Chapter 2 Chapter two

It took Masako and Horizawa more than half a year from their engagement to their marriage.It wasn't until the wedding night in Atami that Masako realized that the relationship between the two was extremely superficial.After getting engaged, she and Horizawa often met, or went to the movies, or listened to concerts, but they had less spiritual contact with each other.So far, we have simply talked about each other's hobbies, impressions of reading, evaluation of movies or concerts, etc., and have never taken each other's personality as a topic. On their wedding night in Atami, Masako felt that Horizawa was a stranger who knew nothing.

Changzi has been quite familiar with his face, voice, and demeanor for more than a year.How did it all work before the marriage?She knew nothing about him now.Masako was at a loss as to what Horizawa was thinking and doing. This may be the instinctive fear of a newlywed wife.When she was embraced by her husband for the first time, she suddenly thought: Ah!My life is set.I was so moved that I almost shed tears. There are still many unknowns about my own future.These Zhu Zhishu will suffer setbacks because of this husband.Chang Zi, who was embraced by her husband, indeed felt a sense of happiness.But on the other hand, my life will be settled by my husband, and I can't help but feel a little sad when I think about it.

Her husband whispered in her ear: "I love you and I will make you happy." Hearing this, Changzi felt happy and thought himself happy. However, she didn't understand her husband's heart, so she couldn't help but feel a little uneasy.Are all newlyweds like this? During the wedding trip, Masako discovered that Horizawa had some small shortcomings.For example, talking on a train suddenly becomes rude. In the past, he was more cautious in speaking, but suddenly he became casual. For example, when looking out to sea from a hotel balcony, he said: "Hey, have you been to Sanyuan Mountain?"

"Hey, bring me some water." Changzi couldn't help feeling disgusted by this.The life of a couple should gradually adapt to each other.She hoped that her husband would moderate his conversation with his new wife. The husband was also rude when speaking to the hotel maid.It could be heard from his tone that he looked down on the maid at all. The husband's temperament belongs to the Ding is Ding, Mao is Mao serious type.When he opened his mouth, he was completely treating the people below. Changzi thought: This may be a habit he has developed from working in the government for a long time.In the past, she also thought that Horizawa was a bureaucratic figure, but after listening to his current tone, this impression was even stronger.

Yes, Horizawa's mind is really good.He had excellent grades in school, and he made a fortune quickly in the officialdom.In the words of my younger sister Lingzi: "The mind is clear." Horizawa himself has the idea of ​​getting ahead.He is convinced that he is smarter than others.Therefore, in normal speech, the existence of others is often ignored. During the wedding trip, Horizawa is not interested in the trip.It is said that Atami is too plain, and Kyoto and Nara are not very interesting. Maybe this thread is really boring.But for Changzi, there is only one time in a lifetime, and both parties should pay attention to it.The problem is not the route, but that as the starting point of a couple's life, the wedding trip should become an unforgettable and beautiful memory in life.But there was no such feeling from Horizawa.Even though men have different personalities, there should always be such a mood!

Besides, Horizawa's conversation revealed his sense of superiority everywhere.It seems that his wedding travel itinerary should not be the same as ordinary people, so he showed a contemptuous expression. The husband's appearance is extraordinary and impeccable.He is used to grooming himself and doesn't need others to serve him. For example, when Masako helped him put on his coat, he had to stand in front of the mirror and rearrange it.There was a little dust that was almost invisible to the naked eye, and he flicked it off with his fingers immediately. When combing his hair, he took the comb and combed it back and forth until he was satisfied.When tying a tie, it is rare to succeed once, and you always have to tie it many times in the mirror.

Masako watched the new husband from the sidelines.This person is indeed Ding is Ding, Mao is Mao, but he is too sissy.In some respects it seems to be bleak. Masako likes carefree men.You don't have to be too picky about your appearance, it's better to be casual.And Horizawa was too neurotic. During nearly a year of dating, she didn't know much about Horizawa.The intercourse after the engagement seemed to be limited to the surface, and had not touched the inner part of his character at all. "Hey! Don't you have a 'past'?" Horizawa asked. Changzi was taken aback. "Past? What do you mean?"

