Chapter 4 Chapter Four

Minako walked into the kitchen and poured out a second cup of coffee for her husband, but her hands were shaking for a long time. When she returned to the corridor, Konnosuke said, "It seems that mountaineering in winter is dangerous." Minazi changed the topic: "It's the same with this small cup." She was chatting about coffee cups with her husband, but she was anxious to get away from her husband and go somewhere where no one was around.She was not lying when she said two or three minutes ago that she didn't like Osaka Otohiko and felt disgusted.But after knowing that the other party was killed, he couldn't calm down.In the past, he had a cold attitude towards Kosaka, but now that something like this happened, he couldn't help but feel guilty and feel sorry for Kosaka.

"Your face is pale," Konnosuke said. In fact, Minako has already felt it.The first sign of anemia-a unique feeling of passing out of a coma was coming to her. Minako felt that her husband was moving more slowly than usual.Konosuke usually stood up after drinking coffee, as if it was a pity to take an extra minute.Today is very slow. "Is there a cream pie or something sweet?" "Unfortunately, there is no more. There was yokan, but I ate it last night." "Where's the fruit?" "If you want apples, there are." "Okay, just give me the apple."

Minazi thought: What's the matter with him today? Usually, he was afraid of eating cold apples and his teeth would become sore, so he didn't want to eat them.Minako ordered the maid to grind the apples into jam and bring them to Ginnosuke, and went to get the other two newspapers by herself, and started to read them in the kitchen.The news of the death was also posted on the social page, with similar font size and similar content.The difference is that both newspapers are sure that Osaka Otohiko is dead, and believe that the search will be suspended within one or two days, and can not be resumed until May.

"Sir is going out." Minazi heard the voice and looked away from the newspaper: "Have you changed your clothes?" "It's changed." "Where's the car?" "Just came." "Really, I don't know yet." Minako walked to the front door, where Konnosuke was putting on his boots.His cat bent forward and leaned forward, like an old man.Minako often feels that her husband is getting old for a moment. Minazi sent her husband away, stood at the door for a while, and suddenly remembered what her husband said.A wave of anger rushed to my heart.

If I had special feelings for Otohiko Kosaka, my husband would have tried to keep the news of the death from the newspapers from me, maybe to avoid panic when I saw me lose my mind, or maybe to protect me from falling into that kind of situation. state. For whatever reason, it is the special feeling of a husband who marries a young wife of a great disparity in age. Not wanting to see his wife's panicked embarrassment is out of egotistical cruelty; being considerate of his wife and not letting his wife expose her embarrassment in front of him is a cowardly attitude towards a young wife.Minako suddenly felt that such a husband was disgusting.

Under the reaction of this feeling, she couldn't help but think of Osaka Otohiko's body who hugged her so tightly that she couldn't breathe.Now this young body is lying in the crevice of the rock, letting the wind blow and the snow blow.Thinking of this, Mina shuddered. Minako dialed the dial to call Kosaka's company. At this moment, her face was full of the serious expression of a woman who was worried about her lover's death. The phone line of Xiaosaka's unit "Denggao Publishing House" was always busy, and Minako called every once in a while, and several times.The phone finally got through, and a male employee's indifferent voice came.Minako asked him:

"I just saw the news of Mr. Kosaka's death in the newspaper. Can you tell me more about the situation?" The other party did not answer directly, but instead asked, "Who are you?" "I'm an acquaintance of Mr. Kosaka." "Is it a relative?" "It's not a relative, but it's about the same as a relative." The other party changed his tone and said: "We also only received a telegram saying that he was killed. There is no other news. We are still asking the newspaper ourselves." Probably because of Kosaka's affairs, the work unit was also very busy, and the other party hung up the phone immediately.She was momentarily at a loss.

Minazi had no choice but wanted to ask the newspaper office, so he called the B newspaper office, but he didn't know which department to contact, so he told the operator about the situation. After waiting for a while, a reporter from the social department came to answer the phone. "Well, I don't know." The tone seemed impatient.The voice sounded like a young reporter, "Please wait, I'll transfer you to another department." A reporter from the local department came to answer the phone.After Minazi asked, the answer was the same as before: "Well, I don't know." Then he added the same sentence, "Please wait."

Another reporter changed, and his voice sounded older than the previous one: "The news we got is only what was published in the newspaper. Are you his relative?" "Hey." Minako replied. The anxiety is understandable. "Mountain climbing in winter is dangerous. I'll let you know when I have new news." Then he asked for Minako's phone number. After Minako gave the number to the other party, she hung up the phone.Then she suddenly remembered that Osaka Otohiko had a younger sister, and the two lived together.She dialed the phone number of Kosaka's unit again and asked for his address.

