Chapter 58 Section 58

With the help of Nurse Anxi, Xianbo lay down on the bed.In his right hand, he still held those photos tightly.Recently he always felt that his fingers were not working hard, but today was different. "If you need anything, just call me." After speaking, Nurse Anxi left the ward.She didn't ask anything.This made Xian Bo feel relieved. Someone coughed.Probably Yoshioka?He also appeared to have a brain tumor.This is a ward shared by four people. Until last week, there were three people living in the ward. Since the day before yesterday, the bed next to Xianbo has been empty.It is estimated that the person has passed away.

Accompanied by a heavy headache, Xianbo felt that his field of vision was gradually narrowing.Surrounded by darkness, he could only see what was in front of him.The photo he received just now was within his narrow field of vision. A woman's face with a look of surprise.From the looks of it, she seemed to be sitting in the driver's seat.Bronze skin makes people feel a little dazzling. and also-- She really looks like Setsuko at that time.Xianbo couldn't help thinking.Although dreams and reality are always mixed together in his mind recently, and memories are often confused, he has always carefully kept some memories in his heart.Setsuko is also one of them.As soon as he closed his eyes, Xianbo felt that he would immediately return to that era.

At that time, Xianbo was just in his early thirties.He works in a trading company, and his main job is the sales of electrical products.At that time, he was wearing a suit and leather shoes, carrying a briefcase in his hand, and flew across the country by plane all day long.His business performance is also top-notch.The company even set aside a special fund for Xianbo to receive customers to Ginza for dinner and drinks.Several times a week, he takes regular clients to fancy bars. He and Setsuko met in such a store.Although Setsuko looks good, it gives people a very simple feeling.She never took the initiative to say anything, and always served the guests silently.

Setsuko's attitude changed only once when Xianba mentioned famous dishes from various places.Before, when Xianbo spoke, Setsuko always had a dull expression on her face, only this time, there was a light in her eyes.Setsuko looked like a child watching a shadow play. After finally having a chance for the two of them to chat alone, Xianbo asked Setsuko if she liked cooking very much. Setsuko's answer was quick.I like it very much.To be honest, in fact, I don't want to be a waitress for a long time, I want to find a restaurant and work for the boss.And I don't want to be a waitress in the store, but I want to cook by myself.But before that, you have to accumulate some experience.

After listening to Setsuko's narration, Xianbo suddenly remembered a small shop.That restaurant is the glass flavor restaurant "Kasuga".At that time, Xianbo also went into the store to try something new because his wife was born in glass. Unexpectedly, although the store was small, the taste was first-class.After that, he became a regular customer of that small shop.It is true to say that it is a small shop.All the big and small affairs in that shop had to be handled by the small shop owner and the beautiful lady proprietress.I heard from them that they also want to find someone to come to the store to help out recently.

As soon as Xianbo told Setsuko about this, Setsuko immediately said that he must go and have a look.After the work at the bar was over, Senba took Setsuko to "Haruhi". The owner and couple of "Haruhi" immediately fell in love with Setsuko.In the second month, Setsuko was standing behind the counter of Haruhi.Three months later, those regular customers of "Spring Day" changed their name to "Ajie".After half a year, she has become an indispensable person in the store.The red-leaf-patterned kimono given to her by the proprietress has become a symbol of her.In Xianbo's view, Setsuko's appearance at that time was far more energetic than when she was working in the bar before.

At that time, because "Haruhi" would be open until late at night, after seeing off those customers, Xianbo would go to "Haruhi" to sit for a while almost every day.Watching Setsuko's smile while serving wine with glass-flavored side dishes is the finale of every Ginza night for Senba. The dishes in "Spring Day" are as delicious as ever.But Xianbo himself also found that the purpose of his visit to "Spring Day" does not seem to be just for the food there.No matter how tired he was, no matter how busy he was, the reason why he would go to "Haruhi" was because there he could meet Setsuko.Before he knew it, he had been fascinated by Setsuko.

