Chapter 26 Section 26

After bidding farewell to Fumiya Hokishi, Heisuke returned to the room, lying on the bed, holding the pocket watch that was not sent out in the end, and fiddled with the cover of the watch one by one.After Kozo's repair, the metal pin of the watch cover has completely returned to normal. He replayed the conversation between him and Wen Ye over and over again in his mind.He felt that he should have said a lot of things that he hadn't said.Maybe he will never see that young man again, but Hirasuke still wants to express the turbid state in his heart with words. What kind of mood did Yukihiro Kajikawa send money to Noriko Negishi?In the end, he still didn't want to understand.Judging from Wen Ye's statement, their divorce was not a serious divorce agreement, and there was no sign that they had negotiated on child support and living expenses.

That is for redemption.Ping Jie can only let himself think so.Sending money to the women and children he had abandoned as atonement—it was not out of the question. But if that's the case, what are Kajikawa Seiko and Kajigawa Masami to Kajikawa Yukihiro?Could it be that they are just two cohabitation partners he chose for the rest of his life? What Hirasuke cares about is how Kajikawa Yukiro thinks of Yimei.What did he take her existence for?Is it just a burden brought by the woman who came together with him?One is the biological son he abandoned in the past, and the other is the stepdaughter he has to take care of now. How does he balance the positions of the two children in his heart?

He has never been able to use words to express the misty things floating in his heart.Heisuke sat up and brushed his hair into a mess. At this time, the phone rang, and it was Kijima calling.Heisuke had previously told them about the hotel he was staying at tonight. The two of them plan to go to the Susukino area for a drink tonight and invite Heisuke to go with them.The hotel where Mujima and Kawabe lived seemed not too far from where Heisuke lived. Heisuke closed the cover of the pocket watch with a "snap" and said "I'll go right away". After the three of them had a delicious meal at the Ishikari Nabe Restaurant, they headed for a nightclub that Kawabe had found out from a friend.

"If you go into any store at random, you may be severely slaughtered." Chuan said as he walked. The two of them also spent a day in Sapporo.When Heisuke mentioned the big clock in Sapporo, both of them couldn't help laughing. "That's really deceiving! It's better to just look at the photos." Kijima said. "It's the same as the scene in the TV series. It looks good on TV, but it's really bad when you actually watch it." The two said that among the places they visited today, Mount Okang was the best, and they took the ropeway to the top of the mountain.

The three of them walked on the streets of Susukino while chatting, but they couldn't find the store they were looking for after walking for a long time.I don't know when they started to take the wrong intersection, and they walked into a dark alley without a tavern. "Ah, this is not very good." Kawabe murmured softly. There was an unusual aura in the alley, and there were several suspicious-looking men standing by the side of the road.They didn't seem to be in the same group, and kept a certain distance from each other. The three of Hirasuke walked in the middle of the road.At this time, a man wearing a thin white winter jacket came up.

"Are you here on a business trip?" the man asked.None of the three answered.He went on to say: "If you have time, come and play with us. We have many beautiful chicks here. Our place is the best in Sapporo. Now you can choose whatever you want." Kijima waved his hand silently, and the man walked away bored. In the process of walking through this alley, several men entangled one after another.Everyone's tone of voice is similar, which makes Hirasuke feel a little interesting. "Judging from their words of soliciting customers, there are probably more people coming on business trips." Kijima said.

"I was still teased by them in the company. They said I would definitely go to the shampoo room." Kawabe said with a smile. It turned out that they came out of the shampoo room to solicit customers.Hirasuke remembered what Kosaka said to him before leaving. They finally came to the store they were looking for.walk in together.Although the store is not big, there are five young hostesses inside.Although I experienced it once last night, the miniskirt of the girl sitting opposite today still made Hirasuke's heart beat faster. It was Kawabe who enlivened the atmosphere.Some anecdotes he talked about aroused the strong interest of the girls.Heisuke felt that he had seen the other side of this always serious technician.

"By the way, does Mr. Sugita have any children?" asked the hostess sitting next to Heisuke.She was wearing a very line dress. "Yes." Heisuke said with a glass in one hand. "Boy or girl?" "daughter." "Then how old is she?" "It's the second grade of junior high school." "Ah, that's the most difficult age to serve." She said with a smile. "Is that really the case?" "Of course. In the second grade of junior high school, it should be about 14 years old, right? Daughters at this age hate their fathers the most."

"Ah, really?" "Well, how can I tell you, there is a feeling that she is not happy when you stay next to her." Hearing what she said, another hostess also joined in. "I was like that too. I got goose bumps when I saw my dad's underwear drying. I would never use the toilet that Dad just used. The bathroom too." Other hostesses also joined in the topic one after another.I hate my father's smell, I get angry when I see my father wearing underwear, I feel sick when I see my father's toothbrush, and so on.There are all kinds of bad things to say about my father.

When Ping prepositioned why they hated their father so much, their answer was that they didn't know, anyway, they began to become physically unable to accept their father. "Anyway, it was like this before the age of 20. But after the age of 20, as my father got older, I began to feel sorry for my father and wanted to treat him well." Said the hostess next to him. "It's really sad." Chuanbian said in a somewhat inarticulate tone, "It seems that becoming a father is not good. I'd better not get married." "Being a father is not for any benefit." Kijima said.According to others, he has two children. "One day, before you know what's going on, the kid who calls himself dad comes out. At this point, you have no choice but to try to be a good dad, right, Sugita-sensei ?”

