Chapter 203 Volume 8 The Poor Man Who Dos Evil

Summer is over, autumn is over, and winter is here.Neither Mr. Bai nor the girl has ever been to the Luxembourg Gardens.Marius had but one thought, to see that tender and adoring face again.He was looking for it all the time and everywhere, but he found nothing.He is no longer the Marius who dreamed of the future with enthusiasm, that tenacious, passionate, determined man, a bold challenger to fate, with a mind to build towers in the sky, a plan, a foresight, a passion, a thought. , A young man full of ambition, but a lost dog.He was in a desperate situation.It's over.Work disgusted him, walks weary him, solitude vexed him; the vast world, so full of images, splendor, voices, inspirations, perspectives, insights, and education, now seemed to him an emptiness.It seemed to him that everything had disappeared.

He kept thinking because he couldn't not think, but he couldn't feel the pleasure of thinking anymore.To all that his mind kept whispering to him, he answered sadly, "What's the point?" He kept blaming himself.Why did I go with her in the first place?I was so happy when I could see her at that time.She looked at me, isn't that already amazing?Look, she loves me.Isn't this perfect?What more could I wish for?There will be nothing more after this.I was so stupid, I was wrong.etc.He never divulged his thoughts to Courfeyrac, this is his character, but Courfeyrac guessed a little bit, this is also his character, Courfeyrac began to congratulate him on having a lover, and at the same time felt that it was too late Suddenly, seeing Marius so distressed, he finally said to him: "I think you are too simple, only animal. Come, go to the hut!"

Once, Marius saw the beautiful sunshine in September, full of confidence, followed Courfeyrac, Bossuet and Grantaire to a ball in Sauce, hoping—what a dream! — to have the chance to meet her there.Of course, he didn't see the person he was looking for. "But lost women can always be found here." Grantaire muttered to himself.Marius had left his friend at the ball, and walked home alone, groping the dark road, tired, with a fever in his head, eyes dim and melancholy, the cars coming from the ball full of joy. Singers passed him, and he heard the joyous sound, and smelled the dust raised by the wheels, and was very disturbed, and breathed the bitter smell of the walnut trees by the roadside to clear his mind, disheartened.

He began to live a more and more lonely life, hesitant, depressed, completely trapped in the pain of his heart, like a wolf in a cage, walking around in his sorrow, looking around for the beloved who was not in front of him, and being confused by love Got to get dizzy. Another time, he met a person who gave him a strange feeling.On the side streets near the Road of the Disabled Military Academy, he met a man dressed like a working man, wearing a long-brimmed peaked cap, showing a few locks of snow-white hair.Marius caught a glimpse of those white hairs, and felt strangely beautiful, and saw the man walking slowly, step by step, as if preoccupied and lost in melancholy reverie.Strange to say, he seemed to recognize the man as Mr. Bai.The same hair, the same profile, at least the part exposed under the brim of the hat is the same, the same walking posture, only more melancholy.But why wear this work uniform?How can this be explained?Why disguise?Marius was astonished.When his mood calmed down, his first move was to chase that person, who knew he wouldn't catch the clue he was looking for this time?In short, we should run to him and have a closer look to break this stuffy gourd.But his thoughts turned too late, the man was no longer there.He entered a side alley, and Marius could no longer see him.This encounter made him think about it for several days before the impression faded.He thought to himself: "Don't make a fuss, maybe it's just a lookalike."