Chapter 32 "Inspiration of Love - Bong Shi One"

"Inspiration of Love - Bong Shi One" The following lines of verse are at least provocative by him, Just like most of the lines of poetry in the past ten years have been allocated by him! It's okay, you sit down first, It's not easy these days, I think it's It's over, it's all over Out of this world, ethereal, I don't know where.as if there A lotus-like cloud embraces me, (with a lotus smile on her face) Embracing to far away places... Alas, I do not wish to come back again, People say liberation, so maybe it is! I'm like a cloud, a pure white, pure white cloud, a little

Weightless, the sun hugs me, I am light, light ball, Fly farther, fly farther; What burdens, all worries, Gratitude, pain, resentment, all are far away, It's you - please spit me, It’s an orange, it’s so sweet—— It's you, who are you to me! You don't know where to go: There is nothing but Xiaoguangli A hair of green hills, a strand of gossamer, A subtle dizziness; say at most That's all, if you want more My cloud can't bear it either, You, you must forgive, my enemy! ... It's okay, I'm not tired, let me say, I just want you to keep your eyes open, that's all,

Call pity and sympathy, not love, Bloom in your tears, I am intoxicated by their fragrance; At the end of you and me, I'm afraid, One meeting, allow me to be coquettish, Allow me to possess you completely, Just this sound, let your enthusiasm, Like the sun shining on a first-class ravine, penetrating my bleak consciousness, Take mine by your hand, just like that, You see your health, my weakness, Allow me to feel your warmth, feel you in my blood, Inspire my heart that will stop for a while, Leave an imprint of immortality: This is my one, only prayer... Well, I'll take another sip, it's beautiful,

Thank you.Now you listen to me. But what do I say, to this day, Everything has come to an end, I wait only for death, for darkness, I can still see you, cuddle with you, Talking like a lover, Because I can't say enough about that, Thy tenderness surrounds like a spring breeze, This is unexpected happiness to me, I can only thank you, (She closes her eyes.) All words are superfluous, because Words can only explain what can be explained, deeper meaning, greater truth, Friend, you are only in my eyes, in dry tear-stained eyes Accept. I am an ordinary person, I can't hope to be in a sea of ​​people

It deserves your instant attention. You are the wind: every wave Must feel your strength, Stimulate change from its heart, Every blade of grass must also Bow in your tracks, in Surprise in the trembling of the edge; But who can limit the future of the wind, He swept across the sea with a roar, Sweeping the fields like a liger, The present is infinite infinity, he How can I remember breathing A flower in the waves, a petal of grass? Far is the distance between you and me; Far, too far!If a night butterfly One day I will be able to fly out of the sky, Go gray in the flames of the stars

(I often think to myself) Then maybe I There is hope to be close to your time. Alas, infatuation, women have infatuation, You can't believe it, can you?sometimes I find it strange myself, Who gave the knot in my heart Marked?Why can't it be opened? The day I first saw you, You shine like a star, I'm just a dot in the crowd, A pinch of sand, but as soon as I see you, I felt a strange shock, hit all of my life, Like a flower in the wind, My heart shakes like a faint, Feeling a burning in the face, I feel happy, a magical The light swept across my eyes, I feel sad again, I want to cry,

Chaos has taken over my spiritual mansion. But I didn't understand at the time, I don't know this is falling in love! "Falling in love," wow!leading edge, Bad debt, what is it? But since then I have no peace, Poisoned, hypnotized, Teach the chains of fate to be locked, I can no longer hesitate: I love you! From now on, my petals Thoughts dye you, in waking hours, In the dream, I can't hide even if I want to, I look up, there is you in the blue sky, I open my mouth to sing, there is you in the melodious, I want to forget, I run to the distance, Go the other way and meet you again!

