Chapter 27 Section five

After dating him, the relationship between me and Qiu Hui gradually became estranged.It wasn't because of quarrels or bad tempers, but because I didn't have seminars together after I entered the fourth year of university, and I went back to the way I was before, and I started not going to school. He has been a primary school teacher for the second year. I spend all day in his apartment, just like his wife. When he goes to work, I clean the room and prepare meals. I do these housework that I have never touched. Happy.I also told him that I want to get married and live together. He said: "I want to formally propose to your family after you graduate." I was so happy to hear that this sentence was enough, but I deliberately said it coquettishly, and just talking about it didn't work. .Then he bought me a ring with a modest bonus, an engagement ring with a ruby, my birthstone.I am very happy. When I am alone at home, I often take it out and wear it on my left ring finger to admire it, or take it off and scrub it carefully.

One day, I accidentally dropped the ring under the table.When I picked up the ring, I found a notebook that I had never seen before in the corner of the drawer. Because it was stuffed too far, it was squeezed out instead. It looked like there was some secret. Maybe it’s just studying notes, thinking about it, I took out the notebook and opened it, I wanted to know everything about him, but soon I began to regret opening the notebook.That's his diary.If it’s just an ordinary diary, even though it’s not very good, you might be very happy to read it. If there are things about me in it, you might still feel very happy. Missing.

Didn't you promise never to be separated from me?Why did you suddenly change your mind?Why don't you give me any explanation?Even though I know you betrayed me, I still miss you day and night. I quickly understood that the "you" here did not refer to me, because I was right next to him.The date of writing the diary coincided with the date when I started dating, and I felt greatly betrayed.I rushed out of the apartment, went home, and headed into my room, feeling worse and worse as I thought about it, and fell asleep with my head covered. I have no appetite, some fever, feeling like sitting on a rickety boat, groggy.Just knowing that he misses other women is such a big blow, is he so unambitious?Angry and resentful, I ran out only half way through the book, maybe it would have been better to finish it.That way at least you can know what the woman's name is and what kind of person she is.If I am far superior to that woman, and he has agreed to marry me, wouldn't everything disappear?

By the way, does Qiu Hui understand the truth?I could ask Qiuhui if any women ever went there to meet him when they were working together in a restaurant. I immediately contacted Qiuhui.She and the boyfriend I set up for her have been separated for a long time, so she may understand my current mood and listen to my troubles. Qiuhui lives alone in a rented apartment.I was there once and the room was dark and undecorated and looked deserted.She was filling out her resume for an employment test when I called.She said: "Don't you need to look for a job? Oh, yes, you don't need to. The daughter of a rich family can get into any company through connections, right? I really envy you. By the way, what do you want?"

A friend whom I haven't seen for a long time, speaks coldly.It seems to reject me thousands of miles away.It must be that the work is difficult to find and the pressure is too great, but why talk to me in this tone?I was already in a bad mood, so I got even angrier, and said: Yes, I am going to marry him.He said he would formally come to my house to propose after I graduated, and bought me an engagement ring. I told him not to spend too much money, but he insisted on me accepting it.Besides, Qiuhui, I just want to tell you quietly that you are alone, I seem to be pregnant, maybe I will get married before I graduate.Thanks to you for letting me meet him, I can be so happy now.

Although I was in a bad mood, I didn't understand why I even mentioned pregnancy at the time. Maybe I wanted to comfort myself.After Qiuhui listened, she didn't speak.I got carried away and told her how I cared for him, what movies I saw with him, etc.Qiuhui said, "Can you come to my place now, I want to hear you talk after we meet. And, can you show me your beautiful engagement ring?" I looked at my watch, it was past nine o'clock.I'm usually too lazy to go out at this time, but I got excited and thought it would be nice to show off the ring, so I told Qiu Hui that I'd be there right away, and then hung up the phone.

It took thirty minutes by taxi from my home to Qiu Hui's apartment, and it was a weekend, and the road was very congested, so it took nearly an hour.I knocked on the door, but there was no answer, maybe I didn't hear it. I turned the handle and found that the door was unlocked, so I walked in.Her apartment is only six and a half stacks, and the only room is next to the narrow entrance, so I saw her at a glance. Qiuhui fell on the bed covered in blood, and she cut her wrist.Terrible, terrible!I couldn't think of calling an ambulance, but called Qiu Hui on his phone. "Come here right away."

