Chapter 7 Chapter 6 The Foundations of Destiny

That night, Katsuhiko sent Yukiko back.When I got home, it was past twelve o'clock at night."Where's Ayuko?" he asked his wife who came out to greet him. He remembered that the girl he had met in Roppongi was very similar to his own daughter. "Already asleep." "What time will she be back?" "You came back not long after you went out. What's the matter with her?" "It's okay, it's okay!" Ke Yan dodged his wife's rhetorical question, thinking: That girl is probably a stranger with a similar appearance, right? "Would you like something to eat?"

"No need, I'm not hungry. Can I go to sleep in your room tonight?" Ke Yan said, watching his wife's expression. Katsuhiko believes that love and sleep are two different things.It has been a long time since the couple slept in separate rooms. "Oh! What is it that makes you want to come to me?" The wife looked a little panicked.Because I didn't expect my husband to say that, I didn't know how to respond for a moment. "We are husband and wife! If we don't communicate and communicate occasionally, how can we be like a husband and wife?" "I don't know what to do with your sudden request?"

"What are you talking about? Have you forgotten how to do it?" Ke Yan said, thinking at the same time, maybe his wife really forgot how to do it.It is not so much a communication tonight as an "experiment".As for Yukiko, he ended up ignoring it. He wanted to use his wife's body as an experimental platform to test to see if he had lost his masculine function.However, this kind of thinking must not be told to his wife. "Really, I'm not ready to meet you yet." It seemed that she was really embarrassed. "It's too exaggerated! The general doesn't have to go to the wife's room. If you don't object, come to my room!"

"I always feel embarrassed!" Unexpectedly, when the husband made a request, the elderly wife would have a red tide on her face. Katsuhiko's wife's shyness aroused the man's sexual desire.That night, he played a lively male role for his wife.Rather, he was braver than usual.The wife doesn't know that she is being used as a laboratory by her husband, and she is only intoxicated in the sweetness that she hasn't had for a long time. Behind the wife's dreamlike words, there is the history and maturity of married life. Katsuhiko thought to himself, there really is a bottleneck formed by unknown parts between himself and Yukiko.As long as the two are familiar with each other and can dissolve the unknown part, they will surely break through the bottleneck and complete the combination of the two.

The experiment with his wife was successful, and Katsuhiko regained his self-confidence.I thought, the next time I meet Yukiko, I will definitely be able to display my masculinity.That's right!Don't want to show bravery too much, you must relax.As long as you don't care about sex, the situation should be better when the two meet.Just thinking of this point can relieve more than half of the pressure in my heart. Keep sexual issues out of consciousness, and when you meet, the atmosphere will naturally rise. Hands touch each other, lips overlap, and they will be combined naturally like flowing water.Sex is by no means the main axis of the relationship between men and women, it is just a minor detail.

When Katsuhiko was thinking about the meeting with Yukiko, his wife suddenly said: "Sex is still very important for couples. The relationship between husband and wife is getting more and more distant, and they are really becoming close relatives. I will also visit you in the future. I won’t feel embarrassed to look for you in my room. You can’t be timid!” "Hey! Don't be joking. Yesterday was actually..." Ke Yan quickly closed his mouth. "I mean it, why do you think I'm joking?" said the wife with a very serious expression. Ke Yan thought to himself, it was hard to push the issue of sex out of consciousness, but his wife brought it back to the center of consciousness.They are so old, and they still say that the most important thing in married life is sex.Husband and wife are like co-operators of life, raising children and letting them receive education.The husband goes out to work and brings in income, while the wife stays at home to do housework, cook and cook, and sometimes she has to help her husband work according to the husband's work pattern.In social situations, you must face your husband's friends with a happy face.In such a wide field of defense, sex occupies only a small corner.As I grow older, all aspects of defense are oppressed, and I gradually feel dull in the face. As a result, cobwebs are formed everywhere in the couple's memory house.

Even so, since the relationship between husband and wife is multifaceted, it will not be affected much.After cleaning the house of memories full of cobwebs for a long time, it will suddenly return to the main axis of husband and wife.At this point, it cannot be said that the wife is only used as a test bench.Although I was the one who swept away the spider webs, it was meaningless to experiment repeatedly! However, if you always think hard about this problem, it means that you still cannot get rid of the entanglement of sex.In short, sex must be remembered.Forget about the "sex" issue, and go meet Yukiko again!

However, since parting with Yukiko, she has never been in touch with herself.When saying goodbye last night, although she said that she would call him as soon as possible today, she never called him.The last time Yukiko called him a day earlier than the agreed time, this time it dragged on until the afternoon, and there was no sign of calling him yet.Ke Yan didn't know when she would call.The phone is next to him, and he never leaves his body for a moment, so that he cannot eat or go to the toilet with peace of mind.It seems that Yukiko still hates the useless thing that happened to her the first time.As time passed, his sense of despair grew stronger.

