Chapter 31 Chapter 30 Goals - Quinn College

Marilla put what she was knitting on her knees and leaned back in the chair. "Ah, my eyes are tired again." Marilla meditated blankly. "Next time I go to the city, I should change my glasses. Recently, I always feel that my eyes are so tired and painful." It was an evening in November. In Glenn Gybrutz's kitchen, the stove was burning brightly and brightly, and the red flame in the hearth was beating violently. Anne curled up like a Turk on the small cushion in front of the fireplace, gazing dreamily at the flames burning in the stove.The firewood in the furnace is made of maple branches, and it seems that the century-old summer sun is shining in the furnace.

Just now, Annie was still looking at the book, but now the book has slipped from her hand to the ground unknowingly.The corners of Annie's mouth were slightly opened, and there was a smile on her face. At this moment, she fell into a romantic fantasy again.There seems to be a rainbow in front of me, and there are many towering pavilions between the rainbow.Annie has entered into this dreamy, thrilling and uniquely charming world with all her heart.Although in real life, Anne always encounters failures, but she takes risks in her imagined world, and she performs exceptionally well and is very successful every time.

Marilla was paying attention to Anne's expression at this moment.In the dim kitchen, by the light of the fire in the stove, Marilla saw the inexpressible, innocent and romantic expression on Anne's face.No matter what, Marilla couldn't make such an expression. Marilla did not show any special enthusiasm for this slender girl with gray eyes on the surface, but deep down in her heart, she loved and cared for this child very much. If something goes wrong, it will go against her original intention. Therefore, Marilla always has a severe and critical attitude towards Anne.Anne unconsciously did something wrong to make amends.In fact, to be honest, if it wasn't because she thought Annie was cute, she wouldn't have adopted that attitude.

In fact, Annie didn't know how Marilla secretly loved herself in her heart.From Marilla's appearance and every word and deed, it is not clear that she has any affection and satisfaction for Anne.Anne was often distressed by Marilla's lack of compassion and understanding for herself.However, as soon as these thoughts passed, she would immediately think of Marilla's kindness to her, and she would blame herself for having such thoughts in her heart, and would feel uneasy and panicked by her own thoughts. "Anne!" said Marilla suddenly. "Today, when you were out with Diana, I met your teacher Stich."

Annie took a breath, and quickly returned to real life from the dream world. "Really, why don't you call us? In fact, Diana and I are in the 'ghost forest'. It's very autumnal in the forest now, and it's so beautiful! Ferns are growing everywhere, and A lot of oily satin-like sheep. Ripe fruits often fall from the branches of the trees, pattering to the ground. These small ripe fruits fall in the soft satin-like grass, as if they are asleep. Fallen leaves, The withered grass is like a blanket that covers the ground, and every night when the moon is bright, goblins wearing scarves made of rainbows will come out and cover these blankets.

"However, Diana said almost nothing, and she couldn't forget that she was severely criticized by her mother for fantasizing about the 'Haunted Forest'. Because of this, Diana's imagination was severely damaged. "Mrs. Lynde said she had given up hope in Martel Bell. I asked Ruby why, and Ruby said it was probably because he betrayed his lover. A man like Ruby is full of It's all about your lover all day long, and it gets worse as you get older. It's nice to have a lover, but it's okay not to think about them. "Diana and I have made a deal. We'll be celibate all our lives and never marry. We're both going to be sweet old maids and think seriously about our future together. But Diana says she hasn't It was decided that maybe she would marry a reckless, cute-looking villainous young man, and then go to rescue him, let him change his mind and be a proud man again.

"Diana had a serious discussion with me recently. She's definitely grown up compared to before. I think I've stopped saying those childish things. I'm going to be 14 soon and I should be very serious. Seriously, right, Marilla. "On a recent Wednesday, Mrs. Stich took our teenage girls to the small river, and told us about various issues, such as what kind of habits should be developed in teenage years, and what kind of behaviors should be established? She cares about us very much. By the age of 20 or so, the foundation of life has been established, because the character has basically formed at this time. If the foundation is not solid, nothing can be established as mentioned above, teacher So to speak.

