Chapter 2 chapter 2

Before that, Xi Ji had never seen his father show weakness.Kensuke is the kind of person who has a calm personality and doesn't show his emotions or anger, but from his tight mouth, he can always feel a wordless confidence. When he is with him, he can be relied on and fully protected by him. In fact, he is engaged in the work of protecting others, and he is the director of the security company.When Xi Memorial Elementary School, Kensuke once took her to the company, which was a room full of communication equipment and monitors.Her father explained to her that a building or residence contracts with a security company, and those tools are used to manage the data returned by these customers.The father in uniform looked more dependable than usual.

Kensuke seemed to be a policeman before joining the security company, but Yuki didn't have that memory.The reason why Kensuke resigned from the police is said to be that the work was too hard, and his mother Lily Megumi told her so.But Xi Ji didn't think the security company's work was easy, because Kensuke always came home very late, and he would snore loudly during holidays, sleeping until the afternoon. That day, when Xi Ji, who was in middle school, came home from school, Kensuke's shoes were already placed in the entrance. He had never come back so early before. Bingshijia is an apartment with two bedrooms and two living rooms.Lily Megumi and Kensuke were talking in the living room across the coffee table.

"I've had a bad feeling for a long time," Kensuke frowned, and picked up the teacup, "That's why I don't want to do a health check!" "What are you talking about! It's because of your refusal to check before that, that's why you became like this." Lily Hui gave him a reproachful look. Kensuke sipped his tea with a look of being hit by a sore spot. "What's wrong?" Xi Ji looked at his father and then at his mother. Kensuke didn't answer, and Baihehui didn't make a sound, staring at her husband's profile before turning to Xiji. "Today's health check, the doctor found that Dad has a physical problem."

Xi Ji was startled. "Hey! What's the problem?" "It's no big deal!" Kensuke didn't turn his head, and said with his back to his daughter, "It's not painful or itchy, and there is no inconvenience in life. To be honest, life goes by without knowing it." "But, didn't the doctor ask you to do a more detailed examination?" Bai Hehui said. "Of course the doctor would say that. We've already found out. If you didn't give any instructions, you might be held accountable afterwards." "What did you find?" Xi Ji asked. "Could it be... cancer?"

Kensuke almost spit out the tea in his mouth, and turned his head with a smile. "Nah." "Otherwise what is it?" "I heard it's an aneurysm." Lily Hui replied. "what is that?" At that time, Xi Ji didn't understand what this word meant and how to write it. At most, he knew that arteries were blood vessels. Lily Hui told her that a tumor is a growth on the body.Kensuke had a tumor in his blood vessel. "I didn't expect to have such a thing. I didn't notice it at all." Kensuke rubbed his chest.It appears that the aneurysm is growing in the chest.

"Dad, does it hurt?" "It doesn't hurt. Today is the same as usual. You can't see anything wrong with me, right?" It's true that she couldn't tell, so Xi Ji nodded. "If you go for a health check at this age, at least one or two problems will be found." Kensuke seems to be still regretting the health check. "Is that cured well?" Xi Ji asked. "Of course, the treatment is cured." Kensuke's tone was a bit vague. "I heard that an operation may be required." Xi Ji's eyes widened involuntarily at her mother's words. "Really?"

"I don't know yet, but I think it should be all right." The self-confidence that had always made Xi Ji feel at ease disappeared from Kensuke's face, and even appeared as if he was afraid of something.It was the first time she had seen such an expression on her father's face. The next day, Kensuke underwent a close examination.Xi Ji knew about this, so as soon as he got home from school, he asked about the result. No surgery for the time being - so my father replied. "It doesn't seem urgent. That is to say, it depends on the situation for the time being." Kensuke said vaguely.

Dinner that day was a vegetable-based Japanese cuisine.Yuki's main dish was roast beef, but Kensuke's was tofu.It is said that high blood pressure and arteriosclerosis are the causes of aneurysm formation. "I thought arteriosclerosis had nothing to do with me, so I'm old too." Kensuke said with a frustrated face, and then put the tofu into his mouth.I have to take medicine after meals. I heard it is a medicine for lowering blood pressure. Xi Ji didn't realize that his father was older than his classmates' fathers until he was in the upper grades of elementary school.Lily Hui usually attends the teaching observation. Compared with other mothers, she is not old at all, and even looks younger.Xi Ji also heard friends praise her mother for being young and beautiful more than once or twice.

As for Kensuke's age, Xi Ji didn't realize it for the first time until he was discussing the topic of marriage with his friends.Back then, they were talking about the age gap between husband and wife.She said that my parents were fifteen years apart, and my friends were surprised. However, Xi Ji never put this matter together with his own future.Kensuke is healthy and energetic, and she has always believed that this will not change even after she grows up in a few years. Seeing his father arching his shoulders and taking his medicine, Xi Ji felt vigilant for the first time, knowing that the day when his father would be called an old man was in the near future.Because of this, she kept praying in her heart that this day would come later.

