Chapter 44 Chapter 06

An hour before the meeting, Alyosha came to inform Natasha.The moment Katya's carriage stopped at our gate, I was there too.Katya was accompanied by the old French lady, after repeated pleading and hesitation Afterwards she finally agreed, promised to accompany her, and even let her go up to Natasha alone, on the condition that she be accompanied by Alyosha; she herself sat in the carriage and waited for them to come out.Katya called me to her, she sat on the horse The car asked me to call Alyosha down for her.I went upstairs and found Natasha crying; Alyosha and her—both were crying.When she heard that Katya had come, she got up from her chair, wiped away her tears, and stood excitedly facing the door.that morning

She was wearing a white dress and a white dress.His dark brown hair was combed neatly and tied tightly behind his head.I like this hairstyle very much.Natasha, seeing that I stayed with her, asked me to go out to meet the guests. "I haven't had a chance to see Natasha until today," Katya said to me as she went upstairs. "It's terrible to keep staring at me like a spy! It took me a fortnight to convince Mrs. Albert , she finally agreed. But you, Ivan ・Petrovitch, you never once came to see me!I can't write to you, and I don't want to, because I can't say anything clearly.But how I need to see you... My God, how my heart beats..."

①Refers to the day when Jesus was crucified and suffered on the cross, that is, the Friday of the last week of Lent (Passion Week). ②The original text is French. "The stairs are steep," I replied. "Isn't it . . . the stairs . . . I say, do you think Natasha won't be angry with me?" "No, why?" "Isn't it . . . Of course, why; I'll see for myself in a moment; why ask? . . . " I take her arm.Her face was even pale, as if frightened.At the last turning, she stopped, took a breath, but after taking a look at me, she climbed up the stairs resolutely.

She stopped again at the door, and whispered to me: "I just went in and told her that I trusted her, so I came to see her without any scruples... But why bother; you know, I firmly believe that Na Tasha is a very noble person. isn't it? " She walked over timidly as if she had made some mistake, and took a fixed look at Natasha, who immediately smiled brightly at her.So Katya walked quickly towards her, took her by the arms, and pressed her soft lips to hers. pressed against her lips.Then, without saying a word to Natasha, she turned gravely, even severely, to Alyosha, and asked him to leave for half an hour, so that we three could talk alone.

"Don't be angry, Alyosha," she added, "because I have a lot to say to Natasha, something very important and serious, and it's better not to hear it. Be good, and go away." Come on. Ivan Petrovich, please stay. You All our conversations should be heard. " "Let's sit down and talk," she said to Natasha after Alyosha had gone. "I'll just sit opposite you. I want to have a good look at you first." She sat almost directly opposite Natasha and watched her carefully for a moment.Seeing this, Natasha couldn't help but smile back.

"I have already seen your picture," said Katya; "Alyosha showed it to me." "Well, do I look like the picture?" "You are more beautiful in person," Katya replied decisively and solemnly. "As I expected, you are more beautiful in person." "Really? And I think you've got it all. How pretty you are!" "How can I! How beautiful I am!... My little pigeon!" she added, taking Natasha's hand with a trembling hand, and the two looked at each other in relative silence again. "That's right, my angel," Katya broke the silence

"We can only be together for half an hour; even then, Madame Albert reluctantly agrees, but we have a lot to say... I think... I want... I'll just ask you: Do you love Alyosha very much?" "Yes, very much." "In that case ... since you love Alyosha very much ... then ... you must also be interested in his well-being ..." she added timidly and quietly. "Yes, I hope he is happy..." "That's good... But here's the question: Can I make him happy? Since I'm taking him from you, do I have the right to say so? If you think, and we can now assume, that he Happier with you, then...

…That……" "It's settled, my dear Katya, didn't you see it yourself, everything is settled," Natasha answered in a low voice, bowing her head.She was obviously very sad, and it was difficult for her to continue the conversation. It seems that Katya is ready to give a long explanation on this question: who can better make Alyosha happy, and which of them should give in?However, after listening to Natasha's answer, she immediately understood that everything had already happened. It's settled, there's nothing more to talk about.She half opened her pretty little mouth, and looked at Natasha, who was still holding her hand, in perplexity and mournfulness.

