Chapter 18 Chapter Seventeen The Will to Love

After Yumi's pregnancy incident came to an end, Katsuhiko had another kind of anxiety.His worry is that the same thing will happen to his daughter Ayuko.Although she also uses contraceptives, generally speaking, she is still on guard, but even the veteran Yumi "calculates" so carelessly, the effectiveness of Ayuko's preventive measures is also doubtful. Before the delay, Katsuhiko felt that it would be impossible for him not to solve this problem with Yamawaki Keisuke face to face. It is not a problem for Yamawaki to leave Ayuko.But judging from Ayuko's situation, things are not so easy to solve.If Yamawaki dies, Ayuko probably won't give up on this relationship.This matter can be clearly understood by comparing the relationship between Katsuhiko and Yukiko.Maybe Yamawaki feels a little guilty about his relationship with Ayuko.

If a man of considerable status in society, a family, and a reasonable man does not feel guilty about falling in love with a girl who is old enough to be his own daughter, he can be said to lack the ethical conditions for a human being .In the conflict between the way of human relations and love, most people tend to prefer sweet love.However, due to the relationship between age and thinking ability, middle-aged and elderly people cannot completely lean towards the one in love. If he appealed to his age and thinking ability, maybe he would voluntarily withdraw from this relationship.But Ayuko is still young and has no thinking ability, so she only tends to be in love.That was her youth.Youth is like a dangerous sea full of hidden reefs. Youth without danger is not youth.However, parents don't want to watch their children sail off to the reef and ignore them.Parents always hope to use their own abilities to guide their children in a safe direction.Although it is impossible to let your children walk on a safe path all their lives, at least during the period under the umbrella of their parents, they hope that their children will walk on a safe path.There is also a bit of parental self-centeredness in this kind of thinking.

In other words, the idea is to exchange the safety and security of the children for the peace of mind of the parents.Thinking about it this way, the biggest enemy in Ayuko's love is not the other party, but her own heart. "Husband, what are you going to do about Ayoko?" Pressed by his wife, Katsuhiko decided that no matter what, he must negotiate with Yamawaki Keisuke. Ke Yan thought to himself, how should he negotiate with him?Was it a surprise attack without prior notice?Make an appointment in advance to meet him.Whether by assault or by appointment, there must be a meeting place.Where should be the best place to meet?Should I go to his company to find him?Or go to his home to visit?

After Ke Yan pondered for a while, he thought it would be better to make an appointment in advance, make an appointment with time and place, and meet again. It's not good to go to his company or his house.Katsuhiko hopes to achieve a satisfactory solution as much as possible.If the other party has common sense, he should have a sincere talk with the girlfriend's parents. Katsuhiko made what he thought was the most reasonable explanation, and first tried to make initial contact with Yamawaki by phone.He thought that it would be inconvenient if his wife came to pick up the phone if he called the other party's home, so he called his company.

Ke Yan also considered that if he reported his name, the other party might pretend that he was not in the company.So, he used the name of the publishing house that often helped him publish books, and called the other party. Not long after the bus lady transferred the call, a middle-aged man's gloomy voice came from the other end of the phone. "I'm Yamawaki." He seemed to think it was a call from a client, and his tone of voice was full of confidence and prestige. "Hello! My name is new." "Well!" The other party did not respond.It seems that he never thought that the father of the girl he was dating would call him.

"I am the father of Shinna Ayuko." The moment he told his story, the other party seemed to be very surprised, and for a moment, he didn't know how to answer. "I want to meet with you and talk about my daughter." Katsuhiko said while imagining the scene when Yukiko's father said the same thing. "Hey, hello!" Katsuhiko urged the silent Yamawaki. "Ah... What advice do you have?" The other party's voice was a little trembling, and it was a confident and steady voice just now, but now thinking of it, it seemed to come from someone else's mouth.