The parents didn't talk much about the condition of the aneurysm.Xi Ji vaguely felt that they didn't want their daughter to hear, so she privately speculated that the situation might not be optimistic. Parents often mentioned the name of Dr. Xiyuan.From the content of the conversation, it can be heard that he is Kensuke's attending physician, and he sounds like an experienced doctor with excellent medical skills.Although Xi Ji had never met him, she also pinned her hopes on the doctor considering that he was the one who saved Kensuke's life. It was purely by chance that Xi Ji saw this doctor.One day after school, she went to the stationery store in front of the station with her classmates, and one of her classmates told her: Xi Ji, where is your mother.

There is a coffee shop opposite the stationery store. When the automatic door in the shop opened, I could just see the situation inside the shop. Yuki crossed the road and stood in front of the coffee shop.When the automatic door opened, Lily Hui was indeed inside.She is sitting facing this way, as if with someone else. Soon, Lily Hui also found her, first opened her eyes wide in surprise, and then waved to her gently. The person sitting opposite Lily Hui turned his head.The other party was a man with distinct features and a serious look. He is Xiyuan Yangping.Xi Ji was convinced that he was the one who saved his father's life, so he saluted him respectfully, and asked the doctor to cure his father. Don't worry, it'll be fine——Dr. Xiyuan replied.The teeth that show when you smile are beautiful. Why did they meet in that place, Xi Ji didn't ask, because she didn't find it strange, she thought they must be talking about Kensuke's condition. That night, Xi Ji told Kensuke about meeting Xiyuan, but he didn't look surprised, obviously Lily Megumi had already told him.The doctor must be handsome——Kensuke said with a smile. After that, the peaceful life continued for a while.Just as Yuki was gradually no longer worried about his father's condition, Kensuke experienced something strange.At that time, they were having breakfast. Kensuke suddenly put down his chopsticks and pressed the lower part of his throat. Lily Hui asked him what happened. "Hmm... I seem to be choking a bit." Kensuke frowned and tilted his head. "It was supposed to be checked the day after tomorrow, but I think it's better to go to the hospital first." "Are you okay?" Xi Ji looked at his father. Kensuke smiled, "It's nothing, don't worry." However, he did not continue to eat. He asked for leave from the company, and when he arrived at the hospital, he was hospitalized directly.The news of the operation a week later was told to Xi Ji by Bai Hehui who came home late that night. The term surgery sounds so heavy and full of pressure.Although Xi Ji didn't know exactly what to do, but just because the scalpel was about to cut open his father's body, he felt it was difficult to breathe. That night, she couldn't fall asleep, and wanted to get up for a drink, but saw a light in the living room. The door opened a crack, and Lily Hui could be seen.She sat on the sofa, motionless, concentrating on contemplation, with her hands clasped squarely on her lap. Xi Ji thought that her mother was praying for a successful operation. At that time, she could not imagine other possibilities. The second day Kensuke was hospitalized was Saturday, so Yuki went straight to the hospital as soon as school was over. Kensuke lived in a six-person room. He was sitting cross-legged on the hospital bed by the window and reading weekly magazines. When he saw Xi Ji, he greeted him with a smile. "Dad looks fine." "Very good! It's almost as if I'm not sick. I'm so bored." "Do you have to lie in bed?" "I'm kind of sick anyway. They say if you run around, it breaks." "Break?" Xi Ji was surprised and asked hastily. Kensuke pointed to his chest. "They said that the tumor of the blood vessel has grown very large. However, it shouldn't break so easily." "What happens if it breaks?" "I don't know." He tilted his head thinking. "It's not good! That's why I need to have an operation." In fact, it was more than bad. Many cases ended in death. Kensuke didn't tell the truth. Of course, he didn't want his daughter to worry. Seeing his father's healthy appearance, Xi Ji felt less uneasy.She also visits the hospital on Sunday, and reports to the hospital every day after the weekend.Kensuke didn't have any abnormalities, and every time he saw his daughter, he would cry out that he was bored. On Thursday, the day before the operation, Kensuke rarely said to his daughter with a serious expression: "Xi Ji, what do you want to do in the future?" Xi Ji once talked with Bai Hehui about entering high school, but it was the first time her father asked her about the future, as far as she could remember. She honestly replied that she didn't know yet. "Really? Think slowly, and you will find your way in the future." "can you?" "You can't live in a muddle! As long as you work hard and think about others, you will understand many things naturally. Everyone has a mission that can only be accomplished by themselves, and everyone is born with this