Chapter 23 Section 3

There are brand new tables lined up in the dining room.There's even a pasta set on the menu posted on the wall.Zhe Lang thought to himself, this is a far cry from the dishes he had when he was in high school. There were no other students in the dining room.Suenaga Mumi said that if it's only for ten minutes, it's okay to chat.Zhe Lang and Mei Yue found the innermost dining table and sat facing her.Zhe Lang thought of the reason for her sudden change of attitude, but decided not to mention it. "We saw you running. It's amazing. The results should be good, right?" As soon as Zhe Lang said, Mumei looked at the table and said in a low voice: "Today is just ordinary..." She seemed to want to say that she can run faster normally.

"Do you like running?" But Mutsumi didn't answer, she just tilted her head slightly. No wonder she took a guarded attitude.If the other party is a stranger, even an ordinary high school student will not open up. "Have you ever thought about participating in an official competition?" "QB," Mei Yue interrupted Zhe Lang. "That kind of thing isn't important, is it?" "It's not important, but..." However, Mizuki ignored his reaction and looked at Mutsumi. "I think the name Mumi is really nice. What do you think? Do you like it?" Mizuki paid careful attention to her words and asked Mumi softly like a woman.

After thinking about it for a while, Mumi replied, "I really like it." Mizuki nodded. "Have you gone to the hospital yet?" "About once a month." "Is that a simple inspection? Or is there an obstacle already in the body?" "Just checking." "That's it, that's good." Mizuki breathed out feeling relieved from the bottom of her heart. "Is school fun?" Mumi didn't answer right away, a look of hesitation appeared on her face. "Not very interesting?" "It's fun, but not all the good people you meet."

"Oh..., maybe." Mizuki licked her lips. "I heard that you didn't hide other people's own body. Is that what you mean?" "Yes." This time she answered immediately. "Well, you are so brave." "Are you brave...?" "I think so, don't I?" "I have no idea." Mumi tilted her head and rested her chin on her hand.Even if she is an athlete, the tangled muscles in her upper arms are not what girls of this age will have. "I always feel tired of hiding it from others. And no matter how much I hide it, one day I will be betrayed."

Zhe Lang noticed that she has such a body, which should attract many people's attention.Not only her strong muscles, but also the well-developed hair on her arms make her different. "It might make you uncomfortable to ask me that. But you thought you were a normal girl when you were a kid, didn't you?" "Oh, yes." "What about now? Have you changed your mind?" Mutsumi made a fist with the hand that was resting on her chin, and pressed it to her temple. "I don't think about that kind of thing very much, and it's useless to think about it."

"However, in order to reduce trouble, you usually live as a girl, right?" "That's a natural feeling. If my words and deeds are not unified into one of the genders, the people around me don't seem to know how to treat me." In the rude tone, there is a hug for the people around cold thoughts. Mizuki straightened her back, took a deep breath, and stared at Mumi again. "Have you ever thought about having surgery?" Hearing this question, Mutsumi finally raised her head.This question seemed to stimulate something in her heart. "You mean, give up one of the sexes?"

"Ok." Mutsumi crossed her arms and looked up at the ceiling.Zhe Lang confirmed that she did not have Adam's apple.Give up one of the genders—she was right. "People used to tell me that if I ignored it, I might get cancer. But I never thought about having surgery." "Because before you become an adult, the chance of causing cancer is very low." Zhe Lang added.He did a little homework on true hermaphrodites. "If one of the gonads is removed too early, it will cause abnormal hormone secretion, which may cause autonomic nervous system disorders or osteoporosis."

His explanation seemed redundant, Mutsumi shook her head impatiently. "It doesn't matter whether it will cause cancer or not. I don't think it doesn't matter if I die like this." "You shouldn't say that, otherwise your parents are very pitiful?" As soon as Mizuki said, Mumi had an expression on her face that wanted to refute, but in the end she closed her mouth and looked into the distance, and then said again: "Even if someone asked me to decide whether to be a man or a woman and give up one of the gonads, I can't do it. " "You mean, are you hesitating?"

"It's not hesitation, but I feel that if I do that, I won't be who I am now. You may think that I am trying to be brave when I say that," Mutsumi made an opening remark, and then continued, "I don't think I have to Cooperate with other people. I am also human, and when I think about the future, my mind often goes blank." Zhelang and Mizuki silently stared at Mumei who bowed her head. "Do you have someone to talk to? There are groups of people with the same troubles, aren't there?" “I used to go there a lot. It’s not just intersex people, I’ve also heard from gay people and people with gender identity issues. But I always felt like something was wrong.”

"What do you think is wrong?" "As a result, everyone decides what a man should be and what a woman should be, and then suffers from the gap between himself and the worldly concept. No one has a specific answer to explain what a man is and what a woman is." "do you have?" "In principle, I have." "I want to hear it." "For me, men and women are people other than me." Mutsumi said, "Everyone is divided into men or women. But that's all, it doesn't make sense to distinguish between genders." Nod lightly. "I'm sorry, I made a lot of self-righteous talk."

