Chapter 3 second quarter

She went upstairs and returned to her room.At first, she found it difficult to sleep, but eventually fell asleep.After a long dream, she woke up in the middle of the night.Everyone in this dream exists only in her past: her mother (died long ago), and her ex-husband (she hasn't seen him in years. He looks the same as before like the director of this dream cast the wrong actor), and his authoritarian, energetic sister and his current wife (Chantal never met her; but nevertheless, in the dream, She still doesn't doubt her identity).Finally, he makes vague sexual demands to Chantal.And his new wife kissed her hard on the lips and stuck her tongue into Chantal's mouth.The licking tongue only disgusted her.In fact, it was that kiss that woke her up from her dream.

This dream brought her such a strong uneasiness that she tried to find out the cause of her uneasiness.She thought that what made her uneasy must be because that dream denied her present.And she is so attached to the present.Nothing in this world could induce her to trade the present for the past or the future.This is why she dislikes dreams: they impose an unacceptable equivalent at all stages of life, a period equal to everything that a person has experienced.They deny the privileged status of the "now", they doubt the "now". In the dream of that night, a large part of her life was erased: Jean-Marc, the apartment they shared , all the days they lived together; and their place was usurped by the past. Those long out of touch behind were trying to capture her in the well-worn web of sexual temptation. She could still feel the (She was not an ugly woman—the director of the dream cast the actors exactly as he wished.) The feeling was so unpleasant that she Rush to the bathroom and gargle until the nasty taste is completely washed out of your mouth.