Chapter 18 Chapter 18 Desolate Loneliness

Ever since Kadowaki was summoned to the Metropolitan Police Department as a suspect, Mikiko had a premonition that the situation was serious.So after Kadowaki was detained, Mikiko didn't feel particularly shocked, but only felt a kind of irreplaceable despair. She saw the future faces of three young men one after another, and now her most beloved father had completely disappointed her.She loves her father, but it's a love that sees the depths of his father's heart.The perfect and tall image of her father as a typical man in front of her completely collapsed. Mikiko leaves her home alone to go to work in the company every day with a heart ravaged by the ruthless reality.Everyone in the company cast strange eyes on her.With the loss of Kadowaki's power, she also lost her status as a "guest", and it turned out to be so easy to change her status.

After the case was made public, Mikiko knew her father's privacy.Kadowaki said he killed for Mikiko, but Mikiko didn't believe that a cruel man who left his lover in the ice and snow could do anything good for his daughter. She loves her father, and even misses her father who killed someone more.However, in the current love, she no longer has the power and dignity of her father. She thinks that her father is also a person who thinks about himself and has low moral character. Ohara, who tried to get close to Mikiko when he had the umbrella of Kadowaki, was very timid.When he knew that the protective umbrella had fallen apart, he gradually became unscrupulous, unabashedly showing his shameful desire for Mikiko, his speech was vulgar, and his attitude became arrogant.

"Even if Ohara is the only man left in the world, I won't like him." Recently, when Mikiko saw Ohara, she felt a physical disgust.He bullies his subordinates and favors his superiors, and everything is centered on himself, and his subordinates are just ladders for him to climb up.He foolishly thinks that he is superior to others, and he is not aware of his humbleness at all, but thinks that he is very smart.When a person reaches this point, I am afraid that there is no cure. Ohara didn't notice that Mikiko hated him to the point of being unbearable, and still kept chasing her, his stupidity was really indescribable.

Ohara intends to soothe Mikiko who is grieving (this is his own speculation) over her father's destruction through his own persuasion. "I'm by your side, don't be afraid, cheer up." Ohara said as he put his arms on Mikiko's shoulders, and she suddenly felt sick as if she had eaten a fly. At the end of September, Kadowaki was prosecuted for homicide, and the Tokyo court decided to judge the Kuni case in Tokyo and the Murakoshi case in Kawasaki as related cases at the same time. The day before the prosecution coincided with Mikiko's public holiday, she went to the detention center to see Kadowaki, but Kadowaki refused to see anyone.She understood her father's feelings very well.She walked home with her head down, and as she walked, she suddenly raised her head and looked up at the sky, only to realize that today is a rare sunny day in autumn in Tokyo.The sky is clear, with cirrus clouds floating in the west that seem to have been brushed lightly.She couldn't help thinking of Houli Mountain, which she had visited two months ago, and thought to herself: "Where is the Alps?" The beautiful posture of Kashima gun and the tall and majestic posture of Wulong Mountain are really unforgettable.I thought: the sky must be blocked by the rolling hills in the west, and those high mountains that have left the love and hate of the world have not stopped weathering for a moment.

At this moment, Mikiko really wants to see Hexi. Hexi is like a simple employee, without any frills.He didn't have the greed of other men, so Mikiko went on a trip to the mountains with him for a few days without worry.But it's not that he is a man who makes women unaware of men, but that he doesn't have the sloppy energy of some men.He is the person who appears in front of Mikiko as a cheerful man. Although Hexi was the one who arrested her father, she doesn't hate him at all.She knew that the trips in the mountains that He Xi took with her had hastened her father's destruction, but she still missed those days very much, just like a person in a different place misses his hometown.

Mikiko is eager to see He Xi, even if it is to hear his voice.At present, only Hexi can relieve her desolate loneliness.He hung up the phone at the Police Department according to the number on Hexi's business card, and the people in the Metropolitan Police Department told her that Hexi was off today. The criminal police probably also rest on Sunday, and besides the case is over, he might be at home.Thinking of this, Mikiko opened the notebook, and there was a phone number of Kasai's family on it, which she wrote down in the notebook after she heard Kasai talk about it on the way back to Tokyo on the last trip.

"Here!" Mikiko seemed to have discovered some important target, her eyes sparkled.She found a pay phone and dialed the number. "This is Hexi's home." After the bell rang several times, a woman's voice came from the receiver.Mikiko thought that Hexi would come to answer the phone, but now she suddenly heard a woman's voice, and she was at a loss.She ignored the fact that Hexi had a wife. "Hey, hello!" The other party called, and at this moment, He Xi's nostalgic voice came from the receiver again: "Hey, child, let's go for a walk with Dad!"

Upon hearing this, Mikiko hung up the phone, but she never said a word.She realized that her loneliness had nothing to do with Hexi.Hexi has his family and his life, he is a good husband and father, and he and himself belong to two worlds. "Everything is in the past!" Mikiko put down the phone and said to herself.The good memories of that trip belong to the past, and the past is hard to look back on. Just as Mikiko was about to leave the phone, she suddenly remembered something.Her eyes lost their luster at this time, and there were shadows of despair and self-abandonment.She opened the address book and dialed another number. After a while, a man's voice came from the receiver: "I'm Da Yuan."

"Ohara, I, I'm Kadowaki, I want to meet you, and then take me anywhere." After she and the ecstatic Ohara set a meeting place, she left the phone. "From now on, I will get along with the man I hate the most." She looked up, and the fog in the air quickly dissipated.Just now, the wisps of cirrus clouds looked like combed, and now they floated overhead from the west like the feathers of birds. "Maybe the weather will turn bad." Mikiko thought, walking firmly into the crowd. At the end of September of that year, the Gunyue Development Plan Review Committee of the National Park Bureau of Welfare Province formally rejected the development plan.

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