Chapter 7 Chapter 5 The Grudge Between Couples

Onishi noticed his wife Shoko's "indifference" when he just passed the first anniversary of marriage.Looking back now, it was as early as the wedding trip, or earlier, it seems to have happened during the "love" stage before marriage. However, the time I clearly realized this was the night when I decided to transfer to Kiyosato. At first, just like everyone else, Onishi went from falling in love to getting married. He undoubtedly married a beautiful and virtuous wife. He firmly believed that taking Xiangzi as his lifelong partner was the biggest "harvest" in his life, and he also embarked on the journey of life. A bright future in life.But as time passed, it was like a cold wind swirled between the two of them, and they felt chills hit their bodies.At the beginning, he always thought it was his nervousness, so he insisted on denying this idea.

The so-called wife, in the eyes of the husband, is the biggest "purchase" in his life.Just like Onishi, he was convinced that he had bought the best thing, but later found out that there were flaws that he hadn't noticed when he was choosing.At this time, it can be said that it is too late to regret and want to cry but have no tears.Therefore, I had to turn a blind eye and pretend not to know, and always believed that it was a flawless and high-quality product. This is not only true of husbands, but even more so by wives.Once you know that you have made a mistake when buying something, you no longer have the strength to change it easily.First of all, the grand ceremony at the time of marriage alarmed the closest relatives and friends around, and it is extremely disgraceful to change the original intention.In this way, after getting married not long ago, but unexpectedly seeing through the essence of the other party, there is no choice but to pretend not to see each other and stick to the end.

If you believe that you are only allowed to choose a "spouse" once in your life, and now you have lost this only opportunity, if you insist on this truth, then those gentlemen and ladies in the world will have nowhere to go and will regret it for life.It had been several years since he had known Shoko before Onishi felt that there was a cold air reverberating between himself and his wife, and this was probably the case. Anyway, from this time on, the intimacy between husband and wife seems to be weak.The two spent a period of time after they got married. Compared with the passionate feelings for their lovers before marriage, there is always some grudge.

"This time, I'm going to be transferred to Kiyosato to work." On the night he accepted the order from manager Ogata to develop the gas bomb, he tried his best to pretend that nothing had happened, but he was always a little uneasy. "To Qingli?" "Yes, you know, it's on the other side of Yatsugatake Mountain." "Ah, Kiyosato, it's a very remote place." "The place is a bit remote, but I am going to be the factory manager. This time, in order to develop new products, I will go to Qingli to build a new factory." Of course, the development of gas bombs was still kept secret.

"Really? Very good." Xiangzi's expression was very calm, and he didn't ask a word about the new product. "Being the director of a new factory at the age of 27 is an extraordinary promotion." "Very good." Onishi was looking forward to the emotional response that a wife would always have, and Shoko still spoke in that unhurried tone.So he had to resort to a last resort, so she must be surprised: "I'm sorry, because it's a remote place and there are no facilities, so I can't bring my family there, so I have to take up the job alone."

"Okay." Xiangzi still did not arouse any emotional waves. "Now, family life has changed, and it's not good for the baby in the womb." Xiangzi was pregnant, probably because of this reason, he became too lazy to speak.It's just a perfunctory sound, which is a bit boring, and I can't get up the energy to say anything else.This is often relatively silent. When did this situation start to form? Onishi had also thought before that all this was an abnormal state brought about by pregnancy, but now she felt that maybe it was just her personality.This question began to germinate in his mind at that time.

In any case, after only a year of marriage, no matter how strong a woman's motherly instinct is, she will remain indifferent to the news that her husband is going to work elsewhere. For the first time, Onishi feels very dissatisfied with his wife who has gained the most. "It doesn't seem uncomfortable to you to live in two places in the future." "It's nothing like that, I just feel that my stomach is bloated and uncomfortable." Xiangzi's words revealed a little inner emotion.Perhaps this was to cover up the embarrassment that he had just told Daxi the right way.

"Besides, Kiyosato is not far from Tokyo, so I can always come back once a week." Xiangzi added.She felt that she had neglected her husband a little too much just now, and wanted to express some apologies to him. Onishi has never been able to find the answer, and set off to a new post with this question in mind. The train drove away with her husband, and Xiangzi who came to see him off stood on the platform until the train disappeared from his vision.At this time, there was a sense of ease in my heart.Yet I felt uncontrollably lonely. Now my husband has left me.Although it was a temporary separation, leaving home for work, but at least for a few days, I couldn't go home.Although the train carrying the husband does not understand human feelings, it has opened the distance between husband and wife after all.