He said that he drank with his colleagues and was very tired, and asked if he could do it tomorrow. "I must come here immediately, come to Qiuhui's apartment immediately, she committed suicide." Before I finished speaking, the phone was hung up, and he will be there soon.I sat beside Qiu Hui blankly, and suddenly found an unsealed letter on the table. Is it for me?Because Qiu Hui called me here.I opened the envelope and there was a piece of letter paper inside. Hongzhang, I will always love you. What?Does Qiuhui like him?Perhaps, he also loves Qiu Hui?Could it be that Qiuhui committed suicide to show me his feelings on purpose?Did she really intend to die?If there was no traffic jam, I would have arrived a little earlier, wouldn't such a result have happened... What should I do?He'll be here soon!

I stuffed the letter into my bag and ran out of the room.At this time, other residents of the apartment just came back and called an ambulance for help, but Qiu Hui was not rescued.Also, he didn't come. I don't know if it was because he couldn't get a taxi, or because he wanted to arrive a little earlier, he borrowed the car of a colleague who lived in the same apartment, but a traffic accident happened on the way. Just a minor scratch on the bumper, no one was hurt, but he had a drink.Due to the lack of social common sense, I didn't know that teachers would be dismissed once they were caught drinking and driving.

I was terrified of everything that happened suddenly, and finally I chose to escape. On the way to Yuka's apartment, I kept thinking about him.Did he kill Emili?Why would he show up in that town ten years later?Besides, I have always held Qiu Hui's suicide note.At that time, Qiuhui was looking for a job, and several companies rejected her. People around her believed that she committed suicide because of this, saying that she suffered from neurasthenia due to job hunting.I hope you don't get any misunderstandings because of this, she is an excellent woman, if she is now, she will definitely be hired by a big company and become a first-class professional woman.However, the society at that time would not accept women like her, not to mention applying for management positions, but applying for ordinary clerical jobs. She had no relationship and came from a farming family, and she was eliminated before the written test and interview.

She was indeed smarter than any girl I knew, and it was only natural that he liked her like that.But wouldn't it be enough for one of them to explain clearly to me?Then I wouldn't have those actions because I'm not interested in men who like other women. Did he already know what I did?I ruined their relationship, drove the woman he liked to suicide, and finally left him.By the way, is there a town nearby with the same name as the rural town that Qiu Hui mentioned... I was thinking blankly all the way, walking from the station to Yuka's apartment.The kid was always staring at people through glasses, and it's possible she remembered what the suspect looked like.Even at this moment, I still have a glimmer of hope that when I show her the photo, she will tell me: "It's not this person." When I was about to go up the stairs, I heard a man and a woman arguing .What a coincidence, I hid behind a clump of flowers and plants, and two people appeared on the stairs in between. Yuka and a man, Yuka was about to be pushed down the stairs. I quickly took out my phone and called Yuka.Suddenly there was a loud music bell, which was the theme music of a criminal investigation film I knew well, and then the man rolled down the stairs. As for why he rolled down, I couldn't see clearly because of the dim light.I didn't show up to Yuka because after that I saw she was calm and called an ambulance.If she had lost her mind and cried and yelled, maybe I would have run over right away.I thought it best not to appear in front of the calm Yuka. Seeing Yuka getting into the ambulance, I hailed a taxi and followed. It wasn't until I got into a taxi and calmed down a little that I realized that the last kid had done the same thing.I have some regrets, if I hadn't hid at that time, if I hadn't called her cell phone but went directly to stop her, maybe the current result would not have happened.I've grown tired of this kind of regret after the fact. I have been mentally prepared, and I gradually have a premonition that maybe everything that happened to you will reincarnate to me next. Because of this, I was able to calmly listen to Yuka's story. I don't know about Emili playing in the abandoned villa, I just remember losing the ring once. I didn't throw away the ring he gave me or Qiu Hui's suicide note. I carefully kept them in a box and put them in the innermost part of the closet. But when I was moving house and tidying up my things, Emilia accidentally saw them.As soon as the paper was opened, Hui Meili couldn't help but exclaimed excitedly: "It's so beautiful!" She asked me: "Why did you only hide this ring here?" I didn't know how to answer for a moment, so I said casually: "Because this It’s for you in the future.” Emily said, “Then give it to me now.” I didn’t give it to her, and said, “Wait until there’s a chance in the future.” Emily was a little unhappy, but she seemed to feel that she had this kind of relationship with her mother. The seemingly secret agreement is not bad.The kid loves this set. What I said is waiting for a chance in the future, that is, one day in the future when I tell her the real biological father.