Chapter 10 chapter Ten

Natasha was married in the early spring of 1813, and by 1820 she had three daughters and a son whom she had longed for, and who was now being nursed by herself.She had become fatter and thicker, and it was difficult to find the slender and lively Natasha in the past from the strong and strong mother now.The features of her face were fixed, demure, gentle, and cheerful, and her face had lost the passionate youth that had formerly given her special charm.Now I can only see her appearance and body, but I can't see her soul at all.She's just a strong, beautiful, and multi-children mother, and it's rare to see the fire of her former passion.Now, only when the husband comes home, the child recovers, or remembers Prince Andrew with Countess Marya (she never mentions Prince Andrey in front of her husband, thinking he will be jealous), or occasionally sings on a whim Come on (she stopped singing after marriage), only then did she rekindle her enthusiasm.And when old passion occasionally reignites in her beautiful, voluptuous body, she is alluring.

After her marriage Natasha lived with her husband in Moscow, in Petersburg, in villages outside Moscow, and in her own natal family, that is, in Nicholas's.The young Countess Bezukhov seldom appeared in society, and those who met her did not like her very much.She is neither approachable nor cute.It wasn't that Natasha liked being alone (she didn't know if she liked being alone, she thought she didn't).Because she was pregnant one after another, giving birth, breastfeeding, and participating in her husband's life all the time, she had to refuse social activities.Anyone who had known Natasha before her marriage was as surprised by this change as a novelty.Only the old countess knew with her motherly instinct that Natasha's passions were rooted in her need for a family, for a husband.She herself had said this in Otradnoe, seriously and not jokingly, and the old countess, as a mother, was surprised and surprised that people didn't know Natasha, and she always said Natasha. She is a good wife and mother.

"She gave all her love to her husband and children," said the countess, "to the point of being a fool." Smart people, especially the French, have been advocating that after a girl gets married, she should not be slovenly, careless in dressing up, and bury her talent and beauty in lieu of ZTE.In his later years, he was pessimistic and disappointed with "ZTE", thinking of immortals and seclusion, and seeking a happy life, but he should pay more attention to his appearance, so that his husband still fell in love with him like before marriage.But Natasha did not abide by this golden rule.She, on the contrary, lost all her maiden charms as soon as she married, especially her most charming singing.She no longer sang, because singing was the most fascinating thing.She became indifferent, not paying attention to her manners, not flattering her husband, not paying attention to her grooming, not making demands on her husband so that he would not be restrained, and she was unconventional.She felt that she had previously acted instinctively to charm her husband, and now she would look ridiculous in his eyes, since she had given him her whole being from the beginning.She feels that what maintains their husband and wife relationship is no longer the poetic emotion of the past, but another inexplicable and firm thing, just like the combination of her soul and body.

She thought it as absurd to try to please her husband by fluffing her curls, wearing fashionable dresses, and singing lyrical songs, as it was to adorn herself for pleasure.Now, adorning to please might give her pleasure, but she really didn't have the time.Usually she doesn't sing, doesn't pay attention to dressing and dressing, and doesn't think about her words when she speaks, mainly because she doesn't have time to do that at all. Of course, one can concentrate all one's energies on one thing, no matter how insignificant it may be.And when you put your mind to it, any little thing becomes a big thing of great importance.

Natasha's preoccupation was with the family, that is, with her husband and children.She wants her husband to belong entirely to her, to the family.In addition, she bears, raises and educates the children. She threw herself into what she was doing, not only with all her intellect but with her whole heart, and the deeper she sank, the bigger it seemed, the more powerless and incompetent she felt, so even though she Going all out, it's still too late to finish what she should do. Discussions about women's rights, husband and wife relations, freedom and rights of husband and wife also existed at that time.However, it wasn't as big a problem as it is now.However, Natasha was not only not interested in these questions, but could not understand them at all.

These problems, then as now, exist only for those who view the relationship as purely fulfilling.They only see the beginning of marriage, not the full meaning of family. These arguments and some of the problems now exist, like obtaining the greatest satisfaction from eating, but for those who think that the purpose of eating is to obtain nutrition, and the purpose of marriage is to establish a family, then as now, this problem is not the same. existing. If the purpose of eating is to nourish the body, the person who eats two meals together may feel great satisfaction, but the purpose of eating cannot be achieved, because the stomach cannot hold the amount of two meals.

If the purpose of marriage is to create a family, the man who wishes to have many wives or many husbands may find much satisfaction, but never a family. If the purpose of eating is to obtain nutrition, and the purpose of marriage is to build a family, then to achieve the purpose, eating should not exceed the capacity of the stomach, and the husband and wife in a family should not exceed the need, that is to say, they can only be monogamous.Natasha needed a husband, she had a husband, and the husband gave her a family.Another and better husband was not only unnecessary to her, but, being so devoted to her husband and home, she could not conceive of, nor had any interest in, another situation.

Natasha generally did not like society, but she valued her relations with her relations, and cherished those with Countess Marya, her brother, her mother, and Sonya.She would stride out of the nursery in her nightgown, with disheveled hair, beaming, to show them the diapers that were no longer stained with green shit, but yellow, and to reassure them that the baby was doing better. Natasha's slovenliness, her clothes, her hairstyle, her untimely speech, her jealousy (she was jealous of Sonia, of her governess, of every woman, beautiful or ugly) became a part of the world around her. People's laughing stock.Everyone thought that Pierre was submissive to his wife, and he was.Natasha made her demands from the very beginning of her marriage.She thinks every minute of his husband's time should belong to her and the family.Natasha's new point of view surprised Pierre.Although Pierre was surprised by his wife's request, he was also very proud and did exactly what she said.

Pierre was obedient to his wife, which was manifested in the fact that he not only dared not court other women, but also dared not talk to other women with a smile on his face, did not dare to go to clubs for entertainment, did not dare to spend money casually, and did not dare to go out for a long time. Unless you're doing business.The wife regarded Pierre's academic activities as serious business, although she knew nothing about it, she took it very seriously.In exchange, Pierre has the right to manage his own affairs at home, and he can also arrange the affairs of the whole family according to his own wishes.Natasha was willing to be her husband's slave at home.When Pierre was working, that is, when he was reading and writing in his study, the whole family walked on tiptoe.As long as Pierre expressed his liking, his wishes were always granted.As soon as he made any new request, Natasha immediately went all out to realize it.

The whole family obeyed the orders of Pierre, who did not actually exist, that is, according to the wishes of her husband, whom Natasha tried to guess.The way of life of the family, their place of residence, their social activities, Natasha's work, and the education of the children were all in accordance with Pierre's wishes, and Natasha tried to deduce from Pierre's words what he meant.She could always figure out Pierre's true intentions quite accurately, and once she figured it out, she was determined to do it.If Pierre went against his will, Natasha refuted him with his original ideas and fought him.

There was a time when they lived very hard that Pierre never forgot.At that time, after Natasha gave birth to her first emaciated child, she had to change three wet nurses.Natasha was very ill.One day, Pierre told her the Rousseau thought he believed in, saying that asking a nurse to breastfeed was against the laws of nature and harmful to both mother and child.So after giving birth to her second child, Natasha insisted on breastfeeding herself, despite the objections of her mother, doctors and husband, against the customs at the time (this was unheard of at the time and considered harmful), and since then all the children have been breastfed by herself . It often happened that the couple quarreled in anger, and after a while Pierre was often surprised and delighted to find that not only his wife's words but also her actions reflected his original attitude. An idea, which she had originally objected to.In what she said, Pierre noticed not only what he had thought, but also that she had avoided mentioning the radical things he had said during the quarrel. After seven years of conjugal life, Pierre was happily convinced that he was not a bad man, because he saw himself in his wife.He felt that there was good and evil in his heart, and the two covered each other.But only the true good side of him is reflected in his wife, and those imperfect things are all discarded.This situation is not through logical thinking, but directly reflected through some mysterious channel.