In vain is the gallantry of reason, for I'm not blind, I'm just crazy. But I love you, and I'm not selfish. I love you, but I can never get close to you. Love you, but never enjoy you. Even if you come to my side, I may look at you but you can't Not aware of my secret at all. I don't envy, I don't envy, because I know you'll always be mine, it can't get away from me as i Can't hide from you, other people's love I don't know, and don't need to know, Mine are my own creations, Just as the forest leaves are invisible Collect morning and evening sunlight, I also

Charged you invisibly. I can, I'm ready, to die No word, because I don't have to. Death, I have already seen it. That day the knot of love tied mine In my heart, I see death, that beautiful eternal world; death, I am willing to invest, because it It is the birth of light and freedom. Henceforth I despise my body, Not to mention the vanity of this world, I only hope for a more extended time to contain my breath, Bright stars are my eyes, My hair, so crystal clear, It is the clouds and clouds draped in the sky, The great wind is under my armpits Hovering between the brows of the chest, the waves

Rinse my shins and ankles, each Brilliant gods surge forth! There is an electric fire to be my thought again The sky sparks a dance of snakes and dragons, Thunder shook my voice, suddenly Woke up spring, awakened life. Inconceivable, oh, incomparable, The inspiration of love, the power of love! As the mighty sun of the rising sun sweeps away The mist of the field, the coming of love Nor can it be ordinary, humble and All vulgarity invades the soul, Its original green Pingyang. Didn't I say die?more fearless, No more doubts, no more grudges This body is like a rich man; I use my time bravely.