"For example—" Horizawa said with a playful smile. "Have you ever loved someone?" "No, no." Changzi shook his head desperately. "Needless to say who I like. I've never dated a man before." For the first time Masako showed a little dislike for her husband. "Absolutely not. I didn't—" how about you?When the words came to his lips, Changzi didn't dare to say them. Horizawa felt that Masako was a little upset, and explained: "I'm a man, if I say there is nothing, you will think I'm lying, but now there is nothing, you can rest assured."

Wedding trip moved from Atami to Kyoto. In Kyoto, they stayed at the high-end M Hotel. Horizawa was unhappy that he didn't stay in a high-end hotel in Atami.Now that he was staying at the M Hotel, he was content. Hotels in Atami are not bad.Masako felt that it fit her identity.As for the hotel, she felt that it was too extravagant. However, Horizawa doesn't seem to have this kind of thinking.I think it is quite leisurely to live in a first-class and luxurious hotel. Perhaps he saw the wedding trip as the starting point of his second life.In order to keep a souvenir, it doesn't matter how much it is wasted.But judging from his expression, as long as he can live in a luxurious hotel, he will be elated and satisfied.

From these behaviors of her husband, Changzi learned about his bureaucratic temperament. Her husband dreamed of being promoted to section chief, minister, bureau chief, and even vice-official in the government office.This is the hope and fighting spirit of a man, and it cannot be said to be bad.However, Horizawa's current attitude, which often hopes that the standard of living will exceed the current status, can not but be worrying. Looking out from the M Hotel, the scenery is pleasant. Under the window is a cableway, leading to Nanchan Temple and Yingeshou, and the foot of Dongshan Mountain is endless.The tram to Otsu passes here, and the north side of Kyoto is a sweeping street.