"On the way back from school that day, Diana and I talked about a lot of things. I was very serious and serious, Marilla. We both made up our minds, and we must be careful to develop regular habits of good , learn all kinds of knowledge well, cultivate your thinking ability, and work hard to grow into an excellent person by the age of 20. 20 years old, it will come quickly in a blink of an eye. Marilla, when I grow up, I will become Cheng is quite honest. Today you met Mrs. Stich, did she say anything?" "I wanted to tell you from the beginning, but I couldn't get in. The teacher mentioned Annie."

"my business?" Annie's face turned red suddenly, and she rushed to say: "I know what she said, I wanted to tell you a long time ago, Marilla, really, but when I come back, I will leave this I forgot. Yesterday afternoon, when I was supposed to study Canadian history, I was reading "Ben Ha" [note], and my teacher found out. It was a book I borrowed from Jenny Andrews. "I was reading that book during the lunch break, and I just started class when I saw the chariot race. At this time, I must be thinking about the ending of the race I just saw. I really hope that Ben Ha will win, because It should be about karma. I put the history textbook on the table, put "Ben Ha" between my knees and the desk, I am addicted to "Ben Ha", but from the outside it seems that I am still learning Canadian history.

"Reading the book made me feel like I was in a dream, and I didn't even notice that the teacher was coming from the aisle. I looked up suddenly, and saw a reproachful expression on the teacher's face, but she didn't How ashamed I should be for not looking at me! George Pai chuckled, and I felt more and more ashamed. "Although the teacher took the "Ben Ha" book away, she didn't say anything at that time. I was stayed during the rest time and was taught by the teacher. The teacher said I made two mistakes. Big mistake, first, the time that should be studied was wasted; second, I was reading a novel, but pretended to be reading a history book to deceive the teacher.