That day, Katsuhiko stayed by the phone until two o'clock in the afternoon, but Yukiko still didn't call.Of course, Katsuhiko had no intention of working that day. When Katsuhiko realized that Yukiko had left his side, he became even more infatuated with her angelic face and devilish figure.When the prey appeared in front of Ke Yan, making him salivate, and he couldn't wait to swallow it in one gulp, but the tooth seemed to be deliberately making things difficult, and suddenly broke.Words cannot express the regret and misery of the situation. Although Yukiko made an appointment to contact him, most of the prey that escaped from the beast net will not return to the same net again.No hunter is so foolish as to believe the promises of his prey.

That night, after Ke Yan went to bed, his eyes were wide open and he could not fall asleep.Such a beautiful prey, "you can only meet once in a lifetime", it is impossible to meet again.Judging from her calm attitude when she went to the hotel with a man, her mature body, the charm of an adult, and the hormones that attract men, etc., she should have been baptized by men. She will definitely compare her uselessness with other brave men.She was half-ignited by Ke Yan, and she would probably find other majestic men to calm her down.Yukiko suppressed her shame and specially offered a beautiful tribute, but was rejected by Katsuhiko in such a useless way, she probably wouldn't forgive it!He humiliated her.The reason why she didn't get angry on the spot was because of her understanding, gentle and considerate heart.

