Chapter 46 Chapter 08

Then there was a thunderclap, the thunder rumbled, and the rain began to pour down, and the raindrops began to beat on the glass; the room was dark.The old lady seemed to be frightened and made a sign of the cross.We all stopped suddenly, speechless. "It'll be over in a minute," said the old man, looking at the window; then he got up again, and walked up and down the room.Nellie looked sideways at him.She was in a state of great distress and agitation.I see this; But I don't know why she deliberately avoided me and didn't look at me. "Well, what about in the future?" the old man asked, walked back and sat down in his easy chair.

Nellie looked around timidly. "So you haven't seen your grandfather since then?" "No, I've seen..." "Be kind! Go on, my darling, go on," began Anna Andreyevna. "I didn't see him for three weeks," began Nellie, "until winter. Then winter came, and there was a snowfall. I was so happy when I saw my grandfather again in the old place... because mother I was always worried, why didn't he come out? As soon as I saw him, I deliberately ran across the street so he could see that I was avoiding him.But when I looked back, my grandfather followed me quickly, then started to run, trying to overtake me, and called to me: 'Nellie, Nelly! 'Azurka followed

He runs behind.I began to pity him and stopped.Grandpa came over, took my hand, and led me forward; seeing that I was crying, he stopped, looked at me, then bent down and kissed me.At this time, he saw that my shoes were broken, so he Ask me: Don't I have other shoes?I hastened to tell him at once that Mama had no money, and that the landlady only gave us something to eat out of pity.Grandpa didn't say anything, but he took my hand and led me to the market, bought me a pair of shoes, and told me to put them on immediately, and then took me back to his house on Pea Street, and before entering the house, he went into the shop and bought me a piece of pie and two pieces of candy, When we got home, he made me eat pie, and while I was eating

, he just looked at me, and then gave me the two candies.And Azorka put her two paws on the table and wanted to eat pie too. I gave it some, and grandpa laughed.Then he picked me up again, made me sit next to him, and started touching my dick Head, ask me if I have been to school and what have I learned?know what?I told him, and he told me that as long as I can run out, I can go to him every afternoon at three o'clock, and he will teach me to read in person.Then he told me to turn around and look out the window Besides, I didn't turn around until he told me to turn around.I did so, but looking back furtively, I saw him tear apart his pillow from the lower corner and take out four rubles.After taking it out, he brought the money to me and said to me:'

This is for you alone. ’ I wanted to take it, but after thinking about it, I said: ‘Give me one, I don’t want it. 'Grandpa suddenly became very angry and said to me,'Hmph, if you want to take it or not, go. 'I went out and he didn't even kiss me. "When I got home, I told my mother everything. My mother's illness was getting worse. A college student often came to see the coffin maker; he often visited my mother and ordered her to take medicine. "And I often went to see my grandfather; my mother made me do it. My grandfather bought a New Testament and a book of geography and began to teach me; sometimes, he would tell me about the countries in the world. What nations, what seas, past

What it is, and how Christ has forgiven us all.He was very happy whenever I thought up some questions of my own to ask him, so I often asked him some questions, and he told me all of them, and he also said a lot about God.sometimes we don't learn Instead of learning, I played with Azorka: Azorka became very fond of me, and I taught him to jump over sticks, so my grandfather laughed and kept touching my head.But grandpa seldom laughed.Sometimes he talks a lot, and sometimes he suddenly becomes silent Sound, sitting there, as if asleep, but eyes are open.He sat like this until dark, but when it got dark he became very scary, very old... Or, sometimes, I went to him and saw him sitting on the chair, thinking

Thoughts, he could not hear anything, and Azorka was lying beside him.I waited and waited, coughing; Grandpa still didn't look back.I had to go.But at home, my mother waited anxiously for me: she was lying down, and I told her everything, everything Listen, I kept talking until dark, and I kept talking, and she kept listening to me talking about grandpa: what did he do and what did he say to me today, what stories did he tell, and what did he tell me in class? What did you say.Then I talked about Azorka, saying that I I taught it to jump sticks, and my grandpa laughed. At this time, she suddenly laughed too, and laughed, happy for a long time, and asked me to tell it from the beginning, and then she began to pray to God.And I always think: Mom loves grandpa so much, but grandpa doesn't love grandpa.

