Chapter 21 Section five

My sister got married four years ago.She graduated from the urban short-term college in the county, got married after working in the mall for three years, and quit her job.The first time I brought my brother-in-law home was half a year before we got married.I was living in an apartment in a neighboring town, and the day before my brother-in-law arrived, I came home to clean up with my mother and greet them both.I didn't break my glasses this time. My brother-in-law is tall and thin, with a fair complexion and a pleasant appearance. I thought at the time, I really deserve to work in the mall... But my sister said that he is a police officer of the county police station.All the family members looked puzzled, doubting whether such a man could catch the criminal.The brother-in-law said that he belonged to the intelligence department, and he was facing the computer all day long, as if he was trying to defend himself.It was the first time I knew that there was such a department in the police station, but since I was with the computer all day, I could understand his work.

I asked my sister where she met her brother-in-law, and she said she met her at a sorority party, and it was said that her aunt set them up.My aunt works as a salesman for a life insurance company, and her main scope of sales is shopping malls and police stations.This kind of acquaintance is in line with my sister's personality. She has always been good at attracting the attention of those she is interested in.But this time is different, the brother-in-law fell in love with his sister at first sight, and pursued her relentlessly.At my house, the way he stared obsessively at his sister gave away the secret.

The appearance of the brother-in-law is the type that my sister has always liked, and I am not interested, so I bless the two of them from the bottom of my heart, greet my brother-in-law, and shake hands with him. At this moment, I have a feeling of deja vu a feeling of.His hands give me the same feeling as the hands of Officer Ando, ​​who I like very much... Perhaps most of the composition of my memory does not rely on vision, and has little to do with what I see in front of me, but the feeling of wanting to "own" this person through the touch of my hands.I want to touch such a hand, I want to be touched by such a hand, I want to take it for myself, but this wish cannot be realized.On that day, and in the following days, my brother-in-law only had my sister in his eyes.

The things I want are always my sister's. It's not that my sister has a bad heart and deliberately took them away from me.My mother already belonged to my sister when she gave birth to me, and my brother-in-law already belonged to my sister when he met me, that's all. But my beloved sister had an accident two years ago and had a miscarriage, and she will never be able to have children again.Since it was the busy farming season and my parents had no time to take care of it, my sister recuperated in my apartment for a period of time. During this period, whenever she heard that some of her classmates had a baby, she would cry a lot. She would burst into tears, but within half a month, she returned to normal and happily returned to the police dormitory in the urban area.

Later, my sister returned to the mall where she used to work as a part-time job. After receiving her salary, she went on a trip with a friend from her student days who was still single.Do you mean brother-in-law?He was already very busy, and it didn't seem to make any difference whether his sister was at home or not. Besides, he was very happy to see his sister regain her spirits. However, my sister was completely negligent. I've dated six men...why are you so surprised?I also have boyfriends, but each one doesn't last long... They say I'll make them feel depressed, I'm just trying to make people happy... By the way, you may ask Emili's death Whether there was any trauma left on my soul, I can say with certainty: "No." This may be because I didn't see clearly the state of Emily after being bullied.

The people I dated had the body of a judo or rugby player, and my sister mistook me for that type and wasn't interested in my brother-in-law's.She didn't realize at all that I wanted to "own" my brother-in-law, and she would entrust me with the housework when she was not at home. But she may have already noticed it... my sister was the first to find out that I was stealing, so it is impossible not to notice my intentions.Perhaps, even though she was aware of it, she believed that her brother-in-law would never betray her, so she wanted to see my reaction for fun.If so, it's her own doing.

I really want to go to her house every day, but due to time and distance, I can only help with housework on weekends.Really happy...going on Saturday morning, making lunch, dining with my brother-in-law, occasionally watching videos and playing games together...however, in the evening, when I walked to the porch and said goodbye to my brother-in-law, he never Saved me, except once. Did the intelligence leak at the county police station in October last year cause a national sensation?Top-secret documents containing the names, addresses, and biographical records of juvenile offenders were sent to all registrants along with emails from the town's crime prevention network.It was caused by my brother-in-law's mistake.To be precise, it was caused by a new type of virus sent by a computer fan for fun, but because the brother-in-law was in charge of managing it, he was severely punished, while my sister went to Hokkaido for vacation, saying that it was too much for breach of contract. pity.In this way, my brother-in-law and I are left.

The hands I have always longed to have belonged to me only on that night, and that was two weeks after August 14th, which was pushed forward 280 days.However, it didn't end there, because a new life was born in my stomach. You see, the little life is trying to come into this world right now... just wait a moment. When I found out I was pregnant, I felt like I had won some great award. My sister can't give birth to my brother-in-law, but I can.Maybe after the child is born, my brother-in-law will divorce my sister and marry me. I am full of such expectations in my heart, and I also feel that it will become a reality.

The most surprising thing was the parents. At the beginning, my mother complained incessantly that it was too embarrassing to have an affair with her brother-in-law and lead to pregnancy. She would no longer have the face to see her neighbors and relatives. It’s gone.” After hearing this, my mother became inexplicably active and led me to the shrine to pray with my belly in my hand. Originally, I could go alone, but she still accompanied me to the prenatal checkup.When I learned that it was a boy, my mother took good care of me. Every time I came home, there was always something I liked to eat on the table, and I watched TV videos as I liked, even when I was with my sister.