"I think you should know what I want to talk to you about?" "I'm sorry!" came Yamawaki's panicked voice.Judging from the fact that the other party seemed at a loss when he heard the phone call from the woman's parents, generally speaking, he should be a person with social ethics.If he is a master at flirting with women, when he suddenly scolds or treats Ke Yan coldly, he will be no match for him. "Before you apologize to me, I want to meet with you. My daughter is an unmarried girl, and you must think about her future. I hope to have a careful talk with you to find the best solution for each other. "

Although Katsuhiko is a writer, when it comes to his daughter, he can only say clichés that even he hates. "I can meet you at any time, the time and place are up to you." Yamawaki put on a very straightforward gesture that he could meet Katsuhiko at any time.It sounds like he has realized that there is no way to escape, so he has to change his attitude. "Then, let's meet at Dongdu Hotel at six o'clock tonight. I will wait for you in the lobby." Ke Yan hoped that this matter could be resolved quickly. "Tonight at Dongdu Hotel at six o'clock, right? Good! I understand." The other party repeated in a calm voice.

After hanging up the phone, Ke Yan thought that they would meet for the first time tonight, but they hadn't confirmed each other's figure, appearance and other characteristics.Katsuhiko has already seen photos of Yamawaki from the detective agency, and Yamawaki should also know about Katsuhiko in his books or other mass media. "I'll go with you too!" Said the wife who had been listening to Ke Yan talking on the phone with the other party. "No! It's better for me to go alone tonight." Ke Yan felt that it was a bit troublesome for his wife to follow him.

"Then you have to work hard!" His wife encouraged Ke Yan in a strange way. When Katsuhiko went to the lobby of the Toto Hotel at the appointed time, Yamawaki had already been waiting there for a long time.As soon as he saw Katsuhiko, he immediately stood up from the sofa and said, "I'm Keisuke Yamawaki. It's our first time meeting, nice to meet, nice to meet!" Yamawaki greeted Katsuhiko brazenly.Katsuhiko thought to himself that if he met Yukiko's father, he probably wouldn't be able to adopt such an arrogant attitude. "Nice to meet, glad to meet! I'm the new name Katsuhiko." Keyan also slowed down on the first meeting, which made him feel that it was too late.