"Until the teacher said this, I didn't think that my behavior was deceiving people. After realizing this, my heart was shocked, and I burst into tears. I asked the teacher to forgive me and vowed never to do it again. Such a mistake. In order to clear my sins, I will not touch "Ben Ha" for a whole week, and I will not watch the results of the chariot race. But the teacher didn't say that, and she completely forgave me The teacher came to our house today, did you mention anything important?" "Miss Stich, didn't say a word about it, Anne. You feel guilty and think the teacher is talking about it. It's not good to bring novels to school, you read too much." Yes. When I was a child, I didn’t touch novels or anything.” "However, how can a religious book like "Ben Ha" be called a novel?" Annie retorted. "Of course, I only read it on weekdays because of the excitement of reading it on Sundays. Also, Mrs. Stich and Mrs. Alan have restricted that girls of thirteen years and nine months can only read appropriate books. Nothing else can be read. "I read a book called 'The Chilling Secret of the Cursed Mansion,' which I borrowed from Ruby Gillies. Marilla, it's a real scare to read, This is an interesting book. After reading it, you will have a feeling that your blood is coagulated. But the teacher said that it is a boring and unhealthy book. I will not read this kind of book in the future. I am already such a book The second time I said I didn't want to read it, but I still wanted to read it. "It's another thing to swear off reading these books again, but what happened to the storyline in the book, I want to know so much, it's too painful to just give up the book. I'm giving up on reading that book, Mrs. Tisch. Marilla, if I could do anything to please someone, that would be a marvel." "In that case, just watch it with a kerosene lamp, and do it as a job. You don't seem to listen to what the teacher tells you. It's not easy for you to convince you , it seems that what you care most about is what you say." "But, Marilla, listen to me. I'm not saying anything now, not a word. I understand how to speak, but I must pay attention to the way I speak. Although I can speak well A lot, but I really haven't said half of what I want to say, and if Marilla knows how much I have to say, I think you will praise me. Please, have something to say, Please tell me quickly." "Mr. Stich said that he plans to organize senior students who take the Quinn College Examination to form a special class and have an hour of tutoring after school. Marshall and I would like to hear if you are willing to join this class. You What do you think? Do you also want to be admitted to Quinn College to obtain the qualifications of teachers?" "Ah, Marilla," Anne knelt down and clasped her hands. "That's the dream of my life. I've thought about it for the first time since Ruby Gillies and Jenny first mentioned taking the exam six months ago. However, even if I wanted to take the exam, there was no possibility, so I didn't say anything.If I can become a teacher in this life, I will be so happy.Still, doesn't that cost a lot of money?Mr. Andrews can spend 150 yuan for Puri Camp, and Puri Fu is not a geometrically inferior student like me. " "You don't have to worry about the money. When we first adopted you, Marshall and I made an agreement to let you receive a good education as much as possible. As far as I am concerned, Annie, is it necessary to do this? I think as a woman, in the future It’s better to be able to stand on your own. As long as Marshall and I are here, you can treat Green Gaybruzzi as your home anytime. But no one can tell what will happen in the future, and it won’t hurt to master various skills Go ahead. Annie, if you also have this thought, you can take the exam at Quinn College." "Oh, Marilla, thank you." Annie put her arms around Marilla's waist tightly, and looked up at Marilla with a serious expression. "I am very grateful to Marilla and Marshall. I will study hard and work hard to make Marilla and Marshall proud. Only geometry is a bit uneasy. From now on, as long as I work hard, I think it will be fine. " "I don't think the exam will be a problem for you. Mrs. Stich says Anne is bright and works very hard." Marilla did not intend to convey to Anne all the words the teacher had said, for fear of arousing Anne's vanity. "You don't have to study like crazy right away, you don't have to worry about it, and the exam is a year and a half away. The teacher said that we should first lay a solid foundation as soon as possible. " "From now on, I will study more wholeheartedly." Annie said as if intoxicated. "Now my goals in life should be realized. The pastor said that everyone has their own goals and should move towards their own goals. Meaningful goals are very important. I want to be like Mr. Stich. Meaningful purpose. Marilla thought so too, and I think teaching is a noble profession." Soon, the Quinn College exam class was formed, and the participants included Gilbert Bryce, Anne Jerry, Ruby Gillies, Jenny Andrews, George Pai, Charlie Sloan, Mu Di Quepa, John McPherson, seven. Diana Barry, because her parents didn't plan to let her apply for Queen's College, so she didn't take the exam class, which was a big deal for Anne, since the night when Minnie Moy got a throat problem, no matter what Whatever you do, you are always inseparable. On the first night when the test-preparing class of Quinn College stayed at the school for tutoring, when Annie saw Diana walking out slowly with the others, she really had an indescribable feeling.As soon as she thought of Diana walking back alone, through the "Birch Road" and "Zihuadi Dingyuan", she wanted to jump up and catch up with her dear friend from behind.She hastily grabbed a Latin book and covered her face so that no one could see her tears. However, no matter how she concealed it, Gilbert Bryce and George Pai still saw Anne crying. "However, Marilla, if you also saw the scene when Diana went out and