Chapter 52 Chapter 51

Will the fourth elder brother really be able to shield me from the wind and rain and protect me from now on?Walking slowly back to the residence, the moment he opened the courtyard door, he met the eighth elder brother who was standing under the sweet-scented osmanthus tree and turned around slowly.My heart was beating wildly, and I quickly covered the door with my backhand. I leaned against the door panel and just panted, feeling guilty, and stayed for a long time before I came forward to say hello. "Thank you, Lord Baylor!" I bowed my head.He said with a slight smile on the corner of his mouth: "It is well known that the crown prince is a womanizer, I can't just see you follow such a person, and besides, I absolutely don't want you to suffer with him."

I looked up at him, and he looked back at me quietly. The breeze gently brushed the corner of his robe, rustled it, and then blew my broken hair, blurring my eyes. His figure gradually blurred in the misty tears. He suddenly lowered his head and bowed in salute: "Master Baylor, come back! This servant should not stay here for long." He asked, "Do you have any regrets?" I bit my lip, looked up at him and asked, "What about regrets? Are you willing to marry me now?" He turned his gaze away, and after a moment of silence he said, "Huang Ama is short-term. Nei will not marry you. I will watch it later..." I lowered my head and couldn't help laughing.

The two were silent for a while, and he said, "I want to ask you something." Hearing his serious tone, I looked up, "What's the matter?" He said, "You have been with Huang Ama for many years, in your opinion, this time Huang Ama will make the final decision?" I thought about going up The first time I told him that 'the emperor still loves the prince', I wanted him to restrain himself, but it made him look for more opportunities to attack the prince. If I tell the truth this time, will there be consequences that I can't predict? I said: "I'm not sure what I said is accurate." He laughed and said: "At least you were right last time. It is indeed 'still very doting'." After thinking about it, I said: "In the past, everything related to the prince Well, the emperor always either suppresses the investigation, or just punishes other relevant people, but this time he ordered people to investigate thoroughly with great fanfare, and in the past three or four years, the emperor's feelings for the prince have gradually weakened, but his fear has increased. I have already made preparations in my heart to 'severe kindness and justice'."

With a slight smile on his lips, he lowered his eyes and pondered quietly for a while, then looked at me and asked softly: "What are your plans for your life now?" My plan?With a wry smile, he said, "Life is all about choices. You chose to give up at the beginning, but in the future it will be my own choice." He stared at me and asked, "Do you have someone else in your heart?" I panicked, and blurted out, "Why does Lord Baylor always ask this question to my slave? Don't Lord Belle worry about who is in your heart." After speaking, I immediately wanted to slap myself. .Why have I been so unstable since the prince proposed?

He said with a smile at the corner of his mouth: "Who are you going to choose? Don't be the fourth child, otherwise you will only suffer and waste all my hard work!" I was shocked in my heart, my expression changed slightly, and I forced a smile: "Yes or no It has nothing to do with you! Besides, you and I both know that this matter is decided by the Long Live God, and I can't make it up to myself. " He straightened his clothes, nodded to me with a smile, and said, "If you just let Huang Ama decide, then just pretend I didn't say that." After finishing speaking, he walked away without haste.But I hastened to support the sweet-scented osmanthus tree to stand firm, what does he mean?Instead, I told myself over and over again that I knew the history, and my choice would not be wrong.

On November 20th, the concubine Liang died.When I heard the news, I was drawing patterns, and with a shaking of my hand, a large pool of ink was splashed on the rice paper, which quickly faded away, and the lotus flower that was about to be completed lost its charm in an instant.But seven or eight days ago, I heard that I was not feeling well, so I invited the imperial doctor, why did I go there in a blink of an eye? Everything in the court is developing according to his own expectations, it can be said that it is not satisfactory, but Er Niang passed away suddenly, the eighth elder brother must be extremely sad when he heard the bad news, life is always unpredictable!I was stunned for a while, took out the signing paper, and picked up the pen to write. The tip of the pen just touched the paper, but stopped, holding the pen, just silently lost in thought, sitting in the room from the sun until the room was completely dark. After several twists and turns, I finally sighed. He breathed a sigh of relief and put down his pen.

After everything was left in the cold, people in the palace stopped discussing this matter, and it was already a month later.Only then did I dare to come to the palace of Concubine Liang.Looking blankly at the locked courtyard door, I still feel that everything is unreal. Is this going to Gongkong?Staring at the Yinhong palace gate under the afterglow of the setting sun, there is a tree of pure white pear blossoms in his mind, muttering: "...Whoever believes in all kinds of changes will not be in the same rank as the others. The noble spirit is pure and heroic, the fairy talent is outstanding, and it is difficult to go to the earth. Let’s part. Go back to Yaotai, and Dongtian will see clearly.”