Take my time, I say?God, How many years have I lost! No friends, no hometown, I threw myself into that lonely deserted city, Learn to be an old farmer among old farmers, Wearing big cloth and straw sandals, Plant green mulberry, plant white kapok, Get up when the sky never breaks, Churning the mud with hands, wearing the sun on the head, I work, drenched in sweat, A zeal resists weariness; But gradually I feel interesting, Gathering a handful of grass is like a treasure, See my face in the mud, Smeared with mud, in the frank cloud shadow Don't show some shame before!nature is my enjoyment; I love Qiulin, I love the blowing of the evening wind, I love The trembling of the dry reed in the evening coolness, The half-broken red leaves fluttered to the ground, The crow's shadow invades the aperture of the slanting sun; Cuter is the bell of the distant temple Cooking and smoking together in Jiaoban Cottage Quiet evening!I'm done, I go back slowly, in the middle of nowhere There are flying insects chatting, in the sky Where there are stars, there is also light in my heart! At night I light a wax, Illuminate in the swaying red flame The only portrait on the wall, Jesus alone in the wilderness, (Because I don't have anything but your the one that hangs in my heart), In the dead of night I kneel down, Looking at the picture and saying my prayers, Sometimes I sing too, in a low voice, send out my warm feelings Like wisps of green smoke, it goes up to the sky. But who hears, who pities? You sit on the pinnacle of honour, Thousands of people applaud you, Me, accompany me in the cold, in the dark night, I was crying and knelt by the bed alone! One year, another year, another year, The new moon looks at the circle, the circle looks at the remnant, Hanyan forms characters, then disperses, Brightness grows on the tree I planted, Another gust of wind blows it to ashes. I got to know Ji Ji, Xingyue and The mystery of the night, the majesty of the sun, I know the earth, it can bring The miracle of growing beauty from a seed, I also know all existence, Reptiles, birds, grass by the river, If there is the life interest of the villagers, I will I also know that their simplicity and Really, I know them all. Follow up It's joy, it's love, don't be afraid The invasion of loneliness.those three years Although my skin has grown thick, Scorched black smoked on the face, peeled and engraved Hands and feet, I can only thank you: Because the way to light me has Love, the lamp of the gods, and again Poverty gives me energy, pushes me move forward, make me happy to bear Greater poverty, more danger. Are you wondering, I have that ability? The unthinkable is an inspiration to love! I heard that in ancient times there was a A filial daughter, she saved her father Dare to offend the majesty of the king, It was pure love that drove me to believe. I also heard that in medieval France There was a country girl named Joan of Arc, She suddenly took off one day her village clothes, lost her sheep, Wearing military uniform and holding a knife, leading One hundred thousand soldiers shouted "kill the thief", broke through the enemy's siege, Saved the whole country, that must be Love!Because only love can give Incomprehensible valor and daring, Only love can open eyes, To know truth, to know value, only Love lifts up the soul, Go forward, for a goal, Forget that fire can burn and water can flood. Just as there is no light and heat on this earth There would be no life, but for love, The source of the light and heat of the spirit, all bright amazing things Also can not have. Ah, I understand! I say "I understand" and I'm not ashamed: Because God knows how many years I have, A frail woman alone, Throw yourself into famine lands, Traveling thousands of miles, suffering from starvation and freezing and all indescribable The suffering is enough to write several books, for what?for what I put every elderly disaster victim Regardless of whether he is an old man or an old woman, Look at it like your biological parents, each child as himself blood, even if you can't give them Save me, at least take a few breaths the heat of sympathy to their face, call them from my hand feel someone totally in love The same kind living in purity? For what are you willing to suck Beggars don't even bother Eating, swallowing decay and filth like delicious ointment; willingly Can get drunk on the stench of dead bodies Working in a village of people is like What kind of treasure did you find?for What?For "I understand", friend, Do you believe it?I won't say, and I can't Say, because I have a heart Impossible love so release full of heat to the other direction, Maybe even if I don't know love Can do the same, who knows, but I Always thank you, because from you I gain consciousness of life and On the bright spot of my heart, rendition from the sinking of consciousness To a kind of spiritual clarity, and From this comes the gleam of wisdom To endless spiritual courage. Ah, if you could imagine me in A night watchman in a disaster! The same sky, the same starry sky, I alone in the wilderness or in, By the side of the bridge or a few clusters left The edge of the village fence with vines of dead flowers Looking up, when every sky Light has meaning for me, I drink their beauty as Music, the wonderful charm flows through To the internal organs and bones, frankly I accept this gift, do not feel timidity and shame, for I know Although unselfish labor is unavoidable Weary skin, but it wipes away Our spiritual aperture is like glass, Facilitate unhindered passage in daylight. Did I go too far?but I I have told my last Looking back, even if you are tired Listen to the end, because another chance never come again, look at my face Burning red like pomegranate blossoms; This is the last flame of life, Thank you for bringing sweet water from time to time Soak my throat, or else I must have been suffocated by gasping. Your "understanding" is my happiness. My hours are numbered, I can't help but hurry up! I just Said how I learned farming, how To stretch out in the devil's lair of famine A feeble struggling hand, I also spoke of the peace of my soul Don't feel guilty about the starry sky. But after all, I am human and weak, Soon my body fell ill, The poison of wind and rain infiltrates the subtleties, It turned into a frenzy.my brother Bring me home from my blindness, I'm surprised I didn't die that time, Maybe because there is another sin I must suffer in the world.them Ask me to marry, I can't shirk. I might rebel if I My love for you is second-class, But because mine is neither time nor space I can measure, I don't care In the fraction of a second, I did Bride, I am still a mother, though God forbids my flesh and blood to survive. For years I was a puppet, A heap of unruly dirt; I think of you sometimes, but this thought is as i thought The rosy glow of the western sky or a flower, No less and no more.Simultaneously Sickness, repeated replies, eroded My body, I am ready to die, With a beautiful secret in my arms, Deliver eternal light to Endless darkness.if i have a mother i may not bear Don't let her know, but she's already dead, I have no attachment; I Every time I think about it, I bear it He couldn't help but smile and rip the corners of his mouth. i think i die and put my Secrets turned into merciful storms, Turned into a long rainbow pointing to hope, Moss on fossilized stone, verdant drowned their obstinacy; turned into The dance of wings in the dark turns into Bird song in farming season; turned into water surface Splendid articles; turned into waves, Propagate the spirituality of the universe forever; The miserable green that turns into the moon is in every Add color to sleepy children's dreams; Turn into the wonderful music among the stars... The last transformation was unexpected; God told me to fail my ideal wish Leaked in fever delirium Pearl in my bosom!but I Never dreamed that you could come, flesh and blood you and flesh and blood me How could I be here in Russia Tao Ran leaning against each other, I said, you Listen, you listen, I speak.How strange. The gathering and parting of this life! right now I am Really, really dead, I want you Hold me like this till I go, until my eyes never open again, until I fly, fly, fly into space, scattered into sand, scattered into light, scattered into wind, O pain, but pain is short, is temporary; happiness is long, Love never dies: I, I want to sleep... Completed at 6:00 pm on December 25 ① Written on December 25, 1930, first published in the first issue of "Poetry Magazine" on January 20, 1931, signed by Xu Zhimo.