Chapter 15 Chapter 13

The old man sent it.He looked at us curiously and as if he was shy because of something, his brows were furrowed, and he walked to the table. "What's the matter with the samovar," he asked, "isn't it brought up by now?" "Bring it when you say it, sir, bring it when you say it; look, it's not," Anna Andreevna hurriedly said. Matryono came out with tea as soon as he saw Nikolai Sergeyitch, as if waiting for the old man to leave the house before serving the samovar.This is a tried and true old servant, but he is very stubborn and chatty, so Maids are really rare in the world, and because of their stubborn temper, they are hard and stubborn.She was afraid of Nikolai Sergeyitch, and as long as he was present she said nothing.But in the presence of Anna Andreyevna, she made up for it all, and was always rude to her.

Her voice was gruff, and she even seemed to be superior to the hostess, although at the same time she loved her and Natasha sincerely.I knew this Matrona from Ihmenevka. "Well... I always feel uncomfortable when I get wet; but when I get home, I don't even want to make tea for me," the old man complained in a low voice. Anna Andreyevna immediately winked at him and at me.He hated this kind of playful look, and although he tried not to look at us at the moment, it was clear from his face that Anna Andreemina was giving me a look at this very moment. With a wink, he knew it all.

"I was just out on some errand, Vanya," he said suddenly, "and it's terrible. Did I tell you? They say I'm absolutely right. Look, there's no proof; there's no paperwork; there's The certificates are also wrong... alas ..." He was talking about a lawsuit with the prince; it was still pending, but it was not looking very good for Nikolai Sergeyitch.I said nothing because I didn't know what to answer.He glanced at me suspiciously. "Very well," he interjected suddenly, as if angry at their silence, "the sooner the better. They don't want me to be a money-hungry villain, and it won't help if I'm ordered to pay. Have a clear conscience, let them judge

up.At least the case is closed; sooner or later there will be an end, and it will cost me everything.I simply left everything and went to Siberia. " "Lord, where are you going! Why are you going so far!" cried Anna Andreyevna, unable to restrain herself. "It's near here, so close to what?" He asked roughly, as if he was glad to be able to contradict her like this. "Well... after all... closer to everyone..." said Anna Andreyevna, casting a sad glance at me. "Closer to what 'the people'?" he cried, looking back and forth between us with burning eyes, "nearer to what 'the people'? To robbers, to slanderers, to traitors? everywhere; don't worry, in Siberia

can be found.If you don't want to go with me, stay; I won't force you. " "Father, Nikolai Sergeyitch! You are gone, and with whom shall I live!" cried poor Anna Andreyevna. "Besides you, there is no one in the world I don't have any..." She swallowed back what she was going to say, shut her mouth, and gave me a frightened look, as if asking me to speak for her.The old man's anger does not come from one place, and he argues with everyone; it is impossible to fight against him. "Come on, Anna Andreyevna," I said, "Siberia isn't as bad as you think. If something bad happens, you'll have to part and sell Ihmenevka." , therefore, Nikolai Sergeych's fight

It's even good.A decent personal job could be found in Siberia, when . . . " "Well, Ivan, at least, what you said is reasonable. I think so too. Just leave everything and go away." "Oh, I didn't expect that!" cried Anna Andreev, clapping her hands together. "Vanya, you'll join me! Ivan Petrovitch, I didn't expect you to say These words... It seems that we have always loved you and loved you, yes You are not thin, but now..." "Hahaha! What did you expect! Just think what we're doing here. The money's gone, and the last kopek is almost gone! You're the one who ordered me to go and find Peter Alexandra. Prince Sandrovich, ask him to lift up

Are you expensive? " The old lady trembled with fear at the sound of the Duke's name.The teaspoon in her hand hit the saucer, making a crisp tinkling sound. "No, really," Ikhmenev resumed, excitedly, with a kind of schadenfreude that made him feel bad for himself, "Vanya, really, it would be better to go to him. Miles! What can one do in Siberia! Why don't I dress up and make myself up tomorrow; let Anna Andreyevna get me a new corset (I can't do that if I'm going to see such a great person!), and buy me a new one. Gloves, knock on the duke in style My lord: My lord, my lord Duke, my food and clothing parents, my dear father!Please raise your hand high, do me a favor, and give me a piece of bread--I have a wife and children, and the children are still young! ... Is that so, Anna Andreyevna?do you want this

? " "Mr. . . . I don't want anything! I'm just saying that I'm a fool to say such nonsense; please forgive me if I say anything that offends you, but please don't yell," she said , trembling with fear, and the more Shaking more and more. I believe that when he sees his poor wife crying and frightened like this, he must be heartbroken, as if the river is overwhelmed; I believe that his heart is more painful than hers; but he can't control himself .some very kind but It sometimes happens to the neurasthenic that although they are very good-natured, they wallow in their unhappiness and anger, even to the point of self-admiration, and they look for opportunities to express themselves anyway. out

Come, even at the expense of insulting another innocent person, and most likely the person closest to him.A woman, for example, sometimes has a need: to insist on feeling unfortunate and insulted, even though she has no misfortune to speak of, and no Who ever bullied her.Many men, too, are very feminine in this way, even men who are not at all effeminate and not weak.The old man felt a need to pick a fight, even though it required him to I am also in pain. I remember that at this moment a thought flashed through my mind: must he have acted out of the ordinary before that, as Anna Andreyevna surmised!Could it be that the Lord enlightened him? Did he really go to find Nata?

Sarah died, but changed his mind halfway, or hit a wall, so he couldn't get what he wanted (it must have been), so he had to come back, angry, unspeakable chagrin, ashamed to admit that he had not long ago produced this Therefore, because of his weakness, he wanted to find someone to vent his anger on, so he chose those people who he most suspected of having the same thoughts and feelings as him.Perhaps, when he wanted to forgive his daughter, he had imagined his poor Anna Andreyevna looked overjoyed and happy; therefore, if the failure was not achieved, it goes without saying that she would bear the brunt of it, and deserved it.

But the way she trembled with fear and grief before him moved him.He seemed ashamed of his anger, so he suppressed it for a while.We were all silent; I tried not to look up at him.But the good times didn't last long, he It has to show anyway, either a blast or a curse. "I say Vanya," he said suddenly, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to, but now I have to be honest and honest, say what I want, and don't play tricks, like any straight man as it should be ... Do you understand, Vanya?I'm glad you're here, because I want to say it aloud in your face so others can hear: I'm sick of all this nonsense, all this tears and sighs and bad luck and misfortune.from my heart What I dug out in my heart (maybe I did it bloody and painfully) will never return to my heart.right!I do what I say.I'm talking about what happened half a year ago.Do you understand, Vanya!I'm so open and honest My lord, let me talk about this frankly so that you won't misunderstand what I said," he added, looking at me with bloodshot eyes, while clearly avoiding his wife's frightened gaze. . "Again: this is bullshit; I I don't like to hear it! ...it annoys me that everyone is taking me for a fool, the most worthless asshole, thinking that I must have this worthless, fragile relationship...thinking I'm going mad with grief...bullshit !I dropped it, I forgot Lost the feelings of the past!For me, there is no memory... yes!right!right!That's right! " He jumped up from his chair and thumped the table so hard that the teacup slammed. "Nikolai Sergeyitch! Aren't you supposed to pity Anna Andreyevna? You see how you hurt her," I said, almost indignantly. looking at him.But I just added fuel to the fire. "Not pitiful!" he cried, trembling and pale, "not pitiful, for pity me too! Not pitiful, for there is someone in my family who, for that immoral daughter who deserves to be cursed and cannot be punished too much, exist Conspiracy against me, an old man who has been abused! ..." "Father, Nikolai Sergeyitch, don't curse her! . . . Everything is up to you, but don't curse your daughter!" cried Anna Andreyevna. "I'm going to curse!" cried the old man, twice as loud as before, "for I, a bullied and abused old man, was told to go to this damned thing and beg her forgiveness! Yes, yes , that's it! Some people use this Torturing me day in and day out, day and night, and right in my house, teary, moaning, insinuating, stupid.They want me to pity her . . . look, look, Vanya," he added, pulling the Li hurriedly took out a few pieces of paper, "This is an excerpt from our case file! According to the case file, I became a thief and a liar. who... because of her I have been insulted! See, Look, look, look! ..." From the side pocket of the coat he was wearing, he took out various papers one by one, threw them on the table, and couldn't wait to find the document he wanted to show me; but he wanted to I couldn't find the material I was looking for.he does not Patiently, she took out all the things she had reached into her pocket. Suddenly, something fell heavily on the table with a loud noise... Anna Andreyevna let out a cry of surprise.This is the lost necklace pendant. I could hardly believe my eyes, the blood rushed to the old man's head, rushed to his cheeks; he shuddered.Anna Andreyevna stood, folded her arms, and looked at him imploringly.Her face glowed with light and joy , the light of hope.The old man was embarrassed and embarrassed in front of us... Yes, she was right, she now understands how she lost her necklace pendant! She understood that it was he who picked it up, and after picking it up, she was very happy, maybe even ecstatic, trembling with joy, so she cherished it very much and kept it by her side, not letting anyone see it; then she secretly found a place by herself, don't let anyone know said, looking at his daughter's little face with infinite love--looked and looked and couldn't get enough; maybe he too, like his poor old companion, was alone, locked, Hiding from everyone, talking to Natasha, my favorite , imagining how she would answer, and then answering her questions by herself, and at night, in painful thoughts, suppressing the mourning in her chest and weeping, kissing and kissing this lovely portrait, instead of cursing, she appealed to God Forgiveness and blessings he does not want to see And his beloved daughter who cursed her in front of everyone. "My dear, then you still love her!" cried Anna Andreevna, unable to restrain herself, in the presence of Natasha's stern father, who a minute before had been cursing her. . But as soon as he heard her exclamation, a flash of fury flashed in his eyes.He grabbed the necklace pendant, threw it to the ground, and stomped on it frantically. "I will curse you forever, forever!" he cried at the top of his voice, "forever, forever!" "Lord!" exclaimed the old lady. "Take her, her! My Natasha! Stomp on her little cheeks! Stomp!... Tyrant! You are heartless and cruel!" People with poisonous hands and desperate for face!" On hearing his wife's howls, the mad old man stopped in terror, terrified by what he had done.He rushed over to pick up the necklace pendant from the ground, and ran out of the house, but just took two steps, he fell to his knees with a plop, and used two Putting his hands on the couch in front of him, he lowered his head like a deflated rubber ball. He wailed like a child, like a woman.He cried so hoarsely that it seemed to tear his chest apart.A majestic old man suddenly becomes weaker than a child.Ah, now he can't curse; No one feels shy anymore.In the urge of love, he kissed countless times in front of our faces the portrait he had trampled on a minute ago.It seems that his tenderness for his daughter, his long-suppressed heart All the love for his daughter was now bursting out with overwhelming momentum, and the impulse was so strong that it seemed to tear his whole being apart. "Forgive her, forgive her!" begged Anna Andreevna, weeping, and she threw herself down and embraced him. "Let her go home, dear, God will consider your tolerance and mercy at the end of judgment of! ..." "No, no! Never, never!" he cried in a hoarse, choked voice. "Never, never!"