Chapter 13 brother-2

"Ah, Hiroshi Kikuchi!" He pointed at a fat old gentleman.His expression was so serious that it was impossible not to believe him.When drinking tea at Fuji's in Ginza, he also secretly elbowed me and whispered in my ear, "I saw Moso Sasaki 16, look over there, the table behind you." After a long time, I met Master Kikuchi and Mr. Sasaki with my own eyes, and then I realized that my brother lied to me.In my elder brother’s hand is a collection of short stories by Yasunari Kawabata’s “Emotional Decoration”. The title page has the words “Author Masahiro Toshiichi Yumekawa” written in a brush. He said that he happened to meet Mr. Kawabata in a hot spring hotel in Izu or somewhere. Mr. Kawabata gave it to him.Now think about it calmly, the next time you have a chance to see Mr. Kawabata, you should ask him.I wish it was true, but I always feel that the font in Mr. Kawabata’s letter to me is different from the font in the memory of “Mr. Yumekawa Toshiichi Masahiro”.My brother likes to deceive people with innocent expressions the most, so he must be on his guard for a moment.Mystery seems to be one of the hobbies of French gentlemen, so it is even more difficult for anyone to match my elder brother's mystification.

My brother left in the early summer of the year I entered university. During the Spring Festival of that year, he hung a hanging scroll written by himself on the wall of the living room. , Although the food and drink are present, I don’t know how to be happy.” The visitors all laughed when they saw it, and my brother also laughed ambiguously.I could tell that it wasn't my brother's usual mystification, it was his lament from the bottom of his heart, but he always liked to tease people, so the visitors just laughed and didn't worry about his illness at all.Not long after, my brother came up with a new idea, put a string of small rosary beads on his hands and walked, calling himself a foolish monk. It is a foolish monk, a foolish monk, which became popular all of a sudden.Brother didn't really do this just for a joke. He knew in his heart that the time of his physical destruction was approaching, but the ghost-faced and poisonous smile he loved so much made him unable to appeal to real sadness. Instead, he tried his best to mock himself and pretended Fiddled with the rosary to make others laugh, saying, "It's a crime for the foolish monk to be confused by that woman, but this is also proof that the foolish monk is not dead yet", and we staggered into the tea shop in Takadanobaba.This foolish monk loves beauty very much. On the way to the tea shop, he suddenly remembered that he had forgotten to put on his ring. Without hesitation, he turned back and ran home. He put on the ring before going out again, and then said to everyone, "Ah, I've been waiting for a long time." Said it nonchalantly.

After college, I lived near my brother Totsuka's house, but we were afraid of hindering each other's studies, so we only saw each other once every three days to a week.When we met, we would go to the street together to listen to cross talk and go shopping in tea shops. Not long after, my brother had a light love affair.In order to carry out his eccentricity of a gentleman, the elder brother has always put on an astonishing pose, which is not popular with girls at all.At that time, in the tea shop in Takadanobaba, there was a girl that my brother secretly liked, but the development seemed not very optimistic, which made my brother very troubled.My brother is a person with high self-esteem, no matter what, he can't wink at girls shamelessly or make some dirty jokes. He just keeps repeating that he came in lightly, drank a cup of coffee, and went back lightly .One night, my brother and I went to the tea shop and had a cup of coffee. The atmosphere was still not right, and we went back home briskly as usual.On the way, my brother stopped by the flower shop and ordered the clerk to make a large bouquet of nearly ten yuan with carnations and roses. He came out with it in his arms, but he hesitated and hesitated.I know what my brother is thinking from the beginning to the end.I jumped forward, flitted the bouquet over, and ran back along the way I came like a rabbit, and hid neatly behind the door of the tea shop, beckoning her to come over.

"You know Uncle (that's what I call brother.) right? You must not forget Uncle. Come on, this is for you from Uncle." I couldn't wait to finish speaking and handed the bouquet to her, but she just stared absent-mindedly. Standing there blankly, for a moment I really wanted to beat her up.As a result, even I lost all energy, and walked to my brother's house in a daze, and saw that my brother had already got into the quilt with an unhappy expression on his face.At that time my brother was twenty-eight years old, and I was six years younger than him, twenty-two years old.

Around April of the same year, my brother was uncharacteristically eager to start his graduation production.He called the model into the house, as if he were about to embark on a large sculpture of the human body.I didn't want to disturb my brother's work, so for a while, I didn't go to my brother's house very much.I forgot which night, I went to see him, he was lying on the bed, and said to me a little embarrassedly. "I have decided not to use the name Yumekawa Toshiichi anymore. I want to use the name Tsujima Keiji (brother's real name) to go out and see." The elder brother's serious words are rare and complete Without a little joke, I suddenly felt like crying.