"There are a lot of people here, let's go to the bar, what do you think?" Yamawaki nonchalantly pursued Katsuhiko, who was speechless. "Okay!" Ke Yan nodded.At present, the war is starting at the pace of the enemy. As soon as the two sat in the bar and faced each other, Yamawaki said flatteringly: "I often read your works." "Ah! Thank you so much!" Ke Yan replied, while falling into the psychological state of dealing with readers.He had given up halfway on the negotiation. "I really don't want to meet you in this way, but the situation has evolved to this point, and I feel really sorry!" Yamawaki preemptively said. "In other words, you have admitted your relationship with my daughter!" Ke Yan felt that he had reached a disagreement after negotiating. "I'm a coward! I've made up my mind when I come today. No matter what you say, I can only say sorry to you." Katsuhiko then superimposed the image of the other party and himself bowing his head to Yukiko's parents begging for mercy.He even felt that Yamawaki already knew about his relationship with Yukiko. "No! I don't want your apology now. I want to meet you today, and I hope you can sever ties with my daughter." "I understand. So far, I have also considered my position and age, and I have thought several times that this situation will happen sooner or later. However, when I met Qianjin, the resolution I finally made collapsed. gone." "My daughter is a twenty-one-year-old unmarried girl, and you are more than twice as old as my daughter. Moreover, you have a wife. No matter how much you love my daughter, you have no position to marry her. Maybe you are just playing with her Play. However, until now, I don’t want to say anything more? However, I want to emphasize that this love affair between you is not on an equal footing. If you continue to maintain this procrastinating relationship, you will be punished. It was my daughter who was hurt, and breaking up with my daughter resolutely is not the thinking ability you should have?" Ke Yan felt that he was pretending to understand when he said these words.If Yukiko's father heard these words, what would he say? "I know, I deeply understand what you said! But... Just as love is not something outsiders can understand, the judgment and thinking I have cultivated in the past forty-six years are completely in place when it comes to the relationship with Lingmei. It's useless. Apart from the age gap, Lingmei and I love each other." Katsuhiko thought to himself, this is what he wanted to say, and Yamawaki said what he wanted to say without fear. He said this in a shrewd and capable tone as a cadre of a large trading company, which made Ke Yan feel that he had a deep and strong affection for his daughter in a love affair outside social norms. "Don't justify yourself!" Ke Yan finally retorted.But he knew that this sentence could not refute the other party at all. "I have absolutely no intention of apologizing." "I don't want to pursue what I have done. I came here to meet you today to obtain a guarantee that you will break up with my daughter." Ke Yan finished speaking in one breath.He felt that if he confronted Yamawaki for too long, the other party would overlap with the image he imagined negotiating with Yukiko's father, making him say the exact opposite. Ke Yan thought to himself: I understand your feelings very well. Love is not something outsiders can understand. No matter the position, age gap or judgment ability, nothing can hinder the relationship between the two.Once entangled in the fire of love, it cannot be subsided until one or both parties burn out.Although he has a wife and a daughter, he is forced to choose between the two, and sometimes it is difficult to make a choice.Just like air and water, both are very important to one's own survival. If he spoke out what was in his heart, Katsuhiko would be ignorant of why he wanted to negotiate with Yamawaki. "Well! I don't know what Ayuko means?" Yamawaki said in an unusually calm voice. "Lianzi's meaning..." Ke Yan suddenly felt that the other party wanted to take advantage of the fire.In this situation, what Ayuko means is not a problem. The man has a relationship with an unmarried girl who is old enough to be his daughter, and he has a wife. It's right to separate. Katsuhiko, who always feels guilty about Yukiko, thinks that when breaking up, there is no need to consider women's meaning at all.When Katsuhiko was speechless, Yamawaki said happily: "No matter whether a man or a woman has ever sworn to love each other, as long as one of them cools down, the relationship will be over. If your wife wants me to break up with her, I will definitely quit. Never miss it!" "My daughter is young. If you disown my daughter, she will forget you very quickly." "In this way, Ling Ai didn't break up with me on her own will." "Your meaning is more important than my daughter's meaning. If you insist on breaking up with my daughter, she will obey." "I have also considered my position and age, and think that I should break up with her. But even if I say goodbye to her, if Ling Ai comes to me, I can't refuse." "Whether you want to reject her or not depends on your age and ability to judge. If you really love Ayuko, you should bless her and break up with her decisively." "Mr. Shinna, have you ever been in love?" Yamawaki did not directly answer Katsuhiko's questioning, but asked instead. Then, he said sternly: "I'm very rude to say this! It's very vulgar to ask you this question as a novelist. But when two people fall in love, it's like smoking marijuana. Reason ordered me to break up with Ling Ai, but when I met Ling Ai, reason had no room. No! It’s not right to say that. Even if we didn’t meet, as long as I heard Ling Ai’s voice and read her letter, Recalling the time I spent with her, the rationality I had finally established