When Minako called Kosaka's work unit for the second time, she was surprised for the first time that she didn't know anything about Kosaka Otohiko's situation.She only knew that he lived in Sandian, and this was known from his letters. As for where in Sandian he lived, she had no way of knowing, because all the letters had been returned.Also, she had learned that he lived with a working sister, but she had never met this sister, nor had she thought about how the siblings lived. Thinking of her usual indifference to Kosaka Otohiko, she couldn't help but feel sad for it now. The person who answered the phone this time was not the person just now, but another staff member.When Minako asked Kosaka's address, the other party told her kindly: "Go up the slope next to the Sanda Police Station, go to the top of the slope, and then turn left at the place where you want to go down the slope. You can see a police station called 'Harada ', the big house. The houses in that area are all big, and there is a nameplate of Kosaka hanging on the door of Yuan’s house, so you can tell it at a glance.”

"I remember he lived with his sister, didn't he?" "Yes! His sister just came to the company." Minako put the microphone on and thought to herself; anyway, go to Kosaka's house to see, maybe his family has got some news. Minako got ready to go out and walked out of the house at ten o'clock. She first took the tram to Meguro Station, and because she didn't know where she was going, she hailed a taxi there.The temperature has started to drop since yesterday, the sky is full of clouds, and it is about to snow.The streets are still decorated for the New Year, and there are pines and bamboos erected in front of the shops, and there seem to be fewer pedestrians. Turning in from the side of the Sandian Police Station, there is indeed a rather steep ramp, and on the right there are two or three embassy-like large bungalows, covering a large area.On the left, there are two or three houses with gorgeous facades facing it, and it is impossible to tell whether it is a residence or a restaurant. After walking the ramp and turning left, Minako told the driver to look for the reason's house. Stopping the car, I saw a slightly smaller nameplate with Kosaka's name on it next to the nameplate that said "reason".This famous brand is commensurate with the status of renting a wing room. Minazi sent the car back.The gate with the number plate is quite old, but the yard is very spacious.Walking through the wall door, you can see the main entrance of the main room.The main house is also very dated.After ringing the bell, a young woman who looked like a maid appeared.After she pointed out, I knew that there was an independent house in the right hand turn, and that was Kosaka's house. According to the instructions, I turned around the house and saw two houses, big and small, which probably used to be the janitor's residence.At this time, a twenty-two or three-year-old girl in a yellow sweater and black trousers came out of the house dragging Mu Zhan. The girl noticed someone walking towards her, so she stopped and waited for Mina to approach. "Are you Mr. Kosaka's sister?" Minako asked. "Yes." The other party hesitated for a moment, his eyes flashed, and then he asked, "Are you Miss Yatsushiro?" The tone contains the meaning of "can't be wrong".Mei Nazi didn't expect that the other party would recognize her, especially the face that was blushing towards her was so beautiful, which made her stunned.The girl's gazing eyes look so much like Kosaka! "Yes, I am Yatsushiro. What happened to your brother is really disturbing..." Minako said. "So far, I have only received one telegram. It only said that I was killed, but I don't know the details. I guess my brother is hopeless, and I have made mental preparations." The girl said, "Please enter the house. If there is a call, I will Go and be right back." Then he greeted again and said, "It's a small place, don't dislike it, please come in and sit." Seeing her repeated invitations, Minazi had no choice but to say: "Then I'm sorry, I'm sorry to bother you." Sister Kosaka immediately walked quickly to the main room after hearing this.Minako entered the house through the small front door.I saw a low-legged table facing the corridor, which seemed to belong to Kosaka.Next to it is a large bookshelf that reaches to the ceiling, which is too large for the room.Nothing else, clean.There was another room next door, which was probably his sister's room, which doubled as a living room. About five minutes later, sister Kosaka came back, her face still so rosy.She sat down opposite Minako and said, "I'm worrying you. It is said that the company has just received a telegram. It's still the same, just saying that it is searching. I heard that the company