She, later when I went to find my grandfather, I deliberately told him how much my mother loved him.He heard it all in his ears, but he kept a serious face, but he still heard it, just didn't say a word; so I asked him, why did my mother say that? He loves him so much, and always asks long and short questions about his situation, but he never asks how his mother is?Grandpa was very angry when he heard what I said, and threw me out of the door; I stood outside the door for a while, and he suddenly opened the door and told me to go back, but he kept Been angry all the time and didn't speak.Later we started to have a theology class, and I asked him again: Why did Jesus Christ say: Love each other and forgive your anger, but He refused to forgive your mother?Then he jumped up and cried, it's all mother

Mom taught me, and pushed me out again, and said that I would never be allowed to see him again.I said, I didn't want to come to see him now, so I left and left him... the next day, grandpa moved..." "As I said, the rain will soon pass, but if it doesn't, the sun will come out... Look, Vanya," said Nikolai Sergeyitch, turning his head to the window. Anna Andreevna looked at him in bewilderment, and suddenly, the eyes of the old lady, who had hitherto been honest and timid, burst into flames.She silently took Nellie's hand and sat her on her lap. "Tell me, my angel," she said, "and I will listen to you. Let the hard-hearted..."

She cried before finishing her sentence.Nellie gave me a suspicious look, as if a little bewildered and frightened.The old man looked at me and wanted to shrug his shoulders, but he turned his face away immediately. "Go on, Nellie," I said. "I haven't seen grandpa for three days," Nellie began again. "Mom's condition has worsened these days. We've also run out of money, no money for medicine, and nothing to eat because our second landlord There's nothing left, they Started blaming us, saying we depended on them for our living.So the third morning, I got up and started getting dressed.Mom asked where I was going?I said I went to grandpa to ask for money, and she was very happy when she heard it, because I told my mother everything, how did he do it?