Suddenly hearing the whip of the emperor passing by Qingdao, he hurriedly retreated to the base of the wall, knelt and crawled on the ground.After a while, a group of eunuchs and guards surrounded Kangxi and passed on the main road, and Kangxi was followed by the crown prince and the fourteenth elder brother.When passing in front of Concubine Liang's Palace, Kangxi's footsteps suddenly stopped and his eyes turned to this side. The people in front of him and behind him hurriedly stopped with him, but before everyone's footsteps stopped, Kangxi had already started walking, and everyone hurriedly stepped up , Hulala was quite messy for a while.

It turns out that this is the love of the emperor, but it is just a momentary look back!Or they have too many burdens on their shoulders, so they must have a strength that is difficult for ordinary people, and a moment means a lot to them? When I was about to get up, an eunuch ran over quickly, and said, "Long live God wants to see the girl." I hurriedly chased after him, sighed, I was seen!I don't know which talkative guy said it. I followed Kangxi all the way into the Nuan Pavilion. After the jade sandalwood served tea, Kangxi looked at me and said: "The prince said that it was you who was kneeling at the foot of the side wall, and it was really you."

I knelt down and replied: "In the past, I went to the Concubine Liang's palace to help draw patterns. The Concubine Liang praised the patterns drawn by the servants. Today, I happened to pass by, so I stopped and kowtowed. It is not in vain for the wrong love of the empress. .” Kangxi was silent for a while and said: "Get up!" I quickly stood up and respectfully stood aside.Kangxi said to the crown prince and the fourteenth elder brother: "I am a little tired, please kneel down!" The crown prince and the fourteenth elder brother hurriedly stood up and saluted. Kangxi ordered: "Yinzhen, go and see Yinhu more when you have time. It is true that persuading him is sad, but you must also take care of yourself." The fourteenth elder brother hurriedly responded 'yes'.The prince's face was ugly.After staring at Brother Fourteen hard, he exited first.

