Chapter 87 Chapter 86

I feel someone caressing my cheeks, being extremely gentle every now and then, feeling like I am still a child who is loved by thousands of people, and I can do whatever I want in everything, so I can't help but murmur: "Mom, mom." His eyes were filled with joy, but it was Yinzhen's anxious and joyful face.It was hundreds of years in an instant, I was stunned for a moment and asked "what's the matter?" As soon as the words came out, the scene before fainting came to my heart, nausea in my stomach, but there was nothing to vomit, lying on the bedside just doing nothing vomit.

Yinzhen half hugged me, patted my back, I pushed him hard, but my whole body was weak, without any strength, I cried: "Go, I don't want to see you again." His expression was cold With pain mixed in, I reached out to hold my arm that pushed him, and I cried, "Why? Why are you doing this?" Yinzhen hugged me tightly and said: "Ruoxi, we have a baby." I cried in my throat, looked up at him, he nodded and said: "The imperial doctor just checked the pulse, it's been a month." As he spoke, he kissed me lightly on the face and said softly, "We are going to have a baby."

I didn't have the slightest joy, I was entangled with love and hatred for him in my heart, stared at him for a long time, he covered my eyes with his hand, and begged: "Ruoxi, don't look at me like this. Are you unhappy? We have been looking forward to it for a long time." I was in so much pain that I leaned over and cried loudly, "Yinzhen, I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!" He stiffened and patted my back, "I know! There is a reason. Take care of yourself first, and I will explain it to you later." I cried, "That's my sister! It's my sister!"

Yinzhen covered my mouth and said: "Ruoxi, you consider her a younger sister, but she never considers you an older sister. It's not that I didn't give her a chance." I slapped his hand fiercely, my eyes darkened as I struggled, The body suddenly fell limp.He hurriedly supported me, and while I was gasping for breath, I pushed him weakly. He said: "You don't want to see me, so I'll leave now. But you should take care of yourself and your child." Then he called Mei Xiangju Yun to come in to serve her.He stood up and stared at me, I closed my eyes, and he turned and walked away slowly.

Dizziness seems to have many dreams, broken into pieces, chaotic and mixed, just like so many years of time, like a moment, but painful and long. In spring, Yutan sat on the kang and embroidered handkerchiefs for me. I leaned aside and flipped through the books at will. Occasionally, a few crisp laughter echoed in the room, melting the unbearable loneliness and cold in the Forbidden City. You take care of me every time I get sick, the veil is changed over and over again, and the medicine is brought to the bedside.That time when the danger was so severe and there was no will to survive, it was you who sang by the bed all night until I woke up.

The Huanyi Bureau is run by cheap servants, you will never leave, and you will take great pains to maintain it.Nearly twenty years of sisterhood, a constant warmth in this cold court. I thought that with his love, I could protect you well and keep you from being harmed in the Forbidden City, but I didn't expect him to treat you like this. Jade sandalwood, since then, the last touch of warmth in the Forbidden City has disappeared. ………… Mei Xiang woke me up with a shake, twisted the veil and wiped my face, only to realize that tears were streaming down my face in the dream. Just after dawn, I ordered Mei Xiang to ask Wang Xi to come to see me, but Mei Xiang hesitated and bowed her head, then withdrew.

Without much effort, Wang Xi hurried forward, his footsteps were flimsy, his face was pale, and his eyes were dark. He was obviously deeply stimulated by witnessing the whole process.Although Mei Xiang Ju Yun also had a swollen face, she had no relationship with Yu Tan after all, she was only afraid of the matter itself. Mei Xiang stood by, and I said: "Go down!" She hesitated for a while, and went to the layman.I asked Wang Xi to sit, Wang Xi stood in front of the couch, pointed to the outside of the curtain, I said silently with my mouth: "I did it on purpose." Wang Xi suddenly realized, and hurriedly said: "I don't dare to sit, sister, please tell me if you have something to do! "

I pondered for a while, suppressing the pain in my heart and asked: "Yutan... that day... what was the situation?" Wang Xi's tears were rolling in his eyes, the skin on his face was shaking, but his voice replied smoothly: " It went quickly, and there was no pain." Wang Xi's tears rolled down as he spoke, and he immediately wiped them away with his sleeve. I clutched my chest and asked, "Did she say anything before she left?" Wang Xi looked back, quickly took out a piece of cloth from his arms and stuffed it under the cushion I was leaning on, and said, "Keep smiling Standing, did not speak."

I asked him with my eyes, and asked in my mouth, "How are you?" Wang Xi made a gesture of stuffing the cloth strip through the crack of the door, and then acted like he pushed the door and suddenly found the cloth strip, and replied, "Slave." everything is fine." After speaking, the two faced each other silently, Wang Xi said: "Since my sister has nothing to say, this servant will leave now." Before I could answer, he hurried out.I wanted to stop him, but I held back. Holding the cloth strip brought by Wang Xi in my hand, there were only a few lines of words, but each word pierced my heart like a knife, "I beg my sister to protect my family well. Yutan knows that the end is coming, and she has always hoped that one day she can personally I explained everything clearly to my sister, but now I don’t have a chance anymore, so I’m in a hurry, I can’t understand my heart, but I suddenly feel that all words are superfluous, my sister will definitely understand my heart. I’m just a fool in the world of mortals! Yutan has no regrets No complaints! Don't hurt my sister!"