Setsuko also seems to have discovered Xianbo's feelings for her.When eyes meet by chance, heart and heart feel as if they are embracing each other. However, Xianbo did not have the courage to approach her.He has his own wife.He warned himself that as long as he could see Setsuko, he should be satisfied.From time to time, Xianbo would bring some ladies whom he was familiar with to "Spring Day".By doing this, he can not only prevent other people from gossiping, but also distract himself.One of them is Nobuko Miyake - Rieko. Senba is not the only guest who came to "Haruhi" to meet Setsuko.Although there are many people who make provocative remarks in an open manner, every time, Setsuko can skillfully make those people retreat.

However, there are also some customers who never quit.Kawabata Shigeharu is such a person. In the store, Xianbo had seen him several times.If they met by chance, although the two would still nod to each other, they never spoke.From the looks of it, Kawabata came to "Haruhi" more frequently than Xianba. He is a good man.The shop owner and the proprietress commented on Kawabata in unison.He is sincere, gentle, and single.If you marry Kawabata, you will be very happy.Setsuko didn't seem to object to what others said.Every time she hears other people say that, she always laughs it off.This made Xian Bo feel a little anxious.

One night, after "Haruhi" closed, Setsuko asked Xianba to go out for a drink.Xianbo was a little flattered.This was the first time since the two of them met.Xianbo naturally wouldn't reject Setsuko.The two walked into an all-night bar together. While drinking, Setsuko looked very happy.After a while, he proposed to open a bottle of champagne, but when he saw that the wine was gone, he ordered another bottle immediately.There was a lot of toasting between the two, and after a while, the wine bottle was empty again.Xian Bo asked her what's the matter, she didn't say anything, just said that she wanted to get drunk and never go home.