After two months, my brother died before he could finish his work. Mr. and Mrs. W once mentioned to us that my brother’s appearance was not right, and I was also very worried. I asked the attending doctor, and the attending doctor told us that there were only four or five days left. I was shocked and sent it immediately. Telegram to inform the big brother in the country.Before my eldest brother arrived here, I slept next to him for two consecutive nights, helping him remove the phlegm stuck in his throat with my fingers.As soon as my elder brother arrived, I immediately hired a nurse, and gradually my friends arrived, so I took up some courage; however, looking back on the two nights until I saw my elder brother, I still feel like I am in hell.Under the dim electric light, my brother asked me to help him open the drawers one by one, and destroy the letters and notebooks full of them one by one.Listening to his words, I tore up the pieces of paper one by one, and sobbed with my head down. My brother lay beside me and looked at me with a surprised expression on his face.During those two nights, there seemed to be no one else in the world except the two of us.

When my brother was about to die surrounded by my eldest brother and friends, I called him, "Brother!" My brother said to me in very clear words, I have a diamond tie clip and a platinum chain, give them to you.This sentence is lying to me.Before my brother died, he probably couldn't forget his habit of being a romantic gentleman, so he came up with such a foreign style thing to deceive me.Unconsciously, he must have begun his best deception again.What diamond tie clips and platinum chains, I know very well that there is no such thing, but the intention of showing off vanity makes me sad, and finally I can't help crying loudly.Although there is not a single piece of work left, he looks like a brother of a first-class artist.He is an older brother who obviously has unrivaled beauty in the world, but is not liked by girls at all.

I really want to write about all the things behind my brother to let everyone know, but suddenly I thought, not only me, but everyone who has lost a blood relative must have experienced the same grief, and I wrote it as if it was me. Showing off my privileges to everyone seems to be very sorry for the readers, and my mood shrinks immediately.At that time, the 33-year-old elder brother, when he wrote the words "Gui Zhi passed away at 4 o'clock this morning" on the telegram to be sent to his family in the countryside, he didn't know what came to his mind, and suddenly heaved and cried desperately. The appearance of the big brother at that time still makes my thin chest tremble faintly.I think the brother whose father died early, no matter how much money he has, will be equally miserable in the end.

-Finish- 【Note】 Jinwei【このえ】A person who serves as a guard next to the emperor or the monarch. (Fukutake Mandarin Dictionary) Oscar Wilde [ワイルド] (0pt Oscar Wilde) was a British aestheticist writer who denied religion and morality and took art as the benchmark of life.Representative works such as "The Happy Prince" and "Memoirs". Ibsen [イプセン] (Henrik Ibsen, 1828~1906), a famous Norwegian playwright, wrote "A Doll's House" and so on. "Duo い 合 う"【う ば い あ う】The author once claimed in his early work "Thinking い 出" (Chinese translation: Memory) that he felt that the work should be renamed "Thistle".

AONBO【青んぼ（あおんぼ）】When Dazai was in middle school, it was co-published by brothers and published in the family. It is said that Dazai’s brother thought that although brothers are no longer babies (红んぼ), they are also It can't be called an adult and named. Tanizaki Junichiro【たにさきじゅんいちろう】Aestheticist writer in the Taisho period, masterpieces such as "Tattoo" and "Idiot's Love". Isamu Yoshii [よしいさとし] (1986~1960) likes to compose songs with the theme of a glass of wine and a red light. He is the author of "Three in the Afternoon" and "Shuizhuang Ji".

Poetry: [Red Light に行きてふたたび归らざる人をまことのわれと思ふや]. Ichikawa Sadanji [いちかわさだんじ] was a famous kabuki artist in Hongo during the Taisho period, and Matsuto was his younger sister. The two played the leading roles in the first performances of "Toribe Mountain Heart" and "Sarayashiki". Ichikawa Pine Noodle【いちかわさだんじ】See the previous item. Toribeyama Heart【とりべやましんちゅう】It is said to be adapted from a real love story in the Edo period, and it was staged in August of the fourth year of Taisho. "Heart" = martyrdom Sariyashiki【さらやしき】After the maid who smashed the master's treasured dishes committed suicide (some of them were killed), the ghost appeared in the house and counted the number of dishes in the folklore. Yumekawa Riichi [ゆめかわりいち] Dazai's brother Keiji used this pen name to contribute to the fanzine "Cell Literature" together with Dazai. It is said that this name comes from the combination of the names of the artists Keiji admired Takehisa Yumeji and Yokomitsu Toshiichi. Modified. Umekawa/Chubei [うめかわ/ちゅうべえ]: A character in Jing Liuli's "Mei Chuan Hikyaku", the play describes the story of Kameya Zhongbei stealing the consignment money and fleeing with the flower street girl Mei Chuan. [ビュアレスク] (burlesque) French "funny, humorous".It is said that in the early 19th century Europe was popular to satirize the contemporary style with burlesque (burlesque) that emphasized fantasy elements. "Ghost Face Poisonous Laughing Wind" is the original text. Sasaki Moso【ささきもうさく】has been a teacher of Akutagawa Ryunosuke, co-founded the Akutagawa Award and the Naoki Award with Kikuchi Hiroshi, and is the president of Bungeishunjusha.