Although the scenery is beautiful, Changzi's mind is constantly churning with wild thoughts that have nothing to do with the scenery.She is intimidated by her husband's attitude towards life. Living in this luxurious hotel and looking out at the beautiful scenery will leave good memories for a lifetime, which is naturally gratifying.However, there was something uncomfortable about Horizawa's character that Masako found hard to accept. Does everyone feel this way when they get married? Masako found it incredible that the impression he got when they first met in Kyushu was so different from the current competition.It is often said that first impressions are the most correct.But that's not the case at all with Horizawa. Horizawa when Hesu stepped forward in the rain to drive away the trailing cow for him; Horizawa who climbed the cliff first in Yamaxi Mountain, and Horizawa who went to the hotel to chat with her at night: these are difficult The obsolete images seem to have been driven away from Changzi's mind at this moment. Only now did she realize why her sister was crying when they left Tokyo Station.The younger sister has intuitively predicted the uneasiness of her older sister's new life. Speaking of Yemaxi, Changzi naturally recalled Jimu who walked together in the dense forest.For some reason, Yoshiki, who was so close to Horizawa at that time, has never appeared since then, and Horizawa never mentioned his name.Compared with Horisawa, Yoshiki is tall and burly, with a round face, and he leaves an impression of amiability. Yoshiki kept a distance from Masako and Horizawa all the time, seeming to avoid them on purpose. At that moment, Yoshiki's image involuntarily reappeared in front of Masako's eyes. "What's going on, Jimu-kun?" In the hotel in Nara, Masako asked. "Why are you thinking about Jim all the time?" Horizawa stared at his wife's face, and frowned slightly.This is his usual action. Changzi didn't understand why her husband was so unhappy when Jimu was mentioned, so she hurriedly changed her words: "Isn't he with you in Kyushu? Thinking of the first time I met you in Kyushu, I will naturally think of him." "Is that why?" Horizawa asked angrily. "Of course. Other than that, I don't know Jim at all." "Really?—" The husband's face was still unhappy. "He's very busy, so he doesn't show up often." "What does he do?" "In a company..." My husband said this before, but this time I didn't make any further explanations. Why doesn't the husband like Masako mentioning Jimu?Jim did not come to the wedding, it seems that the husband deliberately did not invite him. The two left the hotel to visit the temple in Nara. Changzi slowly and carefully appreciating the buildings and Buddha statues of the ancient temple.This is what she has longed for.Whenever Masako stopped, Horizawa seemed impatient and urged her to leave quickly. Horizawa had no interest in these things. For example, the two of them stepped into Todaiji Temple, only saw the Great Buddha Hall, and then detoured back to Kasuga Shrine.To go to Sanyuetang, it was Changzi who reluctantly went to Sanyuetang on the way.Masako wanted to pay homage to the famous Tianping Buddha in the Sanyue hall, but Horizawa flatly refused. "What's the point of these things. Buddha statues are the same everywhere." Horizawa has absolutely no knowledge of this.He likes to hire a car and follow the general sightseeing route to see the places of interest in Nara.It is his great pleasure to be able to hire large imported cars. Back at the hotel, Changzi wrote a short letter to Lingzi.Write a short travel reflection on the back of a colorful postcard.As she wrote, she remembered the tears Lingzi shed at the station.In the future, I will definitely find a chance to ask Lingzi, what do these tears mean?But Lingzi never tells the truth, at most she just smiles. Masako deliberately kept the letter short, leaving a blank space for Horisawa to write a few words. "Don't you write a few sentences?" Without saying a word, Horizawa picked up the postcard written by Masako and read it. "Your handwriting is beautiful!" - this was the first time he praised her. Masako had never written a letter to Horizawa in the past.But Horizawa wrote several letters.His handwriting was terrible. Horizawa held the postcard and didn't write immediately. "It doesn't matter if I write or not." Horizawa hesitated.Not only was he too lazy to write, but there seemed to be other reasons as well.Her husband once said, "Lingzi seems to be watching me." Changzi suddenly remembered this sentence when she saw her husband holding a pen in embarrassment. Finally, the husband dropped the pen. "You have already written it, so there is no need for me to write it." Changzi didn't persuade him any more. After returning from the wedding trip, Changzi's life has undergone new changes. The new house is a newly built public apartment in Suginami District, with complete equipment and beautiful appearance. Horizawa could have lived in the civil service apartment, the rent was much cheaper than the corporate apartment, but he thought it was dirty.Horizawa's salary is not high, and his father needs to subsidize him every month. Of course, it would be nice to live in a well-equipped, beautiful apartment.Masako is unwilling to pay rent that does not commensurate with Horizawa's salary.From this point of view, Horizawa is a vain person. A new life begins.All kinds of trifles entangled Changzi.First of all, I have to visit Horizawa's relatives and friends, and I am very busy. As time went by, she slowly got used to it. Masako's mother often came to see her.The younger sister, Lingzi, came with