"You don't have to worry about it." Hearing their conversation, Zhe Lang confirmed one thing.Mutsumi saw through Mitsuki for the first time when she saw her. "Let me ask you," Mutsumi looked at Mizuki from the front. "Do you want...to see where I am?" "what?" "Something in my panties." Mei Yue was dumbfounded, and Zhe Lang was also taken aback. "Why?" Mizuki asked. "Well... I just think it's okay to let you see." Mumei looked away.Zhe Lang felt as if she was disappointed.Then she said, "My parents know about me." "Know what?" Zhelan asked. "I have a special body. It seems that when I was born, the doctor told them. The doctor also said that it would be best to take me to a special hospital for examination. But my parents didn't do that. They seemed to decide not to tell others and put me Raised as a girl." Zhe Lang thought, this is possible. "But even if they do, you'll know sooner or later, won't you? In fact, you already know," he said tentatively. "Yeah. Even if I ask about it, my parents won't answer me directly. They probably can't answer it. I don't think they know what to do. They must plan to stay ignorant, Postpone the time to face reality." A faint smile appeared on Mumei's face.In her heart, she probably blamed her parents.She has lost a lot of things, so she can talk so eloquently today. "Can I ask you something?" Zhelan said. Mumi blinked, as if to say: Excuse me. "Do you have someone you like now?" Zhe Lang felt that Mumei stopped breathing, and he also knew that this was a cruel question. "Have." "The other party is..." "The other party is a boy." Mutsumi replied immediately.She seemed to understand the meaning of Zhelang's question. "That's it, that's good." "Why is it good?" "Because... liking people is a good thing." Hearing what Zhelang said, Mumi stared at him for a while, and then shifted her gaze to Mizuki. "I can't have a baby. I can't have a baby. I can't give birth to a woman. I think I probably can't have sex with other people. So, liking someone is very scary and painful to me. Although everyone I would say: Don't be afraid of that kind of thing, but things are not as simple as they say. Every time I like someone, I will be in pain." Zhe Lang felt ashamed when he found that he said something he shouldn't have said, but he couldn't think of an ending. Mumei turned her face back to Zhe Lang and said, "You don't have to take it to heart. There are many things that make me want to die, but there was only one time when I really wanted to commit suicide. At that time, I couldn't even sharpen a kitchen knife well so I didn't die. .” There were no ups and downs in this sentence, but it was like a pile of sand and gravel, which made Zhe Lang feel heavy.Mutsumi probably felt that she had talked too much, so she looked at the clock on the wall.Zhe Lang also took a look, the better the ten minutes had passed. "Are you serious about what you just said?" Mitsuki asked Mutsumi. "It's okay if you say let me see it." Mutsumi nodded. "Really. Do you want to see it?" "Yeah." Mizuki stood up. "Let me see." "However, I only let you see." Mutsumi stared at Mizuki's profile, as if rejecting an ordinary man who didn't understand anything.Zhe Lang nodded to Mei Yue without saying a word. After the two left the restaurant, Zhe Lang still didn't get up from his seat.Mumi's words and words continued to echo in his mind.He thought to himself that his knowledge of male and female gender was probably less than half that of that girl with an incredible gender. Meiyue came back a few minutes later, but Zhelang didn't see Mumei's figure.Mei Yue's expression was stiff, her face was pale, and her eyes were bloodshot. "What about the child?" "She went straight to practice." "That's it." Zhe Lang looked at the playground from the window of the restaurant, where the track and field team members were gathering. "Sorry, QB, we shouldn't be here." "Maybe." The track and field team held a separate meeting for men and women.Zhe Lang looked at them, only to realize that Suenaga Mumi didn't join any side, and was doing calisthenics by herself. On the tram back, Mizuki barely spoke a word. The two walked home with heavy steps.Risako was not at home, leaving a note on the dining table.It read: I'm going to work. Mizuki took off her coat and jacket, her stockings, and her skirt. "Ah, much more comfortable." She is almost half naked.Zhe Lang looked away, and took off his coat himself. "I'm still too childish," Mizuki looked down at the clothes she had taken off. "I also wear a mask. As long as I dress up as a woman, I can blend in." "But I think you have to lie to yourself." Mizuki shook her head. "Maybe I'm a scumbag." That's not the case, just when Zhe Lang was about to say something, the wireless handset rang.After adjusting his breathing, he picked up the handset. "Hi, I'm Nishiwaki." "Ah...uh, is Miss Nishiwaki Risako at home?" It was a man's voice.The age sounds about forty years old, and the tone is a bit tough. "She's off to work. Excuse me, who are you?" "My name is Guangchuan." "Mr. Guangchuan?" "That's right. Wide wide wide, river's river. Hmm... You can't be Mr. Nishiwaki Tetsuro?" "I am." The other party said his name, making Zhe Lang fully alert.But in the next second, he was shocked by another kind.In front of Zhe Lang, Mei Yue was staring at him, her whole body was stiff and her eyes were wide open. The man continued: "The thing is like this. I heard that my wife is very close to Mrs. Zun. I want to ask Mrs. Zun about my wife." "Could Madam be from Imperial University..." "That's right. She used to be the team manager of the American football club. Her last name was Hiura."