Chapter 36 Section 36

After the new year, it is already mid-January in a blink of an eye.Heisuke, who has not been to the spray gun production workshop for a long time, met the team leader Nakao in the break room, and Nakao asked, "Heisuke, why have you lost so much weight?" "Ah? Is there such a thing?" Hirasuke couldn't help touching his cheek. "It's really thin. Don't you think so?" When Nakao asked, the others nodded as well. "The complexion doesn't look too good either. Is there something wrong? It's best to see a doctor." Nakao said. "I don't feel any discomfort in my body."

"This is not okay. It will be too late when you feel it. I say this for your own good. Go see a doctor quickly, you are not young anymore." "Ah, I see." Heisuke continued to touch his cheek after finishing speaking. Maybe it's really thin, Heisuke thought to himself.He also knew the reason, and it was by no means a disease.The reason is simple, he hasn't had a good meal recently. It's not that there is no food. When I get home every day, dinner is already ready.Even on days off, there are a lot of meals three times a day.However, he couldn't eat it.When he was with Naoko, he always felt that his heart was blocked and he couldn't eat anything.

Since the eve of the Holy Saliva Festival, Naoko seldom spoke, and even her expression seemed to be frozen at that moment.Except for housework, she has been shutting herself in her room for hours. At first, he thought she was only like this in front of him, but recently Hirasuke learned that this is not the case.That day, Naoko's homeroom teacher called and asked Sami Nami if she was not feeling well recently.It seemed she was similarly lethargic at school.In addition, as soon as the new year was over, she applied to the tennis club to retire. It seemed that what happened on Christmas Eve hit her too hard.Heisuke also knew that what he had done had hurt her deeply, but he was also at a loss as to how to make up for it.

As soon as the off-duty bell rang, Heisuke left the company.After entering the new year, Heisuke tries not to work overtime because he misses Naoko. When he got home and opened the door, he first looked at the place where the shoes were placed by the door.After confirming that Naoko's shoes were taken off and neatly placed there, Heisuke was relieved.It seems that she also returned home safely today. He often worries that Naoko will run away from home one day and never return.If she escapes to a place where he can't find and lives there, she can live like an ordinary 16-year-old girl, fall in love, get married, and start a real another life.

Although she hasn't run away from home yet, it might just be that she hasn't made up her mind yet.Perhaps she was worried about the accommodation and living expenses after she left.Of course, there is another possibility, that is, she has already made up her mind, and now she is just thinking about when to put it into practice.Chances are that when she gets home from get off work tomorrow, her shoes won't be in the hallway. Naoko was not in the Japanese-style room.Heisuke went up the stairs and knocked on Naoko's door.There was a faint response from inside: "Come in."

At this point, Ping Jie breathed a sigh of relief. In fact, there is something more worrying for Heisuke than running away from home, and that is whether Naoko will be overwhelmed and choose to commit suicide.Thinking about it, that might be the easiest way for her to get out of her current pain.No, you shouldn't say that, it should be said that you are afraid that she will think so. But it seems that today she at least resisted the temptation of this sadness. Heisuke opened the door: "I'm back." "I'm back." Naoko replied without turning her head, facing the desk.She seems to be reading a book, and recently she has done nothing but read a book.

"What book are you reading?" Heisuke asked as he walked towards her. Naoko didn't answer, instead she stepped back so that Heisuke could see the book she was holding.The title of the book was printed on the header of the page she turned to. "Yeah, is it interesting to read?" "It's okay. But it's the same for any book I read now." Naoko said.The subtext is as long as reality can be forgotten. "Is it time to prepare dinner?" Naoko said, closing the pocket novel. "Ah, don't worry so much." Hirasuke found a piece of paper next to the trash can, a folded white paper.Heisuke picked it up, and Naoko let out an "ah" when he saw it.

When I opened it, I saw the words "Invitation Letter for Ski Trip, Class 1, Class 2", which seemed to be typed out on a computer. "What's this?" Hiroshi asked. "Don't you know after reading it? Our classmate is planning to use this year's spring break to go skiing, and we are currently recruiting participants." "So, it's not a unified activity of the school?" "No, so I won't participate. It's better like this." Naoko snatched the paper from him, tore it into shreds and threw it into the trash can again. "I'll cook." After saying that, Naoko stood up.

"Naoko!" Heisuke called to stop her, "Are you hating me?" Naoko lowered her gaze first, then buried her head deeply. "Why should I hate you?" she whispered. "I just don't know what to do next?" Ping Jie nodded: "Yes, I am the same, what should I do, I have no idea at all." Both of them fell into silence, and the temperature of the air seemed to drop a lot all of a sudden.There was the sound of the winter wind blowing outside the window, which made Hirasuke have an illusion: in the middle of a vast wilderness, only the two of them stood there alone...

Heisuke suddenly recalled Naoko's appearance.Not the current Naoko, but the Naoko with the old body, a woman who loves to laugh and talk.However, there is no laughter in this family now. "Or," Naoko said, "we'll do it." Heisuke looked at her.She lowered her head and stared at her feet, revealing her fair neck under her long shiny hair. "You mean...that?" Hirasuke asked for confirmation. "I think this is the only final solution. If it's just a matter of spirit, sometimes it's inevitable to fall into a dead end." "Perhaps you are right."

Heisuke already regarded the current Naoko as a woman, and that was a fact.It is precisely because of this that he has an extraordinary jealousy towards Haruki Soma.But when it comes to sex expectations, it's a different story.He never thought about it.Most importantly, he had an instinctive reluctance to think about it. His palms were sweating, and Naoko was also nervous. Time was still passing by, and in the darkness, Heisuke and Naoko were completely still. "Naoko," Heisuke said, "Forget it." She took a breath and replied, "Yes." The wind outside the window is still very strong, and the sound of empty soda cans rolling can be heard...