Chapter 50 Section 50 is worse than expected

"She smiled almost shyly." She knew that I didn't like to be close to people, so sometimes she summoned me to her garden alone to be with her, and we didn't talk much, just turning the soil quietly in the sun.This is one of my fondest memories of Buckkeep. "Then, she suddenly raised her head and looked at me." I was just a little girl, and your father was a boy, and we hadn't met each other yet.Although my parents knew I didn't enjoy the minutiae of court life, they still took me to Buckkeep on the way from time to time.Jianzhen is such an unusual woman to notice and spend time with me as a mediocre and quiet girl.But, that's who she is.Buckkeep could be said to be in good times and the country was safe and peaceful at that time, which was very different from the situation now, and life in the court was more pleasant then.But then Jianzhen passed away, and her little baby girl died with her because of the high fever that persisted after birth.Shrewd will remarry after a few years, and then..." She paused and sighed, then tapped the fireplace next to her with her tightly pressed lips.

"Come and sit here, we have to talk about something." Following her instructions, I also sat down on the stone platform by the fireplace.I had never seen Patience so serious and focused, and the whole situation made me feel that something was wrong.It was nothing like her usual hyperactive chatter, and it almost freaked me out.She leaned in as I sat down, and I moved forward so quickly that I was almost on her knees.She leaned forward and whispered: "Some things are best kept private, but we have to discuss them sometimes. Fitz Junqi, my dear, don't think I have bad intentions, but I must warn you, your emperor The way Uncle Zun treats you may be worse than imagined."

I couldn't help laughing. Patience was immediately annoyed. "You must pay attention!" she whispered with more urgency. "Oh, I know he is always richly dressed, charming and witty. I also know he is flattering, and all the young ladies at court I was fascinated by him, and all the young men imitated his dress and manner. However, under his bright appearance, there was a strong ambition, suspicious and jealous. I never told you before But he's the exact opposite of what I've brought you up to be, and he's envious of you learning the Skills. I sometimes think it's fine if you fail in the Skills, and if you succeed, he'll let his jealousy out. To the limit." She paused, saw me listening seriously, and continued: "The situation is turbulent, Fitz. Not only the red ships continue to invade our coastal areas, even people like you... like you You should also be more careful with those who are in your family. Although some people are always pleasant in front of you, they may be your enemies. When your father was still alive, we are confident that his influence is enough to keep you safe, but in... After he passed, I learned that as you progress into adulthood, the risks you take increase every day. So I forced myself to go back to the court as much as I could to see if there was a need for me, and I found that you did , is also worthy of my assistance, so I vowed to do my best to educate and protect you." She showed a satisfied smile.

"I can say that I have taken good care of you so far, but..." She leaned closer, "But sometimes even I can't protect you, so you have to take care of yourself, and you must review and rehearse Haode taught you the skills. Also, you must be cautious when eating and drinking, and you must be more vigilant in places that are inaccessible. I am not scaring you, Fitz Horseman, now that you are an adult, you must start thinking about these things." It's ridiculous.Almost a farce.I have had to survive the brutal reality since I was six years old, but how can this lady, who is protected like a hermit, describe the danger I am facing so frankly at this moment?Tears filled the corners of my eyes.I've never understood why Patience returned to Buckkeep, living a hermit's life in a society for which she apparently cared little.Now I understand.She came here to protect me for me.

Burrich was protecting me, and so was Chade, and even Verity was protecting me in his own way, including Shrewd, who had long thought of me as his own.But they benefit in some way from my survival.In the case of Burrich, if I were murdered under his protection, it would be demeaning to him.But Patience is different, only this lady who should hate me the most in the whole world came here just to protect me for no other reason.She can be really goofy and nosy and annoying at times, but the last wall between me and her crumbles the moment we look at each other.I once deeply doubted whether her appearance could prevent bad luck from befalling me. Seriously, her interest in me reminded Regal whose son I am.But it wasn't her actions that moved me, but her motives.She had left her quiet life, its beautiful orchards and garden trees, to watch over her husband's illegitimate child in the midst of her indifferent court crowd at this damp stone castle on a coastal cliff.

"Thank you." I said sincerely and calmly. "Well," she turned away quickly, "well, you're welcome, you know." "I know, but to be honest, I came here this morning to warn you and Lacey to be careful. It's a mess here, and someone might see you as a... obstacle." Patience laughed out loud. "Me! Me? Weird lazy stupid old Patience? Patience who forgets what's in his head after ten minutes? Patience who's gone mad because her husband died? Boy, I know what people say about me , but everyone thinks I'm not a threat to anyone. I'm just another fool at the court, so I assure you, I'm not in any danger. But, even if I would Worries about things, the habits I have developed all my life can also protect me. What's more, I have Leixi by my side!"

"Lexi?" My tone revealed the surprise that I couldn't hide, and I laughed after a while, then turned my head and winked at Leixi, but she felt that my smile offended her and glared at me angrily.Before I could get up from the fireplace, Lexi jumped up from the rocking chair, pulled out the long needle from the pile of wool and poked my carotid artery, and the other needle poked the space between my ribs directly facing the heart.I was so scared that I almost wet my pants, I looked up at the lady I barely recognized, not daring to make a sound. "Just stop teasing the child," Patience reprimanded her gently. "Yes, Fitz, that's Lacey. Even though she didn't take Haode as her teacher until she became an adult, she is the most proud student of Haode!" Leixi took the weapon in her hand from me when Patience spoke. Moved away, returned to her seat and expertly threaded the needle again, continuing her work, and I swear she never missed a stitch.When she was done, she lifted her head and gave me a wink, then resumed knitting, and I was able to catch my breath again.

So I, the punished assassin, left their residence later.As I walked the corridors, I couldn't help but think of Chade warning me not to underestimate Lacey, and I scrunched up my face and wondered if this was his way of delivering humor, or if he was asking me to respect someone who seemed kind.