Chapter 9 Chapter Eight Beautiful Rejection

After breaking up with Minmei, the time to meet Yukiko is getting closer and closer.Because of Minmei's relationship, Katsuhiko has confidence.If facing Yukiko now, he should be able to play the male role well. However, if you act too hastily, your consciousness will still be too focused on that matter, and there is a danger of failure.The combination of the two sexes must be achieved in a situation that is driven out of consciousness and in line with the natural needs and needs of the being. However, just like after diarrhea, when the mouth really wants to eat but can’t eat, the mind will only think about that food, so when the lust is high but the body cannot function as expected, the whole mind will only think about it. Think about sex.It is impossible to drive this thought out of consciousness after all.

Katsuhiko walked out of the Ginza Hotel where he had a tryst with Akemi, and headed towards the Hilton Hotel in Shinjuku.He made an appointment with Yukiko to meet there.This restaurant invested by foreigners has many foreign guests.The lobby and cafe are elegant and very different from hotels in the city center.The shopping street in the basement is very quiet, and people have to admire the goodness of its operation.It is also a rare design that the hotel's guest elevator does not lead directly to the underground shopping mall.Just like the Tsukuba World Expo, the guests in the restaurant don't stop walking by the shopping street, and some don't even know the existence of the shopping street.

When a person dines at a restaurant in a quiet shopping street, he feels as if he has borrowed the luxurious atmosphere of the entire hotel.When they arrived at Hilton, Yukiko had already arrived.As soon as she saw Ke Yan, she said, "I miss you so much!" When Ke Yan went to the "Sakura" cafe in the hotel according to the appointment, he saw that his whole body was full of joy, and a pair of entwined eyes were looking at him.That's because Ke Yan was unable to reach a union with her, which made her sad and depressed, as if she was spying on the deepening abyss of love.Do I have the character or the charisma of the mind to make up for my physical incompatibility?Ke Yan thought.

No matter how conceited he was, Katsuhiko didn't find himself attractive.Is there really something about me that attracts her?Even if you ask her, she will probably reply with "Why are you asking such a stupid question again?" However, the last time I asked her was before I stopped lifting. After that, if I ask the same question again, I don't know if I will get an answer. Although Katsuhiko's body is not going well and he has failed Yukiko's heart, she still loves him.He thought to himself: You can't pour cold water on her with stupid questions.right!It's not that I can't get an erection, it's just a temporary physical discomfort.It can be proved from the fact that it also exerts a remarkable function to his wife and Mingmei.If Minmei's remaining strength is used to control her, perhaps he can be cured during today's date.

"I want to see you too!" Katsuhiko responded to Yukiko's focused eyes and said the same line. "But, I can't tell that the teacher is eager to see me." Yukiko complained. "yes?" "Yeah! The teacher doesn't care if I break an appointment once or twice. But if you break an appointment with me once, I'll go crazy!" "If you really want to go crazy, that person should be me." "Really? From your expression, it seems that you met another woman before you met me." "what!?".Ke Yan was told what was on his mind, and he couldn't help but panicked.He thought, it might be because Minmei's feminine fragrance still remained on his body, or it could be Yukiko's feminine instinct.

"I was joking with you. I felt an urge to pounce on you. Because I couldn't see you for three days, I lost my mental replenishment." Yukiko said out of breath. Katsuhiko interpreted Yukiko's words as saying that he could not combine with her because of his inaction, so she expressed to him that her desire was not satisfied. "I'm sorry! I'm really useless." "Teacher, will I be your burden?" "How? How could you be my burden?" "I thought I might interfere with your work." "I wish you would hinder me a little more!"

"Really? I can't live if I never see you again." "It should be me who said this! Without you, I would not be able to live. But, are you serious? You are surrounded by young and strong men, how could you fall in love with me, a worthless old man? Woolen cloth?" "Teacher, without you, my life really cannot go on!" "But why is this happening? I really want to know, why is this happening?" "That's fate! We met and fell in love, it was destined before we were even born." However, Katsuhiko cannot simply believe in fate like Yukiko.From his observations of half a century of life experience, the relationship between men and women of pure spiritual friendship is as easy to break as glass products.Even so, in his half-life experience, he has not tasted the love between men and women that deepened the relationship because of failure to combine.The deepening relationship is not so much love as friendship or "pure love".

Perhaps Katsuhiko is confusing love with friendship. "Is it preordained?" "Teacher, are you saying that we are destined to be together?" Yukiko seemed to be blaming Katsuhiko for his suspicious tone. "No! In order to prove that this is destined, I really want to combine with you as soon as possible." "Aren't we united now?" "I'm not just talking about a union of hearts, but a physical union as well. Let's quickly supply each other's needs, both physically and mentally!" "Ah! Are you still minding about that?" Yukiko raised her voice in surprise.

"I can't help it because I haven't done my job as a man." "Teacher, I hope you can fully trust me. For us, that matter is not a problem! I feel very sad when I think that you have such thoughts, teacher." "You don't know what sex is." "I know!" Yukiko finished speaking, as if relieved, "I think I know what sex is." Ke Yan didn't intend to ask how she knew?It would be of no benefit to both parties to continue to question. Even if the two achieve a sexual union, what does it mean for their relationship?If the argument continues, it will be regarded as a very impolite behavior for Yukiko.