It showed me to leave, and I told her that I would never go to see grandpa again, although she cried and urged me to go.When I got there, I heard that my grandfather had moved, so I went to find him in the new apartment.As soon as I walked into his new house, he flew into a rage and rushed at me. Came over and stomped, and I told him right away that Mamma was very ill, and the medicine cost fifty kopecks, and we had nothing to eat.Grandpa yelled at me, pushed me out, onto the stairs, shut the door behind him, and hung it up. door hook.But when he pushed me, I told him that if he didn't pay me, I would just sit on the stairs and not walk.So I sat on the stairs.After a while he opened the door, saw me sitting there, and closed it again.Later, after After a long time, he opened the door again, saw me again, and then closed the door again.Later he opened the door many times and looked at me many times.At last he went out with Azorka, locked the door, walked past me, out of the yard, and said a word to me Not to mention.I didn't say a word, just sat there until it was dark. " "My dear," cried Anna Andreyevna, "you know it's cold on the stairs!" "I'm wearing a fur coat," Nellie answered. "What about wearing a leather jacket... My little darling, how much you have suffered! How is he, your grandfather?" Nellie's little mouth trembled, but she managed to restrain herself by gritting her teeth. "When he came back, it was already dark. When he came into the house, he bumped into me and called out: Who? I told him it was me. He probably thought I had left long ago, but he saw that I was still here. Surprised, he stood before me and stood a long time.Suddenly he rapped on the stairs with his walking stick, walked away, opened the door, and a minute later brought me some copper coins, all worth five kopecks, and threw them on me with a clatter, and scattered them all over the stairs. .He cried; 'Here you are, Here's all my money, tell your mother I curse her' he said before slamming the door.And the copper coins rolled all over the stairs.I started to pick them up in the dark. Obviously, Foreign Young Master knew that he had thrown the money on the ground. We found it difficult to pick them all up, so we opened the door and took out a candle, and by the light we quickly picked them all up.Grandpa also picked it up for me himself, and told me that there were seventy kopecks in total, so he left. When I got home, I gave my mother the money and told her everything.My mother's condition worsened again, and I was sick all night, and I still had a fever the next day, but I only thought the same thing, because I was angry with my grandpa, and as soon as my mother fell asleep, I would I went to the grandfather's house on the street, and before I got there, I stood at the bridge.At this time, that guy walked over..." "It's that Arkhipov," I said, "that's the man I told you about, Nikolai Sergeyitch, who went with a merchant to the Brenova's and was beaten there. The guy who beat it. That's the first time Nellie saw him ...Go on, Nellie. " "I stopped him and asked him for money, a silver ruble. He looked at me and asked, 'A silver ruble?' I said, 'Yes.' Then he laughed and said to me, 'With I'll go.' I don't know if I should go with him, At this time, an old man suddenly came, wearing gold-rimmed glasses-he bent over me and asked me why I wanted so much?I told her that her mother was sick and she needed so much money to buy medicine.He asked me where I lived, he wrote it down and gave me a ticket The child is a silver ruble.The guy left when he saw the old man with the glasses and never asked me to go with him.I went into a small shop and changed the rubles into copper coins; I wrapped the thirty kopecks of it in paper and put it aside for my mother. , I also wrapped the remaining seventy kopecks in paper, deliberately held it in the palm of my hand, and went to find my grandfather.As soon as I got to his place, I opened the door, stood at the door, swung my hands, and threw all the money to him, and the money rolled all over the floor. " "'Here, take your money!' I said to him, 'because you cursed mother, who doesn't want your money,' and I slammed the door behind me, and ran away. " Her eyes began to sparkle, and she glanced at the old man with innocent defiance. "He deserves it," said Anna Andreyevna, holding Nelli close to her side without looking at Nikolay Sergeyitch, "he deserves it; your grandfather is wicked and Cruel..." "Hmm!" said Nikolai Sergeitch vaguely. "Go on, what's the future, what's the future?" asked Anna Andreevna anxiously. "I never saw my grandfather again, and my grandfather never came to see me," replied Nellie. "Oh, you and your mother are the only ones left, how are you going to live these days? Oh, you are so pitiful, so pitiful!" "Mom's condition has gotten worse and she's rarely out of bed," Nellie continued, her voice shaking and her words choked up. "We had no money at all, so I went out to beg with Mrs. Captain. Mrs. Captain Begging from door to door, and stopping gentlemen in the street to ask for money, this is how they live.She told me that she was not a beggar, she had paperwork, which stated her official title, and it also stated that she was poor.She showed these documents to others, and they read The clerk gave her money.That is what she told me, there is no shame in begging from everyone.So I went to beg with her, and they gave us alms, and we lived on it.Mom found out later because the other tenants started berating her , Said that she was a beggar, and then Bubnova came to her mother, and she said, why not let my mother tell me to go to her place, so that I don’t have to beg for food.She used to come to her mother often and bring money back to her mother; Said: Why don't you let go of your airs; she often asks her servants to bring food.But now she mentioned me again, and my mother was crying and scared, and Brenova started scolding her because she was drunk.She said, I was a stinky beggar, so It was only then that she went out to beg for food with Mrs. Captain, and she took Mrs. Captain out of the apartment that night.Mom cried when she heard all this, then got out of bed suddenly, got dressed, and took my hand to go out.Ivan Alexandrovitch would not let her go, but She wouldn't listen, so we went out.Mom can barely walk.Every minute I have to sit and rest in the street, and I have been supporting her.Mom always said that she was going to find grandpa and asked me to take her there, and it was getting dark at this time.Suddenly we came to a street; Here, in front of a building, many carriages