her mother only once.After that, no one was seen. "What's the matter Ling Zi?" When his mother came to see her, Masako said rather unfairly.It was as if the sister had suddenly left her. "This child plays around all day long. In the third grade, it seems that playing can spare more time than studying." The mother said confusedly. "I really want you to talk about Lingzi." "What do Lingzi play?" Changzi asked worriedly. "After school or to the movies, or to the dance. She doesn't tell me. It's bad if you hang out with dude men." "Is there any sign of this now?" "Not too clear, it seems that it is not enough!" "Who is she playing with? Is it a classmate?" "Speaking of classmates, of course there are not only female classmates, there may also be male classmates." "Really?" A shadow cast over Masako's face. From her sister's point of view, Lingzi is smarter than others, has a cheerful personality, and is outspoken. Even among her classmates, she is the center of everyone and is loved by everyone. Since her mother was worried, Changzi wanted to talk to Lingzi next time she went back to her natal home. At this time, the mother asked Changzi quietly: "How is it? Is it not bad?" Horizawa rarely goes to his father-in-law's house.Mother worried whether Masako and Horizawa could not get along. Horizawa and Masako had no quarrel.Because they just got married, there is still an indescribable fresh intimacy between the two.Why didn't Horizawa go to her husband's house?As soon as he went out, he went to see his father.Changzi didn't know why.But you can't protest to him either.In addition to my father, there is also my brother-in-law's house, so Horizawa always goes there alone.At this time, Changzi really wanted to say: You have to go to the father-in-law's house too!The words came to his lips, but he couldn't speak them out.When it comes to her natal family, she seems to be partial to her own family, so she has some concerns. One morning, when her husband was about to go to work, Masako said: "I'm going back to my mother's house today. Last time my mother came, I have to deal with some things." She knew her husband wouldn't be leaving anytime soon, so she didn't invite him either.When Horizawa was putting on his shoes at the door, he turned around and said: "Go ahead!" "I'll be back before you leave work." "That's okay, I'm coming back later today too." Horizawa tied his shoelaces in a proper manner, stretched, and threw away the cigarette butt. Changzi looked at her husband's face from the side, and suddenly felt that he was very cold to her. Masako heard her husband's footsteps disappearing down the stairs.A wisp of smoke rose from the cigarette butt thrown away by her husband.On this cold morning, the blue smoke seemed to seep into Changzi's cold heart. Changzi returned to her mother's house.My father had gone to work at the Nihonbashi store and was not at home. My younger sister, Lingzi, said that she could go to school later today, so she happened to be at home.She hasn't seen her sister for a long time.After listening to her mother last time, she wanted to talk to Meimo, and today is a good opportunity. When Changzi was alone with Lingzi, Changzi said: "You can't let mother worry about you!" "Oh, what are you worrying about?" Lingzi said, blinking her eyelashes. "Mom visited me a few days ago and said that you play around all day long, not only have female classmates, but also have boyfriends..." "Ouch—" Lingzi smiled innocently. "I, Lingyu, am not such a person. I want to fully enjoy my student life while I am in school. It will be boring when I get married!... But my sister is an exception." Lingzi added at the end, fearing that her sister would be overwhelmed. Changzi sensed that Lingzi was teasing her.She knew this sister's intuition was very keen, and she had already discovered the gap between herself and her husband. Changzi couldn't answer her, so he had to turn his face away. "Sister, you've lost weight." Lingzi stared at her sister's face and said.This sentence shows that she has spied on her sister's situation. "Why hasn't my brother-in-law shown up?" She immediately changed her expression. "He talks about this and that, and finds all kinds of excuses, but he is too lazy to come. But, Lingzi, why don't you go to play?" "In a few days, I will definitely go." "Still! You are too busy to play." "Oh, you speak like I've become a bad girl. Mom must be exaggerating, isn't it?" "Then you can't blame her! Everyone is worried about you. Lingzi, who do you hang out with?" "There are all kinds of people." Lingzi smiled with narrowed eyes. "Are they all students?" "Well, not only the students, but also the uncle!" Ling Zishe replied nonchalantly. "Uncle?" Changzi stared straight at his sister's face.Ling Zi gave her sister a mocking look. "Don't worry, they are all well-behaved people..." She paused for a while when she talked about this. "Of course there are a few bad ones..." "Still, you can't associate with such a person." "It's okay. You have to learn everything in life. It's fun to be around these bad people." "Don't talk nonsense." Changzi looked a little unhappy. Because I haven't seen my sister for a long time.From the elder sister's point of view, the younger sister is even more beautiful. She used to have a child's face, but now her facial contours are like an adult's.Her face and skin seemed to radiate light from within, which made Changzi feel envious. "Lingzi, maybe it's all right. However, it's better not to get in touch with those people." Changzi said. "I understand my sister's advice. But it's okay. Now I want to exercise my vision and wait until I get married