I can see Yutan’s urgency in my mind, hiding in a corner, tearing off the cloth strips from her clothes, biting her index finger, writing in a hurry, and stuffing it into Wang Xi’s house. She was arrested not long after. . Yutan kept telling me that she had never read a book, and only knew a few words, but today, looking at her left book, although her handwriting was hasty, it was a standard Mrs. Guan's plum blossom.Without years of hard work and familiarity with hundreds of poems, one can never have such a beautiful and leisurely artistic conception.Yutan, how many things are you hiding from me?

Mei Xiang whispered beside the couch, "Auntie, Lord Thirteen is here to see you." I nodded slightly, and Mei Xiang said, "Please come in, Lord Thirteen!" Thirteen walked in slowly, Mei Xiang greeted him and moved away. Chair Thirteen, please sit down and exit quietly. Thirteen took a closer look at my face and said: "You are not in good health, and now you are pregnant again, how can you bear to bully yourself? Don't tell me you hate Brother Huang so much that you don't even want a child anymore?" I Said: "I don't have one." Thirteen said: "Since you don't have one, you should take good care of it. One is that it is dangerous for you to be pregnant for the first time at your current age, and the other is that you have always been sick, and now you have fetal gas again. For you, Imperial Physician He has been frowning all day long, thinking hard about the best prescriptions. Brother Huang is also worried, but you don’t care at all. Brother Huang is afraid that you will be afraid, so I don’t want to tell you these things. I just wanted to persuade you to relax Xin, but as soon as I saw you like this, I couldn't get angry, so I simply argued with you, if you still want this child, you should cooperate with the imperial physician." I was stunned for a while, and said in a sad voice: "I will try my best. But the heartache is unbearable. Maybe you can teach me how to make it not hurt? My sister died tragically at the hands of the person I love. Do you have a way to make me feel better? Resolve the entanglement of love and hate in your heart?" Thirteen bowed his head in silence and said: "Maybe the truth will make you feel better, but it may make you sad." I smiled wryly: "Tell me!" Thirteen sighed lightly and said, "Brother Huang sent Ninth Brother to Xining, and it is strictly forbidden for them to exchange news with each other, but Ninth Brother still tried his best, and even made up his own password to use various people to contact Beijing. Yutan is Ninth Brother The eyeliner next to Brother Huang has been leaking Brother Huang's whereabouts. Brother Huang has warned her several times because you are not good at punishing her, but she has not repented at all. This time, Brother Huang was angered because of Brother Nine Instigated Hongshi to try to become the crown prince, and did a lot of things to provoke the relationship between the emperor and Hongshi's father and son; and ordered Yutan to try to use your relationship with the starling, tenth, and fourteenth brothers to sow the relationship between you and the emperor, The two things violated the big taboo of the emperor, and the emperor couldn't bear it so he used the capital punishment, which is also a stern warning to the ninth brother." My mind was in a mess, and I thought everything was absurd, but it seemed reasonable. The details of many years suddenly popped up in my mind. It turned out that the son who saved Yutan's family on that snowy night was Brother Jiu, but Yutan must have lied to me in the end. It's not just a one-sided relationship, but Brother Jiu has been taking care of their family secretly since then, and it should be a deliberate arrangement to enter the palace as a maid many years later.No wonder Shisi doesn't seem to shy away from Yutan. I think it's because he knows that Yutan and I are close, but it turns out there is another world.Yutan, is your love for me true or false?Yutan smiled and frowned, a sorrow and a joy flashed through my mind quickly, I smiled in a trance, the love cannot be faked.She is in a dilemma in the palace, and her difficulty is no less than mine. What is the story between her and Brother Nine?I only know the beginning and the ending, but not the process. Her heartache, helplessness, pain and despair may be more than mine. Thirteen looked at me with a slight smile, and asked in surprise, "Ruoxi, aren't you angry?" I shook my head and said, "Yutan regards me as a sister, and she will never lie to me. As for the others, no one has many things." What about the helpless thing? If I really have any complaints, I can only blame the cruelty of heaven." Thirteen stared at me and said, "You are always willing to forgive, and you are always willing to remember good things." I bowed my head in silence for a while, then said calmly: "The emperor could have prevented all this from happening, but he didn't stop it." Thirteen said anxiously: "The emperor intended to let Yutan out of the palace. Yutan just came to serve in front of the imperial court. The emperor ordered Gao Wuyong to repeat the punishment for violating the rules of the Hall of Mental Cultivation to everyone, and later when the palace maid who passed on the message was executed with a cane, Yu Tan and everyone were specially asked