Chapter 2 from now on

from now on Progress report 1 "March 3" Dr. Strauss said that I should start now and write down what was in my mind and what I remembered and other things that happened.I don't know why he asked me to do this, but he said it's important, I write it down, they will know if they can use me, I hope to be hired, Miss Kinnian said I might do that job It's smarter, I really wish I could be smarter.My name is Charlie?Gordon, who works in Mr Donner's bakery, he gives me eleven dollars a week, and if I order bread or cake, he gives me too.I am thirty-two years old and my birthday is next month.Dr. Strauss and I

Professor Ma said that I couldn't write well, and he said it didn't matter, and told me to just write as if I was speaking, or as if I was writing in an adult mentally handicapped class.After get off work, I attend Miss Kinnian's class three times a week at the Beekman Academy Center for Adults with Intellectual Disabilities.Dr. Strauss says I should write down everything I think about and everything that happens every day, but I can't think of anything else to write about, so that's it for today...Charlie?Gordon. Progress report 2 "March 4th" I went to test today, but I think I should fail, they won't use me.I did as they said, in Professor Nima's office during the lunch break.When I arrived, his secretary took me into a place called the Department of Psychology. There was a long corridor along the door, and there were many small rooms beside it, but it was strange that each room only had a desk and a few desks. Chair.In one of them, there was a very angry-looking man sitting inside waiting for me. He was holding some white cards in his hand, and ink was everywhere on the cards for some unknown reason.He told me to sit down Charlie, take it easy and take it easy.I saw him in the white coat and thought he was a doctor, which didn't feel right, because he didn't tell me to open my mouth when I sat down, and he only had those weird white cards in his hand.I really don't have a very good memory, so now I forget his last name, but I only remember his name as Bert.

I don't know what Bert would ask me to do, he keeps telling me to relax and not to be nervous, like sometimes I go to the dentist and the doctor tells me the same thing, but he's not a dentist, and it scares me so much, which means what's next It could be painful, so I clung to my chair so I couldn't move. Bert said Charlie, there is something in the card, I was scared even though I put the rabbit's foot in my pocket, all I could see was the spray of ink.I was afraid because I didn't do well in the exams when I was a child, and I often spilled ink. I replied that there was only spilled ink on the card, and he smiled and said yes, which made me feel better.He continued to flip through all the cards, and I told him that someone had spilled red and black ink on them.At that time, I thought the test would be easy and I would leave after answering, but Burt said that Charlie was sitting down and we were going to look at these cards.I didn't understand what he meant, but I remember Dr. Strauss telling me to do what the examiner told me, whether I understood him or not, because it was an exam.

I can't remember what Bert asked me now, but it seemed that there was something in the ink that I wanted to find, but I couldn't see it.He later told me that there were some pictures in it.I took it to look carefully, zoomed in and zoomed out, but I still couldn't see what was inside. I asked Bert if he could wear glasses, maybe I could see better after wearing them.I usually only wear glasses when watching movies and TV.I think after wearing glasses, I can definitely see the picture inside. But after wearing it, I still only see the ink but not the picture.I told Burt I should get new eyes.After listening to it, he wrote something on paper.I was afraid that I would fail the exam, so I continued to tell him that there were some small ink dots surrounding the eggs in the card, which looked very beautiful.He shook his head and said no.I asked him if other students could see what was inside, and he said yes, they could imagine that there were pictures inside the ink dots.He told me that those inks are called ink dots.

Bert was nice, like Miss Kinnian who taught us to write in the adult mentally handicapped class, and spoke very slowly.He explained to me that it was a "raw stimulus test" that other students could tell had pictures in it.I asked him to point it out to me, but he didn't, he just asked me to imagine there was something in it.I said yes, I imagined there were ink dots in it.He shook his head and said, that's not the case, and asked me to pretend there was something in it.I closed my eyes and thought for a long time and told him that someone had broken the nib and spilled a whole bottle of ink on these cards.After the exam, we stood up and walked out of the room together.

I think I probably failed the test. The third progress told "March 5" Dr. Strauss and Professor Nima to tell me not to think about those ink cards.I told them I didn't spill the ink on those cards and I couldn't tell there was anything in the ink.The two of them said it didn't matter, and maybe they would hire me.I told Dr. Strauss that Miss Kinnian wasn't going to give me that test, only reading and writing.He said he knew that Miss Kinnian had told him that I was the best student in Beekman's class for mentally handicapped adults, and one of the most willing to learn, and that I worked harder than the other brighter students.

Dr. Strauss asked me before, Charlie, how did you find Beekman College yourself, and I replied that I don't remember either. Later, Professor Nima asked me how I thought of learning to read and spell.I said I always wanted to be smart, don't be stupid of.My mom always told me to keep learning and trying like Miss Kinnian did, but being smart was hard, and every time I learned something in Miss Kinnian's class, I soon forgot some of it. After Dr. Strauss wrote something on the paper, Professor Nima explained to me very seriously, he said Charlie, you should know, We have only done these experiments on animals, so it is not trivial to use them on students.When I had finished I answered him as Miss Kinnian had told me.I'm actually not afraid of pain or what happens because I'm strong and I work hard.

I figured I'd be smarter, and if they'd let me do that stone test I'd do it.They said they had to go through the same family members first. I don’t mind, but Uncle He Man who took care of me in the past is dead, and I don’t remember what the rest of the family looked like. I haven’t seen my father, mother, and younger sister Norma for a long, long time. Maybe they are dead too.Dr. Strauss asked me where they used to live, I think it was in Brooklyn, and he said he would check it out for me, maybe they could find it. I really don't want to write so many progress reports, because it takes a lot of time, so I can't go to bed early, and I am tired when I work in the morning.I took the loaves to the oven on a tray and if I dropped them, Gimbie would yell at me because they were dirty and he had to clean them up so they could be put in the oven to bake.Gimpy would yell at me if I didn't do something well, but he still liked me because he was my friend.God, if I'm smart, he'll definitely jump.