Chapter 44 Section 7

The boy sat down on the sofa directly opposite me, where Ah Shu had been sitting just now.As if I had been injected with anesthesia, my body could not move at all, I just watched all his actions silently.But I thought, even if my body could move freely, I would not refuse him to sit opposite me, let alone yell loudly in grief and indignation. I killed it... The boy's words echoed in my mind for a long time, I think the murderer might really be him!But the words that entered my eardrums couldn't seep into my brain so easily.Like suddenly pouring a large amount of water into a potted plant in one breath, his voice filled between my skull and brain, and most of it was not absorbed by the brain.

The boy looked at my face, frowned slightly, then leaned slightly towards the table, and said something.Are you okay?He seemed to say so.The lips seemed to move like this a few times.Then he put out a hand across the table to touch my shoulder.Just when his fingertips were about to touch my clothes, I cried out. "Do not touch me!" I immediately leaned my body as far back as possible towards the wall, even the back of the sofa seemed to be bent over by me.This is not my conscious action, but my conditioned reflex made in an instant. Just then, all the bright conversation in the dining room returned.No, it's not accurate to say they're back, in fact the music in the store and the conversations of customers have never stopped, and they have always been buzzing.It's just that none of this entered my ears again.But, after a while, the time my mind stopped started to pick up again.

My cry seemed to startle the family sitting by the aisle.The couple looked back at me in surprise, because they were worried that they would be embarrassed to meet my eyes, so they turned their heads and continued chatting with their family members. "Are you okay, Miss Natsumi?" The boy retracted the hands that were stretched out to me, and sat heavily on the sofa again and asked me.I also sat down again, shook my head and said: "How can it be okay..." I'm really excited.Although he didn't cry, what came out was whimpering. "I feel sick all over..."

My mind was hot, and I didn't know whether to be terrified of him or outraged by him.I just felt the extraordinary aura of the boy sitting in front of me. No matter how panicked I was in front of him, he still put on an unusually calm and calm face as if he was observing a living thing.And I seemed to be an insect being observed with a microscope. "Miss Xia Hai, I don't want to hear your miserable cry." There was no emotion in his speech, as if he had no heart. I suddenly felt that I was confronting an extremely terrifying guy across the dining table. "Why did you kill my sister?"

Presumably he won't grin from time to time like A Shu, and he won't easily confide his troubles to the other party like A Shu. It is impossible for him to be swayed by others.He is like the branches and leaves of the spirit that have been stripped off, leaving only a bare tree trunk, a person whose humanity has been withdrawn... Although it is a bit weird to describe him in this way, this is the impression he gave me. "Why did I kill Miss Hiroko? I don't know why." He spoke slowly, as if telling a story. "...But it's not because there's anything wrong with her. Killing her is entirely because of my own problems."

"……your problem?" He seemed lost in thought, and paused for a moment.Even when he was silent, his eyes never left me.After a while, he still remained silent, but raised his chin slightly, pointed to the family sitting by the aisle and said: "You've been looking at that family just now, haven't you?" At this time, the sound of the two sisters playing came from over there. "Seeing that pair of sisters, did you already regard them as Hiroko and you? Did you go back to the past? Didn't you just relive the beautiful memories of your childhood that were cherished in your heart?"

"Stop talking..." I want to cover my ears with my hands, I don't want to hear his voice again.His voice was like he was trampling on my heart with his shoes on. "I also have a younger sister. Ten years ago, we used to eat together at the table like that family. Although I don't remember it, I did have such an experience. Do you find it surprising?" Every time he uttered a word, my heart beat faster.My heart seems to be rolling on a slope leading to an abyss, and it keeps picking up speed. "Look at that little girl. Be careful, don't let her remember your face..."

The boy lowered his voice slightly. I looked away from him and glanced at the little girl at the next table.She was standing on the sofa, her clear eyes were looking around, her little hands were tightly holding on to her mother's clothes.I didn't know the little girl, I didn't even know her name, but I still found her very cute. "Natsumi, how would you feel if that little girl killed someone ten years later?" "Maybe she will kill her parents or sister, it's not impossible, maybe she has planned everything. Her innocent face of a child is completely pretended by her acting skills, the real her may be was about to grab the hamburger knife and fork and quickly slit her mother's throat."

