simple is just the reflection of the real thing in the mirror", which rang in Zhe Lang's ears.This sentence refers to that. "I was thinking, what are the things we did before? Except for Mizuki, is it really good for what Tateishi Takumi or Saeki Kari did? I always feel that what we do is far from solving the real problem , and it doesn't make sense." "You didn't say you wanted to take on this responsibility, did you?" "What do you say to take responsibility," Nakao smiled feebly. "There is no way to carry it. All I can do now is to keep their secrets. Even if it costs my life, I will not hesitate." "I said, don't mention the word death." Zhe Lang took a step closer to Nakao. "I came here specially to prevent you from committing suicide." Nakao lowered his head and set his eyes on Mizuki again. "Mei Yue told me as soon as she got here that she would not let me die alone." "Did she say she wanted to die with you?" "That's right. But, I can't let her do this kind of thing. However, even if I want her to go back, she can't go back obediently. I bought canned coffee downstairs, mixed it with sleeping pills and let her drink it, and she finally Be quiet. I brought the sleeping bag from the villa." It turned out that Mizuki fell asleep because of this. "Are you taking sleeping pills?" "Well, I can't fall asleep without sleeping pills recently. However, I let Mizuki take the last one." "Can't sleep because of the pain?" Tetsura asked, but Nakao didn't answer.He thrust his hands into the pockets of his overcoat and let out only one breath. "Why does Ripu know about this place?" Zhe Lang asked another question. "She seemed to think of this place when she heard you say that the van might be hidden in Takashiro's villa." Nakao approached the stone steps that Zhelang had just climbed up, looking down at the coastal town. "This is where Mizuki and I used to date. We once climbed the stone steps together, and I put my arm around her shoulder to enjoy the night view. She was a woman at that time." This seems to be a place full of memories for the two of them.Mizuki is probably sure that if Nakao had to choose a place to die, he would definitely choose this place. "To be honest, I was taken aback. I was still in the villa last night, and when I got here this morning, I saw Meiyue. I thought it was a dream." "Are you going to let Hiura fall asleep and kill himself alone?" "I originally wanted to do that, but you came here. I can't do that, I have a headache. And if Mizuki is placed here, the police who arrive later may find her too." Hearing what Nakao said, Zhelang figured out one thing. "The person who called the police and found the van was indeed you." "I didn't call the police, but called the Kadamatsu Iron Works. Because even if I called the police like the Kanagawa prefectural police, I don't know when the news will reach the investigation headquarters of the Metropolitan Police Department. However, I did not expect to finish the report. I met Mizuki. It was fine until I let her fall asleep, but when I was wondering what to do next, I saw you and Takakura from here." Zhe Lang stood beside Nakao, looking in the same direction.The private houses in front of you and the roof of the restaurant are side by side like steps.Zhe Lang saw the vehicles parked in front of that row of roofs.Risako seemed to be sitting in the car, and the van where the murder occurred was not far away. "Is that why you asked me to come here? You don't want me to take Hiura to another place, do you?" "Can't you?" "It's not impossible, but there are conditions, you have to come together." Nakao shrugged, and the corners of his mouth that had been tightly pursed relaxed. "Mizuki said that the QB is still calling the shots." "She mistakenly thought that I thought I was superior." Nakao shook his head. "I said Nishiwaki, I was really happy at that time. Why do people change? And they change in a bad direction. Once they succeed, they become arrogant and rude; when they fail, they become servile. I never wanted to be such an adult before .I don’t want to marry the daughter of a rich family and devote myself to a life that does not tarnish the family’s reputation, but in reality I chose this path. Based on this self-loathing, I ignited to face it with Saga and the others. Passion for gender issues. But maybe it’s self-satisfaction, escapism. I miss the days when I was so focused on taking down the enemy in front of me.” "If you want to say that, why don't I." "Really?" Nakao looked at Zhe Lang and nodded. "Maybe so." Zhe Lang suddenly thought of Hayata, maybe only that man remained unchanged.He is still only thinking about hitting the enemy in front of him, even if the opponent is his former best friend, he will show no mercy. "Nakao, go and surrender." Zhe Lang said, "If the police know that it is the perpetrator who called the police and found the van, they will admit that you surrendered yourself." Nakao opened his eyes wide for a moment, but then returned to a peaceful expression. "Looking at the current situation, I probably have to do that. Unless you refuse to take Mizuki away silently." "I will not let you die. Not only will I not let you die here now, but I will not let you die in the hospital. After you surrender yourself, go to the hospital for a thorough examination first. The police should also agree to let you do so." Nakao turned his eyes away and folded up the front of his coat coldly. "I will turn myself in, but I don't want Mitsuki to be involved in this incident. I want her to stay out of it." "What should I do?" "I'll go to the van later. Then the police who are hiding and watching will probably stop me. I will confess on the spot that I am the murderer of Togura." "and then?" "You take Mizuki out of here while the police's attention is on me. Is this our specialty?" "A feint?" "That's right." Zhe Lang pretended to pass the ball to the running back in the tail, and when the enemy's defensive camp was played around by him, he threw a long pass.If it is a game, it will succeed easily and happily. "But Meiyue doesn't seem to wake up in a short time. If I carry her in a coma on my back, the police will definitely follow me." "Let's carry her to the bottom of the stone steps first. Before that, can you contact Gao Cang and ask her to drive the car down here?" "Is there a way to get down here?" "Don't worry, there is a shortcut that only the locals know." Zhelang took out his mobile phone to call Risako, and after briefly telling her the situation, he handed the phone directly to Nakao, and he instructed Risako's route in detail. "Okay, let's lift Mizuki." Nakao said while returning the mobile phone to Zhelang. Zhelang carried Mizuki on his back, Nakao supported her from behind, and slowly walked down the stone steps.Mizuki is very light.Zhe Lang thought, this is indeed a woman's body. After waiting under the stone steps for a while, Risako drove over. "I always feel that the number of suspicious people has increased. Are they criminal police?" she said. "Probably so." Zhe Lang replied. "But the patrol car doesn't seem to have arrived yet." "It's not a two-hour reasoning drama. The police won't make the suspect wary." Zhe Lang moved Mei Yue into the back seat of the car.She half opened her eyes, but then closed them again. "I'll leave Mitsuki to you," Nakao said. "Leave it to us." Zhe Lang said firmly. Nakao nodded and looked at Risako. "I also caused trouble for Gao Cang. I don't intend to lie to you, please don't mind." "Don't worry about that kind of thing, but you should see a doctor as soon as possible." Risako's voice trembled slightly, and his words were choking. "Nishiwaki also said the same thing to me. Although I don't have any expectations, I will try to tell the detective in charge immediately after I am arrested. Tell him, if you don't want the suspect to be pissed off, take me to the hospital." Nakao might have meant to joke, but neither Tetsura nor Risako laughed. "Then, after ten minutes, you will go back the same way. Until then, you must not act rashly, understand?" Nakao raised his index finger and said seriously. Zhe Lang nodded wordlessly.Seeing that he agreed, Nakao turned around, but walked two or three steps, then stopped and walked back. "I want to leave some souvenirs for Mizuki, but I don't have anything on me. Let her wear this. She looks cold with thin clothes." After speaking, he took off his black coat. "Aren't you cold, Nakao?" "I'm fine. After all, I'm going to be surrounded by hot-blooded police officers in no time. And the patrol car probably has the heater on too." Zhe Lang and the others still couldn't laugh at this joke. As soon as Nakao opened the car door, he covered the sleeping Mizuki with his overcoat.After staring intently at her face, he moved her face closer. Zhe Lang and the others saw their lips meet through the glass.