mission in mind. Dad is like this think." "It's so cool." ! "Isn't it! Since you want to live, you have to live coolly!" As he spoke, Kensuke narrowed his eyes and smiled. Why he said these words, Xi Ji didn't understand.After several years, she still didn't understand.Maybe her father didn't mean much, but the conversation at that time was deeply imprinted in her memory. The operation was performed on Friday, and Xi Ji went to school as usual.When I went out, I mentioned the operation to Lily Hui, but the atmosphere was not serious. Lily Hui's expression was the same as usual, and she also made breakfast for her as usual. Even so, when it was nearly noon, Xi Ji began to feel restless, because she knew that the operation would be performed around eleven o'clock, and her palms were sweating just by imagining her father lying on the operating table. It was past four o'clock in the afternoon when I got home from school.Lily Hui was not there, but someone said that she would contact Xi Ji when the operation was successfully completed.Since the operation might last until night, Lily Hui asked Xi Ji to have dinner by herself in advance.Xi Ji opened the refrigerator, and there were already several dishes in it, each of which was her favorite. After eating dinner early, Xi Ji watched TV and flipped through magazines to pass the time.However, she couldn't concentrate on watching TV or magazines at all, and looked at the clock from time to time. After ten o'clock in the evening, the phone finally rang. It was Bai Hehui calling, but not to inform that the operation was over. She said it would take longer. "Why is it taking longer? Shouldn't it have ended sooner?" "Yeah... Anyway, I'll tell you when it's done, don't worry, wait at home." "Of course I'm worried. I'm going to the hospital too." "You can't help me here! It's going to be fine, be obedient." "Okay, just tell me!" "Know it." After hanging up the phone, a strong anxiety surrounded Xi Ji.My father's face came to mind.The thought that he might be on the verge of life and death made him tremble all over. She couldn't think anymore.Turning off the TV, curled up on the bed, stomach heavy and stuffy, nausea hits one after another. The next time the phone rang, it was after one o'clock in the middle of the night.Xi Ji picked it up, and it wasn't Lily Hui who called, but a relative and aunt. "Xi Ji, let me tell you, the people in the hospital want you to come here quickly. Auntie is going to pick you up now. Can you get ready before Auntie arrives?" "Is the operation over?" "Well, the end is the end..." "What's going on? Why do you want me to go there now?" "Here, ask them to tell you when you come." "I'll go there now, it doesn't matter if Auntie doesn't come to pick me up." Xi Ji hung up the phone, immediately ran out of the house, took a taxi, and rushed to the hospital.Her heartbeat was so violent that it even made her chest ache. I rushed to the hospital in a hurry, but I didn't know where to go.When Xi Ji was about to go to the ward where her father lived in yesterday, she heard someone call her name.The people who called her were relatives and aunts. As soon as Xi Ji saw her aunt, she began to tremble.Auntie's eyes were red, obviously she was still crying just a moment ago. "Xi Ji... come with me." "Auntie, what's the matter? What happened to my dad's operation?" However, the aunt didn't answer, she just lowered her head and pushed Xi Ji's back forward. Xi Ji didn't ask any more questions.She was afraid that what she would get would be a very sad answer, an answer that she didn't want to face even if she was vaguely aware of it.She just walked in silence, feeling as if she was starting to feel dizzy and unsteady on her feet. The aunt took her to a floor she had never been to.At the end of the long corridor, the door to a room was open.Aunt said it was there. "My dad...where is it?" Xi Ji asked, but the aunt didn't answer.She didn't look at Auntie, she didn't know the expression on Auntie's face, but she did hear whimpering. Xi Ji timidly walked towards that room, but her aunt did not follow. When she walked near the room, someone came out, it was Xi Yuan in white clothes, he lowered his head, his face was tired, and his steps were heavy. He noticed Xi Ji, stopped in his tracks, opened his eyes wide, and his chest rose and fell with every breath. The doctor didn't say anything, perhaps trying to figure out what to say.Xi Ji looked away from him, and walked towards the room again, she didn't want to listen to the doctor. As soon as he entered the room, a white cloth appeared in front of him. There was a bed, and a man was lying on it, with a white cloth covering his face.Someone was sitting on an iron chair in front of the bed, with his head hanging low, it was Lily Hui. His mind went blank, Xi Ji yelled, but he couldn't hear him.She rushed to the bed and lifted the white cloth with trembling hands.Under the white cloth was Kensuke's peaceful face, his eyes were closed, as if in a dream.If you want to live, you have to live coolly—the words of your father rang in your ears. lie!This is not true! — she cried. In this way, Xi Ji lost her favorite father.