Chapter 14 Chapter Fourteen

Sister Xinxin's report card was sent this morning, with a score of 903, which is not low. It should be enough to become a freshman in the Social Welfare Department of Spider City University. The other six older brothers and sisters also did well in the exam. They also set off seven strings of red firecrackers at the door, and the orphanage was beaming all day long.Teacher Du also mentioned repeatedly in his speech: "Students should remember the spirit of these big brothers and sisters who worked hard to get good grades. Our school has sufficient education funds, which can definitely pay for every big brother and sister. The full cost of going to university in the first year is to hope that everyone can study hard and strive for better educational opportunities for themselves and all younger brothers and sisters in the future..."

I looked at Sister Xinxin standing on the flag-raising platform from a distance. She was standing among the seven people who received the praise. Far away, she sneezed again. I stuck out my tongue. "Sister Xinxin is getting more and more allergic to you." Jian Han couldn't stop laughing. "Principal Aunt Hu is really kind. The full subsidy for the first year is enough for sister Xinxin to slowly find a part-time job." I said. "I really envy her, she can already leave this ghost place. This place is no different from a military camp." Jianhan said. Teacher Du continued to talk on the flag-raising platform, and then seven quasi-university freshmen took turns to share their experience in preparing for the exam. One spoke longer than the other. The story of the struggle of the hospital began to be told.Under the sun, Jianhan closed his eyes and fell into a coma. I looked down at the mud stains on my shoes, and the mud stains were shaking.

※※※※ It was raining heavily outside, and I was sitting alone at the end of the promenade in front of the yard, the rain dripping, ticking, ticking, ticking, ticking. At that time, I was ten years old.It's been exactly ten years since I became an orphan. Every day I was abandoned, I fell into a depression that was asymmetrical to my age. The depression was so huge that it would sometimes appear in my dreams as a whale so big that I couldn't see its tail. Its mouth was open. Open, big black, but not in a hurry to swallow me.Just like that. This made me very anxious, and the anxiety turned into a kind of inertial sadness in the end.An emotion that should not be possessed by a ten-year-old child, I sank to the dark green seabed without waiting for the whale to swallow me.

"Hah!" Sister Xinxin held the scissors and stood behind me.The scissors blades open and close. "Help you cut your hair." Sister Xinxin. "No." I lowered my head. "Why?" Sister Xinxin. "Last time you cut me so ugly." I touched my head. Last time I had a watermelon head that looked like a watermelon head for two months. "...give me your head." Sister Xinxin grabbed my head and cut it, but I couldn't resist.The strands of hair slowly fell onto the newspaper under my feet, and I stared in a daze. Raindrops flow down the eaves, like an old Japanese painting.

"Your hair is a little brown, maybe one of your father or mother is a Westerner." Sister Xinxin. "Really?" I was noncommittal. "Not interested?" Sister Xinxin smiled. "Why are you interested? I don't have any memory at all. I was a baby at the time, wasn't I?" I felt embarrassed. I felt the cold blade slowly scratching the back of my head along an arc. "This place sucks, sucks, and one day I must escape from here." I resented. "When is one day?" Sister Xinxin asked. I don't talk, of course I have thought about this issue.

Hair falls. "Forget it." I remembered something. "Why forget it?" Sister Xinxin. "Anyway, no one is waiting for me outside, and no one knows me. After I go out, I don't know where to go or whom to turn to... This world is really a bastard, a bastard to the core." I felt depressed. "After I go out, you can come to me." Sister Xinxin. "Huh?" My heart was empty and my limbs felt hot. "After I go out, there will be someone waiting for you. Knowing you, you will know where to go and whom to find." Sister Xinxin said while continuing to wave the scissors in her hand.

I was speechless for a long while. It rained until midnight, and my soul stayed in the dripping corridor and under the eaves. ※※※※ Later, I looked in the mirror and it was punk.