"And do you love him very much?" asked Natasha suddenly. "I love him very much; there is one question I have always wanted to ask you, and that is why I have come here: Tell me, please, what is it that you love about him?" "I don't know," Natasha answered, and it seemed as if a bitter impatience could be heard in her answer. "He's very clever, don't you think?" asked Katya. "No, I just love him, and it doesn't make sense." "Me too. I always think he's weird." "What to do with him now! How could he abandon you for me? I don't understand!" cried Katya. "I don't understand now that I see you!" Natasha didn't answer, but just looked at him. ground.Kashi was silent for a while, then suddenly stood up from the chair.

Get up and hug her gently.The two hugged each other and cried.Katya sat on the arm of Natasha's chair, hugged her tightly, and began to kiss her hand. "You don't know how much I love you!" she cried, crying, "let us be like sisters, we will write to each other forever...I must love you forever...I will love you hard You, I love you so much..." ①The original text is French. "He told you, are we going to get married in June?" asked Natasha. "Yes. He said you agreed. You know, it's all just talk, to comfort him, isn't it?" "nature."

"I think so too. I will love him very much, Natasha. Then I will write and tell you everything. It seems that he will soon be my husband now; there is such an atmosphere. They also That's all, dear Natashechka , aren't you going to... go back to your hometown now? " Natasha made no answer, but kissed her silently and firmly. "Happiness to you!" she said. "I wish you, too, happiness, too," said Katya, and at that moment the door opened and Alyosha entered.He couldn't, he couldn't wait for the half hour to pass, but he came in and saw them hugging each other, crying together, limp He fell to his knees before Natasha and Katya in great pain. "Why are you here to join in the fun, why are you crying?" Natasha said to him, "because you're parting from me? The parting isn't very long, is it? You're coming back in June, aren't you?" "The two of you should get married then," Katya said hastily, tearfully, also to comfort Amosa. "But I can't leave you, Natasha, I can't live without you for a day. I would die without you... You don't know how precious you are to me now! Especially now! . . . " "Well, then you can do it this way," Natasha suddenly became active, "isn't the countess still going to stay in Moscow for a while?" "Yes, about a week," Katya continued. "One week! That would be great: you will send them to Moscow tomorrow, which is only a day's work, and then come back immediately. When they are leaving Moscow, you will go back to Moscow and accompany them, so that our parting will be over." completely only It's been a month. " "Well, yes, yes... you can stay together for another four days," Katya exclaimed cheerfully, and exchanged meaningful glances with Natasha. Alyosha was overjoyed when he heard of this new plan, and his joy could hardly be expressed.He was suddenly overjoyed; his face beamed with joy, and he embraced Natasha, kissed Katya's hands, and embraced me.nata Sa looked at him with a sad smile, but Katya couldn't bear it any longer.She cast me a fiery, bright look, gave Natasha a hug, and got up from her chair to go.Coincidentally at this time, the old French lady also sent The servants came up and said, please end the meeting quickly, because the scheduled half hour has passed. ①Natasha's nickname. Natasha stood up.The two of them stood facing each other hand in hand, as if they were trying to convey to each other all the depression in their hearts with their eyes. "From now on, we will never see each other again," said Katya. "Not again, Katya," answered Natasha. "Well, goodbye then." The two hugged. "Don't curse me," Katya whispered hastily, "and I... will always... Believe... He will be happy... Come, Alyosha, send me!" She took his hand, Hastily said. "Vanya!" said Natasha to me, in a state of great emotion and anguish, when they had gone out, "you go down with them too, and don't come back; Alyosha will stay with me until the evening, until eight o'clock at night." at night; and at night he can't do it, he has to leave .I'll be left alone...you can come at nine.Excuse me! " At nine o'clock in the evening I left Nellie with Alexandra Semyonovna (after breaking the teacup) and went to see Natasha, who was already alone and was anxiously waiting for me.Mafra brought us a samovar; Natasha poured me a With a cup of tea, I sat on the sofa, and she asked me to sit over and get closer to her. "Look, it's all over," she said, looking at me intently.I will never forget her plaintive glance. "Look, my love with him is over too. Half a year together! This life is over forever," she added, holding my hand tightly.Her hands were hot.I advised her to dress warmly and stay in bed first. "Lie down now, Vanya, now, my good friend. Let me say a few words and remember a little... I'm falling apart now... Tomorrow, I'll see him for the last time , ten o'clock... the last time!" "Natasha, you have a fever, and you will be cold again in a while; you must take care of yourself..." "So what? Now, half