Afterwards, Xianbo sent Setsuko home, who was drunk.Xian Bo wanted her to lie down on the bed, but she suddenly hugged Xian Bo's neck.Seeing the tears in Setsuko's eyes, Xianbo's last line of defense completely collapsed.He hugged her tightly, pressing his lips to hers. At dawn, Xianba left Setsuko's room.Although Setsuko on the bed had her eyes tightly closed, Xianbo knew very well that she was not asleep at all. This is the only physical contact between Xianbo and Setsuko.Later, when the two met in "Spring Day", Setsuko's attitude towards Senba remained the same as usual.Xianbo even began to doubt whether what happened that night was just a dream of his own. Not long after, Xianbo heard people say that Setsuko seemed to have accepted Kawahata's marriage proposal.Xianbo seemed to understand Setsuko's behavior that night.She did that, maybe she was making a break for everything before. Soon, Setsuko resigned from her job at Haruhi.After hearing the news of her marriage to Kawahata, Xianba has been praying for her happiness.Xianbo made up his mind to forget everything that happened that night. However, one time later, Xianbo heard a rumor about joints.It is said that Setsuko was already pregnant when the wedding was held.Upon hearing the news, Xianbo couldn't sit still any longer.He stared at the calendar countless times, constantly confirming the time of that night. It can't be my child—the suspicion in Xianbo's heart is growing day by day.When I heard that Setsuko finally gave birth to a girl, Xianbo managed to restrain himself and did not go to the hospital to visit Setsuko and her daughter. Xianbo's wife, Etsuko, has always been in poor health. Many people said that Etsuko would not be able to bear a child for Xianbo.Because Xianbo knew this before and insisted on marrying Etsuko, so Xianbo never expected to have a child.However, after learning that Setsuko's daughter might be his own flesh and blood, Xianbo couldn't sit still anymore. After much deliberation, Xianbo finally made up his mind and contacted Setsuko.No matter what, Xianbo wants to know the truth of the matter. After reuniting after a long absence, Setsuko's skin seemed to be a little more radiant than before, but her face completely changed into a mother's expression.Even speaking, I feel much more stable than before.She told Xianbo that she temporarily entrusted her child to her family.The desire in Xianbo's heart to see the child with his own eyes was completely shattered in an instant. The two chatted with each other about the recent situation, and then Xian Bo directly raised the question in his heart.Is the child's father really Kawabata?Setsuko was completely unmoved, she just said "yes" lightly.Her indifference made Xianbo feel that something was wrong.Seeing Setsuko's deliberately sincere eyes, Xianbo was convinced that everything she said just now was actually a lie. Xianbo didn't keep asking questions.Instead, he pleaded with Setsuko for one thing.Xianbo said he wanted a picture of the child.Setsuko hesitated.She asked Xianbo, what good would it do Xianbo to ask for such a photo of someone else's child.Even though Setsuko refused, Xianba still did not give up.He told Jiezi that as long as Jiezi could give him a picture of the child, he would be willing to sever all ties with the child from now on. Setsuko finally backed down.Afterwards, the two met again in another place, and Setsuko gave Xianbo a photo of her daughter.Setsuko in the photo is holding a child in her arms.The child had big eyes and skin as white as porcelain.Seeing that photo, Xianbo almost shed tears. thanks.Xianbo said at the time.He looked at Setsuko, and Setsuko's eyes had also become bloodshot and red.However, she kept holding back tears. I will never tell anyone about it, and I will keep this secret in my heart until I die - Xianba assured Setsuko.Afterwards, he told Setsuko that the child must be happy.Setsuko smiled and said, even if she didn't say it, she would do it.Xianbo also smiled slightly.indeed. That photo became Xianbo's treasure.But it is also a secret treasure.He can't let anyone see that photo.He put the photo in a frame and stuffed it in the deepest drawer of the study. Xianbo made up his mind that he would never see Setsuko again in his life.Although he often has the idea of ​​wanting to see his daughter with his own eyes, he has sealed this thought in his heart.Fortunately, Xianbo's own career has just started. He concentrated on his work and drove all distracting thoughts out of his mind. In the next ten years, Xianbo has been fighting against the tide of society.With a small success in his career, the thought of becoming a winner in the tide only stayed in his heart for a short period of time.When he came back to his senses, Xian Bo found that all he had left was his terminally ill wife and the small villa he bought in Dongli. Even so, he felt that the time he and Etsuko spent in East Glass was meaningful.Having lost everything, Xian Bo found this opportunity to calmly look back on the road he had traveled.What surged in his heart was the infinite gratitude to his wife.It is precisely because she has followed her all the way without complaint that she has made herself who she is today.Regarding Setsuko's matter, Xianbo also apologized countless times in his heart. Etsuko's time is running out.Xianbo is by her side all day long, trying to fulfill her wish as much as possible.However, Etsuko did not make too many