to watch as a warning." I shook my head and said, "Maybe when I planned to let Yutan out of the palace, I really wanted to give up. Of course, since all the maids of the original Qianqing Palace were dismissed, it didn't make sense to keep Yutan who had already passed the age of leaving the palace. Later Probably because Brother Nine was unwilling to give up Yutan as a pawn, Yutan came to beg me. The emperor could have made it clear to me immediately, and then directly ordered Yutan to leave the palace. I have no reason to object. But the emperor did not Do it, but push the boat along the way and give a reason for Yutan to stay. After all, if Yutan is sent away, I don’t know what tricks Jiuye and the others will think of. Why don’t you keep a person who you know is a spy by your side, and do everything in one fell swoop. Well, if you want to let Master Jiu know, let Yu Tan know on purpose, and if you don't want to know, Yu Tan will never know. You can also use Yu Tan to spy on Jiu Master's movements, and even use Yu Tan to give Jiu Master complete protection. Wrong message." Thirteen sighed: "I know I can't make you feel relieved, but Brother Huang once really hoped that Yutan would change his ways, and he would never hurt you. Moreover, it was originally stipulated in the palace that the fault of a maid should implicate the family, but You didn't pursue it because you begged for mercy. If you hadn't been too nervous this time, you wouldn't have hated Yutan so much. The only thing wrong with Brother Huang is probably that he underestimated the relationship between you and Yutan." I smiled miserably and said: "Yu Tan was forced to death by the joint efforts of Lord Nine and the Emperor, and I was an accomplice." Thirteen said: "I know you feel sorry for Yu Tan, but you can't blame yourself for this .” I lay back on the couch and murmured: "Master Thirteen, do you know what I have experienced in such a short time? My sister left me, but she died with a smile on her face. Although I am sad, I think about her. The bleakness of my life is not a kind of relief. I'm afraid you already knew how Li Wenda died. To me, Yutan is my sister. Even if there is something wrong, why did he use such torture? And those Although Zhang Qianying is at fault for those who are not related, the crime is not as serious as this. How many things do I not know? I am afraid of this court now, it is like a monster, constantly devouring people. " Shisan wanted to say more, I waved down the tent and said, "I want to rest." Shisan sat silently for a while, sighed softly, got up and left. "Miss!" I opened my eyes suddenly, "Qiaohui?" Qiaohui half-knelt beside the bed and said, "Miss, it's me!" I stood up and pushed her, "Get out! You can't stay here." Qiaohui Hui shouted: "Miss, the emperor ordered me to enter the palace to serve you." I cried: "I just know that the emperor ordered you to come, so I let you go quickly." Qiaohui sat down next to me, put her arms around me and asked, "What's the matter? I heard Eunuch Gao said that the young lady is pregnant. Why are you so disrespectful to yourself? Just tell me if you have anything on your mind. I have served my master since I was a child. It can be said that I watched you grow up, and in Zanyue's words, I regard the master as a sister and the young lady as a sister in my heart." I thought of my sister, and fell into her arms and burst into tears.Qiaohui said: "No matter how sad things are, they are not as important as children. If the master sees you like this, he will definitely be sad. Miss has promised the master that she will take good care of herself." While crying, Cheng Huan shouted from the side: "Auntie!" I hurriedly wiped away my tears in Qiaohui's arms, and looked at Cheng Huan, "When did you come?" Cheng Huan said, "Auntie, can I tell you a joke?" Okay?" I said: "Let's talk about it another day!" Cheng Huan said again: "Then I will sing for aunt." I patted her head and said, "Let's talk about it another day too! My aunt won't listen to it today." Cheng Huan climbed onto the bed and asked me to touch her left hand. There were thin calluses on the three fingers, "Auntie, I practice the piano very hard." I touched her callus and nodded, "Wait until you finish playing the piano." You, Ama, must be very happy." Cheng Huan asked: "Auntie, are you unhappy?" I twitched the corner of my mouth and said, "Happy, so is Auntie." Cheng Huan stared at me sideways for a while and said: "Auntie, I heard Uncle Huang said that you will give me a younger brother." I nodded slightly, and Cheng Huan said: "Then aunt can't cry anymore, cry again, little brother My younger brother will cry too." I turned my head to hold back my tears, and Qiaohui hurriedly said, "Miss, do you want to lie down for a while?" I shook my head. Qiaohui smiled and said: "Get up then! It's not good to lie down all day. I haven't served the young lady for a long time. Let the maidservant wash the young lady today!" Cheng Huan jumped off the floor after hearing this.Qiaohui helped me up. Accompanied by Qiaohui and Cheng Huan, she reluctantly ate half a bowl of clear porridge and some shredded bamboo shoots, Qiaohui still looked dissatisfied, and babbled: "It's fine to starve adults, how can you starve children?" Mei Xiang was already overjoyed, she packed up the dishes and went out excitedly.