Chapter 11 Section 4

It turned out that it was not as simple as just losing my father. I can't simply feel sad for my father's early death. There are still many other things in life that can be lost. No one eats with Fang Lin at noon, no one goes to the bathroom with her after class, no one sits with her under a big tree to enjoy the shade and chats with her during physical education class, and she always stands silently by herself during each group experiment in chemistry class.Go to school alone.Go home alone.This is Fang Lin's high school life. Compared with school, home is a warm haven. But it is also a small port where Fang Lin doesn't want to take "Wind" back anyway.

Back home, Fang Lin never mentioned to her mother what happened at school.It's not that she doesn't want her mother to help her solve the problem, nor does it mean that she doesn't want her to worry.It was because she didn't want her mother to feel the same pain she had suffered... When she thought of her mother's sad expression for her, she felt like a knife pierced her heart. This kind of pain can be endured silently by one person. My mother, who just got off work from the hypermarket an hour ago, is washing cabbage at the sink. The shredded radish and garlic sprouts have been cut, and a fish head floats and sinks in the half-boiled miso soup.

There is steaming steam on the electric cooker, which is the aroma of family steamed buns, which are also part of tomorrow's lunch box. "How is school?" Mom took two eggs out of the refrigerator. "Normal." Fang Lin was sitting at the dining table studying, behind her mother who was busy cooking. "Is there nothing special?" "...I don't like gym class, it's tiring to run every time." "Mom didn't like physical education before, and I still hate it when I think about it now." "So it's genetic?" "But no matter how much I hate it, I will still go to it. You should exercise more..."

The mother and daughter are back to back, each doing their own things, but they cherish the time of chatting like this. As long as one person speaks, the other will follow up. After dinner, my mother had to go to a nearby betel nut stand to help people take care of the stall until two o'clock in the morning. Fang Lin was already in bed when she came home.Mom doesn't have much time to rest, and after returning home to sleep for a few hours, she has to go to the nearby community building to clean.As soon as the shift time of the hypermarket arrived in the afternoon, my mother had to go to the mass merchandiser to help put fresh vegetables on the shelves.

In fact, the family's expenses are very small, except for rent and insurance, there is not much money to spend. My mother works so many jobs, most of which are insecure. After all, before Fang Lin graduates from university, she has to save a considerable amount of education expenses. I don't want to see Fang Lin working and studying over there. Putting the washed vegetables into the frying pan, my mother glanced back at Fang Lin. "Should I go to tutoring? Should I strengthen my mathematics?" "Just read it yourself." "Is it hard to read math by yourself?"

"It's okay, I didn't plan to do well in the exam." Fang Lin drew a line on the reference book with a highlighter. Mom laughed. The child's unspoken thoughtfulness always made her feel bad. After all these years, she actually didn't expect Fang Lin to have excellent grades, she only wanted Fang Lin to be happy. "Recently, I hear less and less about school things from you." Mom put the chopped tofu into the fish soup. "Because there is nothing to say." Fang Lin said lightly. "Is Meifang okay with you?" "She seems to be with the boy in the next class, the very tall boy I mentioned."

"Oh? Why do you say it seems? Didn't Meifang tell you?" "Perhaps Meifang is a bit awkward. Anyway, I'm not really that curious. Let her tell me." "I see...Meifang turns out to be an awkward girl." "Yeah." "Next time I invite Meifang to come, I'll add two dishes, what do you think?" "Let me ask, but she has to go to tutoring after school, and now she seems to have a boyfriend, the world of two people!" Mom started to stir-fry vegetables on high heat, and then cracked two eggs in succession and fried them together... The problem of eggs and vegetables was solved in one go.That's how mommy always is.

"What about you? Is there a boy you like in the class? Or the class next door? Senior?" "None." "If you want to go out with friends during the holidays, just tell Mom, Mom also wants to go shopping alone occasionally." "Okay, then I'll make an appointment to see it." Fang Lin said absent-mindedly. ... Then, this Sunday, go to the library by yourself to study, so that Mom won't get suspicious? Or take the bus to the tower to see Dad?No, mom might go too, and if she bumps into her there, all previous efforts will be wasted. So decide, go to the library.Pray that you don't meet any of your classmates there.

The food is ready. The mother and daughter ate slowly, and neither of them was in a hurry to finish the last bite of food. At this time, no one noticed that the accumulated fatigue had penetrated into the mother's liver, deforming and transforming the cells. One year and two months later, my mother will leave this dining table forever due to terminal liver cancer.