Chapter 12 Chapter Eleven

The next night, I stood on the pier admiring the moonlight on the sea, wondering if Savannah would show up.The night before, my dad and I spent a few hours appreciating coins.Listening to the unconcealable excitement in his tone, I am also very happy.Later I drove to the beach with a note for Savannah asking her to come and meet me here.I put the note in an envelope and left it on Tim's car window, knowing that he would pass it on for him. Even if he didn't want to, although I didn't know him for a long time, I believe Tim is just like my dad, much better than me. people. This is the only way I can think of, after all that conflict, I know people in the big house will not welcome me.I don't want to see Randy or Susan or anyone else, but that way I can't reach Savannah.Savannah didn't have a cell phone, and I didn't know Dawu's phone number, so the only option was to write a note.

I was wrong, I was overreacting, and I knew it too well.Not just to Savannah, but to everyone else on the beach.I should just leave.Randy and his gang, even if they had trained in weightlifting and thought they were athletes, couldn't compare to a soldier trained to take a life with speed and precision.If things had happened in Germany today, I would probably be in solitary confinement.The government does not like the abuse of skills acquired with national resources. So I wrote a note and spent the next day watching the clock, wondering if Savannah would come.When the appointed time came and passed, I found myself looking back constantly, and finally saw a figure appearing in the distance, and I was relieved: From the way I walked, I knew that person was Savannah.I leaned back against the railing and waited for her to come.

Savannah slowed when she saw me, and finally stopped.No hugs, no kisses, the sudden formality made me sad. "I got your note." "Glad you came." "I have to sneak out so they don't know you're here." Savannah said, "I heard a few people say that if you Show up and they're going to do something to you." I interrupted her without warning and said, "I'm sorry. I knew you were just trying to help, but I would have misunderstood and blamed you." "What else?" " I'm sorry for hurting Tim, too. Tim's a good guy, and I should have been more careful." Savannah didn't move her eyes at all, continuing to stare at me. "And then?" I move my feet uneasily, knowing that I don't want to say what I'm about to say at all, but I can't say it, Savannah wants to hear it, and I sigh. "Of course for Randy and the others." Savannah continued to stare at me. "Anything else?" I ran out of words, trying desperately to think what else to say before looking up at her.

"And..." I couldn't continue. "What else?" "I don't know." I said honestly, "But whatever it is, I'm sorry." Savannah had a weird look on her face. "That's it?" I thought for a moment and admitted, "I don't know what else to say." It took another moment before I noticed a smile.Savannah stepped closer and said again, "That's it?" Her voice was soft.I didn't say anything, she came up to me and put her arms around my neck in surprise. "You don't have to apologize." Savannah said softly. "You don't have to feel sorry. If I were you, I probably would." "Then why ask me?" "Because then I know I feel right about you Yes, you have a good heart." "What are you talking about?" "I mean, when you went back later, Tim said I wasn't qualified to say that. You're right, I'm not capable of professional judgment , but I'm so vain and think I can. I saw what happened on the beach, it wasn't your fault, even if Tim got hurt, but I'm happy to hear your apology. I know you will ’” Savannah leaned against me, and I closed my eyes, thinking I wish I could hold her like this forever.

We spent the rest of the night talking and kissing on the beach.I ran my fingers across Savannah's chin and whispered "Thank you". "Thank you for what?" "Thank you for the book. I think I know my dad better. We had a great time last night." "That was nice." "Thank you for being so nice." Savannah Frowning, I kiss her forehead. "If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be able to get along with my dad like this. You don't know how important it is to me." The next day, although Savannah was supposed to go to work as usual, Tim was very understanding, after all, it was me. Our last day together before returning to Germany.I went to pick up Savannah from the big house, and Tim came down the steps and crouched by my car door, meeting my eyes; the bruises on his face had turned black.Tim stuck his hand through the window.

"John, nice to meet you." "Me too." I mean it. "Be careful, okay?" "I'll try." We shook hands, surprised to feel that there was a special friendship between us. I spent the whole morning with Savannah at the Fisherman's Bastion Aquarium, and the strange marine life inside opened our eyes.See the long beak of billfish, and pocket seahorses; gray sharks and red drum fish in the largest tank.We laughed a lot while holding the hermit crab, and later Savannah bought me a key ring in the gift shop with a penguin on it, and for some reason, that penguin made her laugh for a long time.

