Chapter 189 Chapter 189 leave it now

I explained to it time and time again that my body was trapped in a prison, just like it was once trapped in a cage, and although my heart could walk with it at least for a while, I couldn't really follow it as it urged .Every time it tells me it understands that, I don't understand what it means, so we're back to where we were at the moment. I feel like it's trying to be patient.You must come with me, right now.Drop everything and come with me before they wake you up. There is no way, because my body is locked in a prison. leave it!it said cruelly.let it go! What? Leave it, let it go, come with me.

You mean, dead?Suicide by taking poison? Only when necessary.But act fast now before they hurt you again.Leave it with me, let it go.You did it once, remember? The struggle to understand its words made me aware of our connection.My own tormented limbs haunted me, some stiff and aching from the cold, others throbbing from my ribs with every breath I took.I staggered away from the pain and back into the healthy body of the wolf. Yes, yes, leave it now.Let it go, let it go. I knew immediately what it wanted me to do.I don't quite know how to do it, and I'm not sure if I can do it.At one point, yes, I remember letting my body take care of me and waking up next to Molly hours later, but I'm not sure how I did it, and the circumstances were different.I let the wolf guard me where I was supposed to go, and now it wants me to let my consciousness out of my body and disconnect my body and mind.Even when I discover what to do, I don't know if I have the willpower to act.

Just lie down and die, Burrich told me. Yes, that's right.Die if necessary, and follow me. I made a hasty decision.trust.Trust Burrich, trust Wolf.What have I got to lose? I took a deep breath and steadied myself inwardly, as if diving into icy water. No, no, just let it go.I'm doing it, I'm doing it.I searched in my mind for what bound me to my body, slowed my breath, used willpower to slow my heartbeat, rejected pain, cold and stiffness, and sank deep inside without all of it.No!No!Nighteyes howled.It's me, come to me!Get out of that body and come to me! But I heard footsteps to and fro and murmured voices.A trembling of fear sprang up in my body, allowing myself to shrink deeper into Prondi's cloak, one eye was slightly opened, and I saw the same dark cell and the small iron window.

There was a deep cold pain inside me, a pain more insidious than hunger, and though they didn't break my bones, they shattered something inside of me.I know. You are back in the cage again!Nighteyes called out.leave it!Get out of your body and come to me! It's too late, I said softly.Run, run!Don't share this pain with me. Don't we belong to the same pack of wolves?This despair quivered like the drawn-out howl of a wolf. They came to my door and it just opened.Fear gripped and shook me like a mouth open, and I nearly lifted the cuff to my mouth to bite the little clump of the herb out of it; Determined to forget everything.

It was the same torchbearer, the same two guards, and the same orders. "stand up." I pushed back Prondi's cloak.One of the guards, who still had a shred of humanity, turned pale with fright at the sight of me, the other two were already numb, and when I couldn't move as fast as they wanted, one of them grabbed my arm and yanked it. Pulling me up to stand upright, I couldn't help crying out in pain; even though I couldn't bear it, the reaction made me tremble with fear.If I can't stop myself from shouting, how can I stop the onslaught of will? They took me from the cell to the hallway.I didn't say I went out.All the bruises on my body stiffened at night, and the old sword wounds on my right forearm and thigh were open from the beating, and the pain returned.Pain is like air now, and I move through it, soaking it all in and out of me.In the middle of the guard room, someone pushed me down on my side, and I didn't feel the need to struggle or sit up, because I didn't have to keep my dignity, and it was better for them to think I couldn't stand up.When I can stand up, I stand still and collect what little energy I have left.Slowly and laboriously, I cleared my mind and began to build up my defenses.Over and over again I peered through the mist of pain to see the wall of my Skill mind that I had erected, solidified the wall, and then retreated behind it.I must defend the walls of my heart, not my flesh and blood.In the room, people stood around me along the walls, moving around and talking softly to each other and waiting.I hardly pay attention to them, because my world is the wall of my heart and my pain.

There was a rattling of the open door and a gust of wind.Regal entered, and Desire followed behind him, radiating Skill powers carelessly.I was aware of him as I had never before been so aware of a man, felt his image without seeing him, and the Skill that burned within him.He is dangerous, but Regal sees desire as a tool.I venture to feel a little satisfaction knowing that Regal doesn't understand the dangers of tools like will. Regal sat on a chair, and a small table was brought out for him.I heard the sound of a bottle being poured and then smelled the wine.The pain had turned my senses into an unbearable sharpness, and I just listened to Regal drinking, refusing to admit how much I wanted it.

"My God, look at him. Do you think we've gone too far, Will?" I knew from Regal's excited voice that he hadn't just had a drink today, maybe he had smoked too?So early?Wolf said it was early morning, but Regal never woke up in the early morning... Something is wrong with my sense of time. Will slowly walked towards me and stood in front of me.I didn't try to move so I could see his face, I just clung to what was left of my strength.I gasped as he kicked me hard with his foot, and he slammed into my insides with Skill force almost at the same time.There, I at least steadied myself, and I saw Ryu take a short breath through his nose, snort it out, and walk back to Regal.

"Your Majesty, you have tortured his body to the utmost extent without causing damage that will still be visible a month from now. However, his heart is still strong and resistant. Although the pain can distract his defenses, it cannot Deeply weakens his Skill power. I don't think you can break him in this way." "I didn't tell you to do that, Will!" Regal snapped at him, and I heard him move to sit more comfortably. "Oh, it's such a waste of time. My dukes are getting impatient, and he must be crushed today." He almost anxiously asked Yuyi: "I have used everything, as you just said , torturing his body? So what do you suggest next?