Chapter 156 Chapter 156 I'm Really a Fool

I'm such a fool. I don't think he was stalking you before, but not too sure. Nighteyes, my brother, how can I thank you? Just live.Then there was a pause.Bring me ginger cake. This is what you deserve.I fervently vouch for it. Burrichson's fire was fading away, and I felt the draft of Chade's room blowing into mine before falling asleep.It seemed a relief to get up and go find him. I found him waiting impatiently for me, pacing up and down the small room, and when I stepped out of the landing he jumped at me and grabbed me. "Assassins are tools," he hissed to me. "I don't seem to have given you that. We're just tools, not acting out of our own will."

I stood still, shocked by the anger in his tone. "I didn't kill anyone!" I said indignantly. "Hush! Speak softly. If I were you, I wouldn't be so sure," he replied. "I have performed so many missions, many times I did not do it myself, but let others have sufficient reasons and opportunities to do it for me, right?" I am speechless. He looked at me and sighed, his anger and strength coming out, and he said softly, "Sometimes all you can do is clean up and sometimes we just have to resign ourselves. We don't spin the wheels My boy, what you did tonight was really lacking in thought."

"The Fool and Burrich told me so, and I don't think Kettricken would agree." "Kettricken and her baby will live in her mourning, and Shrewd probably will too. Look at where they are now, a foreign woman, widow of a dead Crown Prince, mother of an unborn child, and a People who will not be able to exercise power for the next few years. Regal saw Shrewd as a helpless old man with a weak mind, a puppet perhaps, but not enough to pose any threat, and Regal had no reason to throw them aside immediately.Oh, I agree that Kettricken is no safer than she used to be, but she's not directly against Regal, that's where she is. "

"She didn't tell him what we found," I said reluctantly. "She couldn't bear to say it, you can see it in her demeanor and her willpower against him. He reduced her to a widow, you restored her to a princess, and it's Shrewd that I'm really worried about. Shrewd is the only one." The only one who can stand up and say, even in a whisper, 'Verity is alive, Regal has no right to be Crown Prince.' He is the one Regal must fear." "I saw Shrewd, Chade, really saw him. I don't think he'd reveal what he knew, and after that dull body, numbed drug addiction, and severe pain, it was still the Cunning man."

"Maybe. But he's buried deep down, and drug addiction and illness can make an otherwise wise man do stupid things. A person dying of injury will risk everything, and illness can make a person desperate, or Stand up for yourself in unusual ways." He really explained it too clearly. "Couldn't you talk to him about not letting Regal know that he knows Verity is alive?" "If that bloody Wallace wasn't in my way, I might try it. It wasn't that bad at first; he was very obedient and useful at first, very easy to maneuver from a distance. He never knew little The herbs that were sold to him came from me, and never doubted my existence. But now he clings to the king like a marshmallow, and not even the jester can keep him away for long. Since then, I often only see Shrewd for a few minutes at a time, and my brother would be lucky if he managed to stay sane for half the meetings."

There was something in his tone that made me bow my head in shame. "I'm sorry," I said quietly, "sometimes I forget he's not just a king to you." "Well, we don't have that close brotherhood, but we're two old people who have grown old together, and sometimes that makes us even closer. We've had the time you've had at your age, and we Talking quietly together, sharing beautiful moments that are gone forever. I can tell you how it feels, but it's not the same as experiencing it in person. It's like two foreigners stuck in a new land and unable to return home , only by confirming to each other that the places we once lived existed, at least we could.”

I think of two kids running around the beach at Buckkeep, eating shellfish from the rocks, Molly and me.Homesickness sometimes arises, and it can be doubly lonely to remember the only person who can recall the past.I nod. "Oh, well, let's think about how to make up for it tonight. Listen now, I must hear your own reply. Promise me that you will not do something that will cause serious consequences without consulting me. Agree ?" I bow my head. "I want to say yes, and I am willing to promise you, but recently even some of my small actions will cause serious consequences like pebbles in a landslide, and then things pile up one by one, so I have to make a decision immediately, there is no chance Talk to anyone. So, I can't promise you, but I promise I'll try it. Is that okay?"

"I guess so! Catalyst," he murmured. "That's what the Fool calls me," I complained. Chade was about to say something, but suddenly stopped. "He really said that?" he asked eagerly. "He never forgets to give me that word every time he sees me." I went to Chade's hearth and sat in front of the fire, and the heat made me feel good. "Burrich says too much elvish bark can have a depressive aftereffect." "You found out?" "True, but it could also be a matter of circumstance. Verity seems to be depressed a lot, though, and he takes it a lot. But as I said, maybe it's just a matter of circumstance."

"Maybe we'll never know." "You speak freely tonight. Not only did you name people, but you also summed up various motives." "Everyone is celebrating in the Great Hall tonight, and Regal is sure he has his prey. He lets down all vigilance, and his spies are allowed to spend the night at ease." He looked at me sourly. "But I believe it won't last long." "So, you think someone might be eavesdropping on our conversation here?" "As long as the situation permits, I can eavesdrop and peep at anytime and anywhere. Similarly, others may eavesdrop and monitor me, but there is only this possibility. However, if a person is lucky, he will not live to my age .”

A distant memory is suddenly filled with meaning. "You once told me you were blind in Queen's Garden and had no influence at all." "Indeed." "So you don't know..." "I don't know what Galen put you through. I've only heard rumors, but they're usually unreliable and far from the truth. But the night you were nearly killed... no Okay." He looked at me with a strange look. "Do you believe that I may have known about it and done nothing about it?" "You promise not to interfere with my studies." I replied stiffly.

Chade sat back in his chair, leaned back and sighed. "I don't think you can trust anyone completely, or trust anyone to care about you. I'm speechless, and I don't know what the answer is. First Burrich, now it's Chade's turn to make me look uncomfortably at myself. "Oh, all right." Chade relented to my silence. "Let's think about what I mentioned at the beginning, the way to fix a dead sheep."