walked back alone, as if she hadn't been able to attend the pastor's preaching on Sunday, it was as if she had experienced the pain of death." Anne said in Sadly said that night. "It would be great if Diana studied for the exam too! But as Mrs. Lynde said, in this imperfect world, there is no perfect thing. Mrs. Lynde also said, There must be some comfort in the heart when you part with your partner. She is indeed right, there are too many such things. "The test-taking class is also very interesting. Jenny and Ruby, studying to become teachers in the future, they said that it is enough to become a teacher. Ruby said that she will only be a teacher for two years after graduation, and then she is going to get married. Jenny said she plans to Dedicate her whole life to the cause of teaching, and never get married. If she gets married, although she can have an income as a teacher, her husband will not give any money. If she said that the money earned from selling eggs and butter at home, she would not If you deserve it, it’s just a way to vent your grievances with words. I think Jenny’s words come from her own painful experience. According to Mrs. Linde, Jenny’s father loves him very much. Picky, especially stingy. "George Pai said that she went to college for self-cultivation, and she didn't need to earn living expenses for herself. She also said that an orphan like me who lives on the sympathy of others will not be able to enter college, no matter how hard I try .Why did she say that? "Moody Spajohn said he wanted to be a priest. Mrs. Lynde said he could only be a priest with that name, because both Moody and Spajohn were named after famous missionaries. .But, Marilla, it may be a little bad of me to say that, Moody would be funny if he were a preacher. He had a round face, little blue eyes, and pricked ears, Very funny and strange looking. But maybe when he's grown up he'll be a sane face. "Charlie Sloan said he was going to go into politics and become a member of Congress. But Mrs. Linde said he would not succeed. Now that the political world is full of chaotic parties, honest people like the Sloan family will not make great achievements in politics. achievement." The conversation stopped here, and Anne continued to read "Gerias Caesar", and Marilla asked, "What is Gilbert Bryce planning?" "I don't know what Gilbert Bryce's ambitions are—although he also said something about his goals." said Annie in a contemptuous tone. To this day, Gilbert and Anne are still open rivals.Although the current sense of competition is one-sided, Gilbert, like Anne, showed an aggressive aura.Gilbert regards Anne as an indispensable competitor, while the others seem to be unable to keep up with the two of them in studies, let alone compare with Anne and Gilbert. Ever since Gilbert didn't get Anne's forgiveness at the pool that day, apart from arousing his sense of competition more intensely, Gilbert completely ignored Anne's existence.Gilbert and the other girls talk, joke, exchange books, and solve riddles.Discuss study plans and more.He also often sent a girl home after prayer meetings and discussion club meetings, but ignored Anne. Annie tasted the pain of being ignored. As time went by, this always stubborn girl felt a little uncomfortable in her heart.If an opportunity like "Bibo Lake" comes up again, she will definitely not let it go easily. Now, Annie originally wanted to continue to hold on to her hatred for Gilbert, but for some reason, she suddenly found that her former hatred for Gilbert had disappeared.Anne secretly panicked.Although now thinking of being slandered as a "carrot" by Gilbert at that time, Annie felt an indescribable anger burning.That day, shortly after Anne was rescued by Gilbert and landed ashore, the idea of ​​forgetting about the "carrot incident" and completely forgiving Gilbert flashed through Anne's head.But at that time, due to other considerations, she felt in a dilemma, and she failed to muster up the courage to speak out, and missed a good opportunity.Alas, it's too late to regret now. Gilbert and other people, even Anne's closest friend Diana, showed a very indifferent attitude towards Anne's remorse.Anne felt that if she hadn't made a mess of things with such a straight face, she wouldn't be so regretful today. However, things went a little too far.For Gilbert, he pretended to be indifferent to Anne on the surface, but in fact he paid great attention to Anne, but he didn't know that Anne was enduring the pain of being treated coldly.Anne is still so cold.Gilbert was slightly pleased when he saw Anne treat the courteous Charlie Sloan with contempt and indifference. In spite of this, Anne had a great time in winter when she was not studying or doing things.Anne played with necklaces every day, and strung all the necklaces of the year, all of which looked like golden beads.Anne is full, happy and positive every day, always looking for something to do.Lots to learn, good grades to read, delightful books to read, new pieces to practice in the Sunday School chorus, and happy hours with Mrs Allan at the Vicarage on Saturday afternoons... In this way, in the blink of an eye, the spring of Green Gybrutz came again.Without Annie noticing, the surroundings were unknowingly surrounded by a sea of ​​flowers. At this time, only those who study hard stay in the classroom, and the others either go for a walk on the green path, or go to the dense forest, or go to the field to play.The students in the test-taking class who had to stay in the school could only enjoy the outdoor scenery at the moment when the window was opened.Students who studied Latin and French during the long, bone-chilling winters felt this deeply.But for some reason, they couldn't get excited at all. Even good students like Anne and Gilbert relaxed their studies and lost their enthusiasm for studying.Teachers and students alike are waiting for the term to end with a sigh, looking forward to the rosy summer vacation. "You should keep working