Chapter 37 Section 36

"Uh, can I say something else?" Shi Sheng looked at Takumi and said. "what?" "Although it is a bit out of date, there is still someone I want to introduce to you." "what?" Following Shi Sheng's gaze, Takumi couldn't help frowning.The owner of the house, the old woman, was huddled against the wall.She looked up at Takumi, then immediately lowered her head. "Since you can find it, Tuoshi, you should know where this place is. So, who is that old woman..." Tuoshi looked away from the old woman, turned his face to the side, pouted his chin, and scratched his head.

"Let's avoid it for a while." Zhumei said and was about to get up. "It's okay, just stay here, it's nothing serious." Tuo Shi said. Takemi was a little overwhelmed.She seemed to have gotten the general idea from Shi Sheng, and Jesse also looked uncomfortable. "We finally met, let's say hello, and thank you for your assistance this time." Upon hearing this, Tuoshi blurted out without thinking: "If you don't escape here, I won't come here." "But there is no other place for us to meet except here. It can be said that you are destined to be here."

"Don't put on airs! If it's inconvenient for me to be here, I'll go out right away. Gao Cang, let's go outside for a battle meeting." Gao Cang also seemed at a loss.He looked up at Shi Sheng. "Tuoshi, you are outrageous." Shisheng said. "What?" Tuoshi stared at him with wide eyes, "You have bad intentions. Let us meet here on purpose to show that I don't know what to do. Am I a bad guy?" "It's not a villain, it's a child." "What did you say?" He looked back at Zhumei. "What's the matter with saying hello? Aren't you related by blood?"

"It's already been thrown away, so why talk about blood relationship!" "It can't be said to be thrown away. It is for consideration, entrusting you to someone with better conditions." "Don't give birth if you can't afford it. Why? Isn't that right?" "It doesn't matter if I don't have you now, does it matter?" "What's wrong with not being born?" Takemi shook her head and sighed. "You are unreasonable. Shisheng, don't worry about this fool." "Did you never feel that it's good to be in this world?" Tokio said, "Don't you like Chizuru now? You will also like all kinds of people in the future, just because you are alive."

"I am alive today because I was raised by my adoptive parents named Miyamoto, and it has nothing to do with the person who only cares about giving birth and throwing it away after birth. Even cats and dogs can't do that kind of thing. , always raise the children until they can support themselves." Tuoshi roared loudly, but everyone fell silent.In the dull silence, only the sound of "shush" was heard.It took a long time before Takumi realized that it was his own panting. He bit his lips tightly, and at this moment, the old woman's weak voice reached his ears. "I heard that you have been to Tojo's house."

Everyone looked at the old woman.She sat upright, looking up at Takumi. "Thank you very much. Sumiko has nothing to let go of now. I really want to thank you." She folded her hands towards Takumi and bowed her head deeply. "Tuo Shi!" Shi Sheng shouted urgently. "...so depressing." Tuoshi stood up, quickly walked through the crowd, put on his shoes and went out.When he came to the street, he looked at the rows of old houses from the corner of his eye and walked aimlessly.Without much recollection, the scene in "Sky Classroom" automatically appeared in front of his eyes.He muttered: What's the matter?These people don't understand my business at all, they just make fun of me...

When he came back to his senses, he found that he had walked in front of a park.A lone bench was empty.Tuoshi sat down and reached into his pocket, trying to take out a cigarette, but the pocket was empty. "Bastard!" He spat on the ground. A shadow appeared on the ground in the shape of a human.Tuoshi looked up and saw Shisheng standing there. "Come to preach to me again?" Tuo Shi asked. "I want to ask you to visit a place." "Here we go again. Where is it this time? Hokkaido or Okinawa?" "It's nearby." Shi Sheng raised his leg and walked away.

Takumi didn't stand up right away.He thought, if he didn't keep up, he would probably stop in time.But Shisheng didn't look back at all, and kept walking.It seems that he has made up his mind: if Tuoshi doesn't follow, it will stop here. Takumi smacked his lips and stood up.Reluctantly, he followed.Shi Sheng seemed to sense it and slowed down.It wasn't long before Takumi caught up with him. "Where are you going?" "Just follow me." After a while, they came to a wider road.There were a lot of cars on the road, so they waited until the green light turned on and walked over.On the opposite side of the road are rows of high-rise buildings, paved with sidewalks, and stop under the street trees from time to time.

