Chapter 39 Bouquet for Algernon - Party

Bouquet for Algernon - Party "July 15th" I temporarily put my plan of visiting my mother on hold.At present, I want to see her in my heart, but I don't think it's the right time. I won't go to her easily unless I'm sure what changes may happen in the future.Now let's see how my research progressed and what I discovered. At present, Algernon has completely refused to walk the maze, and his general motivation is slowly fading.Today I deliberately stopped what I was doing to look at it.When they arrived at Bert's laboratory, Neymar and Strauss were already there to observe Bert's force-feeding Algernon.Algernon shrank like a small white cotton ball on the lab table, and Bert forced food down his throat with a dropper.Seeing this picture, I felt weird and had an unspeakable feeling in my heart.

If Algernon continues to be like this and refuses to eat, they will switch to an intravenous drip to maintain his nutritional needs.In the afternoon, it was fixed with bandages. Seeing it struggling and wriggling under the bandages, I felt as if my feet and hands were bound, and I felt sad for a while, and my voice became choked and hoarse.I forced myself to stop comparing myself to Algernon, or it would be even worse.Later, I hurried outside to breathe fresh air to relieve the depression locked in my heart. After coming out, I headed to 'Murray's Pub' for a drink.There, I called Fay to come out and hang out.I've stopped going out dancing with her lately, and she's annoyed, sometimes even annoyed by it, and ran away from home last night.She has absolutely no way of knowing about my work, and has no intention of knowing.Every time I tried to explain it to her, she was unabashedly uninterested.She's just this type of person who doesn't want to give in to others, but I don't blame her.She is only interested in three things: painting, dancing and sex, of which we have only one thing in common, and that is sex.I really shouldn't be so stupid as to want her to know about my work, that's why she left home to dance alone.She told me that she once had a dream of walking into my apartment and setting fire to all the books and notes in it, and we danced around the fire.From now on, I have to be careful because she has become possessive.I just noticed this evening that my apartment is looking more and more like hers—a mess everywhere.I have to cut back on my drinking.

"July 16" Last night Faye and Alice finally saw each other.I've always wondered what would have happened if the two of them had met.Alice came to see me because she knew something about Algernon from Bert.She wondered what these phenomena really meant.She has always felt that she is also responsible for my affairs, so she never forgets to encourage me. I buy her coffee and we talk late into the night.I knew Fee was going to dance at the Stuster Ballroom and wouldn't be back so early.However, she never expected that at around 1:45 in the morning, she would suddenly appear on the fire escape.She tapped on the window before she pushed it open, and slid into the room with a bottle of wine.

"Disturb your party," she said when she came in. "I'll bring my own snacks." I had told Fei before that Alice was my colleague who worked in the university, and I had mentioned Fei to Alice, so there was no surprise when the two met today.After chatting with each other for a while, they turned the topic to art and me.They chatted very enthusiastically, as if they still liked each other very much. "I'll get my coffee." I excused them and went to the kitchen, wanting them to be alone. When she came back, Fee took off her shoes and sat on the floor, sipping the gin from the bottle.She was explaining to Alice that she believed that sunbathing was the only thing of value when it came to the human body, and that nude camps were a way out of the world's moral problems.

Fee also suggested that we join the naked camp together.After hearing this, Alice laughed almost uncontrollably, and leaned over to accept the wine that Fei poured for her. We chatted until the early hours of the morning before stopping the topic.I insisted on taking Alice home, but she said it wasn't necessary.Fee told her that going out by herself at this hour was no joke, so I went downstairs and hailed a taxi to accompany her back. "I think she's a little bit different," she told me on the way. "I can't say which, maybe it's her frankness, her openness, or her selflessness..."

I agree with her statement. "And she loves you," said Alice. "Nothing, she does that to everyone." I firmly denied, "She's just the neighbor across the way." "Are you two dating?" I shook my head in denial, "I only ever loved you." "Do not say that." "You've changed the subject again." "There's only one thing I'm worried about right now, Charlie, you're drinking too hard. I've heard people say that." "Tell Burt to keep his mind on his own research and reports. I can't let him say things like that to you to hurt me. About the booze, I can control myself."

"I've heard other people say that too." "But not from my mouth." "There's only one thing I don't like about her," Alice said, "and that's that she'll make you drink and interfere with your research." "I have my own way to solve this problem." "Charlie, this research project is important. Not just to the thousands of unknown people in the world, but to yourself. Charlie, you have to solve your own problems, not others. " "Oh, I see what you mean now," I sneered. "You want me to see her less often."

"I didn't say that." "But that's what you mean. If she's going to interfere with my work, and you and I both know it, it means I have to leave her." "No! I don't think you should leave her. She's good for you. You need a woman like her around you." "You will be good for me." Alice turned her face away after hearing this. "That's different." After saying that, she turned to look directly at me again. "I came here today expecting to see a dumb, brainless slut. I figured you might not understand your emotions and wanted to intervene to save you. However, after seeing her, I realized that That's not the case, I have no right to criticize her behavior. I think, she is good for you. Seeing this result, I am not so sad. Although I don't approve of you being together, I still like her. But , if you still want to drink, dance, and hang out in clubs with her all the time, then she is getting in the way of your work. You have to figure it out yourself.”

"Any other questions?" I asked her, laughing. "If I ask you like this, you don't mind, do you? Have you already had a deep relationship with her? Actually, I can feel it. " "It's not as deep as you think." "Did you mention your operation to her?" "No." After I finished speaking, I could feel the subtle change of relief on Alice's face.The fact that I didn't mention it to Fee showed that I wasn't fully engaged.Alice and I can both understand the meaning of this.But Fee couldn't tell the difference.That's why Alice secretly breathed a sigh of relief.

"I do need her," I said. "In a way, she needs me too. It's just a codependent relationship, purely because I live right across from me and it's easy to get to and from each other, but it doesn't It's not love, it's not like what happens between you and me." She looked down at her hands, then frowned and said, "I'm not sure what's going on between us." "Something that's been involved so deeply, so obviously, that every time I think about having sex with you, the Charlie inside of me starts to panic and get scared." "Won't you be with her?"

I shrugged and said, "I just know that when I'm with her, it's not a serious problem, and Charlie doesn't panic about it." "Brilliant!" she laughed. "That's so ironic! Hearing you say that about Charlie makes me hate him for being between us. You think he'll let you...let us..." "I don't know, I hope he will." I bid her farewell at the door.It was a strange feeling when we shook hands, and it seemed closer and sweeter than any previous hug. When I got home, I made love to Fay, but all I could think about was Alice.