an hour after he's gone, I've been waiting for you. What do you think I'm thinking? I'm asking myself, what? I'm asking; do I really love him?" , our love and what is going on? Why, you find it funny, Vanya, for not asking myself that question until now? " "Don't trouble yourself, Natasha..." "You see, Vanya: the result of my deliberations is that I don't love him as a scholarly and intellectual equal to myself, not as a woman usually loves a man. I love him like...almost like a Mother.I even feel that there is no equal love for each other in the world, does it?What do you say? " I looked at her uneasily, wondering if she might have a fever.Something seemed to attract her; she felt a special need to speak; some of her words seemed to be out of place, and sometimes she couldn't even get the words right.I'm scared. "He was mine," she went on, "almost from the first time we met, and I had an insurmountable desire to have him mine, as soon as possible, to see nothing but me alone. people, don't know any Man... Katya just said it well: I love him as much as I have been pitying him for some reason... I have always had an insurmountable desire, even painfully, for him to be able to forever very very happy .I couldn't look at his face calmly (Vanya, you know his facial expression): no one can have such an expression, and when he smiles, I feel cold and shiver... Really! ..." "Natasha, listen to me..." "Someone said," she interrupted, "but, as you said, he had no character, and . ... Do you believe it or not? But I don't know I Is it just that I love him: that's it, it doesn't make sense, I love him for the whole person, if he is different, with character or intelligence, maybe I won't love him so much.You know what, Vanya, to tell you the truth, there's something : Do you remember, we had a quarrel, three months ago, he went to see that woman, what was her name, to see that woman named Minna... I found out, found out, believe it or not: I Painful, but at the same time seem a little happy ... I don't know why... I had an idea at the time: he would go to find flowers and ask willows with other adults like other adults, and he would also go to Minna!I... how happy I was in this quarrel; Feeling very happy... Oh, what a lovely person! " She glanced at me and smiled strangely.Later, he seemed to be lost in thought, as if he was still reminiscing about the past.She sat like this for a long time, with a smile on her lips, thinking and reminiscing about the past. "I like to forgive him very much, Vanya," she went on, "you know, sometimes, he leaves me alone, and I used to walk up and down the house, and I was miserable, and I cried, but sometimes I would also think: the more he is sorry for me, the better it is. Is it... yes!You know, I always feel that he is still a very small child: I am sitting, he rests his head on my lap, and he falls asleep, so I gently stroke his head, caress him... Whenever When he is not with me, I always To imagine him like this ... I say Vanya," she added suddenly, "what a beautiful Katya! " I think she is deliberately stimulating her own wounds, she feels a need to do this - she needs to seek pain and despair... Generally, a heart that has lost a lot is often like this! "I feel that Katya will make him happy," she went on, "she is a person of character, and she speaks with great confidence, and she is serious and authoritative to him--she always talks high and If it makes sense, like a grown-up. But she herself But, what about myself - I'm still an out-and-out child!So cute, so cute!oh!May they both be happy!I wish this, I wish this, I wish this were all right! ..." After all, she was sobbing, tears and wailing spewed from her heart all at once.For half an hour she couldn't get back to normal, or even calm down a bit. Dear and lovely angel Natasha!Also that night, in spite of her pain, she tried to put herself in my place and I saw that she was somewhat calmed down, or rather tired from crying, and I wanted to help her out. , so I told her about Nellie's recent situation... It was very late when we parted that night; I left after she fell asleep. Mistress, never leave her. "Oh, hurry up, hurry up!" On the way home, I thought with great emotion, "Let these sufferings end quickly! No matter what the outcome is or how it ends, as long as it can be done quickly, quickly!" At ten o'clock the next morning I was already at her place.Alyosha arrived at the same time as me...he came to say goodbye.Regarding the farewell scene, I won't talk about it, and I don't want to recall it.Natasha seemed determined to restrain herself She pretended to be happy and casual, but she couldn't do it.She hugged Alyosha tightly like a convulsion.She seldom spoke to him, but gazed at him for long periods of time with her painful, almost mad eyes.she greedily listened to him Every sentence, but it seemed that he didn't understand anything, and he didn't understand what he said to her at all.I remember him asking her to forgive him for finding another love, for all the wrongs he had caused her during this time, for his change of heart, for his love for Katya. , and his departure... He was talking nonsense, tears choked him so that he could not