My sister started smoking after work, but when she took out a cigarette in front of me, my mother would reprimand her, which even moved me a little.Don't you think it's incredible?It's good that pregnancy is more important than murder. However, it is also boring.I quit my job because of the severe pregnancy reaction at the beginning. However, after entering the stable period, I became surprisingly energetic. I even regretted that I should not have resigned at that time, and just took a short vacation. By the way, I should use such a long vacation to do something, if possible, do something that can make my brother-in-law happy.My sister said that my brother-in-law might be demoted and transferred to a remote place in the county during the next personnel change. At first, I naively thought that it would be nice to be a police officer at the police station in that small town, but when I think about it, what is wrong with my brother-in-law? It may be a painful thing to say.What can I do for my brother-in-law?In order to become a police officer's brother-in-law...

If there is meritorious service, the brother-in-law may not be sent to a remote town, but will stay in the county police station.For example, the murderer is caught... The statute of limitations for Emilia's murder is about to come. But if the case could be solved simply, the police would have caught the suspect long ago.The next best thing to do is to provide even a little new information, which may be useful.At this time, I received a revelation from heaven. Have you heard that the lottery during pregnancy is very effective?I think this is not a simple superstition.There is a new life in the body, and it is not surprising that the spirit possesses it at this time... Thinking about it now, it was just a little nervous at the time. In April of this year, I heard a revelation from heaven on the radio.You know how tired your eyes are when you're pregnant, so I turned on the radio that day.Do you remember a piece of news from last summer?It was about the arson case of students at a certain Freedom School. The school is said to be reopening and a male employee is being interviewed.He talked about the need for free schools, and about juvenile delinquency, and I listened absent-mindedly, feeling my heart beat inexplicably faster. Why, why is it so disturbing? ...By the way, I remembered, it was very similar to that man's voice at that time.However, unless there are very obvious characteristics, the voices of men seem to sound similar. In fact, that man's voice was very ordinary, nothing more than it sounded clear and clear. I couldn't help but think of two or three teachers who had voices like this in middle school.I felt ridiculous, maybe it was the desire to find the criminal that made me hypersensitive. However, there is one more thing about this news that really concerns me.In our rural town, there are several children like Akiko who stay behind closed doors, but none of them go to such a free school.The reason why this word is familiar is because I remembered that on the day when Emilia was treated as a thief, she said that someone came to see the villa and wanted to build a school like this there. The villa was not sold in the end and was demolished five years ago.At that time, I went back first, but I didn’t see the uncle of the real estate agent. He visited my house before the end of the year and asked us if we wanted to buy the land, so he and I were considered acquaintances.It wasn't too far to walk, so I decided to go to the agency in front of the station to have a look.I don't hold out much hope, it's all about killing time, or rather, I'm in the mood of finding a new home for my brother-in-law's and my children. When the uncle saw my big belly, he thought I was going to inquire about the new house, and showed a very expectant expression.When I said that I wanted to know about the person who planned to build a free school here fifteen years ago and came to see the villa, the uncle was very disappointed. "Even if it's a free school in the countryside, the students who come to school are problem children from the city, so it's better to be in a place with relatively convenient transportation. It's not easy to run that kind of school, and there will be some arson cases. I watch TV The report in the newspaper turned out to be that person at that time, and I was really surprised." The uncle said so. Originally, I wanted to know whether the person whose voice resembled the criminal had visited the villa two months before the incident. If so, it would be too coincidental.But when my suspicions were confirmed, I couldn't believe it.What if everything is true?Should I tell my brother-in-law?My mind is in turmoil. But what if all this is true?The voice of the man who had been in town two months before the incident was similar to the suspect's voice, that's all.Voices constitute no evidence, and there is also the theft of French dolls involved. I need more convincing evidence, like fingerprints... Did Emery say anything back then?Didn't you say that the guests who came to see the villa found the treasure?Has that person ever touched my bookmark?Haven't the suspect's fingerprints been taken from the volleyball?That last one seemed a little off because we played a lot of balls after Emily was taken away.But if the fingerprint can be extracted and it matches the bookmark, that would be a coincidence.The bookmark sounds unpleasant, but I consider it to be a relic of Emily and have kept it to this day. If I tell my brother-in-law... Just then, a terrible thing happened, the sister attempted suicide.I happened to be staying at my parents’ house at the time, and my sister went back. Later, she committed suicide by cutting her wrist in the bathroom. Fortunately, the wound was not deep and did not cause more serious consequences. Maybe she was just performing for others.The mother began to blame herself again, blaming herself for being bad, causing her sister to be born weak, resulting in a miscarriage.This should not be the reason. I think my sister has already noticed that I am pregnant with my brother-in-law's child. The brother-in-law never left her sister's side for a moment, and kept blaming himself.I don't know if he means work or children, but this is not the right time to talk to my brother-in-law about the murder many years ago.Moreover, I also began to feel that it didn't matter, because my brother-in-law would not belong to me just because I gave birth to a child, and the desire to "own" was not as strong as before.I want to silently give birth to the new life in my stomach and raise him well by myself. Only this child needs me. The time of "ten months and ten days" is used to gradually familiarize myself with the role of mother, and to have the feeling of being a mother. It hurts, allow me to interrupt one more time...don't touch me!I don't want you to touch me!