Later, I took Savannah to a sunny restaurant by the sea, held hands across the table, and watched the sailboats sailing on the sea, completely ignoring the existence of the waiter. He came three times before we opened the menu. Savannah expressed her emotions easily, and I was fascinated by the tenderness on her face when I told her about my dad.Then Savannah kissed me, and I tasted the sweetness of her breath.I reached out and grabbed her. "One day I want you to marry me, you know?" "Is this a promise?" "If you want it." "If that's the case, promise me to come back to me after I get out of the army. If you No, who am I going to marry?" "Deal." Later we took a walk at Oswald, a restored pre-Civil War home with some of the best grounds in the state.Walking along the gravel road, there are many flowers at your feet, and the colorful flower bushes are swaying in the lazy midsummer in the south.

"When are you leaving tomorrow?" Savannah asked. "Early morning. Maybe I'll be at the airport before you get up." The sun began to sink slowly in the cloudless sky. Savannah nodded. "You'll be home with your dad tonight, right?" "That's what I planned. I haven't been with him as much this time off. I should have stayed home more, but I know he'll understand..." Savannah Shaking my head stopped me from continuing. "No, don't change the original plan. I want you to spend the last night with your dad. That's what I want, so I want you to stay with me during the day." Walking along a hedge-lined walk, I asked Savannah, "You What's going to happen? About the two of us, I mean." "It's going to be tough," Savannah said.

"I know. But I don't want it to end like this." I pause, knowing that talking without practice is no use.I reached out and grabbed Savannah from behind and pulled her into my arms.Kiss her neck and ears, savor her velvety skin. "I'll call every chance I get, and if I don't, I'll write. Next year I'll be on vacation too, and I'll find you no matter where you are." Savannah threw her head back, trying to watch my face. "Really?" I hugged Savannah tightly. "Of course. I mean, I'm sorry to leave you, I just wish I was stationed nearby, but that's all I can say right now. Going back to Germany, I'll apply for a transfer as soon as possible, but it's hard to say." " I know." For some reason, Savannah's serious expression made me nervous.

"Can you write letters?" "Of course!" The tension in my heart disappeared immediately.Savannah smiled and said, "Of course you're asking. I'll keep writing to you. I write the best letters, you know." "Totally agree." "I mean it .In our family, we write letters every year and holiday. To the people we care about. The letters tell us how important they are and when we look forward to seeing each other next time.” I kissed her neck again. "So how much do I mean to you? How much do you look forward to seeing me again?" Savannah leaned back, looked at me and said, "Then you'll have to read the letter to find out." I smiled, but felt my heart Slowly break into pieces. "I'm going to miss you." "Me too." "You don't sound like that." "Because I cried yesterday, remember? And we still see each other. I finally figured it out. Yes, wait It's hard, but the days go by so fast and we can see each other again. I know it must be, and I can feel it. Like I feel how much you care about me and how much I love you. I know in my heart that it doesn't matter It's not over, and we're going to get through it. A lot of people have done it. Of course, a lot of people have broken up, but that's because those people don't feel as deeply as we do." I want to believe what Savannah said, and I want us to be in Together, but still afraid it won't be as easy as she said.