speak.Sometimes, he suddenly wanted to comfort her, saying that he would go away for a month, or five weeks at most, and come back in the summer, and they would get married when they came back. His father will definitely agree. Besides, the most important thing is that he will come back from Moscow the day after tomorrow, and they can stay together for four full days, so the parting now is only one day... Strange to say; he himself is completely convinced that he is telling the truth, and that he will return from Moscow the day after tomorrow... Why should he suffer so much and cry so much? At last the clock struck eleven.I had a hard time convincing him to let him go.The train to Moscow leaves exactly at twelve o'clock.Only one hour left.Natasha herself later told me that she could not remember how she had looked at him for the last time.I remember Well, she crossed him, kissed him, put her face in her hands, and ran back into the room.And I must take Alyosha all the way to the carriage, otherwise he will definitely come back, and he will never go downstairs. "It's all up to you," he said to me as he came downstairs, "Vanya, my friend! I'm sorry for you, and I'll never be worthy of your love, but I hope you'll make it to the end and be my brother: love her, don't leave her, put all the situation They all wrote to me and told me to write in as much detail as possible and in as small a size as possible so that I could write more.I'll be here again the day after tomorrow, for sure, for sure!But after I leave, you should write frequently! " I helped him into the carriage. "See you the day after tomorrow!" he called to me as the carriage moved away. "must!" I went back upstairs with apprehension to see Natasha.Standing in the middle of the room with her arms folded, she looked at me inexplicably, as if she didn't know me.Her hair fell to one side; her eyes were cloudy and dreamy.Mafra seems to have lost her soul Standing at the door, looking at her in fear. Suddenly, Natasha's eyes lit up: "Ah! you! it's you!" she cried to me, "and you are alone now. You hated him! You could never forgive him because I loved him. . . and now you By my side! What? You come to comfort me again. Advise me, Let me go back to my father who abandoned me and cursed me.Just yesterday, two months ago, I knew it was going to be like this! ...I don't want to, I don't want to!I curse them too! ...Go away, I don't want to see you!Go, go! " I understood that she was in a state of ecstasy. Standing in front of her would only arouse her resentment and even madness. This is inevitable, so I decided that it would be better to go out.I sat on the first step of the stairs -- and waited.sometimes i stand Get up, push open the door, call Mavra out, ask her; Mavra just cries. An hour and a half passed like this.I can't describe how I felt during this time.My heart was sinking and I felt infinite pain.Suddenly the door opened, and Natasha, wearing a hat and cloak, ran out of the room and rushed up the stairs superior.She seemed dazed and unconscious, and she herself later told me that she couldn't remember the incident very well, and she didn't know where she wanted to go or what she wanted to do. Before I had time to jump up from where I was sitting, and hide somewhere out of her sight, she saw me suddenly, and was startled, and stood motionless before me, "It occurred to me, ’ Later she told me, ‘Maybe It was me, a cruel lunatic, who kicked you out, my friend, my brother, and my savior!When I saw you, it was so pitiful that after being insulted by me, you sat alone on the stairs of my house, and you didn't go away, but Wait till I call you back again—God!You don't know, Vanya, what I was feeling then!It's as if someone stabbed something into my heart..." "Vanya! Vanya!" she cried, holding out her hand to me, "here you are! . . . " and falling into my arms. I picked her up and carried her back to the room.She passed out! "What should I do?" I thought. "She's probably going to get a fever!" I decided to call the doctor; it was necessary to take precautions.It's a quick trip by car; the old German doctor I know is usually sitting at home until two o'clock in the afternoon.I ran to him in a hurry, and at the same time begged Mafra not to give up for a minute, not a second. Get away from Natasha, and don't let her go anywhere.God bless me: if only a little later, I would not have met the old gentleman.He was coming out of the house and out into the street when I met him.I'll put him in the seat I hired Before he had time to express his surprise, we drove back to Natasha's house. Yes, at last God bless!I had only been away for half an hour when something happened to Natasha. If the doctor and I hadn't arrived in time, it would have almost killed her.Not a quarter of an hour after I left, the Duke entered.he just put his Those people sent them off, and ran directly from the train station to find Natasha.It was likely that this visit had been well decided and carefully planned by him.Natasha herself later told me that she was not even surprised at the first sight of the prince. "My mind is Messed up," she said. He sat across from her and looked at her with kind and sympathetic