was fundamentally shaken. I will do my best, but I cannot promise you." Since this is the words of a forty-six-year-old person with rich life experience, it has a gripping power.Rather than saying that Katsuhiko was angry with Yamawaki, he felt that Yamawaki was teaching him coping skills when meeting Yukiko's parents. As a result, the two did not work out any specific solutions that day, and ended the negotiation with mutual respect. After returning home, the wife couldn't wait to ask about the negotiation. "Where's Ayuko?" Katsuhiko wanted to know about Ayuko's condition before telling his wife the result.When she knew that her father met Yamawaki without informing her, she would definitely react. "Come back one after the other with you, and hide in my room after I come back." "Does she look weird?" "There's nothing particularly strange about it." Ke Yan breathed a sigh of relief after hearing this.It seems that after his meeting with Yamawaki, Yamawaki has not yet contacted Ayuko.Ayuko will know the result of today's meeting soon!At that time, the two will definitely confirm each other's "meaning" and form a common front to attack themselves.Katsuhiko's first meeting with the other side only brought about the consequences of their strengthening unity. "Why did you meet him?" After hearing the result of the meeting, the wife froze on the spot, speechless. Katsuhiko himself realized that the negotiation with Yamawaki had completely failed.As long as he and Yukiko continue to associate, Yamawaki will probably not resolutely sever ties with Ayuko.The relationship between Katsuhiko and Yukiko becomes his weakness.Before he met with Yamawaki, it can be said that he was suppressed by the opponent's arrogance. The next afternoon, when Katsuhiko was sitting in the dining room to rest, Ayuko came back from outside.With a straight face, she came to the restaurant where her father was, and said in a reproachful tone: "Dad, are you going to meet Mr. Yamawaki without telling me?" It seems that Ayuko and Yamawaki have been in touch, so they know the result of yesterday's meeting. "That's right, I met him. Can't I?" Seeing his daughter's expression, Ke Yan was already prepared in his heart. This battle between father and daughter is inevitable. "It's too much for you to meet him secretly without telling me!" Caizi suddenly burst into tears.The couple didn't expect their daughter to cry so sadly, and they panicked immediately. "Why do you say I'm going too far?" Ke Yan asked anxiously. "You forced Mr. Yamawaki to break up with me." "As a parent, a daughter is treated as a toy by a man with a wife. Of course, she can't sit idly by." "I was not treated as a toy, I voluntarily dated Mr. Yamawaki." Ayuko whimpered. "You are still young and don't know the sinister heart, so you don't know what it's like for an unmarried girl to date a man with a wife!" "Father, I'm tired of hearing these words! I'm already twenty-one years old, and I will choose my own love partner. I will bear the consequences myself." "Don't talk big! You are still a student, you should study hard, not fall in love." "Why can't students fall in love? If you insist on stopping me, I will run away from home and rely on part-time jobs to support myself." Ayuko no longer cried, and completely assumed a posture of carrying out her will. When Keyan and his wife heard that their daughter was going to run away from home, they felt very panic.If she ran away from home in order to prevent Ayuko from falling in love, then all the profits would be lost. "You... what are you talking about? You think a girl can live by working part-time!" "Why can't I live? I have a few friends who work in the store at night. They live in high-end apartments and don't depend on their parents. Don't they have a good life?" "Do you know what you're talking about? Do you know what the night shop does?" Ke Yan was getting more and more panicked.Jobs that can make girls earn money quickly are special industries. As long as it falls into that big dye vat, it will never be washed away.From another point of view, it's not bad to have that job.However, as a student, because of a disagreement with his parents, entering that world is bound to be perilous, and there is a possibility of being ruined at any time.Young girls in their twenties must be relatively dangerous in a world where money is easy to make.However, they often fail to see the danger because they are young. In the past, Katsuhiko also advised Yukiko to use female instinct as a weapon to fight in the night world.But when his daughter wanted to stand up to the same danger, he wanted to dissuade her.However, if Yukiko said now that he wanted to go in the same direction, Katsuhiko would also try to stop it. "I know!" "No! You don't understand the real horror of working at night, so you have so hastily decided to work in a shop that is open at night." "Mom and Dad! Don't treat me like a child forever, okay? Although I am still a student, I will graduate soon. After graduation, I will always step into the society. For me, it is only a matter of time before I go to work. problems that must be faced.” "I'm not talking about these things with you now, but about the issues between you and Yamawaki Keisuke." Ke Yan tried to bring back the diverted topic. "Father, if you keep asking me to break up with Mr. Yamawaki, then I will run away from home and work outside." "That's all right. The matter between you and Yamawaki will be kept in a reserved form until graduation. You should concentrate on studying hard now." Ke Yan felt that it would be more appropriate not to forcefully separate the two of them, but to use a reserved form to buy time.If she finds a suitable boyfriend during this period, Yamawaki will be quickly forgotten.Katsuhiko had forgotten in an instant that the same method was also