"please……" Please stop talking, you're crazy.I put my hands on my face, closed my eyes tightly, and endured his every word.Every word he said turned into waves of severe pain hitting my face. "Xia Hai, look up... I was just joking... You see, that kid didn't kill anyone, what I just said was my own business." I looked up and stared at him with wide eyes.A few tears rolled out of my eye sockets, sending out a clear light. "I was born with this habit. Although I didn't realize it when I was her age, when I was in elementary school, I already realized that there was something different about me."

"……what do you want to say in the end?" I asked in confusion, but he didn't show any signs of impatience, and continued to explain: "I'm talking about a destiny that I was born to kill. I've had this destiny all my life, just like vampires must drink human blood. I must kill. I was born with this destiny. I came into this world not because my brain was stimulated by domestic violence, or because my ancestors had murderous demons. I grew up in a very ordinary family, but I was not like ordinary people. Like a child who fantasizes about playing with friends or pets, I spend every day of my life fantasizing about dead bodies.”

"Who the hell are you?" I think he is no longer a human being, but a very scary and ominous thing. He stopped suddenly and shook his head. "I don't know. I don't know why I have to kill people. No matter how hard I think, I still can't find the answer. And I have to hide my secrets and live a life like acting every day. I have to be careful and beware of the surrounding Everyone, worrying about them discovering my deepest secrets." "Even your family..." He nodded. "People in my family have always regarded me as an ordinary child, because I always pay attention to every detail of life, and I have successfully disguised myself as an ordinary child." "...You, do you have to completely disguise yourself to spend every day?" "Yes, everything is disguising itself." I don't quite understand the meaning of this sentence.So he added: "Whether it's talking to my family or being kind to my friends, I don't think these are out of my original intention. I just feel that I am playing a role that has long been placed in a certain script, and I am just trying to recite it. Can echo the lines of the people around me. I remember when I was a child, I used to search every corner of my house carefully, but I never found a trace of the script. For me, only death can make me truly feel my own existence.” So, I hope someone dies. His lips moved slightly like this. "...So you put my sister..." "That night I was walking alone on the street, and I saw her sitting in a daze in front of the soda machine, her eyes were red and swollen from crying. So I went up to her and asked her if it was okay, but she smiled and showed her canine teeth, and said thank you to me... ..." He said that he killed his sister because he liked her canine teeth, but he actually said that it was like falling in love. I listened carefully to every word he said, and felt like I was firmly pressed on the sofa in a restaurant.Looking at his hands on the dining table, they were a pair of white hands protruding from the cuffs of the black shirt of the school uniform.With slender fingers and beautifully manicured nails, the hands in front of me are indeed human hands, but it was these white human hands that killed my beloved sister seven weeks ago. "It's because you like your sister's canines..." He nodded slightly, and took out something from the bag beside him.It was a cube the size of a palm. "It's made of solidified resin. I've wanted to show you for a long time." He put the cube on the table.This is a crystal-clear resin ball, in which there are about 20 small white particles connected together in suspension, which form a U-shape overlapping up and down in the block. "It took me a lot of effort to collect all the little things scattered all over the room." It's teeth.That is, the teeth are suspended in the transparent body made of solidified resin, and they still maintain the original shape of human teeth. Among them, I found the once very familiar canine teeth. Once again there was the laughter of the children in the restaurant, and the bright lights of the room reflected off the silver decorations.In this restaurant filled with a peaceful atmosphere, what stood before my eyes were my sister's teeth.All this seems to be in a dream. I didn't feel the slightest fear, only sadness in my heart.No one ever told me that my sister's teeth were all pulled out. He put the ball of resin back in the bag and produced an envelope. "I was talking nonsense, this is the second tape." He opened the envelope and handed it backwards.A cassette fell out of the envelope and onto the table. "VOICE2 Hiroko Kitazawa".The words are printed on the label of the tape. "There's another cassette." "Give me that box too!" He stood up and said to me: "After listening to the second tape, you can consider whether you want the third tape." After he walked out of the store, I couldn't stand up for a while.Seeing the tape laying on the table, I was still thinking about my sister's teeth floating in the resin ball. I bring the cup of coffee to my lips.The coffee was completely cold, and the little girl sitting by the aisle kept looking at me, her mouth was covered with ketchup, she was very cute.The little girl stared at my hand with a pair of beautiful black eyes. She must have heard the clucking sound of the cup and tray I was holding in my hand. She felt a little strange!