eyes. "My darling," he said, with a sigh, "I know your pain; I know how hard this moment is for you, and I feel that it is my duty to come and see you. If possible, you still can talk to masturbate Yes, at least you contributed to his happiness by giving up Alyosha.But you know this better than I do, because you have taken this self-sacrificing and invaluable measure at once..." "I sat there and listened," Natasha told me later, "but, to be honest, I didn't seem to understand him at first. I just remember staring at him. He took my hand and put I put my hand in his and pinched it. He seemed to feel Gotta be comfortable doing that.I was so flustered that I didn't bother to free my hand from his grasp. " "You understand," he went on, "you understand that if you really wanted to be Alyosha's wife, you would later arouse his hatred for you, and you have a noble self-esteem, so you are aware of this." a little, and took drastic measures... But then again, I'm not here to compliment you.I'm just here to tell you that you'll never have a better friend than me anywhere, anytime.I sympathize with you and pity you.I can't help being part of this whole thing , but - I am doing my duty.Your good heart will know this and make it up with me...and, believe me, I'm sadder than you! " "Come, prince," said Natasha, "let me be quiet." "Of course, I shall go soon," he replied, "but I love you and regard you as my own daughter, and please allow me to visit you often. Now you can regard me as your father. Just ask me, I will help." "I don't need anything, you go," Natasha interrupted again. "I know, you are very arrogant... But, I am speaking the truth. What are you going to do now? Reconcile with the two nobles? This is a great thing, but your father is unreasonable, arrogant and willful; please forgive me I say it bluntly, but This is true.When you go back now, what you will meet will definitely be blame and new torture.But then again, you should be independent, and my duty, my sacred calling, is to care for you and help you now.Alyosha beg me not to let you go Regardless, be your friend.However, besides me, there are certain people who are very sincere to you.You will probably allow me to introduce Count N. to you.He has a very good heart, he is our relative, even the benefactor of our whole family; he has helped Alyosha was very busy.Alyosha respected and loved him very much.He's a very powerful man, a lot of influence, but he's an old man, but a girl like you would find him quite attractive.I have already mentioned you to him.if you want , he can arrange a job for you, find you a very good place with one of his relatives... I have already told him all about us frankly and directly, he has a good heart and a good heart It is also noble, and you will feel deeply when you hear it I even personally begged me to introduce him to you as soon as possible now...he is a man who sympathizes with all good things, believe me--he is a generous and respectable old man who appreciates the good in others, even Not long ago he was in a very high Shang's way resolved a dispute for his father. " Natasha raised herself slightly as if she had been stabbed.Now she understood what he meant. "Leave me, leave me at once!" she cried. "But, my friend, you forgot: the count can still help your father..." "My father won't ask for anything from you. Will you go or not!" Nataz cried again. "Oh, God, how impatient and suspicious you are! I can't do you any favors," said the duke, looking around with some uneasiness, "but please allow me anyway,"' he went on, saying took one out of his pocket Big paper bag, "Please allow me to leave you this evidence to prove my sympathy for you, especially Earl N's concern for you, because he gave me the idea and asked me to do this .Here, in this envelope, a total of ten thousand rupees cloth.Wait a minute, my friend," said the prince hastily, seeing Natasha sitting up from the bed angrily, "please listen patiently to the end of my sentence: do you know that your father's case was lost to me, and the ten thousand rubles It's his compensation, this..." "Go away," cried Natasha, "with your filthy money! I see through you. . . . Oh, vile, vile, what a vile man!" The Duke rose from his chair, pale with rage. It is very possible that he came here this time to observe the terrain and understand the situation, and he probably hoped that the ten thousand rubles would have an unexpected effect on the impoverished and betrayed Natasha... He was despicable and shameless, and had already No More than once pimped that old pervert Count N.But he hated Natasha, and as soon as he saw that his plans had failed, he changed his tone and was so eager to insult her that he took pleasure in her misfortune, so that, at least, his departure would not have been in vain. "It's not good that you're so angry, my darling," he said, a little tremblingly, eager to appreciate the effect of his insult as soon as possible. "It's not good. They'll find you A backer, you turn your nose up Dear Gao... You don't know it, you should be grateful to me; in fact, I could have sent you to the penitentiary long ago, because I am the father of the young man you seduced and ruined, you deceived