demands.She told Xianbo that as long as she can look at the sea of ​​her hometown with her own eyes, she will be satisfied.One day, Etsuko said that she wanted to draw a picture of the sea, and Xianbo immediately bought her various painting tools.Etsuko put the easel on the balcony, and insisted on dabbing paint on the canvas little by little every day.After finishing, Xian Bo was surprised.He never knew that his wife was so good at painting.But Etsuko said that she was ashamed and refused to let Xianba stare at the painting. After Etsuko passed away, Senba went to Tokyo again.The purpose of his trip to Tokyo was not to start from scratch.At this time, all he thought about was how to support himself.Introduced by those friends back then, he started a new job in a home appliance retailer. Just then, he meets someone whom he never expected.Rieko—that is, Nobuko Miyake.Although the relationship between the two was quite acquainted back then, Xianbo had never seen her since Xianbo's company closed down.Nobuko Miyake invited Xianbo to drink with him. Xianbo didn't think too much at the time, so he immediately agreed to Nobuko Miyake.Perhaps, in his heart, he was actually longing for that period of infinite beauty back then.After eating, the two went to the "Calvin" that they used to frequent back then.Nobuko Miyake is a woman who is very good at clichés.After two or three glasses of wine, Xian Bo told the general story.Although some problems can be seen in terms of clothing, but after listening to Xianba's personal statement, Nobuko Miyake's expression showed disappointment.Her purpose, perhaps, is to get some money from Xian Bo. After drinking for three rounds, Xian Bo made the biggest mistake in his life.When he took out his wallet to buy cigarettes, a photo in the wallet fell out--the baby photo of him by the knot.Nobuko Miyake picked up the photo and asked Xianbo who was the child in the photo. At that time, Xianbo replied that he was a friend's child, but this answer even Xianbo himself felt very unnatural.After seeing the red leaf-patterned kimono on the woman with the baby in the photo, Nobuko Miyake said she remembered seeing the woman in the photo.Xian Bo was startled, and said nothing. Nobuko Miyake clearly sensed something.She told Xian Bo that she would not tell the third person, let Xian Bo tell her the ins and outs of the matter. What Xianbo is most afraid of is that Miyake guesses wildly, and then influences his own words.In desperation, he had to tell Miyake everything.Nobuko Miyake seemed very emotional when he listened.What she said before that she would not tell others does not seem to be completely unbelievable. After listening to Xianbo's narration, Miyake Nobuko got up and left the table, telling Xianbo to wait for her a while.Not long after, she put a piece of paper in front of Xianbo.On that piece of paper was written a string of addresses and phone numbers. Nobuko Miyake said that the above address and phone number are Setsuko's contact information.She said that she called "Haruhi", falsely claiming that she was another lady at the stage who knew Setsuko very well back then, and asked for the address and phone number. Nobuko Miyake said to Xianbo, let him go to see Setsuko and her daughter.It's just a meeting, no big deal.Xian Bo shook his head, saying that there was no need, he had already kept everything deep in his heart.As he spoke, Xian Bo could no longer hold back the tears, which slid down his cheeks.Perhaps Xianbo was already drunk. Early the next morning, Xianbo discovered that Nobuko Miyake's behavior of asking Setsuko's address had ulterior motives.In the morning news, Xianbo learned that Nobuko Miyake was killed.After hearing about the place where the incident happened, Xianbo felt as if all the blood in his body was flowing backwards.That place is very close to the address of Setsuko written on the piece of paper yesterday. After much deliberation, Xianbo finally decided to call Setsuko.He was always worried that Setsuko would not answer the phone.He always had an ominous premonition that the person who killed Nobuko Miyake might be Setsuko. However, the call was quickly picked up.Hearing Setsuko's voice as usual, Xianbo could not help but breathe a sigh of relief.Knowing that the call was from Xianbo, Setsuko seemed a little surprised, but did not show any confusion.Her husband seems to have gone to work in other places. Xianbo told Setsuko what happened the night before, and then explained that the purpose of his call was to worry whether Setsuko, mother and daughter, would have any connection with the case.Halfway through the conversation, Xianbo realized that there seemed to be something wrong with Setsuko.Setsuko said she came home late last night and barely saw her daughter.Although the daughter must be in the room, she has not woken up this morning. Listening to Setsuko's words to check on the situation later, Xianbo temporarily hung up the phone.The time after that was so long that Xian Bo felt his hair stand on end.The uneasiness made him feel nauseous, with goosebumps all over his body. Soon after, Setsuko called, and the content on the phone made Xianbo feel completely desperate.The daughter stabbed Nobuko Miyake to death, and there was a kitchen knife stained with blood on the table—Setsuko cried and told Xianbo everything. Xianbo didn't even have time to ask why.When Setsuko called, he had already imagined the worst situation and made up his