Chapter 27 Section 5 Confession

Piano teacher: (repentantly) It seems that it was a big mistake I made to bring him into the city, but I still thought that by doing that, I was repaying his life-saving grace and safeguarding morality and righteousness. Composer: There is nothing wrong with you bringing him into the city. Your mistake is hurting him in a unique way. Piano teacher: (angrily) If I can't fight back when I'm beaten or scolded, what else do I need? Composer: That's the terrible problem, you made him feel your extreme contempt for him.Especially after he lost his job, you gave him money again and again, which made him feel that his self-esteem was lost, so he wrongly chose the way to win back his self-esteem by obtaining money.Poor Ah San!

Piano teacher: (guilty) I didn't expect this ending. Composer: (shaking his head) Let me ask you, how many times has he given you money back and forth? Piano teacher: (thinking for a while) Probably nine times, or ten times. Composer: Not a small number every time? Piano teacher: Yes, not a small number. Composer: When you received the money, did you think about the source of the money? Piano teacher: (Timidly) Never thought about it... He said he earned his salary by working for others. Composer: He has neither culture nor technology. What kind of work can he earn so much money?Do you really have no doubts in your heart?

Piano teacher: (speech blocked) This... Composer: Don't hide it, don't be afraid to admit how well you planned. Piano teacher: (anxiously) I have no plans! Composer: (sneering) Please let me look into your eyes, let me see if your soul is crystal clear.You first irritated him with indifference and made him feel inferior, and then you stimulated him with money to drive him crazy. Like a brilliant psychologist, you calmly induced him and let him walk into the abyss step by step. Finally, you Seeing the bloody renminbi, the expected result appeared, like a ripe apple slamming to the ground.Then you get him drunk, take his evidence, and report to the police station.How beautifully you did it, how meticulously.On weekdays, you are like a virtuous wife who is submissive, but at critical moments, you become a hero who righteously destroys relatives. No one can say no to you...

Piano teacher: (weakly) You... you're talking nonsense... Composer: (sadly) Three days later, a gunshot on the execution ground, and a muddled life ended in such a muddled way. Don’t you think there’s a wave in your heart, and you still want to discuss our wedding?You sent our savior to the execution ground, your hands seemed clean, but your soul was already stained with Ah San's blood.Your IQ is so high that I shudder just thinking about it... Piano teacher: (hides face and weeps) I do it for love... Composer: (sighs) Love, how many crimes have misplaced your name!Since you are going to be pushed to a dead end, why did you marry him in the first place?

Piano teacher: (stops crying, eyes glow with hatred, and smiles eeriely) Are you asking me why I married him?Haha, you actually asked me why I married him!You should ask yourself, remember that when you were recommended to go back to the city to go to university, you made a vow to me when you parted.In the cave in the back mountain where scorpions crawl and bats fly, I sacrificed my virgin body for you.You asked me to wait for you, and I will wait for you. At first, you wrote once every three days, then once a month, and then like a yellow crane flying far away, there was no news.But my belly is getting bigger and I'm pregnant with your evil son.In that era, how much pressure would a young woman suffer if she became pregnant out of wedlock?What's more, I am a child of the five black categories. My father jumped off a building and my mother died of illness. I am a weak woman, like a bird with a wounded wing, with no branches to rely on.Ah San and his family don't dislike me, Ah San announced in front of everyone that the child in my belly is his.Not long after, I gave birth to your dead baby, bleeding profusely, it was Ah San who drew blood and saved me—Brother Ah San...I’m sorry for you—that’s it, I married him, where were you then?You were having sex with the woman who played the violin at that time, did you ever think that I was struggling on the verge of death?

Composer: (shuddering, tongue-tied) So, I'm glad from the bottom of my heart that you're in town. Piano teacher: Ah San saved your life once, but he saved mine twice, so I knew I didn't love him, so I sent him into the city to repay my kindness.I thought I had lost all my love for you, but when I saw you at the concert, the feelings in my heart revived, and you never refused to come, you put me in the backstage of the theater... Composer: I know that I am ashamed of you, so I sincerely wish you and Ah San happiness. Piano teacher: (sarcastically) Yes, what a noble, morally perfect person you are.You know that I love you, but you firmly oppose my divorce from Ah San.

Composer: I have already harmed you, how can I harm Ah San again, this kind and good man. Piano teacher: Have you ever loved me? Composer: Of course. Piano Teacher: Then why did you marry the violinist? Composer: You can call me immoral, but I think it's because I'm young and ignorant. Piano teacher: Did you still love me when I proposed to divorce Ah San and marry you under the moon? Composer: Never loved you like I did then. Piano teacher: But you rejected me and gave me moral lectures. Composer: I really don't want to hurt Ah San! Piano Teacher: What a hypocrite you are.It was you who pushed me to the brink, and you are the real director of this scene.How deep you are, open a moral court like a justice, and conduct reasoning exercises like a great detective.You are not only a composer, you are also a logician, every detail and penetrating, you call me a murderer, you are at least my accomplice, I owe Ah San half life, you not only owe Ah San half life, You still owe my son a life, you still owe me a life - I may live, but only in flesh, my heart is dead...