will send two people today, so I really want to follow." "What time do you leave?" "Take the express train at twelve twenty-five." "Then, time is running out." The hour hand of the watch pointed to a place just before eleven o'clock.Minako wanted to stand up, "I won't bother you anymore." "No, please sit down for a while. I don't need to make any preparations. I went to Sunshine Mountain for skiing at the end of the year, and I just came back yesterday. I haven't even untied my rucksack. Just put two or three more changes of clothes in it. .I'm going to make tea right now." She went into the back room.After a while, she brought out two bowls of tea and placed them together with the tray between them.Then he said: "My brother once wrote stories in a magazine about a group of outstanding mountain climbers who died on the mountain. Most of them were foreigners, and a few were Japanese. I didn't expect my brother to join them this time." Minazi kept looking at her slightly tense cheeks, thinking: the death of her brother must have made this girl's face stiff. If it was normal, it would be much softer. "However, Mr. Kosaka..." Minako hesitated to speak.She originally wanted to say "Mr. Kosaka's life or death is still uncertain", but suddenly felt that the words were very empty, so she quickly swallowed them and asked instead. "Have you heard your brother speak of me?" "I don't know Ms. Yatsushiro. Once I saw my brother write this on the envelope, so I remember your name." Having said that, the other party blushed. Speaking of later, Minako decided to go out with sister Kosaka.Minako sat alone in Kosaka's room while she went in to get ready.There was no fire in the house, it was cold. "I kept you waiting for a long time." From her preparation to now, it only took five minutes, ten minutes at most.Minazi thought, if it was her own, it would take at least thirty minutes to prepare before going out.She is really a moment. The two went out.Kosaka's younger sister closed the door and said hello to the landlord. When she came back, she picked up the backpack on the concrete floor in front of the door and said, "Okay, you can go." The two walked to the main road, and a taxi came by. car.Minako told the driver, "Go to Shinjuku Station." "I can get off anywhere." Kosaka's sister said. "I'll take you to Shinjuku." "That……" "It's okay, I have nothing else to do." Minako is going to send Kosaka's sister to the station.When she didn't meet Kosaka's sister, she didn't think so. After meeting, for some reason, she felt that there was no hope of getting good news from Kosaka. And thinking about it carefully, the accident happened on the morning of the 2nd, and today is the 5th, three days have passed, but according to the news just received by Kosaka's company, Kosaka has not been rescued yet. Minako swayed with the car.At this time, the figure of Kosaka lying in the crevice of the rock and covered by a thin layer of snow reappeared in her mind. "If I could climb mountains, I'd like to go too, but..." Minazi said suddenly. Kosaka's younger sister believed it and said: "Oh, I should have invited you to go together. Although I can ski, I haven't climbed the mountain in winter. At best, I can only stay far away in some village at the bottom of the mountain, but that is also good. How happy my brother would be if you could go together." Minazi hurriedly said, "But no, I have a family." "Do you have a home?" Kosaka's younger sister asked reflexively.It took a while to understand Minazi's meaning, and he said in a panic, "Oh, what should I do?" Then he stopped talking.When approaching Shinjuku Station, the girl said seriously, "I'll report to you as soon as I get back. Can you give me a business card?" Minako didn't bring a business card, so she dictated her address and phone number and asked Kosaka's sister to write it down. When we got off at Shinjuku Station, Kosaka's younger sister told her not to give it away, but Minako still bought a platform ticket and sent her to the platform. .They went past the ticket gate, down the stairs, and onto the platform where the Matsumoto train was parked.There are many passengers on the platform.After a while, Kosaka's younger sister raised her right hand high, and Minako couldn't tell who she was saying hello to for a moment. Minako followed Kosaka's younger sister through the crowd and approached. It turned out that they were two young people from the company. They were standing by the window of the train in mountaineering suits. "I'm so sorry. I'm tired of being so busy..." Kosaka's sister bowed to them. The taller youth said: "I think Kosaka will be fine if he meets such a person." "Could they have dug a snow hole and squatted in it?" Another youth said. Minako stood behind, feeling that their words were empty. "It is said