mind.Right now, he can only implement the plan he had planned before. Xian Bo told Setsuko on the phone, let her take out the kitchen knife, and he will find a way to deal with it.Although Setsuko was a little confused, there was no time to explain everything right now.The two agreed on a time and place, and hung up the phone. Xianbo looked around.Although he no longer has any nostalgia for everything, there is one thing that makes him feel hard to give up.The picture that Etsuko drew.He wrapped the painting in furoshiki and went out. At the appointed place, Senba took the kitchen knife from Setsuko.Setsuko seemed to have understood what Xianbo was going to do, so she was very hesitant.Xianbo told her that as a mother, it is only natural to try to protect her daughter. After taking the kitchen knife, Senba handed the painting to Setsuko.He asked Setsuko to keep the painting well until the day of the next meeting. When Xianbo turned to leave, Setsuko told Xianbo to show him the coffee shop across the street.A slender girl with long hair was sitting on the window seat of the shop with her head bowed.Seeing that girl, Xian Bo couldn't help but feel a burst of astonishment.The girl's appearance was the same as that of Xianbo's younger sister who died young. In this way, I have nothing to miss anymore.thanks.Setsuko said. Xianbo took out a bag from under the pillow.There were several photos in the bag, and he took out one of them.That photo was the photo of the baby that Setsuko gave him back then. He compared the photo of the baby with the one Yu Chuan had just given him.The face of her childhood still vaguely remained on her face.What kind of girl would she be now?What is the voice like?Xianbo also thought about it, hoping to see her before he died.But Xianbo himself knew very well that this was simply an impossible dream.He never even expected it.If you do this yourself, all your previous efforts will be in vain. My thoughts went back to sixteen years ago.At the time, he was living in a dilapidated apartment in Edogawa Ward. At that time, Xianbo had already calculated everything, knowing that the criminal police would come to the door soon.Once the police find out the identity of Nobuko Miyake, they will naturally find out that Nobuko Miyake met him in "Calvin" a few days ago. Sure enough, the criminal police came soon.That is a shrewd and capable man.Xian Bo resolutely rejected the request of the criminal police to search the house.By doing this, he naturally wanted to make the other party doubt him. In the end, although the detective left, Xianbo knew very well that the other party hadn't gone far at all.He was sure that the criminal policeman must still be watching nearby.Xianbo picked up his bag and left the room.In his bag was the kitchen knife he had taken from Setsuko. Xianbo walked to the nearby waterway and looked around.All of this was actually a play he played for the criminal policeman who was following him.Xianbo's play was a great success.Immediately, the detective just now rushed towards him. Xianbo ran desperately, leaving no energy left.He knew that even if he could somersault over a hundred and eight thousand miles, he would never be able to get rid of the criminal police's pursuit.The detective's physical strength will never lose to Xianbo.Soon, Xianbo was seized by the criminal police. Arrested, prosecuted, found guilty in court.At every step, no one has ever expressed doubts about Xian Bo's confession.Only one person ever raised a question.That person was the criminal police officer who arrested him at the beginning - Tsukahara. At that time, Tsukahara asked him why he didn't throw away the bag.Tsukahara said that during the escape, Senba definitely had a chance to throw the bag into the waterway.Although the police will send people to salvage the waterway later to find the bag, but for Xian Bo, doing so can at least buy some time.It was because of the kitchen knife found in the bag that Xianbo was arrested as an active criminal. Xianbo insisted that he really did not think of this at the time.He only knew to run away desperately, even forgetting that there was still a murder weapon in the bag. Tsukahara still has doubts about what Senba said.But Xianbo refused to change his confession. Life in prison is full of bitterness.However, if I am in prison for one day, my daughter can live a stable day outside.When I think of this, strength will surge up from the bottom of my heart.Xianbo feels that being alive is meaningful. After he was released from prison, Xian Bo went to find a friend he had made in prison before.That friend introduced Xianbo to a job in waste recycling.Although the salary is meager and the food and housing are shabby, as long as he can live, Xianbo already feels content. However, the good times don't always last long.The man who introduced Xianbo to this job at the beginning ran away with the company's money.The company went bankrupt, Xian Bo lost his job and could only live on the streets. In this way, Xianbo's wandering life began.He knew where the tramps were, so he ran to find them.The tramps are very kind to Xianbo, and they patiently teach Xianbo what to do to continue to live. However, God's test of Xianbo is still not over.I don't know when, Xianbo began to feel that his body became a little out of control.Not only that, but Xian Bo often felt unbearable headaches and couldn't sleep all night.Sometimes, he can't even speak, and he can't stand