effective for Yukiko. "What is reservation?" "Well...well... that is, you don't meet him until you graduate, and concentrate on your studies." "You mean, after graduation, I can meet him?" "During this period, your mind may change, too." "So Dad, that's your intention! If you change your mind during the period before graduation, I won't date him in the first place. You think our dating is so casual!" "But you know he has a wife and children!" "Why do you compare these two things? Whether Mr. Yamawaki has a wife or not, my feelings for him will not change. Dad, you always think that Mr. Yamawaki is wrong, but I want to tell you, the two of us Being together means mutual meaning. Do you know that? After you went to Mr. Yamawaki, he even said that he hated me in order to ask me to break up with him." The gist of what Ayuko said was the same as what Yamawaki said yesterday.It is not that the two confessed in advance, but it shows that the two agree in opinion. "Yamawaki should not say such a thing. How could he let the duck fly away so easily." "Father, I hope you don't use such words to refer to Mr. Yamawaki. You despise Mr. Yamawaki, and you spoil me too." Katsuhiko almost thinks in relation to Yukiko and himself, and agrees with his daughter.He said in a forgiving tone: "I didn't mean to despise him. I have been looking for a satisfactory solution until now. I believe that you really love Keisuke Yamawaki. But for his wife, the husband But it was taken away by others.” Katsuhiko originally planned to say some more common-sense words, but seeing Ayuko's aggressive posture, he seemed to have begun to waver.Obviously, what he said casually hit Ayuko's weakness.Although she said bravely that it would be fine as long as Yamawaki's wife didn't know about their relationship, she seemed to care about that too. "Even I feel sorry for his wife." Ayuko's voice suddenly weakened. "Does Yamawaki's wife know what happened between you two?" "I probably don't know." "This is where Yamawaki is cunning. He keeps saying that he loves you, but he plays forbidden games with you behind his wife and children's back, and enjoys the blessing of being equal to everyone." Ke Yan put his own affairs aside.At this time, in order to fulfill his duties as a father, he had to escape the dilemma between his family and Yukiko. In just a split second, Ke Yan noticed a slight smile on Ayuko's face. "Is there anything strange?" Ke Yan asked seriously. "That's why I ask you not to treat me like a child forever." "What's the relationship between Yamawaki's wife and treating you like a child?" "Why can't you fall in love with a playful attitude?" "what?" "Do you have to cry like the protagonist in a tragic love drama when you fall in love? Isn't it because there is a playful element in love that makes people feel happy? Like that kind of love, it's very hard, and finally goes to the end. I will never do love on the road of dying for love. Maybe I am the type to enjoy the fun of love." "what are you saying?" "Dad, you hired a private detective to investigate my behavior. If you investigated further at that time, you might find something more interesting." Ayuko, who was crying and protesting, seemed to be a different person now, defiant and unequivocal. To put it mildly. "What do you mean by that?" "I mean, Yamawaki-san isn't the only one I'm having fun with." "There will be such a thing?" Ke Yan muttered in the back of his throat.The wife who stood by was stunned.Since just now, she has never had a chance to intervene. "Mom and Dad, it's different from your time now! I love Mr. Yamawaki, but I'm not bound by him, nor by anyone else. Therefore, robbing someone else's husband or being robbed by someone else Let's go, I don't have any close relationship with me. If you strongly stop me, then I will feel very embarrassed!" "Are you dating so many men?" Ke Yan stopped the surprise in his heart and asked back. "Dad, please don't say that! I mean, I don't want to be bound by Mr. Yamawaki alone." The father-daughter negotiation with Ayuko ended in failure. "Husband, look, what should I do?" After Ayuko left, his wife panicked and said what she said most often. "What can I do! Are you going to lock her up at home and not let her go out?" "Are you going to let her go?" "I don't want to let her go, but there's nothing I can do now!" "We let her study abroad, what do you think?" "Study abroad?" "There is a girl in our neighbor who is in the same situation as Ayuko. Her parents sent her to study in the United States in order to let her leave that man." "His daughter just broke up with the other party obediently and went to the United States?" "His daughter wanted to go to the United States a long time ago, so she went without any resistance. However, this time she caused her parents another trouble, which made her parents feel very troubled." "What!? Another trouble happened?" "I heard that she found a new boyfriend in the United States." "Oh! Is it the blue-eyed boyfriend?" "No! The other party seems to be Chinese." "If it's Chinese, that's okay. I don't like a grandson with blue eyes and skin that is different from ours. Because in Japan, mixed-race children will be discriminated against in every way. Isn't that kind of child very pitiful when he is born? " "So, studying abroad is also very dangerous!" "Anyway, is what Ayuko said just now true?" "She has many boyfriends, but besides Yamawaki, she doesn't seem to have any other close friends. She probably said that to cover up her relationship with Yamawaki!" "It's all right if that's the case. However, I heard her tone seems to be true." "We always thought of her as a child. We don't know when it started. She has gone beyond our reach." The wife said with a sigh. At this time, Yamawaki Station is closer to Ayuko than her parents, there is no doubt about it!