that the climbing rope broke, and the person fell." Sister Kosaka's tone was calmer than theirs, and she said it with certainty. "It's hard to imagine that the climbing rope will break." The tall man said. "Did you find a seat?" Minako looked into the carriage and asked. "No. It's full. When I get to Kofu, I think there will be a way. There's already a seat on the luggage rack," said another. There were a few young people in mountaineering suits on the platform, some of whom were holding mountaineering gear.For the first time in her life, Minako looked at the young people who were going to climb mountains in winter with some kind of concern. Kosaka's younger sister walked into the carriage, put her luggage on the luggage rack, walked to the platform, and once again thanked Minako who came to see her off. The car bell rang.Kosaka's younger sister stood at the entrance of the carriage and turned her slightly pale face to Minako, with a slight smile on her cheek.After the train started, Kosaka's younger sister waved her hand for a while.When Minako was alone on the platform, she felt tired. On the day of Kosaka's accident, Uojin dragged his exhausted body back to the Deze Inn at ten o'clock.At that time, six members of the mountain department of M University also stayed there. Five students and S who guarded the inn formed a search team of six people, and then set off from the Deze inn at two o'clock in the morning on the third day.It took less than four hours from Yujin back to Deze Inn to their departure.In order to report the death, another student broke up with the search party in front of the inn and walked towards the upper plateau. After the search team set off, Uojin slept until noon.In the afternoon, he lay under the quilt with his eyes open. From time to time, Uojin crawled out of the quilt, walked to the place where there was a stove, and looked outside through the glass window on the door.The usually blue sky was now covered with feather-light snow. Uojin sometimes looked at his watch, wondering where the search team was at this time.He had studied the search party's plan of action with the students beforehand. Uojin thought that he had already passed the second rock platform, and there was no need to look for it again.The first rock platform should also be excluded, because it is very narrow. It is not so much a rock platform as it is a strip of land separating walls B and C. It is unlikely that Kosaka's body will fall there. So the first thing to look for should be at the foot of the C wall.The search team should walk along the shallow valley B to the foot of the C wall, concentrate the main force of the search in that area, and then return to the valley with the white peak behind.In the past, when Matsuko's students were killed in the V-shaped snow valley, they slipped to this valley and landed near Wufeng.If Kosaka slipped here, he might also land in the Wufeng area.So the search team should also focus on that. The above is the plan that Uozu discussed with the students. On the third day, Yujin felt that night fell very quickly.Especially in the short afternoon, as soon as the sun sets, the silent white world around the inn is shrouded in night. At eight o'clock in the evening, members of the search team entered Uozu's fire-warming room one by one, all covered in snow, and no one spoke. When the sixth person entered the room and closed the door behind him, Yujin said with a heavy and desperate heart, "It's bitter!" "No results," said one of them. "It's hard work!" "We're always looking for it," said another. "Thank you!" Yujin repeated the same words. About an hour after the six-member search team returned empty-handed, a seven-member climbing team suddenly broke in.This is the first member of the mountain club who arrived at the winter hut of the Kamikochi Hotel this afternoon. They were originally scheduled to climb Kitaho Peak and planned to leave for Yokoo tomorrow morning.After hearing the news of the death, he changed his plan and immediately formed a search team to come here. Among the team, the youngest was eighteen or nineteen years old, and the oldest was in his thirties. The team from Kamikochi became the second search team, which also set off from the Deze Inn at two o'clock in the middle of the night. Four days.It has been snowing since morning.The students who were tired all day yesterday called to sleep until noon.Only Yujin was awake in the morning.He lit the stove and cooked for the students.And like yesterday, I often stood by the door and looked out. It was snowing non-stop, and unlike yesterday, it was heavy snow, and it never stopped for a moment.By noon it was even more violent. "It's going to snow heavily." A student woke up and said.Indeed, this method of dismounting is the harbinger before the