Chapter 9 lover(9)

Section IX Once during the journey, when the ship was crossing this ocean, a passenger died in the middle of the night.She couldn't remember clearly whether it happened on this trip or another trip.At that time, some passengers were playing cards in the first-class cabin. Among these card players, there was a young man. Suddenly, without saying a word, he threw the cards and walked out of the bar, ran across the deck, and then jumped into the sea. .When the full steamship stopped, his body was gone. No, writing this, what she sees is not the ship, but another place, the place where she has heard the story, that is, the place in Sa Dec, the man who jumped into the sea is the son of the chief executive of Sa Dec .She knew him because he also attended Saigon High School.She remembered him as tall, mild-looking, with brown hair and tortoiseshell-rimmed spectacles.Nothing suspicious was found in his cabin, not even a letter.His age was terrible in her memory--he was also a youth of seventeen.At dawn, the ship set sail again.The most frightening thing is this re-start.The sun came out, the sea was empty, and the order to stop the search meant farewell to him forever.

Another time, also during this journey, also when crossing this ocean.When night fell, a burst of music suddenly came from the hall on the main deck, it was a Chopin waltz.She knew the piece, and had a secret relationship with it, because she had learned it, but she couldn't play it well, even after months of hard work, so that her mother had to Agree with her to give up practicing playing the piano.That night, the girl, who had spent so many bewildered nights on board the ship before, was present when this piece of Chopin echoed in the clear sky.There was not even a breath of wind at that time, and this music spread throughout the dark ship. It seemed to be the will of the heavens, without knowing what it was related to, and it was like an order from God, without knowing what it contained.The girl stood there straight, as if she also wanted to plunge into the vast sea.Then she cried, because she missed the man on the embankment, and suddenly she was not sure that she had never loved this man, this kind of love she had never seen, because this love has disappeared in history, like running water in Same in the desert.But now, and only now, when the music was scattered across the sea, she rediscovered this lost love.This discovery is just like the younger brother who later gained his eternal life through death.

All around her the people were fast asleep, and although the music lingered around them, it did not wake them up, and they all fell asleep peacefully.It seemed to the girl that she had just passed through one of the most silent nights that had not occurred in the whole journey across the Indian Ocean.It seemed to her that on that very night she saw her little brother and a woman appear on deck.He leaned against the bulwark and held her in his arms, and they kissed each other.The girl hid aside so that she could see more clearly.She recognized who this woman was.She has been combined with her little brother, and they will never be separated again.This was a married woman, but her husband didn't seem to notice it at all.During the last days of the journey, the little brother and the woman stayed in the cabin all day, and they came out only at night.During these days, the little brother looked at his mother and his sister, but he didn't seem to recognize them.Mother became very fierce, she was silent and jealous.And she, little sister, was worried.She felt that this woman was very happy, but at the same time she was worried about the bad luck that would happen to her little brother later.She had thought he would abandon them and go with the woman himself, but no, he was reunited with them on his return to France.

She didn't know how long it took after the white girl left before he carried out his father's will and married the girl whom the family had appointed to marry him ten years ago.This girl is also a rich lady, she is covered in gold and jade, and her head is full of jewels and emeralds.This Chinese girl is originally from Fushun City in the north, and came here with her parents. He must have been unable to get along with her for a long time, unable to sow her the seed to carry on the family.He must still remember the past with the white girl, her body must still be there, lying across the bed.During the day, the girl must still be dominated by his lust for a long time, making her impulsive, affectionate and falling into melancholy.Then the day finally came and everything became possible.Just when his passion for the white girl had grown beyond endurance, in the midst of that frenzy he must have rediscovered the image of the white girl for whom he Desire is combined with another woman.He must have obtained satisfaction from this woman through imagination, and also through imagination to fulfill the mission entrusted to him by family, God, and the ancestors in the north: to carry on the family line.

Perhaps she already knew the existence of the original white girl.She used to use local maids in Sadec, and these maids knew about this history, so they would definitely let her know a little bit.She must be in pain.Both of them were probably the same age, sixteen.Did she see her groom weeping in sorrow on that wedding night in the bridal chamber?And would she go to comfort him?Can a sixteen-year-old girl, a Chinese fiancée in the thirties, decently comfort an adult with the suffering that should be borne by her?Who knows?Maybe she deceived herself, maybe she and him cried loudly, and didn't say a word to each other all night.Later, after crying bitterly, emotion finally replaced sadness.

She, the white girl, never knew anything about these things. How many years have passed since the war, and the former white girl has been married, given birth, married, and written books several times.One day, the former Chinese lover came to Paris with his wife.He hung up on her.it's me.She recognized him immediately at the sound.He said: I just want to hear your voice.She said: It's me, hello.He was a little timid, he was as scared as ever.His voice suddenly trembled, and this tremor made her suddenly discover his Chinese accent.He said he knew she had written a lot of books, and he had heard it from her mother, whom he had seen in Saigon.Then he told her what was in his heart, he said that he still loved her the same as before, that he could never break his love for her, that he would love her to the death.

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