"Just across the road, the vibe is totally different, right?" "yes." "Do you know why?" "How do I know? I haven't lived here before." "I heard from the old woman that the land in this area is basically in the hands of someone, and only a few people live on their own land. The same is true on the side of the road, but because of something, that person sold the land, So tall buildings were built." "What does something mean?" "Fire." Shi Sheng said, "In the past, there were small houses all over here, but one day a fire broke out and almost burned the whole area. Fajiu, it is said that dozens of people died.”

"It's a sad story, but what does it matter to me?" Shi Sheng silently took out a white envelope from his jeans pocket and handed it to Takumi. The recipient on the envelope is "Miyamoto Kunio" - Takumi's adoptive father, and the recipient's address is the old place name of the place where he grew up. "what is this?" "Don't ask so many questions, just read it." "It's too troublesome." Tuoshi pushed the envelope back, "You must have read it, why don't you tell me the content?" Shisheng sighed. "This is a letter written to you by Sumiko Tojo. She was not yet married at the time, so the sender wrote 'Sumiko Asaoka'. At first she was going to send it, but then she changed her mind. Listen to the old lady. , This letter has been kept in the drawer of the closet. I just read it too. Of course it’s okay to tell you the content, but it’s always difficult to convey it all, you’d better read it yourself.”

As he spoke, he pushed the envelope onto Takumi again. "There's no need to look at it. Anyway, there won't be a big deal. It's nothing more than an explanation, an excuse or something." "What are you afraid of?" "Who's scared?" "Aren't you just scared? Worried that the letter wrote something you don't want to know. Now it's just a bad attitude. After reading the letter, you can't bluff. Is that what you think?" "Are you kidding? I have nothing to worry about? I just don't want to see that woman's nonsense." "Are you talking nonsense? You'll know if you confirm it yourself? In my opinion, you are worried and afraid." Tuoshi looked at the envelope, then at Shisheng.Shi Sheng's eyes were firm, and he didn't seem to be able to hold back.Takushi had no choice but to reach out and take it. Ten sheets of letterhead were bulging in the envelope.The letter paper has turned yellow slightly, and the words are written in blue and black ink.Takumi secretly took a deep breath.On the first letterhead it read: This is my letter to Takumi.When the time is right, show it to him.If you think it is unnecessary to give it to him, you can burn it. From the second page onwards, each letter paper is densely filled with words. Toshi, how are you?I am your biological mother.However, I am not qualified to claim to be your mother.Because I gave birth to you, I handed you over to someone else.I'm so sorry for you.If you resent me for it, I deserve it too.Anyone who knows this is unforgivable. However, I think there is one thing I must let you know, and I am writing this letter.It's your father's business.His name is Shi Zeqiao.Yes, you and your father too.He lives in the same town as us and is a cartoonist.I guess you haven't seen his comics.The pseudonym he used was Yuzuka Yumezanan, which you probably haven’t heard of, but it was based on Osamu Tezuka.The man who made the dream, of course, also has such a meaning.It's a pity that the sales of his works are only one percent of Tezuka's, and he is almost unknown to the world, but his manga is quite good. I'm one of his few readers, but I'm not proud of it, because I didn't pay for it, I borrowed it from a friend. Once, when I was reading his comics, I discovered an unexpected detail—some of the scenes he depicted were exactly the same as the town where I lived, in the comic called "The Classroom Flying in the Air".I thought maybe he lived nearby, so I wrote to the editorial office.Soon he himself wrote back to me. The address written in the letter was in the same town, and I was welcome to come and play at any time. With great determination, I went to his residence.It turned out that the house of Yumezuka Natozuka, like ours, was one of the old houses that were tightly packed together.The name tag reads "Kakizawa", followed by parentheses, which read "Yumesaku Nazuzuka".Only then did I know his real name. He was twenty-three years old.He welcomed my visit very much. It is said that no readers have ever visited.I was a little surprised to see him.He is physically disabled and cannot walk normally.He said he was seriously ill shortly after he was born, and his sequelae made his legs unable to move.His legs were as thin as a clothes-line, and from the ankle down they were exactly like a child's foot. He said plainly that because of his poor family, he couldn't go to the hospital in time when he got sick, and the treatment was delayed, which caused sequelae. In spite of his profound disability, he entertained me with tea and refreshments.He moved around the room with great dexterity almost solely by the strength of his arms.He said that it is not troublesome to go to the toilet, and it