Li Dequan gestured, and we all exited quickly.I was walking back when I suddenly saw Elder Brother Fourteen waiting by the side of the road, I felt a little ridiculous, this man has been indifferent to me for more than half a month, why did he talk again today?Going up to greet him, he sighed: "You said you didn't have any intentions, but you wandered around in front of Liangfei's empress's palace, saying that you had intentions. Ever since my empress passed away, the starling has been in grief and stayed at home. His health is not good at all. , and now the foot disease is even more sudden, and it is difficult to walk. Other irrelevant people know to mourn and comfort, but you look indifferent, as if you don’t know it, and you don’t even say a word of greeting! You don’t care about mynah’s usual care for you? Leaving aside, just this time, if it wasn't for Myna, you would be in the Prince's Mansion now! Ruoxi, do you know how chilling Myna is?" I went out silently for a while and said, "Brother Fourteen, have you ever tasted lovesickness? It is a thorn in my heart. Even though the moon is full and the moon is beautiful, it is always sad and difficult to calm down. Now I am Impossible to be with him, it was only my own reasons before, but now it is out of control. Before my mother passed away, I asked him "will you marry me now", and he replied that he would look at it again. I have long understood that it is impossible for him to marry me now. Since it is impossible for the two of us, why bother to tease him with those lingering gestures of wanting to let go, making his heart sore all the time. The more chilling he is now, the more he can forget. I I would rather let him forget about it after one severe pain, and never worry about it from now on!" He murmured, "A stab in the heart?" He bowed his head in silence for a while and said, "Tao is ruthless but has emotion. If you are willing to wait, it is still possible." Wait?Waiting for him to be the prince?I asked with a wry smile: "I can do whatever I want? Can Lord Long Live let me wait forever? To be honest, I really want to stay alone without marrying anyone! But can Lord Long Live allow me? " Fourteenth brother asked: "Can you forget starling?" I said lightly: "I have already forgotten!" The fourteenth elder brother smiled bitterly and said: "It turns out that this is 'it is better to forget each other than to be in the rivers and lakes'. I am crazy. Go! Go! Go! Now that I have made it clear today, I will put aside one thing from now on. !" He said solemnly: "I'm not sure what will happen in the future. From now on, we must be cautious and avoid everything if we can. Many things can be small or big in a single thought. Don't let this kind of situation happen again. It's a matter of being caught in the wrong place. People are forced into a poor alley, and they fight back in a panic. If it is affected, we may not be able to protect you." I nodded seriously: "Understood!" He waved his hand and said, "Go back!" After speaking, he turned and left. I stared at his back, full of confusion in my heart, how should I face them after I marry the fourth elder brother in the future?The thirteenth elder brother tested me, but he only used the ninth elder brother. If it was replaced by the tenth elder brother and the fourteenth elder brother, would I still be able to express my point of view of beating and punishing neatly?Thinking of Elder Brother Thirteen, I think of his fate of being imprisoned for ten years. Even though I know the final outcome is good, I still feel heavy.In a few days it will be the New Year, but it is just full of depression. Watching the other court ladies celebrate the festival happily, but I couldn't get involved. Knowing that there were many turmoil ahead, I was always cautious.Deep down in my heart, I was always afraid that Kangxi would propose marriage to me. I woke up many times from the nightmare of getting married. Sometimes it was the prince in the dream, and sometimes it was just a wretched man with a vague face. When I woke up, I hurriedly rejoiced that it was just a dream. But then it was full of sorrow and fear, eyes wide open until dawn.I am exhausted now.When will such a day be the end? "Why are you in a daze in the snow?" Asked the fourth elder brother who came behind me at some point.Without turning my head, I said casually, "How can I be in a daze? I am admiring the plum blossoms." He said, "It turns out that the plum blossoms have grown to the ground, so I have to bow my head to admire them." I smiled and looked sideways at him.He asked, "What are you thinking about?" I frowned, and said pitifully, "I'm thinking about when the lord will marry a servant girl." He said, "You don't even blush when you say these words, I've never seen such a thick-skinned woman I used to refuse to marry, but now I am so eager to marry." I continued, "I used to think I had other hopes. Now life in the palace is getting more and more difficult, and I have to worry about this and that, so I thought about finding someone else. Hurry up and enclose yourself in the small courtyard, wouldn't it be safer and easier than in the palace?" The fourth elder brother looked at me coldly, and I was a little afraid in my heart, so I asked tentatively: "Did the slave girl say something wrong?" He looked away and said, "Not everyone likes to hear the truth." I thought about it, Sincerely said: "Women are born to be able to act, and the slaves will tell lies. If the prince wants the slaves to act tender, the slaves are willing to act in this scene. But the slaves think that the prince would rather listen to the truth, even if it will hurt people." .” After hearing this, a smile escaped from the corner of his mouth, his eyes were cold and dissipated, he stared softly at me, shook his head slightly, and suddenly stretched out his hand to stroke a few plum blossoms from my head.Looking at his rare warmth, I was in a trance, standing still, letting his hand stroke my hair, and then slowly fall on my cheek. "Where's the hairpin?" He asked while stroking the broken hair next to my ear.Only then did I come back to my senses, turned my head to avoid his hand and said: "I will be seen, and I am in the room!" He withdrew his hand: "This year's earrings are also lying in the room? It was a waste of my thoughts." I guessed that you would ask sooner or later, and I was prepared.I glanced around, pulled out the chain from my collar, shook it at him, then quickly put it back, saying, "I'm wearing this!" He looked at me with a smile on his lips, and asked, "Ruoxi, do you really understand your own heart? Too much fear, too many scruples, busy weighing pros and cons all day long, looking forward and backward, will it make you unclear about yourself? Where is your heart?" I said 'ah' and looked at him in a daze.He looked at me for a while, then suddenly stretched out his hand and slammed a "bang chestnut" on my forehead. I said "oh", covered my forehead, looked at him without speaking out, and cried out aggrievedly. : "It hurts! Why did you hit me?" He smiled 'puchi', waved his hands and said, "Hurry up and go back to the house, and stare at the stove in a daze!" After finishing speaking, he walked away, walked a few steps, looked back at me who was still in a daze, and shouted: "Still Won't you go?" I hastily bent over to him, turned and ran towards the house. Back in the house, I sat by the stove, hugged a cushion, and started to be in a daze.Ask yourself, can't I read my own mind?what's on my mindCan he read my mind?In fact, do I need to understand my own heart?What I need more is how to protect myself in this turbulent palace. When his eyes were lowered, he caught a glimpse of the bracelet on his wrist, and his heart suddenly felt sore. He hadn't seen it for more than two months. Could his grief be less?After a long while in a daze, he suddenly threw away the cushion and began to snatch the bracelet.People's hearts are difficult to understand, and I can't see clearly, but I have to make a decision.This can be clear and clear. The hand just hurts, but still can't take it off, suddenly remembered what Yutan said, rubbing oil on the wrist will make it easier to take off the bracelet.He hurriedly walked to the table, poured osmanthus oil out, tossed and tossed for a long time, his skin was reddened, and when it hurt when touched, the bracelet was finally taken off.It turns out that letting go is so difficult, it will hurt! Looking at my empty wrist, and looking at the lonely bracelet on the table, my heart hurts even more. It turns out that there are too many things in life that will eventually pass away with time.He pinched his wrist fiercely, bursts of pain came, but there was a trance smile on his face. From now on I must forget all about it!Otherwise, I will harm myself and even him in the future. One throne is enough, and there is no need for me to increase hatred.