He tossed and turned on the bed, and fell asleep in a daze around dawn.When his wife's cry woke him from his sleep, strong sunlight poured in through the cracks in the curtains. "Mr. Gu Hai called you." His wife called. The editor doesn't call early in the morning.Ke Yan looked at the alarm clock next to his pillow: it was almost eleven o'clock.He gets up to answer the phone.Because the voice was not clear, the other party seemed to notice that he had just woken up, and said regretfully, "I'm sorry for disturbing your sleep!" "It's okay! It's time to get up too." "Don't talk about polite words. Excuse me, I don't know how the manuscript is going?" This month, Guhai and his magazine invited Keyan to write a short story for them.Ke Yan hadn't even finished writing a piece of paper, and kept this matter in a corner of his mind, which was even covered with a thick layer of dust.He had to wait for the editor to urge him many times before he wanted to clean up the dust and write.The editor of the magazine is also very accurate in estimating the situation of the writer, and can always urge the manuscript in a timely manner. "Ah! I plan to start writing today." Ke Yan said energetically. "Then please take care of everything! In the next issue, we will focus on your short stories." The other party's tone was also very energetic.This kind of conversation must be repeated between the two, so that the writer's hard-won enthusiasm will not be put down. "Ah! By the way, that Miss Kitazawa you introduced to me a few days ago..." Ke Yan said nonchalantly. "You mean Kitazawa Yukiko? What's the matter with her?" Gu Hai called her by her name, obviously the two knew each other very well. Ke Yan vaguely felt that the brave man who extinguished her half-burned desire at that time was probably Gu Hai.Gu Hai is currently a single aristocrat, a young and handsome editor-in-chief, it is not surprising to be Yukiko's boyfriend. "Yesterday she made an appointment to contact me, but she never called." Ke Yan seemed to say that it was Gu Hai's fault. "She's not a careless girl, she has an appointment with you, and she will definitely contact you." Gu Hai replied casually. Ke Yan couldn't let him know about his troubles and depression last night, so he said, "However, there has been no news so far. How did you get in touch with her?" "I have nothing to do now, why are you looking for her?" "Let me ask you, how did you get in touch with her?" "If I have something to ask her, I will call her home. Don't you also know her home phone number?" "I've only heard it once, and it's not appropriate for me to call her." "Then... I'll help you contact her." Gu Hai finally understood what Ke Yan meant. "I'm really grateful for your willingness to help me." Ke Yan almost jumped up with joy.He felt that waiting for a call from Yukiko who didn't know when would be called was like being tortured in purgatory, and it was really unbearable. "Then, I'll call her home immediately." Ke Yan felt that Gu Hai's voice had never been so nice.Soon, Gu Hai called again: "People in her family said that she is going to school, but she is not at home. If she goes to school, it will be difficult to contact her." Ke Yan felt that Gu Hai's voice was very different from just now, and he was simply perfunctory himself.It seems that today I have to continue to be in the purgatory of waiting for the phone call. "After that day, have you met her again?" Gu Hai seemed to sense a sense of helplessness in Ke Yan's tone. "We chatted for a while in the coffee shop the day before yesterday." Ke Yan felt that Yukiko was introduced to him by Gu Hai, and that he might need Gu Hai's help in the future, so he decided to confess to him to a certain extent. "She's a nice girl! I think it's very helpful for a writer to be associated with her." What does Furukai mean by "nice girl"?He didn't make it specific.Since this was a common phrase used by the introducer, Ke Yan was even more depressed. "Although I intend to associate with her, what's the use if I can't get in touch with her?" Ke Yan said discouragedly. "What are you talking about? It's only been two days since the day before yesterday, and she will definitely contact you. When dating girls, don't be impatient." Gu Hai said encouragingly. Ke Yan felt something, and Gu Hai seemed to know the embarrassing setback he suffered the night before, so he set up a line of defense without showing any trace: "Although I want to date her, after all, she is the same age as my daughter, so I will naturally measure." "You can do a big job, you don't have to be polite!" Gu Hai incited.Katsuhiko changed his mind: If he knew the truth, he wouldn't be so enthusiastic about inciting himself to pursue Yukiko.Apparently he doesn't know what's going on between the two of us yet. "Although you say that, they are also children of a good family, so you can't just pursue them indiscriminately." "She's not an underage girl, she's an adult at all, you don't need to care about that. If any problem happens, it's on me." Gu Hai said firmly. "The responsibility must be borne by me." Ke Yan said.Although he knew that he couldn't shoulder this responsibility, he didn't want Gu Hai to take care of the aftermath of his love affair.However, Gu Hai's words also brought him incomparable courage. "Does she have a boyfriend?" Ke Yan asked the question he was most concerned about.You should ask her about this, right? "She is so beautiful, of course there are a lot of boyfriends around her, and I am one of them. However, she has no close boyfriend yet." Katsuhiko remembered that Yukiko once said to him: "It's the first time I feel so excited when I meet someone." The man she fell in love with for the first time? She must be disappointed that she gave herself so sincerely to the man he admired, but he couldn't accept it. "Why does she have such a crush on me?" Ke Yan asked. Ask Gu Hai this question, and he can't provide an answer.Still, uttering this sentence has the feeling of being released from purgatory. "That's your luck. Having a beautiful woman pestering you means that you have done a good job. Can you transfer a little of that ability to my manuscript." Gu Hai reminded thoughtfully. Manuscripts written by powerful writers are the permanent assets of the publishing house.First, it can be published in a magazine, then sorted into a separate book, and then revised into a pocket book (editor's note: the library version), and then included in a series of books, and finally a set of author's complete works can be published. After the author's death, it can be published again reprint.In addition, it is also possible to exchange works of other authors with other publishers.Just like a whale, the meat can be used as food, the skin can be used to make leather products, the bones can be made into handicrafts, and the rest can be used as other materials without any waste.Grabbing authoritative writers will also have an impact on the status of editors.Editors who are supported by writers can occupy important positions both inside and outside the publishing house.Writers who are urged by excellent editors can also achieve great growth.In this sense, there is a mutual supportive relationship between editors and writers. The work of a writer is an independent job. If you don't urge me often, it is easy to feel lazy.It is very hard work to climb the grid alone in