heavy snow. At three o'clock, the second search team that set off in the middle of the night finally failed to find Xiao Jun, and withdrew empty-handed.There is said to be a danger of an avalanche and the search cannot be continued. The next day was the fifth day, and the snow still didn't stop.Had to stop searching, nothing to do.The young mountain climbers crowded into the small room in disorder. Uozu tried his best not to think about Kosaka.Just thinking of Kosaka makes me go crazy.Kosaka was lying on his back (Uozu always felt that way), and the snow on his body must have been a foot or two thick——Uozu thought so. Uozu sat around the fire with the others.He was silent, and others avoided talking to him.Because they know very well that no words can comfort a mountaineer who has lost a friend. Although Yujin was silent, his eyes, ears and mouth were very active.The eyes are fixed on Kosaka's face; the ears are listening to Kosaka's voice; the mouth is constantly chatting with Kosaka... "...I shouldn't have swapped with you that day, I should have taken the lead. Kosaka! Why did you propose to switch positions with me? If you didn't switch, this kind of accident would not have happened. I was trapped in the crack of the wall A that day It was really uncomfortable when the wind and snow hit your face, it was really cold! At that time you struck a match, the bag tent suddenly lit up, and it went dark again after a while. At that time, Kosaka, you said I made that unlucky remark—I'll take the lead tomorrow." Uozu also said: "... Kosaka! Remember you like Dubra's poems, don't you? When you're drunk, you like to recite Dubra's poem Poetry - "If there is such a day." "Kosaka! I will pick up your climbing pick as Dubra expects - so as not to die in disgrace. I will take your climbing pick to the small rock crevice where we once camped. Build a cairn there and plug it in" For Kosaka, Uozu really wanted to do this.Tears often soaked Yujin's cheeks, but he didn't feel it at all.He had no time to notice it.Uozu remained motionless and kept talking to Kosaka—— Kosaka!you... Even so, at night, Yujin was able to fall asleep early.I kept talking to Kosaka during the day, and I got tired of talking. On the sixth day, the snow was still falling.Since the search had to be stopped, there was no need for the students of M University and the members of the First Mountain Club to stay here, but it was impossible to proceed to the next step in such a heavy snow day.When the weather turns fine, the two teams want to set off to climb the original destinations——Beishui Peak and Housui Peak according to their respective plans. On the evening of the 6th, two more people came to this crowded inn.They were all like snowmen. After entering the door, they asked in unison: "How is Xiaosaka? Where is Brother Xiaosaka?" They are young employees of the company where Xiaosaka works. On the seventh day, the snow still did not stop. The students of M University and the members of the First Mountain Club naturally discussed and decided to set off at ten o'clock that day and march to the Yokoo Hut through the snow.The students want to climb the Hoho peak, and the first mountain meeting has to climb the North spike peak. Although the destinations are different, it is not interesting to wait for the snow to stop here. It is better to advance to the Yokoo hut first. The thirteen young people put on their skis and donated their rucksacks, and after saying a few words of comfort to Yujin, they set off from the Deze Inn.Yujin stood at the door watching them, and saw them turning right not far from the inn and entering the woods. Their lively and hearty speeches echoed all the time, and after a while, they disappeared into the woods one by one.Only tiny snow flakes kept flying. On this day, Yujin still guarded the suddenly deserted inn all day long, sitting by the stove in silence.Today I went to talk to Kosaka Otohiko like yesterday, but my mood was more uncomfortable than yesterday. From time to time, Uozu heard the low-pitched conversations between S, who was in charge of the inn, and two young men from the company where Kosaka worked.In this inn, the death of Kosaka seems to have become a taboo topic, and the conversation does not involve Kosaka.It wasn't until this evening that things about Kosaka became their topic of conversation. "No matter what, as soon as the weather clears tomorrow, let's look for it again." The person who said this was a young man in his twenties, named Zhisong. "Look carefully in Benguzai." The young man who answered was named Miya Chuan, who was about the same age as Ji Song.After all, these two people worked in a publishing house that specialized in mountaineering, so they seemed to have considerable experience in mountaineering. Yujin, who had been silent all this time, heard what they said, and said, "I'm going too. But I don't know if the weather will be reliable." "I think it might turn sunny. Look at the bright spots in the sky." Miyagawa continued to ask: "The weather may be fine, but what matters is Mr. Uozu, can you do it?" At this time, the inn keeper S who was cooking stopped and said, "Whether the snow doesn't stop, you go to the valley area! There will be an avalanche when you get there!" His tone was a bit harsh. Uozu was also aware of the danger of an avalanche, but he couldn't bear to go back like this without looking for Kosaka. "Perhaps there will be some danger..." Zhisong said. S hurriedly said, "It's not dangerous, you can just ask anyone!" "Don't worry, I'll go too," Yujin said. "No! No, no!" S said.He couldn't listen to Yujin's words at all. S is a man with an unattractive appearance, slow movements, and a kind person, but at this moment he speaks impolitely.The two young people were at a loss between Uojin and S. S said again: "Mr. Uozu is a person who is not reckless, what happened... This is not good! I can understand the mood, but it is not good to do so!" Zhisong then said: "Forget it, Mr. Yujin. It's my fault, I shouldn't say this. I'm afraid brother Kosaka will be unhappy too. Forget it, let's quit." "Yes! That's right." S suppressed their thoughts.Yujin remained silent, his eyes fixed on the fire. If I stop searching now, then Kosaka's body will lie in the snow until spring, and no one will bother. Covered with three or four feet of snow, how heavy it would be!Yujin suddenly felt the weight on him, so he raised his face. S' eyes met Uozu's eyes, and he stared into Uozu's eyes and said: "Don't worry, Xiaosaka's body, I will stay here until spring. You might as well go down the mountain early to comfort Xiaosaka's family." S's simple language eliminated the knot in Yujin's heart that he had been unable to untangle. "Okay, Kosaka will be handed over to you. We will go down the mountain tomorrow." Uozu said. When I got up the next day, the snow had completely stopped.When I walked out of the inn, I saw that the inn, the square, and the woods were all covered in silver.There is no sun, but the sky is bright.Yujin and the two youths decided to leave the Deze Inn in the morning. The four of them, including S, had a good breakfast by the stove, smoked a cigarette, and Uozu began to prepare for departure.With the rope of the rucksack tied in his hand, he was estimating in his heart: once he walked out of this inn, he would be overwhelmed by an irresistible sense of loneliness. After saying goodbye to S who will spend the winter here with the two young men, he left the Deze Inn.It is already ten o'clock.Walking to the end of the square in front of the inn, Uozu looked back. S was still standing at the door of the inn watching them.After Uozu raised his hand to signal S, he turned around and gradually disappeared from S's field of vision. When he estimated that S would never see his figure again, he stopped suddenly and looked up at Qiansui Peak. Although there was no sunlight, the snow-covered mountain seemed to stand beside him, within reach.The snow on the east slope seems to have peeled off, revealing a small piece of black. Uozu knew that he would not be able to see the peak of Maeho in a while.Thinking of this, he couldn't part with him, and couldn't leave him no matter what. "Yu-Jin-Mr.-Sheng-" came Zhisong's call. "Ah—" Yujin responded, but still stood still.Zhisong probably turned back because he was worried about Yujin, and Zhisong appeared in front of him after a while. Uozu had no choice but to slide on the snow.Kosaka!I'll go back first, and I'll be back soon! After that, he rode straight forward on the skis, and soon caught up with two young men, and the three of them took a short rest on the spot.The Azusa River has frozen over.Several peaks in the Myojin Mountains on the opposite bank showed a jagged stern posture.Kosaka's dormant Maehogamine had disappeared from Uozu's sight. At half past twelve, the three arrived at the winter cabin of the hotel.I would first like to thank T at the hotel for taking care of me, and ask him to call Matsumoto and ask a car to wait at Sawatari.So left there. It was nearly six o'clock in the evening when Uozu and his party arrived at Sawatari.The whole village was covered in silver and silent.Although it was night, the snow-covered road surface was brightly visible, and there was a trail stepped by villagers in the middle. Yujin arrived at Xigangdian one step later than the two youths.From a distance, I saw a figure standing at the door with the electric light behind.When Uojin took off his skis, the person who might have come out to pick him up just looked down at him silently. At first, Yujin thought that the other