Asked by Kijima, Heisuke replied ambiguously: "How should I put it..." "It's easy to be a father, but it's not so easy to be a father all the time. Being a father is really tiring!" It seems that alcohol has also begun to work on Kijima. Kijima and Kawabe decided to find another one to continue drinking.Ping Jie saw that they were already drunk, which is why they didn't want to go back like this.Saying goodbye to them both in front of the store, Heisuke set foot on the way back to the hotel alone. Not long after walking, Hirasuke got lost.Although the road in Sapporo is as recognizable as the squares on a chessboard, he still doesn't know which direction to go. After wandering around for a while, he came to an impressive place - the alley where many men solicit customers. As soon as Hirasuke took a step forward, a man came over.Hirasuke waved his hand slightly to express his refusal, and continued to walk forward.However, compared to when the three of them were together at that time, he felt a little uneasy. Another little man came to him and whispered in Pingjie's ear, "I'll introduce you to a good girl, you won't regret it after reading it." Heisuke said "no" and waved his hand. "Come and take a look. A father should relax once in a while." The man chased after him. The word "Father" touched Hirasuke's heart at once.He stopped for a moment and looked at the soliciting man's face. Probably thinking there was something interesting, the soliciting man posted it. "25,000 yen will do. That girl is great." "Ah, but I..." "How can you not take it easy when you finally come to such a place?" The man patted Hirasuke on the back with a "slap". I can't go to that kind of store—the words came to his mind, but he couldn't make a sound. Once in a while is no big deal, right? What's wrong with being freed from the role of "dad"? So he took out his wallet. The front of the building is full of colorful signboards.The man went down the steps leading to the underground, and Hirasuke followed behind the man. After going down the steps, there was a door. The man opened the door, and there was something like a ticket window not far from the front.The man yelled into the window.After a while, the door next to the window opened, and a fat middle-aged woman came out. The two muttered together for a long time, while Hirasuke took a look at the surrounding environment.The dark corridor inside the door extends to the right, and the corridor is quiet without any sound. After a while, the soliciting man left.The middle-aged woman came over and asked Pingjie: "Guest, do you want to go to the bathroom?" "what?" "Want to go to the toilet? If you want to go, go now." "Ah, no need." "Really? Don't you really need to go?" She reminded her again without being too wordy.Ping Jie suddenly thought in his heart that there might be some special services after a while. He was first taken to a small waiting room.He was really worried that someone else would come, but fortunately, there was no one else. The middle-aged woman came back not long after and said "this way please".The two walked along a corridor with a row of doors on one side, and stopped in front of one of the doors as they walked.The middle-aged woman opened the door.A young woman in a red yukata is kneeling on the floor waiting for Heisuke to arrive.She tied her long hair tightly behind her head, and her face was shaped like a Persian cat. Ping Jie entered the house, and the door was closed behind him.The young woman stood up, came behind him, and helped him take off his coat. "Guest, aren't you a local?" She asked while hanging her coat on the hanger. "No. I'm from Tokyo. Can you see that?" "Because your coat is thick. You must think that Hokkaido will be cold?" She was absolutely right.In fact, he had a sweater in his hotel bag. "Your observation skills are so keen." "Although Hokkaido is the northernmost point, this is not the North Pole. Shall I help you undress?" "Ah, no, I'll do it myself." "It's the first time I've come to such a place." Hirasuke said. "Ah, is that right? Then you were brought here by the uncle on the side of the road, right?" "right." "Then you spent 25,000 yen?" "Yes, 25,000 yen." The woman burst out laughing: "The 9,000 yen was allotted to that uncle!" "Ah, what else is there?" "The next time you come directly, just ask Shinan by name. In that case, it will only cost 16,000 yen." "Really." Heisuke nodded while wondering why the favor fee for soliciting men was as high as 9,000 yen. "You don't seem very excited." "Ah, sorry." "Looks like you've been drinking?" "Well, I drank a little." There is a small alarm clock next to the pillow.He understood that it was used to calculate time.How much time is left?Thinking of this, Hirasuke suddenly became anxious. "Guest, what's wrong with you?" The woman seemed a little impatient. "Didn't you come here because you held back for a long time?" "Yeah, it's been two and a half years."—However, he swallowed the second half of the sentence. "Then what should we do? There is not much time left." "Forget it, let's not do it. I'm sorry, that's all for today." "Is it really okay to leave it like this?" "Ok." "Do you have a wife?" the woman asked. He was about to say no, but changed his mind.He thought to himself, it's really embarrassing to say that he is still celibate at this age, but he behaves like this when he comes to such a place. "Yes." Hiroshi replied. "In that case," the woman's lips curled up mockingly, "just have sex with your wife." Heisuke's face turned red with shame.He wanted to go up and slap the woman, but he couldn't. When he came out, the middle-aged woman appeared again.She led him all the way to the elevator that he didn't take when he came. "After getting out of the elevator on the first floor, there is a road in the opposite direction from the way in." The middle-aged woman said.The reason for this design is probably because the guests are more afraid of being seen by others when they come out than when they go in. Hirasuke got out of the elevator on the first floor as she said.After coming out of the building, there was a quiet street in front of me, and there was no sign of a custom shop at all.In front of the trash can on the side of the road, several feral cats are looking for food. There are few street lights and the moon is not out tonight.Such darkness freed him, and he walked slowly down the street. How should I live in the future?He thought about it in his mind.I am a father and not a father, a husband and not a husband, a man and not a man. His heart trembled in the face of ruthless reality. -------------------------------- Note: