Chapter 14 Chapter Thirteen The Emperor's Heart

The heart was beating wildly. Power gave him capital, and command was his duty.The courtiers are in awe of his ruthlessness, and the subjects respect his determination.For a long time, I have lived as confident and dazzling as the sun in the morning, but I have never been as embarrassed as I am now in this life. He spoke the arbitrary words in his mouth as usual, but his heart was so tense that he couldn't breathe.Even the fingers that clasped her were trembling slightly. If he didn't use force, she could feel his fragility.Like a child, he just wants her to see his strongest side.

Egypt is the kingdom of the gods.The pharaoh is the center of all things, integrating the sacred and the secular, and communicating the two worlds of the human world and the gods.Pharaoh is the incarnation of God, the agent of God in the world, loved by all the people of Egypt.But he was always dubious about the existence of God. Everything in the world can be explained with reason.The outcome of the war, Yamanla, and Nyepi are all plots one after another.Life is like a chess game. As an emperor, what he wants to control is this chess called country.And two things, he can't explain, also can't control.One thing is fate, and the other is this blond girl named Nefertari.

Nefertari is a not uncommon name in Egypt. The most beautiful thing, the most beautiful person, but also the name of the only queen of Egypt, the only great wife. But for him, this name has a unique and special meaning. In the past ten years, there has not been a day when the name does not appear in his mind.The girl who seemed to have never really met, but who occupied all his thoughts in his vague memory. Speaking of it, everything is like a child's dream, sometimes even he can't believe it. I've been dreaming about her since I was a teenager.Dreamed that she sat with him in the market place of Thebes, she stood with him by the deep blue pool, dreamed that she attended the Opat festival with him—as if she had been with him all his life, She discussed the problems of foreigners with him, and he shared his mind and strategy with her.

The dream and the reality are entangled, and in the infinite repetition, it begins to affect his decision. He accepted foreigners to serve the Egyptian royal family, hated Tissy's daughter but never killed him, and became Pharaoh as the seventh prince. Used to loneliness, but he trusted her.Their past was so real, as if she had actually existed in his life.Their destinies are closely intertwined. By the time he found out, he had already fallen in love with the person in his dream.Looking forward to seeing her in the dream, looking forward to seeing her smile. She taught him to drop coins in a pool to make a wish.He built the blue lotus pond they had visited together, threw countless golden coins into it, and silently recited the same wish countless times.

Gradually, it became difficult to distinguish between dreams and reality. From then on, he secretly sent people to look for a girl with blond hair and blue eyes in Thebes.But time passed, and there was no news of her. When meeting from time to time becomes a habit, the mood becomes uncontrollable.He started asking her name.The first time he learned of her name was in the last real dream, he wanted to propose to let her come to his own reality.He believed that she existed independently of his fantasies, that she must be somewhere, that she could come to him if she wanted to. Instead, she told him that the Nefertari he should marry was an Egyptian, a woman he had never met.Not only that, but she wanted him to treat her well and spare no effort.

A very strong feeling of being played took away all reason.After waking up, he only felt ashamed and angry, smashed the vase in front of the bed, drew out his sword and cut the surrounding area into pieces.He laughed at himself wantonly, and was actually moved by the illusion in the dream. "You're just a dream! A ridiculous, illusory dream!" He yelled like this, resisting the reality that he was disturbed. On that day, the world seemed to change.In the dream, she appeared less often.Only occasionally, she could be faintly seen, when she wiped out the cancerous tumors of Dockley and Tata in one fell swoop, after the battle of Mulai Village, when she ascended the throne... But she was just standing behind the early morning fog, She smiled approvingly, but never came to his side again.No matter what he said, she never responded.

After that, he never dreamed of her again. He was suddenly afraid, he was like a crazy believer, desperately fulfilling their promise.Just to see her again, even if it is a dream or an illusion.He is so devout, he believes that if she can feel it, if she has any affection, she will always appear. but no. During that time, if I didn't drink alcohol every night, I couldn't sleep.Before going to bed, I always look forward to dreaming, but when I am about to fall asleep, I am afraid that I will not dream.When drinking to the point of madness, I don't know which women I embraced, and how many craftsmen's painstaking efforts were smashed.Once when he was drunk and confused, he mistook the woman in his arms for her.He was very enthusiastic, murmured to her, and said with pleading: "Don't be angry. If you want me to marry her, I will marry her. I don't ask why, I will give you whatever you want. Don't Leave me, don't disappear like this again..."

The woman didn't seem to understand, but she was flattered, and when she woke up in the morning, she repeated his words to him again.He was naturally furious, and immediately asked someone to pull her out and behead her, exposing her body to the West Bank, and letting the vultures gnaw on her body.That woman was the only daughter of a nobleman in the court, and this incident caused quite a stir. Even Li Tahe couldn't help being a little nervous, and secretly asked him why he was so abnormal. He looked indifferently at the sunset gradually sinking into the Nile River outside the window.

He was just dreaming.But in the dream, the most important person left me.No matter how much I tortured myself, I couldn't feel the reality of being alive.However, the person who brought him the truth was an illusion that existed in the dream. The most noble and worry-free existence in the eyes of millions of people lives in such a contradictory and unbearable way. All he can do is to drag his tired body to the blue lotus pond in the early morning, throw his body behind his back, and throw a coin. After many years, the pool was covered with gold coins, and the beautiful blue bottom of the pool was completely covered.

The wish never came true. He suddenly realized that she would never come to his side, no matter how passionately he loved her, obsessed with her, and kept all the promises he made with her, she was just a dream after all. It's been ten years since I first dreamed of her.One morning, when he got up, the sun had not yet risen.On that day, the outside of the palace was filled with a rare thin fog.The pale white lingers in the air, turning into soft cotton wool with each breath, slowly and fatally pressing into the chest.He suddenly felt that maybe it was impossible to see her again.He wanted to laugh, but his handsome brows were furrowed in disobedience, and he couldn't laugh no matter what.As soon as he opened his mouth, the words turned into orders—"Fill out all the gold coins in that pool and send them to the Priest's House for confiscation."

It's all ruined, and those unknown memories are the agreement that only he abides by.He ordered the soldiers to bring Princess Ivy to the temple, but the seemingly random stick hit her heart with full strength. At that time, there was only one thing on his mind—if he hadn't met her, he would have done it a long time ago. But that stick started the gear of fate.He saw traces of his obsession with girls in Princess Ivy, who had escaped from death, and his sister whom he hated extremely.At first it was disbelief, and later it was doubt.Rama, the prince of Cush, confirmed his deduction by mistake, the future of the past is the present. Nefertari, she did say she was from the future. Time and space seemed to be split into numerous fragments before their eyes.He finally found her, and before he could embrace her ecstatically in his arms, she died in front of him in order to protect himself.Extreme excitement turned directly into bone-chilling despair. At that moment, he seemed to be ten years old suddenly. He could only hope in the legendary Eye of Horus and pray to the gods to bring her back to his side again. In the medina of Deir, the moment he turned her hair and his eyes touched the gentle golden color, he seemed to see the moment when the dream became real.She is Nefertari, with a face so similar to Princess Ivy, but with a vitality that he is strange but very familiar with. Yes, she just said herself that she was never his sister. But she has all their memories. Nefertari, she is Nefertari. I don't want to hear your answer, you stay here, I'll let you stay here. Thinking of this, he smiled as if in a good mood, soft lines appeared on Junyi's face.Ivy couldn't understand his hot and cold attitude.She was speechless, but he inexplicably threw out a sentence: "So holding your hand is like holding other girls' hands. You only need to hold your own fingers together." He sighed immediately, "It turned out to be such a simple thing..." Finally did it, and he will never let go. Ivy frowned, thinking of his order-like words just now, and the exclamation for no reason, her mood was extremely depressed. "What do you want to do to me?" "What?" He was stunned. She raised her head, her water-blue eyes were moist and bright, "Princess Ivy is dead, but you still have unfinished plans. What do you want me to take her place this time?" "What to do? I admit that I sent Ivy to Cush..." The unreasonable tension made him feel a little annoyed, "Nefer Tali, that's not you, don't mind it." Ivy frowned, "When you hit Princess Ivy's heart with a stick, her memory is mine...From the moment you hit that silver-haired princess hard with the stick in the temple, The lotus pond, the Eye of Horus, Karnak, duck hunting, pas de deux, the battle of Nubia... I remember all of them. Your first blow was so hard that Princess Ivy probably died at that time. " "Nefertari, I didn't know it was you at the time." The emotion that had disappeared for a long time rushed into his heart like a huge wave, and he opened his arms and hugged her tightly into his arms.Sure enough, he was not mistaken, the person who inexplicably attracted him was not his weak and timid sister, but Nefertari.The moment Princess Ivy passed away, Nefertari's personality replaced her. The bodies of the two were close together, and she could hear his heart beating powerfully and rapidly, as well as the steady rise and fall of each breath.Her voice sounded vaguely in front of his chest, full of confusion, doubt, and uncertainty, but not the joy he expected, "Even if you know that I am Nefertari, so what?" His body froze there suddenly. After thinking for a long time, how can I say something as ridiculous as a dream.There is a little hope in my heart that maybe she has similar memories.But in the next second, he vetoed himself again.If she had any affection, it would never be the reaction just now.While hesitating, she raised her head, her big eyes reflected his uneasy look, but they were cruelly cold and dry. "The person I like knows the appearance of rose flowers, knows how to write my name, and remembers the agreement we made." He said that even if we meet again, we will never forget our past lives. fraud. He forgot. "Now you are doing all this because you wrote the script and the chess game you set up. Your goal has been achieved, why are you still holding me?" She spoke words he didn't know, and missed people he didn't know.The emotion in her heart seemed to be blocked by an infinitely wide gully, unable to open her mouth, let alone reach her heart.Frustration and frustration flooded in like tides, and when they turned into words, they were two thin words, "Shut up." His arms became strong, and his originally gentle cheeks became cold.He stared at her, only then did she see that his eyes were bloodshot, almost ferocious, as if he hadn't slept for a few days.She was so frightened that she wanted to desperately escape from his confinement, but he restrained her even more tightly.The bones in the body seemed to be creaking.She was really scared.And the guards are still far behind... Even if the pharaoh is close by, no one dares to approach if the pharaoh doesn't open his mouth. The sun sinks into the Nile, and the first star appears in the pale blue of the first night. He tried his best to restrain his emotions, breathed hard, his voice was low, dark, and hoarse with a little restlessness that he didn't usually have, "Shut up...no matter who you are, no matter where you come from, no matter why You have Ivy's memory - I won't ask you! But," he seemed determined, "but..." But after that, the words seemed to stop in his throat. He looked at her with a frightened look, but he couldn't continue the words that were about to burst out. He wanted to say that he was serious about what Cush said that day, and that he would spare no effort to treat her well by letting him replace the person who called her "Wei". He wanted to say that no matter who the person she kept mentioning was, he would stop listening to their past, and he would not ask again. He could give whatever that person could. He wanted to say that he had waited for her for a long, long time, just to hold her hand and hold her in his arms. But he couldn't speak. The scene of her disappearing from the dream like air seemed to reappear at any time. She finally came to his side and stood by his side for real. He would never bear her disappearing from his life again.He is such a proud man.In this land, no one can compare with him.But now, he lowered his head, feeling extremely unconfident in himself.He knew it must be funny, vulnerable, trying to hide his unease.He actually let her see himself in such a miserable state. After a long time, it was so long that he seemed to be condensed into a statue of a thousand years later.He loosened his strength, gently stroked her short blonde hair, and gave up the words he was about to say, "That's it, you stay in Egypt, and I will take good care of you. You can say whatever you want." But she didn't know that such words sounded to her as if she had tacitly agreed that he wanted to use her mind. She smiled as if she understood clearly, laughing at her nostalgia and dependence on him.After being hurt so many times, she has no tears left.She has neither the Eye of Horus, nor the magic power to turn things around in her tears.Bifeitu, which belonged to her, disappeared with another time and space earlier. The person in front of her used her to hurt her and torture her during the embarrassing days when she lost her golden hair and blue eyes.Give her hope again and again, and then shatter it lightly. Such a thing as trust is difficult to build, but so easy to destroy. She sighed softly, and said to him, "You already have a plan in mind, why bother to ask me." He was stunned for a moment, and then a slight smile appeared on his face, "Then you stay here." She didn't agree or refuse, but just stood there thoughtfully. "What's wrong?" She raised her head blankly, looked at him for a moment, and said, "I'm looking for someone...can you help me?" "Looking for someone?" He repeated, as if he wanted to ask her who she was looking for, but he suppressed the question, and just said as if it didn't matter, "Yes. I will send someone to find you when I go back to the palace. " She bit her lower lip, "But, he may be in another country." "Then I will lend you the power of all Egypt. In return, you will treat yourself as Princess Ivy and return to the palace with me." His face was as usual, and there seemed to be an indifferent and cold smile at the corner of his mouth, and he stretched out his hand and gently Wiping her cheeks, her slender fingers slowly smoothed her frowning, as if coaxing a young child, and said softly, "The power of all Egypt is much faster than your own efforts, tell me, Who is he, what country is he from, what does he look like?" The sun gradually dived into the endlessly flowing Nile, and the cool night wind turned up his clothes.Every time he sees the glare of the sun, he reminds him of her pale golden hair, and every time he looks up at the clear blue sky, he reminds him of her sea-like eyes.The surrounding air was getting colder, but his heart was so hot, it was all because she broke into his life.Her expression of eagerly looking for another person was like a blunt instrument, slowly cutting the softest part of his heart, leaving his chest cavity bloody and bloody. For the past ten years, he has been thinking about her, obsessed with her, and can't stop looking for her. It turns out that he is the only one who is so obsessed. She didn't appear in his life, and she didn't want to stay by his side, just because she already had someone else she couldn't forget. Scattered thoughts rolled and crashed in my heart like water droplets, and then condensed into huge waves.The reaction on his face was a calmness and indifference that even he himself couldn't believe. He is the king of Egypt, and he can have everything he wants.This time, even the god Osiris was on his side and sent her to his side.He will never miss. The touch of the fingers is so real, and the hand caressing her face is more careful.She frowns slightly, with hesitant blue eyes and slender fingers.The face that appeared countless times in the dream was right in front of him, it looked so cute, so hard to let go. "Tell me, I'll help you, just stay by my side." Yes, tell him.Who is that person, where is it, what does it look like. He will find him for her. Then, erase his existence in this world.