party was a girl from the village. When he entered the shop and smelled a scent, he realized that it was Kosaka's younger sister.He had heard two young men say that Xiaosaka's younger sister, Axin, was waiting in Zedu, but he was still taken aback, as if he only knew it at this time. Facing Kosaka's younger sister, Uozu couldn't speak for a while, and didn't know where to start talking about Kosaka's death.Uojin felt that the other person's face was looking towards him and looking into his eyes.The electric light in the store illuminates the half of the other's lids.The two stood facing each other for a moment.Yujin felt that the other party suddenly moved two or three steps closer to him.Ah Xin raised her two palms, covered her chest, and rushed towards him.Yujin quickly supported her body and said, "Please forgive me!" The words came out naturally.Ah Xin pressed her cheek tightly against Yujin's snow-soaked chest, sobbing. "Seeing that I was tired, he led the way instead of me." "..." "That's going to be bad." "..." "Just about ten meters away from climbing the rock wall..." Every time Yujin said something, the other party pressed his face closer to Yujin's chest. "I..." After a while, the tabloid sister said, "Let me cry now, just this once, and I will never cry again in the future." Saying, 'weeping again as if approved , the slender and strong body like an antelope trembled.Yujin lets her do whatever she likes. At this time, the hostess of the Xigang store poked her head out and said, "If you say anything, you have to enter the room." Hearing this voice, Ah Xin moved away from Yujin's chest, took two or three steps back, and stood facing Yujin again as before. "Please forgive me, I caused your brother to do such a big thing!" When Yujin said this again, the other party shook his head slowly, just like when a child expresses his reluctance, his gaze is still fixed on Yujin's eyes , and then wiped away the tears with his hands. "Brother must be very happy when he is with you. Thank you for taking care of me. I would like to thank you for my brother." Her tone was quite calm, not as if she had just cried. Uozu walked into the shop. "What a disaster," said the shopkeeper. "I was drinking tea here a few days ago..." Uozu and the others ate dinner by the stove in the upper room of the store.It had been several days since Uozu had such a decent dinner. Before dinner was finished, the car from Matsumoto arrived.This is the car that Kamikochi Hotel T called.The young driver also walked into the inn and ate noodle soup. "The snow on the road is very thick, and we are walking at night. There must be room for time." Hearing what the driver said, Uozu and the others decided to set off immediately.From here, there is no need to ski or walk.Uojin changed his clothes and finally straightened his rucksack.He thought while he was arranging: If he is still here, now is the time to finish the work and feel very comfortable.But right now, I am extremely tired, and after the accident, I left my best friend in the snow mountain and returned alone.An indescribable, undispellable mood haunted him.He has been climbing mountains since he was in middle school, and in the past ten years, he has never been as depressed and lonely as he is now when he comes back. After Yujin finished his preparations, he walked out of the store and thought: I will be alone next time.Who else can I go with?If Kosaka is still alive, I will be able to climb the mountain with him for a long time to come. Now that I have lost Kosaka, I can only come here by myself in the future. Yujin stood on the snowy road, for some reason, he really didn't want to get in the car.Not long after he left the Deze Inn during the day, when the former spike peak was about to disappear from his eyes, he felt unbearable pain and refused to leave.Now he had the same emotion again. The driver bent over the road to check the snow chains wrapped around the tires.Uojin strolled uphill on the snowy road.He bowed his head in thought: Ah, I really don’t want to leave here. I’m going to a place where there is no snow. On the long road there, there is not even a single piece of snow. This incident has nothing to do with people. "Mr. Uozu, are you still in the car?" Yujin turned his head and saw Ah Xin standing there and said, "However, you can wait a little longer." Yujin doubted his ears.But Ah Xin did say so.Yujin couldn't help staring at the other party.Of course, Xueguang alone can't see the other person's expression clearly, but Yujin's eyes are still fixed on the other person's face, thinking that she knows that I don't want to leave here now, she sees my mood, and is caring for me .After a while, Yujin said, "Get in the car." He followed Ah Xin towards the car, and the snow on his pants did not fall off. The