Chapter 68 Chapter 68 Live like that

There was a pause after I knocked on Patience's door. "Who is it?" It was Lacey's voice. "Fitz Horse Rider." "Fitz Horseman!" There was some surprise in her voice, because I usually visit during the day, but today I came late.I was relieved to hear the sound of the strips being removed and the bolts snapping open, and she really listened to my advice to be careful about the door.The door opened slowly, and Leixi stepped back with a puzzled smile to let me in. I entered the door and greeted Lei Xi cordially, and then looked for Patience.I figured she was in another room, and somewhere in this room sat Molly with her eyes downcast, busy sewing, but she didn't look up at me or gesture to me.She fastened her hair in a bun under a small lace hat, and her blue dress might look simple on other women, but it looked monotonous on her.She was still working with her head down and her eyes focused. At this moment, I saw Lei Xi looking at me, and then I looked at Molly, and I couldn't help venting my feelings like a wild horse.It only took me four steps to get across the room to her chair, kneel down, take her hand and kiss it as she flinched.

"Fitz Horseman!" Patience roared angrily behind me.I saw her standing in front of the door with her lips pursed angrily, and I turned away from her. Molly also turned her head away, but I still held her hand and said calmly, "I can't go on like this. No matter how stupid, how dangerous, and no matter what others think, I just can't be separated from you." She pulled her hand back, and I let go because I didn't want to hurt her, but instead grabbed her skirt and squeezed it tightly like a stubborn child. "At least talk to me," I begged her, but Patience answered.

"Fitz Junqi, this is inappropriate. Stop immediately!" "It wasn't sensible or appropriate for my father to pursue you, but he didn't hesitate. He must have felt the same way I feel now." I was still looking at Molly. That earned me Patience's surprised silence.Now Molly put the embroidery aside and got up and walked away, which made me realize that I had to let go or I would tear her dress, so I let her go away from me. "Mrs. Patience, can I go back to my room to rest early tonight?" "Of course." Patience answered her, but her tone was not very sure.

"If you go, I'll have nothing." I knew my tone was too dramatic, and I knelt beside her chair. "Even if I stay, you still have nothing." Molly said flatly, taking off the apron and hanging it on the hook. "I am a maid, and you are a young nobleman of royal birth. There is no future between us. I have seen that in the past few weeks." "No." I got up and walked towards her, but couldn't resist touching her. "You're Molly and I'm new here." "Perhaps it was," admitted Molly first, and then with a sigh, "but not now. Don't make things difficult for me, my lord, and you must let me live in peace. I have no way out, so You must stay and work here, at least until you earn enough..." She shook her head suddenly. "Good night, Ma'am, Lacey and Your Excellency." She turned and walked away.I saw Lacey standing still, and I noticed she didn't open the door for Molly, but Molly didn't stop.After she slammed the door shut, an eerie silence fell over the room.

"Very good," Patience finally breathed out, "I'm glad to see that one of you is reasonable. What are you thinking, Fitz Horse, just barged in like this and only missed attacking me Ladies?" "I think I love her," I confessed, before sinking into my chair and putting my head in my hands. "I just can't bear the loneliness." "That's why you're here?" Patience said, as if offended. "No. I came to see you, and I didn't know she was there. But when I saw her, this overwhelming feeling overwhelmed me. It's true, Patience, I can't do this anymore down."

"I think you'd better stay where you are, because that's what you're supposed to do." It sounded harsh, but she said it with a sigh. "Did Molly say... mentioned me? Did she mention me to you? I must know, please!" I broke the silence and watched them exchange glances. "Does she really want me to leave her alone? Does she hate me so much? Didn't I do what you asked? I did wait, Mrs. Patience, and I avoided her and was careful not to raise the topic, but When is this going to end? Or is that your plan? Separate us until we forget about each other? It won't work. I'm not a child, and she's not a little toy you hid from me, by using another Toys to distract me so I can forget about her. This is Molly, she's my darling, and I won't let her go."

"I'm afraid you must," Patience said gravely. "Why? Did she choose someone else?" Patience shooed my questions away like flies. "No. She's not fickle, she's not that kind of person. She's smart and hardworking, witty and full of life. I can see why you're attached to her, but she still has self-respect and sees through what you refuse to understand Your respective backgrounds are totally different, and even if Shrewd promises your marriage—although I rather doubt he will—how are you going to live? You can't leave the castle to work in a candle shop in Buckkeep, You also know that you can't do this. So, if you keep her here, what kind of status can she enjoy? People who don't know her will not think of her good, they will only see that your class is different. People will only Think of her as a lowly desire to indulge in. 'Oh, the bastard has his eye on his stepmother's maid. I think he caught her in the corner too many times, and now he has to pay the consequences.' You know mine mean."

I know. "I don't care what people say." "Perhaps you can bear it, but what about Molly? And your children?" I fell silent.Patience looked down at her hands in her lap. "You are still young, Fitz Horseman." She comforted me very calmly. "I know you don't believe it now, but you might meet someone of your stature, and she might. Maybe she deserves that chance to be happy, and you might have to give in. Give yourself about In one year, if you still haven't changed your mind, then..." "I will never change my mind." "I'm afraid she is too," Patience said bluntly. "She cares about you, Fitz, and she said she gave you her heart before she fully figured out who you are. I don't want to betray her trust in me, but if you leave like she wants She's far away and she'll never tell you so I'm speaking out and I hope you don't mind the pain this has caused you. She knows it's impossible and doesn't want to be married to a nobleman I don’t want her children to be the children of castle servants, so she saves the meager salary I can pay her bit by bit to buy wax and essence, and at the same time continue the original business as much as possible. If one day When she has saved enough money, she will reopen a candle shop, although it is impossible in the short term, but this is her goal anyway." Patience paused for a while, "She doesn't see that you can live that kind of life."