to find someone I will never regret." This sentence hurt Changzi.She had never dated a man before.Horizawa was the first.Due to lack of experience, Horizawa's heart is still unknown. When Masako went back, his sister said he was going to school.The two sisters boarded the station together. "Sister, are you happy?" When they came to the station, Lingzi asked.When there were only two of them just now, she didn't ask.Now in the commotion at the station, she asked such a question, which is very in line with Lingzi's character. "It's okay!" "Really? That would be great." The two sisters walked side by side, and Lingzi looked at her sister's face from the side.Masako realized that her sister was watching her again.Thinking of this, I feel that this sister is both cute and hateful.The front and back of the two are bustling with people. "goodbye!" Lingzi waved to her sister and walked down the stairs to the platform.The tram she and her sister took was not on the same route, so they broke up here.Lingzi jumped down three times.Her image stayed in Changzi's eyes for a long time. Masako got on the tram, thinking about her sister's affairs.Yes, my sister is smarter and more capable than myself, and because of her smartness and ability, the family feels intimidated.Mo Mei may be about to fall in love.From her cheerful personality, she is bound to do so.Masako imagined his sister's love, and silently imagined the outline. Judging from her temperament, she can't go wrong with the man she chooses.She would not choose a character that even her elder sister would not be convinced by.However, the adventurous nature of her sister's character makes Masako uneasy, and at the same time envies her very much. Envy——precisely because my marriage was so ordinary.Although Horizawa proposed engagement on his own initiative, it is not called love.If you are passionately in love, the other party should be a man full of action.However, Horizawa's seriousness, and his gloomy over-seriousness, lacks a sense of ambition in his character. ——Lingzi must choose someone who is passionately in love. Was it wrong for me to choose Horizawa as my husband?Changzi himself didn't know.Now that married life has just begun, it is not yet possible to draw such a network theory.She has realized that Horizawa is not the kind of man she imagined at the beginning.She originally wanted to teach her sister a lesson, but in the end she was hurt psychologically. Masako was shopping at the department store attached to the station, and it was already four o'clock in the afternoon when she got back to the apartment. Her room is on the third floor.Go up the reinforced concrete stairs.This building is very modern, surrounded by white walls, like a castle.Going up the stairs creates a feeling of depression.This modern building lacks attractive colors. This stiff house seems to make my life even more boring. When going up the stairs on the third floor, a young man came down head-on.Both sides stopped. It turned out to be the round-faced, burly Jimu whom he had seen in Yemaxi, and Changzi couldn't help being surprised. Changzi stared wide-eyed, she didn't expect to meet Jim here.For a moment, she wondered if her eyes were wrong.Yes, Jim was bowing to her with a big smile. This smile is exactly the same as the one seen in the verdant jungle of Yemaxi. Changzi held his breath and was speechless for a moment. "Are you Jimu-kun?" Masako asked. "Yes, are you Asakawa-kun?" Jimu called her old surname. "Ah—wrong, it should be Mrs. Horizawa." Jimu said, showing a mouthful of white teeth.His face is still so cheerful. "I heard from my friend that you are married. It happened that I was on a business trip, so I couldn't attend. I was very rude. Congratulations." Jimmy bowed deeply again.Changzi felt that Jimu's words were perfunctory.Because Horizawa didn't inform him at all. Changzi thought Jimu was here to visit him.So she said, "I'm not at home, I'm so sorry." Jim shook his hand and said, "No, no, I'm here to see someone else. I ran into you here by chance. I didn't expect you to live in this apartment." Changzi thought: That's right!Jim will not come to visit himself, because the notice of the new residence has not been sent to him.My husband seems to hate Jim a little bit.Although they were together in Yemaxi, Changzi didn't understand why her husband didn't like Jimu.There seemed to be something going on between her husband and Jim, and Masako kept wondering. However, Yoshiki, who was standing in front of her, had the same cheerful face as when she met him in Kyushu, so she secretly expressed dissatisfaction with Horizawa. "We finally met, let's go up and sit for a while! At this time, Horizawa is working and not at home." "No, no, not going." Jimu smiled. "I'll have a chance to discuss it another day." "Does Jimu-kun come to this apartment often?" "Yes. But not necessarily in the future." Jim replied. Changzi didn't feel anything when he heard Jim's answer at that time, but after thinking about it, there might be other meanings in these words. "Sorry, I'm leaving," Jim said.Suddenly he changed another expression. "Ma'am, don't tell Horizawa that I've been to this apartment." "Yes." Masako replied vaguely, "Goodbye, then. Have a nice day!" Before Changzi could exchange greetings, Jim hurriedly went downstairs. Masako stood there for a while, thinking and thinking, just like what Jim said, she couldn't let Horizawa know that she had seen Jim here.The fact that her husband hated him was obvious.Judging from what Yoshiki told Masako, Yoshiki also knew that Horizawa hated him. Masako kept a little secret from her husband for the first time.