Since Katsuhiko had accumulated the filth of the world for half his life, he knew that this kind of flying beauty could not last forever.Anyway, it can't last forever, it's better to simply taste the forbidden fruit that comes to your mouth. He knows that sex cannot be a permanent guarantee of the relationship between a man and a woman, but it does bring the distance between men and women closer than that of men and women without sex.Intervening in a sexual relationship will instead destroy the relationship between the two, mainly because of the incongruity in sex, which causes the emotional alienation between the two.If the combination of two people has a very thin sexual component, even if they are not harmonious in terms of sex, it will not turn into an unmanageable situation.

In the relationship between a man and a woman whose emotional foundation is not stable, sex is a guarantee of safety.Based on the greedy thoughts of middle-aged and elderly people, Katsuhiko couldn't wait to stamp Yukiko's body in order to have the sweet fruit that rolled around him unexpectedly.However, he fell into a contradiction and felt very disgusted with himself. Ethical concepts played a subconscious role, and instead issued a prohibition on lust. For the current Katsuhiko, in order to open up the unknown land with Yukiko, a young and beautiful lover, sex is an obstacle that must be overcome no matter what.There can be no eternal guarantee without the lure of the sweet fruit.As a bottleneck that must be broken through, it is his inner sense of mission.He knew all too well that a sense of mission would become a mental strain that would exacerbate symptoms.Although he knew that there would be such a result, he was helpless. "I want you!" Ke Yan said impatiently.With Yu Shikuang in front of him, he should be able to achieve a sexual union with the other party. "Oh!" Kitazawa Yukiko showed a slightly surprised expression, but nodded with blushing cheeks and said, "I think so too." In this case, she also expressed her needs, which had a positive impact on Ke Yan's heart and also brought negative pressure. Although Yukiko was able to respond to Katsuhiko's request at any time, he felt very happy.But she, who once told him that sex is not a problem, actually has such a need, which adds to the pressure in his heart. In short, the immobility caused by psychological factors has a very sensitive and complex structure.The average woman will put down a sentence: "Enough! I can't continue to associate with you." If you are ridiculed, scolded, or scorned by a woman, it will be a desperate situation, which means that he has no chance to regain his glory . No!There is also an opportunity to suddenly change attitudes and despise women who do not understand the structure of male sensitivity.In this way, the fear of her or the sense of mission to please the other party will be removed.And apart from the inner pressure, women who are considered worthless by themselves will not be discouraged by psychological factors.In this sense, "not giving up because you love the other party" can be regarded as the truth on the other side. The two went straight to the hotel room. "Wait a minute, I'll take a shower first." Yukiko said. Ke Yan thought to himself, if this happens, the remaining power will disappear, so he quickly said: "You don't need to take a bath, I want you now." "Huh! Do you want it directly?" Even Yukiko, who has always been docile, showed a surprised expression. "Yes, I don't have that kind of leisure anymore." "Are you so busy?" Yukiko misunderstood the meaning of Katsuhiko's words and thought he was really busy.At this time, if she refuses, the momentum will completely stop.If women have the slightest intention of rejecting, they will let Yu Shi step on the brakes. "Please!" Ke Yan said in an obsessive manner.During this period, the momentum has gradually faded. "You need me so much, I feel very happy!" Saying that, Yukiko took off her clothes behind the closet door. "I want to see how you undress." Ke Yan made another request. "No! People will be ashamed." Yukiko replied twisting her body. "Come on! I want to see what young girls wear underneath?" "You really want to see it, but I can't help it. After you read it, it's useless, right?" "That was a good study for me. I don't want to suffer from an old writer who made a big joke out of describing modern girls as wearing sleeveless shirts and drawers. a disgrace." "If I can be of any help to you, I am glad to do so. But the lights must be dimmed a little." Yukiko dimmed the light, and just under the light, she took off her clothes.The tender and substantial body immediately appeared in front of Ke Yan.Just like the state described by Basho in the haiku, "Who will be pitied if the red flower goes away?", a man who does not feel timid in front of such a beautiful body can be said to be very insensitive. The sharper the sensibility, the easier it is to taste the despair of being rejected in front of the glamorous female body.Whether I realize it or not, the perfect embodiment of a woman always keeps people away and makes men have no chance.Abandoning unattainable women is the consequence of despair. Yukiko stood naked in front of Katsuhiko, and he felt that her whole body was coated with a will to refuse.The coquettish hair, the smooth and tender skin, the soft and untouchable curves, the provocative firm breasts, the imaginative strong waist, and the delicate female body composed of various parts, It made him feel that if he could blaspheme, he would like to blaspheme immediately. Cunning tendencies or bad thoughts, etc., will be smashed before this moving force.Ke Yan understood that even if he wanted to conquer her wholeheartedly, it would be futile and futile.He expects an even more dire outcome than last time. "It's my fault, I made you feel ashamed! Put on your clothes quickly!" Katsuhiko urged Yukiko who met naked. "What did I do to make the teacher angry?" Yukiko asked worriedly. "That's not the case, I made you angry." "No! I like you, teacher." "Thank you for liking me so much, I really dare not take it. Thank you very much for letting me see your beautiful body." "I'm glad if I've contributed in the slightest to my teacher's work." "Although I am a writer, I can't find a word that can express my gratitude to you." "We are not the kind of relationship that says thank you or not. If you just say thank you, you should thank the two of us for meeting. Although we meet each other late, it is not too late." Yukiko said. Ke Yan buried the words "If it's too late, I'll give up!" in his heart.