me His money, but I didn't do it...hehe hey-hey! " At this time, I walked in with the doctor.While still in the kitchen I heard voices in the room, and I made the doctor pause for a moment, and heard the last words of the Duke.Then there's his sickly laugh, and Natasha's despair Exclaimed: "Oh, my God!" At this moment I opened the door and rushed at the Duke. I spat in his face and slapped him hard.He wanted to fight back, but when he saw that there were two of us, he grabbed his bag of banknotes from the table and ran out.Yes, that's what he did; I saw it with my own eyes... I grabbed a rolling pin from the kitchen table and ran after him... When I ran back to the room again, I saw the doctor grabbing Natasha, she was sick Struggling to break free from his hand, it took us a long time Time did not bring her down; at last, with difficulty, we got her into bed; she was in a state of stupor, as of a fever. "Doctor! What's the matter with her?" I almost fainted and asked. "Wait," he replied, "the disease will have to be observed and judged... But, generally speaking, it is very bad. It may even develop into a fever... But I will try to find a way... ..." But then I suddenly had another idea.I begged the doctor to stay with Natasha for another two or three hours, and I made him promise not to leave Natasha for a minute.He assured me, and I ran home. ①Russia from the 18th to the 19th century was the place where some criminals with minor crimes were imprisoned and reeducated through labor. Nellie sat in the corner, looking sad and frightened, and she looked at me strangely.I must have looked weird too. I picked her up, sat her on the couch, sat her on my lap and kissed her passionately.She blushed suddenly. "Nellie, my angel!" I said, "will you save us? will you save us all?" She looked at me inexplicably. "Nellie has all her hopes in you now! There was a father: you have seen him, and you know him; he cursed his own daughter, who came yesterday to ask you to be his in her place. Now she , Natasha (you once said, you love her! ), had been abandoned by the man she loved, and it was for him that she left her father.This man is the son of the duke who was here, remember, he came to me at night when you were alone at home, and then you avoided him and ran away. Run away, and then you get sick... Don't you know him?He is a big bad guy! " "Yes," replied Nellie, who shivered and turned pale. "Yes, he is a great villain. He hates Natasha because his son Alyosha wants to marry her. Alyosha took it away today, but an hour later his father was with her, and he insulted her, also threatened to send her to a correctional institution, and And laughed at her.Nellie, do you know what I mean? " Her dark eyes flickered for a moment, but she lowered them again at once. "Understood," she whispered in a barely audible voice. "Natasha is alone now, and sick; I left the doctor who treated you with her, and came to you. I said Nellie: let's go to Natasha's father." ; You don't like him, you don't want to go to his house, but now When we went to him together, and we went in, I said that you would now be their daughter instead of Natasha.The old man is now ill because he cursed Natasha, because Alyosha's father had recently insulted him so badly.he Don't even want to hear about his daughter now, but he loves her, loves her very much, Nellie, and wants to make it up with her; and that, I know, I know all about it!That's it...you hear that, Nellie? " "Got it," she whispered in the same whisper as before.I burst into tears as I spoke to her.She timidly raised her head to look at me from time to time. "Do you believe what I say?" "believe." "I'll just take you in like this, and after you sit down, they will treat you like a daughter, kiss you and ask you. At that time, I will deliberately lead the conversation to let them ask you questions, ask you How the old days were: ask Your mother and your grandfather.Just tell 'em, Nellie, tell 'em everything, what you told me in the past.Tell everything, tell everything, plain and simple, and hide nothing.You sue Tell them how the villain abandoned your mother, how your mother died in the basement of Brenova, how you and your mother begged in the street; what your mother said and asked you when she was dying What do you do... Speaking of which , You just say your grandfather.Tell them how your grandfather refused to forgive your mother, how your mother sent you to grandpa just before she died, to come and see her, to forgive her, but he refused to come...and how your mother dead.take it all , and tell them everything!After you tell all this, the old man will feel it all in his heart.You know, today, Alyosha abandoned her, she stayed, suffered all the bullying and humiliation in the world, isolated and helpless , alone, and let her enemies humiliate her—he knew this.All these things, he knows... Nellie, please save Natasha!Would you like to come with me? " “愿意，”她深深地换了口气，答道，说罢又用一种异样的目光，仔细地、长久地看了看我；这目光里有一种类似责备的神态，我在自己心里感觉到了这点。 但是我不愿放弃我的这个主意。我太相信这主意了。我拉着内莉的手，走了出去。已经是下午两点多了。阴云四合。近来天气一直很闷热，但是现在却从远处的某个地方传来 早春的第一声春雷。风过处，卷起满街尘土。 我们上了马车。一路上内莉都默不作声，只是间或仍旧用她那异样的、谜一般的目光抬起头来看看我。她的胸部在一起一伏，我在马车上扶着她，我感到她那颗小小的心在我 的手掌里怦怦跳动，仿佛就要从胸腔里跳出来似的。