We didn't walk back to the car until the sun had completely set.I took Savannah home.Park on the other side of that street so no one can see us.Stepping out of the car, I hugged her.The two of us hugged and kissed, and I knew in my heart that next year would be the most difficult time. I really wish I hadn't joined the army, I wish I was free.but I am not. "I should go." Savannah nodded and began to cry.I feel something knotted in my chest. "I'll write to you." I assured her. "Hmm." Savannah wiped her tears, reached for her handbag, took out a pen and a small piece of paper and began to scribble. "Here's my home address and phone number, and my email address." I nodded. "I remember that I will change the dormitory next year, but I will tell you as soon as the new address is confirmed, and you can also write to my house. Parents will forward the letter to me." "I know, you also have my contact information , right? Even if I go on a mission, the letter will be sent to the base. E-mail too. The communication technology in the army is not bad, even in places where no eggs are born, there are still Internet and computers available." Savannah embraced Arms like a lonely child, she said, "I'll be scared. I mean, you're a soldier." "I'll be fine." I assured her. Opening the car door, I reached for my wallet, stuffed the note in, and spread my arms again.Savannah came into my arms and I held her for a while, trying to remember the feeling. This time it was Savannah who stepped back. She reached into her bag and took out an envelope. "I wrote this last night. So you have something to read on the plane. Turn it on when you get on the plane, okay?" I nodded, kissed her one last time, and got in the driver's seat, started the car, and got ready to go.Savannah called, "Say hello to your dad for me. Tell him I might visit him in a few weeks, okay?" Savannah took a step back as the car started.You can still see her in the rearview mirror.I thought about parking and Dad would understand.He knew how much Savannah meant to me and wanted us to spend our last night together. But I kept driving, staring into the rearview mirror, watching her shrink, feeling my dream slowly fade away. My dinner for two with Dad was quieter than usual.I didn't have the energy to try and direct the conversation, even Dad could feel it.I sat at the kitchen table while Dad prepared dinner.But Dad didn't concentrate on cooking as before, but stared at me from time to time, with silent worry in his eyes.He suddenly turned off the fire and came towards me; I was startled. Dad came up to me and put a hand on my back.He didn't say anything, but he didn't have to say anything.I know he understands how I feel.Dad just stood beside me without moving, as if trying to absorb my pain, hoping to take the negativity away from me and make it his burden. The next morning, my dad drove me to the airport, and he stood by me as I waited to board the plane.When the radio rang, I stood up.Dad held out his hand, but instead of shaking his hand, I gave him a hug.Dad's body was stiff, but I didn't care. "Dad, I love you." "I love you too, John." I said, "Buy some cool coins, okay?" I pulled away, "Be sure to tell me all about it when you buy it. " Dad stared at the floor and said, "I like Savannah, she's a good kid." The comment came out of the blue, but it was exactly what I wanted to hear. I'm sitting on the plane, holding Savannah's letter in my lap.Although I wanted to open the letter immediately, I waited until the plane took off.With the coastline visible from the window, I searched for the pier first, then tried to find Savannah's house.I don't know if she's still asleep, but I hope she's on the beach, watching the planes go by. When I was ready, I opened the envelope, and there was a photo of Savannah besides the letter.For a split second, I just wish I had left a picture of her too.I stared at the faces in the photos for a long time before putting the photos aside, taking a deep breath and reading the letter. Dear John: There are so many things I want to tell you, but not sure where to start.Should I say I love you first?Or should I tell you that our time together is the best time of my life?Or should I say that after knowing you for just a few days, I am sure that we are destined to be together?These are the words I want to say, and they are all serious, but rereading these words, I only hope that the two of us can be together now, can hold your hand, and wait for you to smile at me when you don't expect it. I know that in the future I will recall every minute and every second we were together. In my memories, I will hear your laughter, see your face, and feel your hands holding me.John, you are an incredible gentleman.I cherish this very much.When we were together, you never wanted to lure me into bed, which means a lot to me, it means that our relationship is much more than physical relationship, this special emotion is also what I want to remember to get along forever The reason for time.As pure as white light, it takes your breath away. I think about you every day, and a part of me is afraid that one day you might stop thinking this way, that you will forget everything we have, so I want you to do this: no matter where you are, no matter how life changes , on the first night of the full moon every month, please look up at the full moon in the sky, just like the day we first met.I hope you're thinking of me too, and the week we spent together.Because no matter where I am, no matter how my day changes, this is what I will do.If we can't stay together, at least the habit can last forever. I love you, John.Tyree.I will remember the promise you once gave me.When you come back, I will marry you.It will break my heart if you fail to keep your word. With all the love, Savannah, I looked out the window, and through the tears in my eyes, I saw the clouds outside and below the fuselage.I don't know where I am, I just know that in that moment, all I want is to turn around and go home, to get back to where I should be.