Chapter 6 Section 6

It was very quiet in the corridor.Great, Xi Ji finally breathed a sigh of relief.When inpatients have abnormalities, the atmosphere in the corridor will be different.The long-term life of a resident doctor has taught Xi Ji to learn to distinguish this difference.Moreover, if there is any problem, Nozomi Mase's expression should become more tense. However, her explanation for the man traveling with her was very unnatural.Visitors coming to visit family members will end up on the wrong floor, which is not usually possible.What's more, the moment the elevator door opened, the two of them were standing face to face, and it felt like they were talking.

Xi Ji thought, could he be Wang's friend?But she didn't pursue it.Even if this is the case, it is not a big deal, she thinks it has nothing to do with herself. Xi Ji went to the intensive care unit to check, and it seemed that there was nothing wrong with it, and there was no sign of Yuangong or Yamauchi.Apparently, there was really no emergency surgery.If so, even if she was dining with the professor, she should be called back. Even so, Xi Ji still didn't want to leave immediately, so he started to deal with the medication-related affairs of the patient who underwent surgery yesterday.It's a rare opportunity to get off work just after twelve o'clock, but tonight, she doesn't want to stay in that small dormitory for a long time.She knew very well that she couldn't fall asleep right away when she went back, she must be looking at the stained ceiling, worrying about some things that she couldn't do anything about, thinking wildly, losing her objective judgment, making her emotions aroused in vain.

Yes, no matter how you think about it, there is nothing you can do. The conversation she had with Lily Megumi replayed in her mind.The mother's shy and awkward tone was still in my ears, "I'm thinking about remarrying—" Of course, Xi Ji was quite shocked.She panicked and almost wanted to rush out the door.However, the words that came out in the next instant were so calm that even he was surprised. "Really? Not bad, isn't that great?" Lily Hui also showed a surprised expression. "that's it?" "Otherwise, what should I say? Ah, yes, I should say congratulations."

Even I felt that there was a thorn in my words. However, Lily Hui did not frown displeasedly, but blushed a little.It's not just about red wine. "Don't you have anything to ask?" Lily Hui said. Xi Ji shook his head. "There's nothing to ask, I already knew the target." Lily Hui seemed to take a breath and nodded slightly. "Isn't this great? I have no objection. It's fine for mom to decide for herself. This is mom's life, and mom's new start." "That's right... yes, start again." "Cheers to starting again?" Xi Ji raised his water glass.But she whispered in her heart, this is not my new start—

Looking back at their conversation, she plunged into self-loathing, regretting how she had answered her mother in such a way.If you are dissatisfied, just say it clearly.The reason why she couldn't say it was because if she was asked the reason, she couldn't tell a reason. I doubt you—she can't say that, even if they both have seen it from her past attitude. She superimposed the face of the patient lying on the intensive care unit bed with the face of her father.Before the operation, Kensuke looked better than the patient.Normally, no one would think of him as a patient. However, he died.My father, who said he wanted to live a cool life, didn't move or breathe on the second night, and his whole body was surrounded by dry ice.

"What is this? What's going on? If this is the case, why don't you have any surgery!" Uncle's angry voice revived in Xi Ji's ear. On the night of his father's death, when all the relatives arrived, Bai Hehui explained the situation, and his uncle immediately lost his temper. "However, if there is no operation, there is a possibility of rupture..." "What is possible? Who knows about this kind of thing! It might not break!" "No, the doctor said it will rupture one day." "Even if that's the case, isn't everything lost if the operation fails?"

"Because of Kensuke's case, it seems to be a very difficult operation... These hospitals have explained it in advance." "Because it's very difficult, do we have to accept our fate if we fail? This is too strange! How can there be such a reason! Lily Hui, you can accept this kind of reason? I saw him three days before the operation, he But he is alive and well, and I made an appointment with me to go fishing after leaving the hospital. This kind of person will die in three days? How unreasonable!" Uncle said, his mouth was flying. Kensuke's aortic aneurysm seemed to grow in a very tricky place, that is, the branch of important blood vessels, and after the chest was opened, it was found that most of it had been adhered.

Just as relatives said, Xi Ji, who was only in junior high school at the time, also suspected that it was the doctor's negligence.No matter how difficult the operation is, the one who can overcome the difficulties to complete the operation is called a doctor, isn't it?That's why they can collect so much money and be respected and appreciated by so many people, isn't it? Some relatives also suggested that it is best to sue the hospital, but Lily Megumin did not express his attitude, and even thought that Kensuke himself would accept such a result. Xi Ji was also dissatisfied with her mother's attitude.