in line to receive his weekly meals for disaster relief. Xianbo himself knew very well that he was suffering from some terminal illness.The homeless people have been taking good care of Xianbo, but Xianbo's condition has not improved at all.I haven't even seen a doctor, so it's impossible for this disease to get better. At this moment, a person Xianbo never thought of appeared in front of him. This person is Tsukahara.For many years, Tsukahara seems to have been looking for Senba's whereabouts.After learning about Senba's illness, I don't know how it was arranged. Anyway, Tsukahara finally let Senba stay in the hospital. The hospital Xianbo stayed in was not a formal hospital.It was a hospital that provided hospice services for terminal cancer patients.After listening to the dean's explanation, Xian Bo knew that he had an incurable brain tumor. Xianbo didn't feel the slightest bit of sadness.Instead, he breathed a sigh of relief.It is already a great happiness to be able to set the curtain of my life in such a well-equipped place.All this is thanks to Tsukahara. It is precisely because of this that Xianbo feels guilty and heartbroken every time he hears Tsukahara begging himself to tell the truth.Tsukahara said that he has been unable to let go of the case in his heart, and has been looking for Xianbo everywhere.Tsukahara is such a person. "I know very well that you are protecting someone. That person is very important to you. But is it worth it? Don't you want that person to know your current situation? Don't you want to see that person? What on earth are you thinking?" Every time he came to visit, Tsukahara would sit by Senba's bedside and repeat the same question.Gradually, Xianbo also felt that he could not open his mouth to lie in front of Tsukahara.His heart became more and more sad.When hearing Tsukahara's promise that he would never reveal the truth of the matter and that he would bury everything deep in his heart like Xianbo, Xianbo's heart was shaken more than once. Finally, Xian Bo finally said everything.At that time, Xianbo was already so ill that he couldn't speak clearly, and it took a long time to tell the whole story.However, Tsukahara never interrupted Xianbo's narration, and listened quietly to the end of his narration. Thank you for telling me everything and I will keep my word. After listening to Xianba's narration, Tsukahara said. Tsukahara kept his promise and never mentioned the truth to anyone.Not only that, Tsukahara also used the skills he learned when he was a criminal policeman and found out where the Setsuko family lives now.When I heard that Setsuko's family had moved to Kawahata's hometown - Glass Pool, Senba felt a fever in his heart. In addition, Tsukahara also found some intriguing information on the Internet.In an article by Motoya Sawamura, an environmental activist based in Hipposura, a person named Narumi Kawabata appeared.The purpose of their activities seems to be aimed at the seabed resource development plan of Glass Pool.Tsukahara also found out that the development plan is planning to hold an explanation meeting in August and is recruiting participants online.Tsukahara asked Xianbo if he would like to go with him. "I'm not asking you to meet her. Just take a look at her from a distance. Don't you want to see this biological daughter you have spent your whole life protecting with your own eyes? It's okay, I will be with you too Go, help you push the wheelchair." After hearing Tsukahara's suggestion, Xianbo's heart wavered.If it is really possible, then even if he dies immediately, he will not die in peace.However, until the end, Xianbo still didn't nod.The appearance of a seriously ill person like myself in the venue will definitely attract the attention of others.Maybe, my identity will be exposed by accident.In this way, I will cause trouble to Setsuko and Chengshi. But Tsukahara insisted on going.He didn't ask Xian Bo's consent, but he sent an application to attend the meeting privately.One day, Tsukahara came to visit Xianba with an envelope.What was contained in that envelope was the ticket for that briefing session.Tsukahara submitted two applications before, but in the end only one of them won the ticket. "Let's go, I'll wait for you outside the venue." Tsukahara said. Xianbo shook his head.I already understood Tsukahara's intentions, but I would never change my original intention.And, more importantly, with my current body, I can't travel far at all.The rapid deterioration of his condition made Xianbo no longer able to withstand the bumps of the long journey. "No way." Tsukahara said.This was the last time Tsukahara mentioned this matter, and at the same time, it was also the last time he came to visit Xianbo. But Tsukahara did not give up.He went to Glasspool alone.He probably went to see Setsuko and Chengshi, right?No, he must have seen their mother and daughter. What happened afterwards?Just thinking about it makes Xianbo feel afraid.In fact, Xianbo's conjecture has also become a reality. The thought of regret has been tormenting Xianbo's weak heart.Why didn't I stop Tsukahara in the first place?When he saw the ticket in Tsukahara's hand, he wished he could grab it and tear it up. Staring at the picture of the baby, Xianbo kept muttering: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry...it's all my fault, you will commit another felony. But this time, I will keep my mouth shut until I die. Please forgive me I am a fool-"