Chapter 4 Time in the Three Old Houses

Like a dream of Jiangnan, it will always fall in everyone's heart like a dream.How many fourteen travelers in a hurry meet in the mountains and rivers, and ferry from this embankment with willows and willows to the bank where fireworks are flying. Those who have been to this sentimental place, the originally indifferent and detached minds also began to have concerns.I can't help but fall in love with the leisurely feeling of drinking tea in the misty building, the laziness of taking a nap in the afternoon sun, the joyful face of a flower, and the romance of a streamer. We should believe that everyone comes to the world with a mission.No matter how ordinary he is, how insignificant, there will always be a corner that will put him aside, and there will always be someone who needs his existence.Some people live their lives without surprise or disturbance in their own small world, guarding simple security and happiness.In the turbulent secular world, some people perform the joys and sorrows of life with gorgeous gestures.

Although we all came to the world with our own missions, we are just passing through each other, and no one will stay forever for the other.In the end, it's all ashes to ashes, dust to dust, and the favors of the past have all been blown into clouds.When you are young, you spend this life recklessly, but when you are old, you hope to overdraw your next life.Looking back at the ups and downs of life, it is just a calm and breezy life. It is not that we are too obsessed with the past, but that the world of mortals is ever-changing. We must stagger and find a way of life that suits us in the bustling market.

I have seen a photo of Lin Huiyin when she was three years old. A little girl is standing in a deep courtyard, leaning against an old-fashioned rattan chair, looking ahead with clear eyes.There is a century-old story hidden in this courtyard, and the rattan chair does not know how many years have passed, but this little girl does not know the personnel, and does not know what kind of encounters will wait for her in the far away place.I always feel that a person's childhood should be innocent, without too much color, with simple and beautiful strokes, and only simple happiness to remember.

However, from the moment everyone is born, it means staying away from purity and starting to walk in the fireworks of the 15th century world of mortals.Chasing in the vast world, looking for the so-called home, in fact, people have never had a real hometown, they just temporarily send their bodies, watch a few springs, and wait a few times for the new moon to turn round. Staying is a moment, turning around is the end of the world. Lin Huiyin lived in Luguan Lane, Hangzhou before she was five years old. We have no way of finding out about that time, and she has no memory at all.In fact, everyone thinks that their childhood is worth cherishing. Although some people have experienced bitterness, in the vague memory, those scattered fragments will always be beautiful when they are stacked together.

When Lin Huiyin was five years old, he moved with his parents to an old house in Caiguan Lane.Here, although it was only a short three years, it left an indelible memory for this talented woman.When she was five years old, Lin Huiyin's great aunt Lin Zemin became her first teacher.Lin Zemin was a noble lady in the late Qing Dynasty. She was educated in a private school since she was a child, and she is proficient in poetry, poetry, piano, chess, calligraphy and painting. It was this demure and elegant aunt who taught Lin Huiyin how to read and write. In the morning dawn covered by the rays of the sun, in the dusk with low twilight, and in the night with a bright moon, the young Huiyin reads the words and sentences in the volumes of thread-bound books in his hands.Maybe she can't read the beautiful images, the poetic feelings, or the warm and cold stories, but she has since fallen in love with books, the faint fragrance of ink, and the beautiful sentences of beautiful words. There is also the elegant and melancholy of the lotus branch in the scroll.

People's dispositions are mostly innate. Some people are quiet in their bones, while others are restless in their blood.The so-called country is easy to change, nature is hard to change, that's it.But acquired enlightenment is also very important. If a quiet person is exiled in the hustle and bustle of the market, it is inevitable that he will not be moved by the glitz. And putting an impetuous person in a temple or forest can also be purified.Many people have slowly changed themselves in the imperceptible time, familiar and strange, strange and familiar. Lin Huiyin inherited elegant temperament, and she has a strong poetic flavor and elegance in her bones. Therefore, the enlightenment of Lin Huiyin by her great aunt Lin Zemin deepened her literary accomplishment, and planted a beautiful antecedent for her to become a generation of talented women in the future.Her hazy memory is filled with the ancient rhyme of Jiangnan water town.Daiwa powder walls, pavilions and water pavilions, as well as the melancholy smoke and rain in the bluestone alleys, and the faint return wind from the corner corridors.All these images have been precipitated by the long river of history and become the eternal scenery swaying on the branches of the south of the Yangtze River.