is true.But if I want to go outside, I have to use a wheelchair, and it is very difficult to sit on my own.Wheelchairs are placed at the gate.Occasionally he would hire hourly workers to clean the room, do the laundry, cook and so on.He said that because he had no money, he couldn't call every day.I have also met that part-time worker several times, she is a very nice aunt. He was born into a peasant family in Wakayama.He said he felt sorry for being unable to do anything when he was supposed to help around the house. His life value is comics.As his pseudonym suggests, he was particularly fond of Osamu Tezuka's manga.Later, he also started to draw, and contributed articles to well-known comic magazines. After being adopted several times, he had the dream of becoming a professional cartoonist. He came to Osaka in his early twenties.It is said that the people from the publishing house told him that if he did not go to the big cities, he would fall behind the times in the future.He was supposed to go to Tokyo, but everyone around him advised him to stay as close to home as possible, so he compromised.At first, his older sister, who was three years older than him, was with him. Later, when his older sister got married, he lived alone.At that time, he was hoping to become a cartoonist, and he felt that it was a pity to go home. As for his body, I was only a little surprised when I first met him, but I didn't take it seriously immediately.Not only that, but after meeting him a few times, I was attracted to him.He is cheerful, knowledgeable, always chatting and laughing, and never makes me feel boring.What attracts me the most is that he makes me feel that he really cares about me.At that time, it was a great pleasure for me to go to his house to play, but I couldn't let others know, because the world thought it was shameless for a young girl to go to a man's room alone, let alone this man with an abnormal body. , I don't know what rumors will come out.I can't even tell my mother, otherwise she will definitely prohibit me from going there immediately.I hid from everyone's eyes and sneaked to him.Looking back now, it was a happy time. However, misfortune struck suddenly.My mother shook me awake one night and said there was a fire nearby.The exact location of the fire was not known, but the loud voices outside indicated that the fire had spread. My mother and I ran outside the house. It was quite dark, but there were already many spectators on the street.Seeing the direction in which they were running, I had an ominous premonition.Kaki Zeqiao lived there.I couldn't help but ran towards it. As we got closer to the scene of the fire, my worry began to turn into despair.It was the area where he lived that caught fire.People have started fighting, but the fire is difficult to contain. I ran to his house desperately.The flames had approached the gate of his house, and he couldn't get close.I turned to the back of the house again, because it was a long row of houses, and there was an alley behind the house. I walked through a labyrinth of alleys and finally came to the back of his house.At this time, the surrounding area was filled with raging fire and thick smoke billowing.I had trouble breathing and it was hard to keep my eyes open. I yelled desperately and knocked on the window of his house.The windows are made of frosted glass so that the inside of the house cannot be seen from the outside. After a while, the window opened.I saw his hands first, then his face.He raised himself up desperately and opened the window. "What are you here for? Go!" he said to me.I said: "I want to go with you!" But I also have to admit that this is impossible.There are also several anti-theft iron bars nailed to the windows.Even without them, I couldn't drag him out of the window.All I can choose is to die with him. He could see my thoughts, shook his head sadly, and said: "The ball is on you, you go quickly. How can I drag you down? You should add my life span and live for a long time. Just think that you can live , Even at this very moment, I already feel the future." Then he handed out a big tea bag and said, "Take this and let's go, this is the lucky creation of me and you. "I found out later that it contained the original manuscript of "Sky Classroom". I cried and refused to leave, but he smiled and closed the window. It seemed that even the latch had been inserted, and the window could no longer be pushed. I burst into tears and banged on the window.At this time, the fire was already burning around.After smelling the smell of burnt hair, I couldn't help running away.I abandoned him and chose to live. However, from that day on, I was like a fool.The grief of losing him and the regret of letting him die tortured me every moment.I can't eat.As long as I go down, maybe I will die.It was you who saved me, Takumi. After learning that I was pregnant with his child, I decided to live no matter what.I feel like this is my calling.I thought carefully about the words he said at the last moment: "Even in this moment, I have already felt the future." I believe that his future is in my womb. I cannot say who the father of the child is.I