came and went, and many people came out of the house. There were lights everywhere in the windows, and music could be heard.Mom stopped and grabbed my arm and said to me, 'Nellie, be poor , to be a poor person all your life, don't beg them, no matter who comes to tell you, and no matter who comes to you, don't do it.You could have gone there and had money and nice clothes, but I don't want you to.They are all Wretches and heartless people, listen to me: be poor forever, work, beg, and if someone comes to take you away, say: I don’t want to go to you—it’s mother’s illness When she told me, I want to listen to her for the rest of my life Say," added Nellie, trembling with excitement, her little face flushed, "I want to serve and work all my life, and I come to your house to work and serve you, and I don't want to be your daughter. ..." "Come, come, my darling, come!" cried the old lady, holding Nellie tightly. "When your mother said that, she was sick." "Nervous," said the old man curtly. "Even if she's out of her mind, so what!" Nellie turned sharply towards him, and went to the laneway, "Even if she's out of her mind, but she told me so, I'm going to do it for the rest of my life. She's right I even fainted after saying this up. " "My lord!" cried Anna Andreevna, "sick, in the street, or in winter? . . . " "Someone tried to take us into the police station, but a gentleman came and spoke for us, asked for our address, gave us ten rubles, and ordered mother to be taken home in his own carriage. After that, my mother never went down again. bed, and died in three weeks..." "And her father? He never forgave her?" cried Anna Andreyevna. "No forgiveness!" Nellie replied, restraining her emotions painfully. "A week before she died, my mother called me over and said, 'Nellie, go and see grandpa again, one last time, please. He comes to me for a moment and asks his forgiveness Me; you tell him that in a few days I will die and leave you alone in this world.You also told him that I was very sad and did not want to die like this. ’ So I went, knocked on Grandpa’s door, he opened it, and when he saw me, he I wanted to close the door immediately in front of me, but I grabbed the door with both hands and shouted to him: 'Mother is dying, tell you to go, go! ...' But he pushed me away and slammed the door shut.I went back to my mother, hugged her, and said nothing. Didn't say... Mom also hugged me, didn't ask anything..." At this moment Nikolai Sergeyitch stood up, leaning heavily on the table with one hand, but after glancing at us all with his strange, clouded eyes, he fell again as if exhausted. Sit in an easy chair.Anna・ Andreyevna stopped looking up at him, but she was crying with her arms around Nellie... "On the last day of her life, just before evening, my mother called me to her side, grabbed my hand and said, 'Nellie, I'm going to die today', and she wanted to say something to me, but she couldn't. The voice came. I looked at her, but she was fine. She didn't seem to recognize me, but her two hands were still holding mine tightly.I gently pulled out my hand, and ran out, all the way to my grandfather.As soon as he saw me he jumped up from his chair and looked at me as if He was so frightened that his face turned pale and his whole body trembled.I grabbed his hand and said only one sentence: 'She will die immediately. ’ Now he was in a great hurry; seizing his stick, he ran after me; even his hat Forgot to wear it, and it was cold that day.I grabbed my hat and put it on his head, and we both ran out together.I urged him to run, and told him to hire a carriage, because mother would die if she talked; but my grandfather's money was only seven kopeks in all.he stopped some horses Cars, haggling with them, but they just laughed and laughed at Azorka, and Azorka ran with us, and we ran and ran and kept going.Grandpa is tired and out of breath, but he still runs in a hurry run.Suddenly, he fell and the hat fell off his head.I picked him up, put the hat back on him, and held him by the hand, and we didn't get home until nightfall...but Mother was lying there dead, flat on her back. As soon as grandpa saw her, he raised his hands and clapped her hands, trembling all over, and stood beside her, unable to speak a word.So I went up to my dead mother, and grabbed my grandfather's hand, and cried to him; 'Look, you cruel wretch, look, look! … ...Look! '——At this moment, grandpa yelled loudly and fell to the ground like a dead man..." Nellie jumped up, broke free from Anna Andreevna's arms, and stood between us, pale, exhausted, and terrified.But Anna Andreyevna rushed forward again, took her in her arms, and then, as if in a In a state of inspiration, he shouted: "I, I'm going to be your mother now, Nellie, you're my child! Yes, Nellie, let's go, leave them all, leave those hard-hearted wretches! Let them mock people, God, God will settle their accounts... we Let's go, Nellie, let's get out of here, go! ..." I have never seen her in such a state, neither before nor since, and never imagined when she would become so agitated.Nikolai Sergeyitch stretched himself up in the easy chair, bowed slightly, and for a while The intermittent voice asked: "Where are you going, Anna Andreyevna?" "Go to her, to my daughter, to Natasha!" she cried, and she led Nellie toward the door. "Slow, slow, wait..." "There's nothing to wait for, cruel villain! I've waited, and I've waited a long time, and she's waited a long time, and now, goodbye!  …" After saying this, the old lady turned her head to look at her husband, and was stunned: Nikolai Sergeyitch was standing in front of her, had already grabbed his hat, and was trembling with his hands. His feeble hands were hastily putting on his coat. "You too . . . you come with me too!" she cried, crossing her fingers in prayer, crossing her arms over her chest, and at the same time looking at him distrustingly, as if she couldn't believe such happiness. "Natasha, where is my Natasha! Where is she! Where is my daughter?" Such a wail finally burst out from the old man's chest. "Give me back my Natasha! Where is she, where is she!" Cane (which I handed him), rushed to the door. But the old man hasn't come to the door yet.The door opened suddenly, and Natasha ran into the room, pale, with red, glowing eyes like a fever.Her clothes were crumpled and completely soaked by the rain.The turban on her head is also slippery On the back of her head, big raindrops glistened in the loose, thick locks of her hair.She ran in, saw her father, exclaimed, rushed forward, knelt down in front of him, and stretched out her hands to him.