car drove slowly on the snowy night road.The wheels often slipped, and whenever this happened, the car backed up a little, then sped up slightly, taking advantage of the situation to rush over. Uozu sat by the left window facing the cliff, and the Azusa River flows below the cliff.Kosaka's younger sister is sitting in the middle, and Zhisong is on the right.Yi Chuan sat next to the driver.For a long time, no one spoke.Everyone felt uncomfortable leaving Kosaka Otohiko on the mountain and stepping away step by step. I don't know if it's because of the snow or the rising moon, but the scenery is hazy outside the window.Uozu looks out through the glass window from time to time, and every time there is something that brings back memories of Kosaka.Kosaka's side profile lighting a cigarette, his back moving silently, and his slender body bent over to tie his shoelaces can appear anytime and anywhere. Kosaka is there!Kosaka is everywhere!Yujin cried out in his heart.The sight of Kosaka made him sad, and he resolved not to look out the window any more. "I see you are tired." Ah Xin said. "No, I'm not very tired anymore." "But you keep lighting your cigarette!" "Really?" he thought, maybe so.It must have been subconsciously lit a cigarette.Yes, perhaps tired. The detached house of Qianchuandu was buried in the deep snow.The car drove along the road at the foot of the mountain.After a while, we passed Nachuandu Village and drove into Daohe Village. This long village was also soundlessly sleeping in the snow.When driving past Kamijo Shin's house, Uozu really wanted to call him, but finally he didn't.He worried that talking to Kamijou would cause the wound in his chest to open up again. Entering Shimashima Village, Uozu got off the car in front of the police station, walked into the police station alone, and officially reported the accident of Kosaka's death. After passing Dadao Station, the road is flat.Kosaka's resting Maeho Gaofeng has been left far behind.现在是夜里，看不见，即使在白天，恐怕也只能看到它在积雪的群山中远远露出的那一部分。 “哥哥去世，最伤心的是我母亲，其次是鱼津先生，第三个是我。一定是的。”阿馨说。 当汽车前方出现松本市的灯光时，鱼津突然感到胸口闷热。那里有许多打，无数的城市灯光聚在一起闪烁着！它们和雪、山、岩壁都没有关系。 不一会儿，汽车驶人松本市，穿过闹市到达火车站。枝松和宫川先下车，接着是阿馨，鱼津最后下车，踏上没有雪的地面。候车室里已等着一大群人。他们四个人把行李放在一个角落里。枝松去买四个人的车票，而阿馨快步追上去，她可能是要抢先买票。 鱼津看看车站里的钟，知道离开车时间还有三十多分钟，便请宫州看管行李，自己穿过候车室，走到站前广场。象天鹅绒般的漆黑夜空里散布着无数的星星。鱼律心里在想：这里的天空有星星哪。 鱼津走在广场上。汽车一辆接一辆地向广场拥来，人群也不断地从广场穿过去。鱼津慢慢地挪动着脚步。如果人们看到他，一定会以为他是登山则归来的无优无虑的青年，眼下为了消磨开车前的时间而在车站广场漫步。 然而，鱼津此时正处在有生三十二年来从未有过的孤独中。此时此刻，周围的任何人都不能理解他。鱼津想：如果我把小坂死亡的事件告诉身边的人们，他们肯定都不会理解，他们会说：“你们为什么要到那个盖满白雪的高山峻岭去？为什么硬要半夜起来，身上缠着登山绳，去攀登那样的悬崖绝壁？难道你们事先不知道那是危险的吗？” 鱼津想：可我们一定要干！人活在世上，什么事都该干！谁也没有攀过前德高峰的东坡，所以我们想攀登上去！那是赚不了钱的事，那是要把生命当赌注的危险的活动，那是让自己的意志去同雪和岩壁作斗争，所以我们一定要干！我们不想跳舞，我们不想打麻将牌，我们不想看电影，我们要攀登雪中的岩壁。 然而，小坂坠落了！想到这寒心的事，鱼津停下了脚步。这儿是候车室的人口。鱼津环视着四周。周围有许多人在走动，都是些与小坂之死无关并不能理解的人们。 鱼津把视线投向候车室那边放着自己行李的角落。他看到技松、宫川和小坂的妹妹正聚精会神在看一张报纸。 鱼津走到三个人的身边，问：“有什么消息？” 阿馨听到声音回过头来，赶紧说：“没有。”同时把报纸折起来放进提包，“快开始剪票了，排队去吧。” 鱼津虽然觉得气氛有些反常，却也不怎么在意。 剪票处前面排着几个队，他们站到其中一排的最后面。 走进月台，阿馨向车站人员询问二等车厢在哪儿。 “听说在那边。” 于是她走在最前面领路。鱼津心想：车票什么的，就让别人去操心吧，不管谁付的钱，以后再算吧，现在一切都叫人心烦。 车厢里只有几个空位子，几乎满座。鱼津和阿馨并排坐着，枝松和宫川在不远的地方找到了座位，也是并排坐着。 乘上车后，鱼津又感到孤独起来，尽管旁边坐着阿馨，他脑子里却没有她。只觉得自己是独个儿坐着，在想着自己的事。阿馨买来了茶水，但鱼津不知道她是什么时候端来的。也不知列车是什么时候开动的。想到每一分钟都在接近东京。鱼津又痛苦起来——小坂还躺在雪山里，我现在却乘着火车回东京去。我为什么要回东京去呢？ 列车开了大约三十分钟，鱼津对阿馨说：“把报纸给我看看。”他想也许翻翻报纸，能把想念小坂的念头驱散。 “报纸吗？”阿馨说，“报纸是有的，不过……” 她露出了为难的神情。鱼津这时才想到，是不是报上登载着有关这次事件的经过。 “写着什么？”鱼津这么一问，阿馨带着点儿悲伤的表情盯着鱼津的眼睛。 “治我看看” “还是不看的好。” "why?" “因为我看您很激动。” 看来阿馨不想把报纸拿出来。鱼津觉得她有点固执。 “不要紧的。如果登载着什么，我是想看看的。” 阿馨只好说：“好吧，那就……”然后站起来，拿下行李架上的小提包，把放在外面袋子里的报纸取出来，回到座位上。“您一定会感到不愉快的，不过，请您别把它放在心上。”说着把报纸递给鱼津。鱼津想象不出，会使自己不愉快的文章内容是什么。 鱼津赶快翻到社会版，浏览了上面的标题，没找到自已关心的文章。接着把视线移到右边的版面。这时他突然屏住了气。他看到的虽然是一小块文字，可是标题却是：《尼龙登山绳果真断了吗》。 前些日子发生了一桩事件——为了试登前穗高峰东坡，一人死亡。幸存者鱼津恭太未归，真相不明，据说因尼龙登山绳断裂，小坂乙彦才坠落牺牲。问题是尼龙登山绳果真断裂了吗？一般认为尼龙登山绳比麻制登山绳强韧，绝对不会断裂。现在世界各国登山运动员都在使用，日本也在开始使用。究竟尼龙登山绳是否有可能断裂，且听听登山运动员的意见…… 在这段前言之后，登载着鱼津认识的三名登山运动员的意见。其中一个说：尼龙登山绳是不可能断的，是不是技术上有过失？另一个说：以前没听说过尼龙绳断裂，是否误传？还有一个说：如果尼龙登山绳果真断了，有可能是无意中被防滑钉鞋之类的东西踩坏了。 鱼津读完三位前辈登山运动员的意见，把报纸折起来还给小坂的妹妹，然后平静地说：“是登山绳断了。” “那是不言而喻的，可是他们为什么要那么说？” "This……" 鱼津也不懂。的确，尼龙登山绳比一般的绳子牢，这已成为定论。正是因为这一点，所以这次特意不用麻绳而改用尼龙绳。可是尼龙绳断了，确实断了！ 鱼津读完报上的文章，觉得它写的不是小坂乙彦丧身的事件，压根儿没有谈小级的死亡，其中没有一丝一毫的伤感，提到的完全是别的问题。 事故的原因是登山绳断裂。认为尼龙登山绳不会断，因此把生命托付给它，可是它断了。 不会断的绳子为什么断了呢？新闻记者是从这个角度去看待这个事件，去听三位著名登山运动员意见的。而这三位登山运动员也都发表了各自的看法。 不该断的绳子断了。这确是个问题。可是现在对鱼津来说，这种议论是无关紧要的。总而言之，绳子是断了，小坂坠落了，而且已经不在人世了。读了这篇文章，鱼津再次陷人孤独之中。 “这种事情别放在心上！”阿馨这么说。可是鱼津觉得她这话也很奇怪。 “我没把它挂在心上，一点儿也没有。” 实际上，鱼津并没有把它挂在心上。他只想着小坂现在不和自己在一起了。 “我现在想的不是这个，我想的是，我是不是应该在德泽客栈多留些时候。只要我还在那里，小坂就可能宽心些。他现在一定在生我的气，骂我把他孤零零地扔在那里了。”鱼津被自己的话所激动，伤感涌上了心头，眼泪几乎要夺眶而出。 不知不觉中，鱼津进入了梦乡：他在雪中费力地把登山镐插进岩缝，小雪块不断从上面掉下来，手已冻僵，登山镐插到哪儿也插不牢。 鱼津醒来，阿馨正和站在通道上的枝松谈话，谈话声传人鱼津的耳朵。 “他是一个人住宿舍的吧？” "I think so." “若是没人陪着，真不放心。你看他那么累，我简直没有为哥哥悲伤的余地了。鱼津先生那么悲伤，把我那一份也夺去啦。” 鱼津听到在谈自己的事情，又陷入了梦境：雪从左面刮来，犹如飞瀑一般，他想等雪停了以后去找小坂，可是四处不见小圾的踪影。过了一会儿，一个冰冷的意念浮上他脑际：小坂已经不在人间了。He froze. 这时鱼津又从痛苦的睡梦中醒来了。