However, Lin Huiyin's childhood was not all wishful thinking.Maybe God is fair and gave her an elegant and excellent father, so she arranged for an ordinary mother.Huiyin's mother, He Xueyuan, was born in a merchant family in Jiaxing, Zhejiang. She married Lin Changmin at the age of fourteen and became her second wife.For Lin Changmin, who is good at poetry, calligraphy, and outstanding talent, this uneducated old-fashioned woman is really hard to impress him. It's fine if she doesn't know piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, but she grew up in a merchant family and lived a pampered life, so she married into the Lin family and was not good at housekeeping.Such an ordinary woman can neither get the warmth of her husband, nor the favor of her mother-in-law, Youshi.Until later, Lin Changmin married Cheng Guilin, a woman from Shanghai. Although this woman did not have much knowledge, she was young, beautiful, gentle, caring for her husband and teaching her children, and she was deeply loved by Lin Changmin.At this time, He Xueyuan's status plummeted even more, and her temperament also became cloudy and uncertain in a narrow corner.

Lin Huiyin still had a painful memory in her childhood, because her mother, He Xueyuan, was not favored by her father, so she complained and blamed her.At that time, Lin Huiyin lived with her mother in the backyard. Whenever she came back happily from the front yard, she would always hear her mother's endless scolding.At this time, Huiyin's heart will be intertwined with the conflicting feelings of love and resentment towards his parents.She loved the father who called himself a "genius daughter", but complained about his indifference to his mother.She loves her mother who gives her warmth and care, but blames her for keeping her father farther away in her complaints.

At a young age, Huiyin has a lot of burdens in his heart.She wants to be a smart and exquisite little talented girl in front of her grandmother and father, and a docile and obedient daughter beside her mother.Many times, she always sat alone on the wooden building, watching the clouds floating freely in the sky, and even understood the impermanence of white clouds.It was also at this time that she began to be sentimental, knowing that the seemingly perfect and harmonious life also hides a lot of helplessness. Until many years later, Lin Huiyin became a very famous poetess.She wrote a novel titled "Xiuxiu", which tells the story of a well-behaved girl, Xiuxiu, who lives in an unfortunate family.The mother was weak and incompetent, narrow and sickly, and the father ignored her, married a new aunt and gave birth to a child.Xiuxiu was mixed in the endless disputes and quarrels of her parents all day long, wandering in a life without warmth and love, and finally died of illness.In the bottom of Xiao Xiuxiu's heart, there are feelings of love and hatred for her parents, as well as her helplessness. In fact, all these are not the portrayal of Lin Huiyin's childhood life.

Now that I think about it, it may not be that Huiyin's father, Lin Changmin, is ruthless, but that there is no love between him and He Xueyuan.There are always fates that are destined to be missed in a person's life. The person who is with you may not be the cup of tea you want, but you still have to drink it with bitterness.So it's not anyone's fault to be bored with each other, it's just good luck to make people, so many idiots and resentful women have been born for no reason, and they can't do what people want. I thought that later, Lin Huiyin, who had tasted all the flavors of the world, would also understand the unspeakable helplessness in the meantime.Because of the several relationships she has experienced in her life, how has she ever had a real consummation, and how has she never had no regrets.She is a beautiful woman who is as beautiful as a butterfly. She also felt hesitant and melancholy in the face of feelings, but in the end she was able to take it in and out freely and knew how to choose.Therefore, she walks among the clouds with an elegant and dignified 18-year-old posture, which makes people look up to and miss her for a lifetime.