Chapter 16 Chapter 5: Angela Warren's Words

Dear M. Poirot: As I promised you, I write here all that I remember of that terrible time sixteen years ago.But it wasn't until I started writing that I realized that I remembered very little.You know, there is no basis for writing these now. I have only a very vague memory of summer -- though I can't tell which summer it happened.Anya's death was like a bolt from the blue, I hadn't thought of it at all, and I didn't seem to know the fuse. I try to recall whether this incident was unexpected or not.Are most thirteen-year-old girls as dull as I seem?Maybe. I think I can easily empathize with other people's feelings, but I never bother to think about the reasons for those feelings.

And I suddenly began to discover the fascinating place of writing.The articles, the poems I've read -- Shakespeare's works -- are constantly on my mind.I still remember wandering the back kitchen path repeating "Under the mirror-clear green waves" with a sort of frenzy...the lines were so lovely I couldn't help but chant them over and over again. Besides that I remember my favorite things to do were swimming, climbing trees, eating fruit, playing tricks on the stable boy, and feeding the horses. Caroline and Anya are the most important people in my life, yet I never think about them, about them, or how they think or feel.

I didn't particularly pay attention to the arrival of Aisha Gurley, I thought she was stupid and not even pretty at all.I just thought she was a rich annoying woman who was asking Anya to paint her. In fact, the first time I learned about this was when I slipped out after lunch and heard a passage on the balcony-Aisha actually said that she was going to marry Anya!I thought it was ridiculous.I still remember that I once asked Anya in the garden of Hanks Manor, and I said, "Why did Aisha say she wants to marry you? It's impossible! No one can marry two wives. That's bigamy and you'll go to jail. "

Anya was very angry, he said. "How did you hear that?" I said I heard it from the study window. He got angrier and said I should go to school and get rid of the habit of eavesdropping. I remember hating him so much when he said that because it was so unfair, utterly unfair. I stammered angrily that I didn't mean to eavesdrop.Besides, anyway, what right does Aisha have to say such stupid things? Anya said he was just joking. I should be satisfied with this answer, yes - almost, but not 100%. On the way home I said to Elsa: "I asked Anya what you meant by marrying him and he said it was just a joke."

I thought it should make her feel taunted, but she just smiled. I didn't like the way she smiled, and when I got home, I went upstairs to Caroline's room.She was getting dressed for dinner, so I confessed the question, is it possible for Anya to marry Elsa. Until now, I still clearly remember Kailin's answer, her tone must have been quite emphatic.She said: "Anja will marry Elsa only if I die." His words gave me confidence that death seemed centuries away from me. But I was still very angry with what Anya said in the afternoon, I attacked him very violently at dinner, I remember we had such a big fight, and I ended up rushing out of the room and going to bed, crying until I fell asleep.

I don't remember much of that afternoon at Meredy Black's.But I remember he read a passage about the death of Socrates.I've never read it before, and I think it's the cutest, most beautifully written text I've ever seen.I remember the event -- but not the time, it could have been any day that summer. I thought and thought, but I couldn't remember the next morning. I felt as if I had sunbathed, and I seemed to be obedient to mend something. It was all a blur, though, except that Meredy ran up to the balcony panting afterwards, looking pale and strange.I remember a coffee mug falling and breaking on the table - Elsa broke it, running as fast as she could down the path - and the look on her face was horrific.

I kept saying to myself, "Anja is dead." But it still seemed so unreal. I remember Dr. Fossey coming with a serious face, Miss William busy with Caroline, and me wandering around lonely, looking at what other people were doing.I have an unpleasant feeling.They wouldn't let me go down to see Anya.But when the police came and wrote some things in the notebook, they still covered him with a white cloth.Lift it up on a stretcher. Then Miss William took me to Caroline's room.Kai Ruolin sat on the sofa, her face was very pale and ugly.She kissed me and told me to go away as soon as possible, and said it was all terrible, but I didn't worry too much about it.They asked me to meet Kara at Mrs. Trixiliang's house and keep the number of people in the house as small as possible.

I pestered Kai Ruolin, saying that I didn't want to leave and wanted to be with her.She said that she knew, but it would be better for me to leave; it would relieve her a lot of psychological burden, and Miss William also said: "Angela, the best way for you to help your sister is to obey her and don't do it for her." She adds to the trouble." So I said I would do what Caroline wanted, and Caroline said, "This is my dear Angela." Then she hugged me and said there was nothing to worry about, and told me not to think or say this matter. I have to go downstairs and talk to the chief of police.He was very kind and asked me when was the last time I saw Anya, etc. At the time I thought those questions were irrelevant, but of course I now understand what he meant, he thought that everything I could tell him had already been said by others So he told Miss William that he had no objection to my going to Mrs. Tricilian's.

I went, Mrs. Tracy Liang was very kind to me, but of course I soon understood the truth.Caroline was arrested almost immediately, and I was overwhelmed and seriously ill. I later heard that Caroline was very worried about me, and insisted that I leave England before the trial, but I have already told you that. You see, what I've written is really worthless.After talking with you, I tried my best to search for some fragments from memory————— A's expression.B's reaction and so on.But no one could be seen as a possible murderer, Elsa is frantic and agitated, Meredith is pale and worried, Philip is sad and angry - all seem perfectly natural.But I think some of these people may be acting, right?

I only know one thing - Caroline is not a murderer. I'm pretty sure of that, but I can't offer any evidence.It's all based on my in-depth knowledge of her personality.