stubbornly kept my mouth shut, and I didn't listen to the opinions of the people around me trying to persuade me to have an abortion.In this way, Takumi, you were born. What follows is my interpretation.If you don’t want to read on, there’s nothing you can do. I’m not qualified to force you to read on, but let’s write it down. My dream is to bring you up, no matter what, I have to accomplish this big thing.However, for me as a child at the time, there were too many things I couldn't do.My family has very little income and it is difficult to provide you with adequate nutrition.What's more unfortunate is that I have no milk due to my weak health.I think if you go on like this, your life is like a candle in the wind, which is in danger of being extinguished at any time.I thought of him who was dead.When he was seriously ill, he failed to receive good treatment, and as a result, he became disabled and regretted it.I want you to be as great as your father, but I don't want you to go through what happened to him, so I changed your name to Tuoshi. Miyamoto and his wife are our benefactors, they raised you up healthily.No matter how much you thank them, you will never be able to repay them. It doesn't matter if you forget me, but you must honor them both for the rest of your life.Also, you have to live well and realize your father's future.These are my wishes. Asaoka Sumiko Tuoshi sat on the guardrail and read the letter.Halfway through, he forgot the pain caused by the hard and narrow guardrail. It was the first time he came into contact with his biological parents, among which was the answer to the question "why was he born". "Have you finished reading?" Shi Sheng asked. "Ok." "How about it?" "what?" "Impressions. Wouldn't it be a little touching?" Tuoshi stood up with his mouth curled up, carefully folded the letter, put it back in the envelope, and handed it to Shisheng. "Nothing in particular worth mentioning." Shi Sheng immediately showed a fierce look in his eyes. "really?" "Why are you angry? There is nothing new, if there is, there is only a little bit about that cartoonist, and it has nothing to do with me." "It doesn't matter?" "Yeah, he's no longer in this world, and he hasn't left me any legacy." "Why do you only speak in this tone?" Shi Sheng shook his head sadly. "Then what kind of tone do you want me to use? Do you think I will be deeply moved when I read it? Do you have to be satisfied if I cry bitterly? I was born on impulse, and I threw it out when I couldn't afford it. What I wrote this?" "You, which paragraph of this letter did you read?" Shi turned his face angrily, reached out and grabbed Takumi's collar with considerable strength, "Why did your father ask your mother to escape? The last sentence Don't you see? Even at this moment, I can already feel the future... Do you understand the meaning of this sentence?" "Didn't you just say something beautiful before you died?" "Bastard!" With a loud curse, Tuoshi's eyes went dark, and he was hit at the same time, and fell backwards.When he understood, Shi Sheng had already ridden on him, grabbed his collar and shook him vigorously. "Do you understand the feelings of people facing death? Are you kidding me! At that time, the fire was already burning in front of you. At this time, can you say something like the future? Are you talking beautifully?" Tuoshi saw Shisheng's enthusiasm welling up in his eyes, which made him lose the momentum of making strong words. "Be sure that the person you like can live well. Even in the face of death, you can see the future. For your father, your mother is the future. People will feel the future at any time. No matter how short a moment, As long as there is a sense of being alive, there is a future. Let me tell you, the future is not just tomorrow. The future is in the heart. As long as you have the future in your heart, you can be happy. Because someone taught your mother this, she gave birth to you Come down. But look at yourself, you are full of complaints all day long, and you don’t want to make progress! You can’t blame others if you don’t feel the future, you have to blame yourself, because you are a jerk!” Shisheng yelled desperately, but Takumi couldn't take his eyes off him.Every word Shi Sheng said was like a lock, which locked his body firmly, making him unable to move. Shi Sheng seemed to come back to his senses suddenly, and let go of his hand with his mouth half-opened. "I'm sorry..." he mumbled, looking down. "Are you relieved?" Shisheng kept silent, stood up from Tuoshi, and patted the stained place of his jeans. "I shouldn't say these words. No matter what I say, it's useless if you don't understand. But, Takumi, I'm glad that I came into this world." Shisheng looked at Takumi, with both ends of his lips curled up Started, and said, "You want to say 'you were born into a wealthy family anyway', right?" "No," Tuoshi shook his head, "I don't say such things." "Okay, I can do whatever I want." Shisheng put the envelope on the lap of Tuoshi who was still sitting on the ground, "I'll go back first." Tuoshi sat cross-legged and watched Shisheng cross the road. -------------------------------- Note: