Chapter 6 Part 1 An illegitimate daughter's memories of her father

My father was a big wood and coal merchant, he also owned a farm, and was a prominent figure in the area. Sometimes, I meet him on the road.At times like this, my heart is pounding. He always wanted to take me into the woods. However, grandma frightened me!she says: "If you follow, he'll kill you, like the others." This is real.In front of me were two older sisters who both died suspiciously. I myself nearly died when I was very young. He came to our house and sent my mother to buy wine.When my mother came back, I had just drank a glass of milk and was feeling sick all over.

Fortunately, when my grandma arrived, my face was already turning purple.She immediately made me throw up everything I ate.Once again I was lucky enough to survive. But how I longed to follow him into the woods! Maybe he didn't hurt me, he just wanted to kiss me like a father kisses his daughter. Who can understand the sorrow in a child's heart.She never had a father, and her mother was far away in a foreign land. The only little warmth she ever got came from her old grandmother. Dear old grandmother, whenever I recall the past, you are the only person who moves me! Your face is wrinkled and your hands are rough, but your kisses and touches were the only tender things in my childhood.