The pain of losing my father did not go away easily.But Xi Ji immediately understood that crying was not the answer, because Lily Hui had to go out to work, and finally found a job in the hotel's beauty salon to put on kimonos for customers.Xi Ji never knew that her mother had this specialty, and it was only at this time that she learned that her mother used to work in the kimono store of a department store before marriage. Although this job does not have a huge income, Kensuke has insured several life insurance policies. As long as he saves a little, the life of the mother and daughter should be passable.Although Xiji felt lonely when she came home from school and there was no one in the house, when she thought of her mother working hard for them, she felt more grateful than anything else.Housework that I seldom did in the past, I also began to take the initiative to help.

The new life with her mother made Xi Ji become sensible and strong.Working hard every day, I was finally able to drive away the cowardice that sprouted in my heart. In this way, several months passed in a blink of an eye.Although she couldn't let go of Kensuke's death, her relatives stopped talking.A large aneurysm that was about to rupture ruptured during surgery - and that was the end of the situation. If this situation continues and nothing happens, perhaps Xi Ji will gradually dispel her doubts.However, this is not the case. It happened one night.Xi Ji was preparing dinner when the phone rang at home. It was Bai Hehui calling, saying that she would be home late and asked Xi Ji to eat first, and she might eat outside before coming back.

Xi Ji was cooking five treasures, because that's what Lily Hui loved to eat, but after hanging up the phone, she couldn't get any more energy out of it.She put the materials aside, fell directly on the sofa, and fell asleep after a while.When I woke up, the hands of the clock had pointed to nearly ten o'clock.Lily Hui hasn't come back yet. Xi Ji felt very hungry, but didn't want to cook.She put on her coat, took her wallet and went out.A convenience store is just a five minute walk away. She bought something and went back to the neighborhood where she lived, and saw a car parked by the side of the road, and she recognized it as a Mercedes.The figure in the car swayed, and the door opened. She couldn't help but stop when she saw the person getting out of the car. That person was Bai Hehui. She looked at the driver's seat, probably because the door was open, the interior lights were on, and she could recognize the driver's face. Xi Ji almost cried out.Isn't it the doctor Xiyuan who illuminates in the dim light?Shocked, she peeked from behind a light vehicle next to her. After the car door was closed, Bai Hehui seemed to be still smiling and saying something, and after the car started, she still stayed at the scene and watched the car go away.From Xi Ji's point of view, that was a look of reluctance. Lily Hui didn't walk towards the apartment until she couldn't see the car.Xi Ji chased after her and called "Mom". Lily Hui was like a puppet with a loose clockwork, it froze for a moment, then turned around slowly, its movements also seemed very stiff. "Xi Ji...how did you run out?" "Convenience store." She lifted the bag in her hand. "Mom, that person just now..." She faced the direction where Mercedes was leaving, "Isn't that the person? The doctor who helped Dad see a doctor, Doctor Xiyuan." The corner of Lily Hui's mouth twitched, first she smiled, and then said: "Yes." The tone was very steady. "Why did you come back with him?" "It's nothing. Let's go home first! The weather is a bit cold." Bai Hehui said, before her daughter could answer, she raised her steps and walked forward. Xi Ji silently followed behind her mother who was walking fast, feeling that her mother's back seemed to be repelling something, and she had never felt this way when walking behind her before. Back home, Lily Hui went to the kitchen to drink water first, put down the glass, and sighed, Xi Ji was watching her from the dining table. Lily Hui came out of the kitchen, her expression turned thoughtful. "Actually," she said with her head slightly lowered, "Mom's current job was introduced by Dr. Xiyuan. Because the hospital often holds medical conferences in that restaurant, Dr. Xiyuan seems to have connections there." "So that's the case." Of course, this was the first time Xi Ji had heard of it. "Today, the doctor came to the hotel because of something, so he came to see me. I also think I should thank him, so I will come back later." "Then, are you having dinner with Doctor Xiyuan?" Lily Hui gave a short hum. Oh.Xi Ji also responded, picked up the bag from the convenience store, walked into the kitchen, put the lunch in the microwave, and pressed the heating switch. "Mom, why did Dr. Xiyuan introduce you to a job?" Xi Ji asked looking at the bento in the microwave. "Is it to atone for the failure of the operation?" Lily Hui blinked several times, with a stiff expression, before answering: "Maybe." The same thing didn't happen again.Lily Hui occasionally came home late, but it was obviously for work. Even at this time, she rarely returned home after nine o'clock in the evening. However, Xi Ji couldn't be sure that Lily Megumi hadn't met Dr. Xiyuan.Her vacation is Monday, because it is a normal day, of course