hard now," Mr. Stich told the students in the last few days of the semester. "Everyone should try their best to have a happy summer vacation, go outside and embrace the nature more often. For next year's entrance exam, we should keep up our energy and study energy, because next year will be a year of fierce competition for the exam." "Teacher, are you still teaching here in the new semester?" George Pai asked. George dared to ask questions nonchalantly under any circumstances. Everyone should thank her for the questions she asked today.Although other students dare not ask the teacher about such things, they can't wait for this matter and want to know it urgently.Recently, it has been rumored in the school that the teacher will be transferred next semester, and that the local elementary school in her hometown negotiated with the teacher to invite her to return to her hometown to teach, and she also has this intention.All the students in the test-taking class of Quinn College held their breath and waited for the teacher's answer. "I have this kind of plan. Although I also want to transfer to other schools, I still want to stay in Yabangli. To be honest, I just don't worry about you. I can't just say goodbye like this. So next semester I decided to stay Come down, wait until you finish the exam, and tutor you." "Long live!" cried Moody Spajohn.Moody had never shown such emotion before, and within a week of those words being said, he blushed at the thought of the impulse. "Ah! I'm so happy!" Annie said with wide eyes, "It would be too bad if Mr. Stich didn't stay. If there is a new teacher, I won't even have the motivation to study." When she got home in the evening, Anne stuffed the old suitcase with the schoolbooks in the back room in the corner, fastened the lock, and threw the key into the felt box. "I'm not going to read my textbooks this summer," Anne said to Marilla. "I have studied hard this semester. I have memorized all the theorems in a book and understood the geometric symbols, so I have nothing to worry about. Now I am tired of learning, understanding, etc. During the summer vacation, I I want to be completely engrossed in fantasy, to be deeply intoxicated in it. Marilla, don't worry, I won't fantasize without limits, I will be careful. "I really want to have a happy and happy summer vacation, maybe because it is my last summer vacation as a child. If next year is like this year, I will still grow taller, and I won't be able to make longer skirts Yes, this is what Mrs. Lynde said. She said, seeing my legs grow longer, a long skirt will suit me. I don't think it's okay not to imitate the grown-ups.But in that case, I still believe in some children's tricks like goblins, so it seems that I can't do it.So this summer, I just imagined to my heart's content, imagining enough. "It's sure to be a happy summer. It's almost Ruby's birthday party. There's a school field trip and a missionary concert next month. And, Diana's father said, take us to White Sand's Go to the big hotel for dinner, the dinner there is at night, Jenny went there once last summer. There are lights, flowers, women in all kinds of gorgeous clothes everywhere, so bright that you can’t keep your eyes open. She said yes She went to high society for the first time, and she will never forget that scene until she dies." What could be the reason for Marilla not being a woman in church?In the afternoon of the next day, Mrs. Linde came to inquire. Could it be that something happened in the family when Marilla was not present at the women's meeting? "Marshall had a little heart attack on Thursday," Marilla explained. "Well, thank God, although he's on the mend now, the attacks are more frequent than before, which is worrying. The doctor said he couldn't be excited anymore. "Oh! Marshall has nothing to do with excitement or anything like that, but the doctor says you can't do strenuous work, and you'll be gasping for breath when you do it. Come on, Rachel, put your hat down and have some tea." .” "You are so kind, I will not be polite." Mrs. Rachel said so, in fact, she had planned to do so when she entered the door just now. While Marilla and Mrs. Rachel were sitting in the living room and chatting casually, Anne came over to pour tea for the guests and baked small, warm bread.The bread was so soft and white that not even Mrs. Rachel could fault it. In the evening Marilla walked Mrs. Rachel down the trail.Mrs. Rachel said when they parted: "Anne is a grown girl indeed, and you have help." "Yes, now she has become very stable and can do things well. I used to think that her hands and feet would never be corrected for the rest of her life. Now she seems to be fine. Now I can rest assured that she can do anything." "Three years ago, when I first saw this child, I thought that this child would not be a good child. Indeed, Anne was so grumpy at that time. I came home that night and said to Thomas 'their family She adopted this child, she will regret it later, she made a big mistake.' "Now it seems that I was wrong.It was wonderful to see Anne grow up like this, she didn't become what I wrongly judged that the child's character would not make her happy, alas! "It's strange to say that the abnormal and different child no longer exists. I always wonder if I made a mistake. I can't use the standard of ordinary children to measure this child. In the past three years, no It's just that there have been miracles in this regard, and Anne's appearance has also improved, and she seems to have become beautiful. Although I don't like children like Anne with a pale face and big eyes. I like children like Diana and Ruby. A lively, good-looking boy, a boy like Ruby is very remarkable. "But when these children are together, they can't compare with Anne. At this time, you can see Anne's beauty. Compared with them, Anne is a beauty. Bai Lily can also be compared to a narcissus. She and those Compared with children, it's like narcissus and big red peony competing for beauty."