the room, and it is a work against the works, and even against yourself.Since the object of the confrontation is yourself, even if you run away, others can't say anything?The editor must constantly monitor, encourage, cajole, and even sometimes coerce writers who want to escape at the first opportunity to squeeze out their work. A good editor can allow a writer to squeeze out more than he can produce, and sometimes it can also chemically change the writer's creativity and write a masterpiece.As for clumsy editors, not only can writers not be able to write good works, but sometimes their talents can be let go, watching the future wonders of the literary world gradually fade away. There are many occasions for a writer to change, such as themes or events of encounters, turmoil, humiliation, resentment, praise, burying, and so on.Among these opportunities, there is no doubt that love (including lovelorn) is included.Regardless of the occasion, writers can derive powerful energy from these factors, which is a common thread.I don't know if Furukai specially introduced Yukiko to Katsuhiko because he wanted to give Katsuhiko the energy to change.Knowing his feelings for her, Ke Yan really quickly combined with the work. "I don't know if she will talk to me?" "It will definitely." Gu Hai said decisively. "Why are you so sure?" "You can tell by looking at her a few days ago. Except for you, she doesn't pay attention to others. " "Perhaps it happened that she was interested in writers that day." "You have to be strong, like the protagonist in your work. Even if she is interested in the writer, isn't it good? She is indeed interested in you! At this time, you should stamp her in one go .” "Stamp?" "That's right. If you don't print a stamp, others will still do it. Get there first!" Gu Hai also had the same idea. "Anyway, you have to do your best!" After Gu Hai finished speaking in a provocative tone, he hung up the phone. As soon as the phone was hung up, the ringtone rang again.He took the phone to his ear, and the crisp and sweet voice that he had been thinking about day and night rang in his ear: "I am Yu-Jiko." This sentence, which was like a joke, quickly and gently eased the purgatory he was in. in pain. "I've been waiting for your call, and I thought you wouldn't call?" Ke Yan's voice was very excited. "Why! Why do you say that?" "Because you didn't call me yesterday!" Ke Yan said slightly. "Sorry! I was around all day yesterday, so I didn't call you." "I'm very worried! I wonder if you are still angry because of what happened yesterday." "Why should I be angry?" "...How should I say this? Because I failed your good intentions." "Teacher, you are really great, I like you more than before!" "Really?" "Why should I lie to you?" "But, we..." "Could it be that teacher, you still care about that..." "That's right! I'm such a loser." "Teacher, you are so strange, why would you care about that kind of thing. We are not together for that kind of thing! I think our destiny is combined in a deeper place. I didn't lie to you, I'm really happy .At that time, I knew very well that you really loved me, Sensei. I think that sex is not that important for two people who are united deep in their hearts. Sensei, you would care about that kind of thing, I really do. Sorry!" Yukiko's choked up voice came from the other end of the phone. "I know! I don't care about that any more. Would you like to see me?" "I was waiting for you to meet me?" "I miss you so much!" "Me too, I think you want to die!" Yukiko said affectionately. "Today and tomorrow, I have to help Mr. Guhai write the manuscript, so can I meet you the day after tomorrow?" "The day after tomorrow? Great!" "Is it convenient for you?" "To be able to meet with the teacher, no matter how busy you are, you have to find time." "Don't force it too much! Because what is achieved by force will not last long." "No, no! My life is prepared for my teacher, and meeting my teacher is the most comfortable moment for me." This sentence makes writers who work with words do not know how to answer. Because of Yukiko's call, Katsuhiko suddenly had a force.If you want to fight against yourself, you must have a strong force.If the power is insufficient, the flame will be turned off immediately.Now that he has been supplemented by Yukiko's energy, the prisoner in Purgatory has transformed into an indomitable worker.In this sense, this is in line with Furukai's intention. In order to meet Yukiko, no matter what, the bottleneck of work must be overcome.Yukiko said that her life was prepared for Katsuhiko, and now he must work to meet her. What should I do next time I meet Yukiko?Bonded deep down, she says, sex isn't all that important.However, he always felt that he couldn't let it go.Although he can't care about sex, he still can't care less.The next time you go out with her, it won't be hard to ask her to a hotel, the difficulty will come later.You can't just drink face to face in the secret room of the hotel.Lonely men and widows meet in hotel rooms, in the final analysis, to enjoy the joy of fish and water.At that level, it is impossible to go back.The relationship between men and women is like reading a book, you must continue reading from the page you saw last time.Even so, Katsuhiko still worries about whether he can always avoid facing the matter of sex and continue a purely spiritual friendship.Even if you can avoid it next time, you will always face this problem sooner or later. Yukiko now says that the encounter between the two is a destined "fate", but who knows when she will meet a younger "another destined fate" with infinite possibilities?At that time, she might not even look at him.Now is the time, and the sooner the better, if the stamp is to be stamped.You cannot avoid the problems you are about to face. Ke Yan suddenly felt a sense of tragedy, and suddenly felt less excited about the next tryst, and was replaced by the nervousness of having to assault the impenetrable castle.He didn't know until he was fifty-two years old that this kind of obstacle lay across the lovesickness and love affair.The various obstacles that stand in the way of a relationship usually occur after two people are married.Leaving aside the unrequited love situation, if the love for each other is hindered by the outside world, it will easily turn into lovesickness between two places, elopement, martyrdom or various tragedies.Even a relationship of purely spiritual friendship will be hindered from outside. Although two people need each other to trust each other, and there are currently no factors (except ethics and moral values) that hinder the development of the relationship between the two, but the hindering factors rarely exist between two people, especially men.Even if the handicap itself isn't uncommon, few women are attracted to a worthless man.No!It's not right to say that, it should be said that she is less attracted to useless men than before. Moreover, judging from her mature state, she should have been baptized by a man.How can an adult woman who already knows what sex is, find her destined "fate" in a man who has no merit and is useless?Could it be that this is the doomed fate?Destiny, an indescribable word, is not something that can be used so lightly.But Katsuhiko felt that Yukiko's love for him was really destined. He was eager to consolidate the foundation of this destiny.