Xi Ji has to go to school, what Lily Hui is doing during this time, Xi Ji has no idea. One day, Xi Ji experienced a decisive meeting. That day was also Monday, when she came home from school, Xi Yuan was at home. He sat upright in the living room with his back straight and greeted her with a smile. "The doctor said that something happened to be nearby, so I stopped by to have a look." Bai Hehui's words sounded like an excuse. Really?! Xi Ji said and nodded. "Then, I'll take my leave." Xi Yuan stood up. "Seeing that Ling Qianjin is in good spirits, I feel more at ease." "Thank you doctor for your trouble." Bai Hehui thanked him. "If there's anything you need, just tell me. You're welcome. As long as I can, I'll help you with anything." Xiyuan nodded as he said. Lily Hui didn't speak, but lowered her head slightly, her eyes revealing a look of trust. Seeing this scene, Xi Ji felt that this person might be a special person to her mother... Xi Ji never even thought that Lily Hui would fall in love with another opposite sex.Although her mother is biologically a woman, Xi Ji firmly believes that her mother will no longer establish a relationship between a man and a woman. Thinking about it carefully, it is actually very possible, not to mention that Lily Hui is still young, although in Xi Ji's eyes, she is a middle-aged woman, but at her age, it is not surprising to fall in love. Just because the memories of Kensuke are still vivid, she doesn't want to admit that her mother has a crush on other men, let alone the doctor who didn't save her father. From that day on, Nishizono visited Himuro's house frequently, always on Mondays.From the second time on, not only Xiyuan himself, but even Lily Hui didn't say "just came here" as an excuse. However, he never sits for long.It has become a semi-ceremonial practice to leave half an hour after Xi Ji returns home.So, once Xi Ji said to Bai Hehui: "I can come back later. In this way, Doctor Xiyuan doesn't have to leave in a hurry." However, Lily Hui shook her head and said that was not the case. "Doctor Xiyuan is waiting for Xiji! He said, if you don't see with your own eyes how you are doing, there is no point in visiting you. So, you should come back as soon as possible like you are doing now." "Oh..." Xi Ji felt that this was also a kind of trouble, but she didn't say it out. Whether or not they met on a day other than Monday, she tried not to think about it, because anytime she did, she couldn't help but wonder about their relationship. She learned from Lily Hui that Xiyuan was single and seemed to have been married, but his wife passed away.But I don't know if there are any children in Xiyuan. In this way, the days passed.Soon, one year after Kensuke's death, and after the anniversary ceremony, everyone had dinner together. Uncle raised doubts about the hospital again, but almost no one agreed, and there was even an atmosphere of "why mention the past again". "If I had known earlier, I would have been the leader, but I never thought that Bai Hehui would let it go." The uncle complained and poured himself a drink. Hearing these few words, Xi Ji suddenly thought of something.Mother did not raise a strong protest against the hospital, could it be because she had already developed a good impression of Dr. Xiyuan at that time?When facing the person you like, no matter what the other person did wrong, you can't bear to blame him. However, a scene immediately appeared in Xi Ji's mind.When Kensuke's illness was first discovered, Lily Megumi and Nishizono met in a coffee shop near their home. What does this represent? At that time, she simply thought that they were discussing Kensuke's condition, but if they were talking about the condition, it is reasonable to say that they should be in the hospital?Why in a coffee shop? Ominous thoughts began to expand in Xi Ji's mind. This imagination was too ugly and cruel. Even if he taught himself not to think about it, the doubts in his heart continued to expand uncontrollably. if…… Did the relationship between Baihehui and Xiyuan begin before Kensuke's operation?Needless to say, it was an affair.If the status quo is maintained, the two will definitely not be able to combine. However, Bai Hehui's husband fell ill, and it was Nishizono Hinata who performed the operation for him.It is a well-known fact that surgery is extremely difficult. If the operation is successful, Kensuke will recover, and he will be discharged from the hospital in a short time and return to normal life.In other words, the husband-wife relationship between Kensuke and Lily Megumi will also be maintained. Would Dr. Nishizono hope so?Does he want Lily Hui to continue to be a wife? Kensuke's life and death are in the hands of Dr. Xiyuan.Even if the operation failed, it only needs to say "very difficult", and you can explain it in any way afterwards.If so, will he still go all out? This idea cannot be discussed with anyone, everything is a product of imagination.However, this thought lingered and settled in Xi Ji's heart like a black residue, which did not disappear despite the passage of time, and instead made her feel even heavier. "I'm going to be a doctor in the future." The words she said in the autumn of the third year of junior high school were the conclusion she found the only way, and only that way could erase the growing doubts in her heart.