He left behind his wife who had only been married for one year and was still pregnant. Although it was a temporary farewell, it was also an unbearable parting!Xiangzi thought: "Despite this, I don't resent the ruthlessness of the train. Instead, I feel a sense of ease in my heart." ——The husband left her, but the newly married wife felt at ease, why on earth—— "Am I really happy?" Xiangzi asked himself, full of melancholy. "Then, take care of your health. If there is anything wrong, please let me know immediately." "You have to take care of yourself."

When the train started, the words between the husband and wife still echoed in their hearts. "He also feels very lonely." Xiangzi seemed to be pressing his chest, holding the skirt of his clothes tightly with both hands.After the train left, the chilly wind of early spring blew harder on the empty platform. Shinjuku Station is not as bustling with seeing off guests as Tokyo Station.Sparse crowds hurriedly disappeared on the street as the train drove away. The empty central line train platform formed a strong contrast with the bustle of the tram station not far away. Now, her heart is as empty and desolate as a corner of this big city.

Shoko walked towards his home in Suginami Ward.There is no one in that family now.There was no need to come to see him off, but in the end he still came.What is this for?On the outside, it seems that Xiangzi's pregnancy is not obvious, but now is the most important time to pay attention. When I was driving towards Shinjuku, I left the car a little too early, and my husband asked the driver several times to drive the car more smoothly.What a nice guy, and an outstanding engineer the company had hoped for.In the family he was an impeccable husband and soon to be an impeccable "father".Thinking about it carefully, I am still happy, but what is there to be dissatisfied with? "If you think about it carefully, is it because of your restless nerves that you are afraid that misfortune will befall your head, so you feel that there is no happiness at all? Or is it because you are afraid that extreme joy will turn into sorrow, so you deliberately torture yourself. What about happiness? I'm such a fool." Xiangzi couldn't help blaming himself. The platform from which the train departs is closest to the east exit.Pedestrians coming and going in front of the station are crowded with each other, very crowded. "Give Vietnam peace!" "Please fund the rebuilding of the Center for the Disabled!" "I oppose Prime Minister XX's visit to X!" "My collection of poems." "Against XX, collect signatures!" In order to achieve various purposes, all kinds of people appeal, speak, yell or yell to passers-by. Although the goals are different, they have one thing in common, that is, they are unwavering and full of enthusiasm for the various appeals they have made public. The passers-by seem to be indifferent to this, or it can be said to be almost cruelly indifferent, looking at these people participating in various sports with cold eyes, and in the eyes of passers-by, they clearly regard these people as commodities, puppets or even beggars, Or completely ignore it.But these people were not discouraged, and still amplified their voices to mobilize the masses. Their "faith" is poured with fire-like enthusiasm. They appealed to the masses day after day in the wind and sand, endured unpaid fatigue, and found joy and meaning of life from it. Xiangzi envied them very much, and envied them for their firm belief. "Do I have it? Yes! I have a husband. Yes, I have a husband, and I love my husband. Nothing can replace that. But... but what? But why is my heart not burning like those people?" Passion on fire? Burning fire in your heart? Fool! The love of husband and wife is like a trickle, quietly, long and never-ending gushing, gushing. It will never burn out like a flame. Yes ,Indeed it is." In order to find out the answer, Xiangzi was asking and answering questions when he was stopped by a young man who looked like a student: "Please sign for the peace of Vietnam!" Xiangzi took the pen indifferently and signed it.Just a few steps away, I suddenly thought: Daxi is an explosives engineer, and the explosives he made are being shipped to Vietnam, and maybe at this very moment, they hurt Vietnamese people who have never seen them before.Am I signing for my husband, even if it is a small reduction in sin?No, no, not at all, but an instinctive distaste for what he made.I object to my husband making such a thing.No, what I'm against is the heart of a husband who doesn't mind making such things. At this time, Xiangzi suddenly felt a heavy pressure, not because of pregnancy, but because of a disgust for her husband's attitude, which made her feel depressed and breathless.And from now on, I will spend several months alone in this depressed mood before I can wait for my husband's return.It is unbearable to think of this.